Bellaryna's Journey

[Bellaryna]

Hi Dawn

I'm pleased that you have been having some sunshine.

It sounds like you have been getting really exhausted - try to find a bit of time for you because total exhaustion has a way of making us ill to make us take a rest.
Man that is an understatement!!! Your right in that I have been letting myself get to tired. And of course as I have said before when I get too tired I eat. Seems to me that since I know what my issues are that I should be able to get a handle on them. But if I could do that I don't think that I would be overweight! LOL
It sounds good that there is an option for some different work at the YMCA that would give you more time with the family. I hope that it all works out for you.
I think that it will work out really well. Especially as I am just basically waterlogged from being in the water so much. Besides that I figured that it would probably motivate me even more to workout up in the fitness center if I am already there. This way all I would have to do is clock out from "work" and get to it.

I'm sorry that the surplus pounds are hanging on. I think that many of us are looking forward to the happy day when we will once again see our low weight on the scale (never mind head for a new low).
I just need to gain the upper hand in this "binge" that I have been letting myself go on. I know what I need to do, now it is just a matter of doing it.
It does sound like coffee is a culprit for you. I hope that you manage to tame that demon that makes you drink it - ignoring the water that saintly Dawn knows is best.
Saintly?!?!? Me?!? LOL Thanks M I needed a good laugh!
It sounds so like my own struggle - Margaret vs the honey shreddies.
I like that. Sounds like the title to a DC comics. I imagine the cover of the comics show the shreddies standing there with and evil look on their faces while you Magnificant M stares back with both hands on your pedometers ready to do battle! LOL
I just weighed and put some more on a plate and then poured them back into the box - determined that I had eaten enough of them already today.
I just need some of your determination M and I will definately win this battle.

Take care
Love
Margaret

Hi Dawn.

You'll dip back down..You're a strong - beautiful lady, and you can do anything.
Awe Thanks Sweetie! That really makes me feel good. I hope that you are feeling better. And that you have an equally wonderful weekend.
Happy TGIF and have a Great Weekend!

I told your MIL the same thing about her place in PR!
Maybe she'll take both of us! Wouldn't that be a blast? Woohoo!!

Last night was a blast (well after all the exercise that is.) I'm sure I burned just as many cals sitting at Duke's as I did all night with Kelly. You really had me cracking up!
Just think if we had only ordered H2O how many more calories we would have really burned off! LOL

Oh and can't wait 'til tomorrow night. It will be so much fun, just the 4 of us! I can only imagine. And I'm sure somehow the guys will try to wiggle in the gun n' knife show...LOL

There is no way we are going to let them wiggle their way into the gun and knife show!!!! NO WAY! LOL
It'll be a blast. Can't wait.

 

[SweatPea]

Originally Posted by SweatPea
I told your MIL the same thing about her place in PR!
Maybe she'll take both of us! Wouldn't that be a blast? Woohoo!!

Oh that would be fun!!

Last night was a blast (well after all the exercise that is.) I'm sure I burned just as many cals sitting at Duke's as I did all night with Kelly. You really had me cracking up!
Just think if we had only ordered H2O how many more calories we would have really burned off! LOL

Let's not dwell on such things...

Oh and can't wait 'til tomorrow night. It will be so much fun, just the 4 of us! I can only imagine. And I'm sure somehow the guys will try to wiggle in the gun n' knife show...LOL

There is no way we are going to let them wiggle their way into the gun and knife show!!!! NO WAY! LOL
It'll be a blast. Can't wait.

I told my dh what your dh said and he was like, "oh really?" LOL I think he is enamored with the idea. But I told him there was no way!!

So we going to catch a flick?

 

[Bellaryna]

Well still floundering around in my unmotivated state.
Pretty sure that maybe it has something to do with my TOM.
Which in and of itself is absolutely not a good enough excuse. I am disgusted with myself.
My behavior is really reminding me of Paul in the the book of Romans. To paraphrase:
Knowing the things that I should not do but yet I still do them.

Today was a semi-busy day. I headed over to the Y this morning to do my class. Which by the way appears to be dwindling in attendees day by day. I am not sure if it is due to my attitude lately or more to the fact that as the weather gets nicer outside the attendance at the Y tends to slow down. So much so that usually in the summer months they don't even offer 1/2 the classes that they normally would. Since most people are either gone on vacations all the time or just to busy with all their summer activities.
Anyway I got my suit on and headed out to the pool only to find out that they had (the girl in charge of the deck in the morning) found someone to replace me on Monday's. Which I am most happy for since let's face it I am never sure just how many hours of sleep I will have on any giving Monday. But it would have been nice if someone could have told me about it so that I wouldn't have wasted time going there this morning. I could have laid back down and got in a decent nap.
So that blew the morning all to poo.
I had about an hour to myself in the afternoon.
But once the kids got out of school it was GAME ON!!!
It seemed as if everyone had to be somewhere all afternoon. And if it wasn't that they all had to be there at the same time then it was one appointment right after the other.
I didn't get a chance to sit down and relax until 8pm. By that time I had already eaten 3 1/2 slices of pizza and 2 cups of coffee/espresso.
And of course I didn't have any form of exercise today or any water.
~It has been over an hour since I wrote the beginning of this journal entry~
It's funny that I would be writing this right now. Dh wanted to watch another one of the Financial Peace videos that we have been doing every week so I had to stop in the middle of my journaling.
The guy who is teaching the video Dave Ramsey, said an interesting thing. And it really hit home with me. Here lately I don't think that I have been "feeling" very happy. I have noticed it on and off. Mostly when I haven't had any time to myself.
He said that Happiness can be like a big bully on the playground of life. It will stand right there in front of you and draw a line in the dirt and dare you to cross it. Telling you that once you get to whatever you think it is that you want, whatever it is that you think is going to make you happy, once you have it Happiness will move that line 3 feet away from you and taunt you again. Telling you that you must have this or that to be happy.
This is the interesting quote that he said
"Happiness is where you are right now........you just need to take hold of it."
I think that for so long I was "working" towards when my MIL would get here that now that she is here there is nothing to work towards.
There is no far off surprise person to shock with how I will look in a few months. No one who hasn't seen me recently and already know how I look.
I think that without even realizing it I gave up.
I gave up.
Sad actually. All along I have been saying how I was only ever doing this for me. And I know that it definately started out like that. But as time went on and people kept the compliments flowing in I felt confident about myself. And now that things have slowed down and so have the compliments.........well I let my motivation be wrapped up in what other people thought.
And I just plain and simply gave up.
Because even though I was hitting new numbers I wasn't ever really happy with where I was at.
I was always looking for the next 5 pounds.
I wasn't enjoying the fact that this is the healthiest that I have been in I can't remember. All I kept doing was beating myself up for not getting "to the next level".
So from now on I am going to be happy. I am going to take joy in where I am at. Even with a 4 pound gain (at least I think it is about that much) I am still at a better place then I have been in the last 15 years. I am going to start loving where I am today so that I can enjoy and love where I am tomorrow.
Because regardless of anything there is joy for me right now being 190 pounds. Because that is a loss of 40 pounds! Hard fought and won pounds!
They didn't get there over night and they certainly won't go away overnight either.
So here is to a new attitude.
Not starting tomorrow because that would be a cop-out. Starting right now! At 11pm at night! Today!
I will take hold of my happiness.

 

[bikinibound]

I like that. Sounds like the title to a DC comics. I imagine the cover of the comics show the shreddies standing there with and evil look on their faces while you Magnificant M stares back with both hands on your pedometers ready to do battle! LOL

LOL!!

I agree with Margaret that you definitely need to get more sleep. Not only is it important for your weight loss, but it's important for your overall health. Make it a priority.

I find your thoughts about why you've given up interesting. You aren't enjoying the now enough, whereas I have been too complacent with the now--sort of resting on my laurels..lol.

 

[Bellaryna]

LOL!!

I agree with Margaret that you definitely need to get more sleep. Not only is it important for your weight loss, but it's important for your overall health. Make it a priority.

I find your thoughts about why you've given up interesting. You aren't enjoying the now enough, whereas I have been too complacent with the now--sort of resting on my laurels..lol.

Thanks for stopping by!
I know I need more sleep. In fact I should have gone to bed about an hour ago. But this is about the only time here lately that I can get on the 'puter without having someone NEED me for something. Hence the reason why I have been so sporadic lately when it comes to updating.
As for sitting on my laurels I am sure that there is a bit of that in there as well. And the fact that everyday puts me at an image that I can't remember seeing in such a long time that I have been a bit complacent.
I am sure that with continued weight-loss I will continue to "look better".
But when one can't remember physically what that looks like it is rather easy to just sorta sit and take stock. LOL
But now that we are both determined to get up off of our Laurels something will finally change for the both of us.

 

[hickgurltx]

Omigosh, I snorted so loud re: the comic comments.

Way To Go Dawn for the 40 lb. LOSS!

Way To Go for your statements in the last paragraph as well!



We will reach our goals one step and one day at a time.

<3 Luv Ya!

 

[bikinibound]

I hope you are getting plenty of rest (but not the kind that involves laurels).

Yup, it's a good thing you can't make it tomorrow, b/c my feet are soo not recovered yet..lol. You would've had to push me around in a wheelchair.

 

[hickgurltx]

lol Kimberly.

<3 Thinking of ya Dawn!

Hope ta chat w/ya tomorrow sweetie!

 

[Omega]

Hi Dawn

I imagine the cover of the comics show the shreddies standing there with and evil look on their faces while you Magnificant M stares back with both hands on your pedometers ready to do battle! LOL

I found this so funny and so true. Yet again today I have had too many honey shreddies.

I am pleased that you have come up with an understanding of the emotional side of your weightloss situation. You have to focus on the achievements that you have to date. It is brilliant that you have the healthiest body that you have had in 15 years. Forty pounds is a lot of weight. Next time you lose track of how much - look at the butter shelf at what 80 half pound packs of butter looks like. Imagine it added to your body. At the gym - lift something weighing 40 pounds. You were carrying that 24/7. This is no minor accomplishment.

We all want more of course - but it is brilliant that you are now going to find happiness in the things already done.

If you honestly feel that surprising people by your weightloss accomplishments would motivate you towards more - there is nothing to stop you from finding new people to impress. The fact is that if you meet new people there is nothing to stop you from turning the conversation towards how much thinner, fitter and healthier you are now. You could carry your before photo with you - because there really is a huge difference. I suppose that I am just so focused on my project that it is a struggle for me not to mention it to someone. I am currently trying hard not to mention it to a group of people and it is pure torture!

Take care
Love
Margaret

 

[SweatPea]

I gave up.
Sad actually. All along I have been saying how I was only ever doing this for me. And I know that it definately started out like that. But as time went on and people kept the compliments flowing in I felt confident about myself. And now that things have slowed down and so have the compliments.........well I let my motivation be wrapped up in what other people thought.
And I just plain and simply gave up.
Because even though I was hitting new numbers I wasn't ever really happy with where I was at.
I was always looking for the next 5 pounds.
I wasn't enjoying the fact that this is the healthiest that I have been in I can't remember. All I kept doing was beating myself up for not getting "to the next level".
So from now on I am going to be happy. I am going to take joy in where I am at. Even with a 4 pound gain (at least I think it is about that much) I am still at a better place then I have been in the last 15 years. I am going to start loving where I am today so that I can enjoy and love where I am tomorrow.
Because regardless of anything there is joy for me right now being 190 pounds. Because that is a loss of 40 pounds! Hard fought and won pounds!
They didn't get there over night and they certainly won't go away overnight either.
So here is to a new attitude.
Not starting tomorrow because that would be a cop-out. Starting right now! At 11pm at night! Today!
I will take hold of my happiness.

I know just where you are coming from. It always seems that we reach for things to make us happy whether it is material things or idea things (such as weight loss.) I am the same way. Always wanting things, but then once I get them I'm not as happy as I thought I would be.

I actually read an article last night in a magazine that said basically the same as the finance guru did. And one piece I pulled out of it was to focus on a positive that happened that day. Whether it was your child telling you you are the best mommy ever or if someone smiled at you out of the blue (which was also another tip, to just smile at strangers and such...you know promoting happiness will make you a happier person.)

 

[Bellaryna]

Thanks girls for stopping by to cheer me on.
Sorry that I went MIA there for a day and a half. Apparently I caught a stomach bug from my dear little man. Lovely thing that he has learned how to share so well. Now if I could only get him to share the gameboy with his sister! LOL
I ended up losing 4 pounds between yesterday and this morning. Currently at this very moment I have no idea what I weigh. This morning I was down to 187.8, and I did say last week that I was going to change my ticker to whatever popped up on the scale on Wednesday. So I guess it was good timing to have a stomach bug. Because it surely put me back on track after my 2 week binge.
I still haven't gotten in enough water today, more from the fear of getting sick again rather from not wanting to. Had a bad case of dysentry about 5 years ago, yeah the 3rd world kind!, so I tend to get a but nervous everytime I get a stomach bug. The docs have always told me that since I went so long with it last time, 3 weeks, that I actually did damage to my body and it would be easier for me to catch it again. We had no health ins at the time and I just assumed that it would pass eventually. By the time I made it to the hospital I had lost 16 pounds, remember this was in 3 weeks!, and they had to pump in about 10 pounds of fluids just to get me back to proper hydration levels. They told my dh that had he not brought me to the hospital when he did that I would most likely would have been arriving there in an ambulance later that night. As I would have probably had a heart attack due to my body being so depleted of fluids. That is a very scary thing to be told when you are only 29. So like I said I get a bit leery of stomach bugs now. I actually kept the dumb virus alive last time because I kept "feeding" it. Go figure. It took some pretty pwerful drugs to knock it outta my system. And I don't ever want to go thru that again. Heck I wouldn't ever wish that on my worst enemy!
I didn't eat much of anything yesterday and barely anything at all today. i had to take my mom to a doctor's appt today that could not be rescheduled for any other time. So even though I felt like crap, literally, I had to drive her 40 minutes away at 8 this morning. And since we were going to the "Big City" as compared with the dinky town I live in I offered MIL to come along. Since I know how important it is to her psyche to get out of the house. So even though I felt like I could have fallen over at any given moment we spent the whole of the day shopping at various places. MIL was very sweet in that she bought me a very cute shoulder bag. You know the kind that you would use for stuffing lots of stuff into. I think that she felt bad that I was taking her out and about when I didn't feel so good. I did eat some soup and a salad at Chili's and a bit of rice here at home but other than that I have had nothing else today.
Turns out Kimberly that it was a Godsend that my mom had her appointment today. Because between your feet and my stomach/hinney-inney end we would never have made it today! LOL
Well I am starting to get the sweaty light headed thing again so I think that I am going to sign out for now.
I'll catch up with you all tomorrow.
At least I better be able to. At least I didn't get sick over the work weekend. I hate using up my sick time for petty things. I would much rather save it for a time that is really nescessary. Not for running to the loo every 20 minutes!

 

[Bellaryna]

Well today was waaaaay better than yesterday.
I woke up feeling ever so much better. Was busy like a little bee going all around the house cleaning things, doing laundry and making cookies for my daughters function at school tonight.
Dd herself may not go to the function as she came home complaining her tummy was hurting. Sounds to me like the bug has made its way onto the next family member.
Got up and weighed in this morning at 186.0!!! Woohoo! I am back down to my almost original low weight. Lowest was 185.4. So for sure the bugs timing was good. Not that having a bug is ever a good thing. But getting me back to being motivated was going to be difficult at best if I couldn't get that scale to go down.
I did eat a few cookies, okay 4 to be exact LOL, but up to that point I had only had about 600-700 calories for the day. So if I just wolf down a nice salad for dinner tonight I should be okay on the over all calories for the day.
Was planning on taking a nice walk today. But inconveniantly I found a tick on my ds's head and had to basically rip it off of him this afternoon. Thankfully it wasn't in too deep but of course it traumatized him! LOL
Making him feel that it would be just too much to walk. So I went with it. LOL Better to have a happy camper walking with me rather than a grumpy bunny. LOL
So since dd has her thing tonight (which it is still to be seen if she will make it to it or not) I won't be able to make it to class tonight. Even if she doesn't go I still can't go to class. Hubby has a function tonight at the chuch and there is no way I would ever take a sick child to the daycare at the YMCA. I hate it when people do that. Having absolutely no concern for other peoples kids.
Well that is my update for the day. Not much else happened. Like I needed anything else to happen! haha
Hope everyone had a great day! I know I did. LOL

 

[bikinibound]

Dd herself may not go to the function as she came home complaining her tummy was hurting. Sounds to me like the bug has made its way onto the next family member.

And you said your son didn't share with his sister...lol

Sorry to hear you've been down with the nasties. Glad you're feeling better, though.

That's great news that you're back down to nearly your lowest weight.

I could just see us at Shipshe yesterday--me hobbling along, and you racing to the bathroom every 20 min.

 

[Bellaryna]

And you said your son didn't share with his sister...lol
Yeah I was thinking the same thing after she came home. Now we only need to hope that it doesn't get shared right back!

Sorry to hear you've been down with the nasties. Glad you're feeling better, though.

That's great news that you're back down to nearly your lowest weight.
Ya to bad it took a bad case of the nasties to get back to it. But let's hope that I can at least maintain it. Thanks for the good vibes.
I could just see us at Shipshe yesterday--me hobbling along, and you racing to the bathroom every 20 min.

Racing's the right thing! Especially since the bathrooms are very few and far between! Ha!

 

[Bellaryna]

Well the long weekend is over. Or I guess the short one depending on the view that you take of it.
Since I worked 3 of the 4 days and was only able to actually enjoy about 1/2 of today (the other 1/2 was spent catching up on sleep) I guess it could be said to be a short weekend.
The weekend actually started out fairly well.
MIL had never really been to a garage sale before. I guess in Puerto Rico the people there are very picky about their stuff. Brand new is the ONLY way to go. Unless of course someone wants to give it to you for free. Then whatever "it" is, is good enough. They don't like to pay for used things. Which is kinda odd in that there are so many people on the island who are so poor I would think they would be happy to have anything. No matter if it were used.
So MIL thought it was wonderful to see such "wonderous" things and at such cheap prices. She does not have a problem with getting used things. Though she is a bit stuck on name brand items. So given 1/2 a chance she will always go with the name.
She got a vaccuum for $5. And man let me tell you she was like a kid in a candy store over that one! LOL
I was pretty excited as I found 2 pair of jeans and 3 pair of shorts ~ALL SIZE 16!!!~ for a net cost of $6!!! And they all fit. Can't tell you how good it felt to try them all on at home and have one after the other fit. It was somewhat surreal.
Let's see what else happened this weekend..............hhhmmmmmmm......well Dh had gotten me a ride in a glider at our local airport. For those of you who may not know what that exactly means it is basically a small airplane with no engine or propellors. A pilot sits in a seat behind you controlling everything while you sit in the front seat, which by the way is the best spot for viewing everything. There is a small Cessna plane that pulls you up into the sky and when you are up high enough, high enough being determined by how much you spent LOL, they pop the rope that is holding the glider and plane together and from there on out you glide on the air currents.
Depending on the weather and the temp outside you could be up there for 2 hours!!! I have gone one other time when dh got it for me as a b-day present.
Of course that time I was considerably bigger and the flight didn't last nearly as long as I expect this one to. I was suppose to go up today but due to some stormy weather coming in I have to postpone it for later this week.
I will certainly be on here telling you guys all about it when it is over.
Okay what else....?
Oh yeah! I remember. I think it was about a week and a half ago that I was saying how I felt like I had lost most of my motivation blah, blah, blah.
Well today while I was at the store I needed to pick up some dogfood. Since I was in a hurry I reached down and grabbed up the biggest bag that they had. Barely noticing that the poundage on it was 44.1 pounds. Though it is funny. I mean .1 pounds......what is that like 3 extra kernals of food. Am I really getting that .1?
Anywho I digress. LOL
So I start walking back to the front of the store with the 44.1 pound bag of dogfood slung up and over my right shoulder. The more steps I take the heavier that stupid bag of food got. Then it suddenly hit me! That was very nearly the same amount of weight that I had lost!!!! AMAZING!
How can it be that when I weighed that much more that I couldn't notice it so much.
I felt like I should take every piece of dogfood out of that bag and glue it to my butt and gut and then I would have a really good feel for how much I use to weigh.
As it was I got home and told dh that I had a surpise for him. As he came around the car I handed him the bag of food. He nearly dropped it! When I told him that it weighed the same amount that I had lost he was very impressed.
Oh and the last thing.
Somehow or other I am not sure how but I did something to my left shoulder. It hurts soooo badly. It actually feels like the shoulder is not where it should be. If that makes any sense. For the most part it doesn't bother me to much. But given the right motion or movement and it brings a sharp cry of pain and tears to my eyes.
Dh is insisting that I go to see the doctor tomorrow. As the doc knows that I have re-occurring problems with my shoulders due to the nature of my old job. He has suggested that if it kept up he would give me some cortisone shots straight in to the shoulder.
The whole thought of that scares the dickens right out of me. I don't like needles at all!!!!
And I have heard that even though in the end it all works out for the good, that it hurts really badly when they are putting the needle in.
So I guess I will have to weigh the one pain against the other.
Especially since as it stands there is no way that I could do my classes at the YMCA. I don't even think that could swim if I had to. Especially since swimming involves a total rotation of the shoulder.
Well that is basically my weekend.
Not very exciting I know.
But that is my life.

 

[Bellaryna]

Got up this morning back in the low 190's.
I can't be upset at the number as yesterday was a bad eating day.
I didn't even get up until 11am and then spent 3 hours! at the grocery store with MIL and the 2 brats I call children. About drove me crazy I tell ya! Okay so they really aren't brats but I can't stand to dawdle around in the store. Especially if I have my kids with me. I got me a list and I go in, get it done and head back out as fast as possible.
Not when MIL is with me. She shops for groceries like she shops for clothes. Has to touch everything! LOL And look it over like a dozen times.
So by the time I got outta the store my day was shot.
I was still tired from working the weekend and my shoulder was killing me.
Add into that the ice cream I ate along with the pita chips, cookies and whatever else I could lay my hands on and you can see how my day went.
*Sigh*
It happens everytime I get overly tired, so I should see it coming and be able to head it off at the pass.
But haven't quite got it all figured out yet.
Shoulder is killing me today. Called the doc to see if I could get in but of course the only appt they had available was tomorrow. Right in the middle of the afternoon when I will be out cavorting the Amish countryside with Kimberly aka Bikinibound.
I had to cancel last week due to my mom's doctor appt. So I am not cancelling this week.
The soonest they can get me in is next Monday. Hopefully my arm doesn't fall off before then! LOL
Right now I feel a bit like Buzz Lightyear.
You know when he is having tea and he is waving his arm around in the air telling Woody that he is Mrs. Nesbit?
Yeah that is me. I feel like my arm could just fall right outta it's socket.
It's pretty painful.
Wish I knew exactly what I did to deserve all this pain.
Catch ya'll later.

 

[Bellaryna]

Well I am no longer working in the pool. Just got to waterlogged I guess. So now I am up in the Fitness Center. Except for occasionally I will be helping out in the ladies circuit room aka the curves room. You know where you go from one station to another.
I went up today and learned how to run the ropes. Seems easy enough. Of course they don't want us calling it Curves so I will have to be careful with that.
Shoulder is feeling a bit better. Still sore but not nearly like it was this morning.
About around 12:30-1:00 I felt my shoulder give a pop. Heck I even heard it. Suddenly I was able to rotate it again. Without the pain to end all pains! Though it does still hurt.
I still am not sure what was wrong with it. I have to guess that maybe it was like a dislocation or something. Kinda like when you jam your thumb and the only thing that will help is to have someone pull on it. But at least now it does not feel like it is going to fall out of the socket.
Unfortunately Kimberly and I won't be able to get together tomorrow. Due to the holiday here all her work for the week was shoved back one day. Effectively making tomorrow a work day.
So we are going to shoot for next Wednesday.
Hopefully it will all workout.
Well that is about it for the night so I am going to sign off.
Catch ya later.

 

[bikinibound]

I feel bad about cancelling, and having to get off the phone so abruptly. I actually wasn't even meant to answer the phones, but the guy who was supposed to, was yakking on his cell the whole time, so I told him I'd get it (as his call was business related..lol). I hope that now we're not meeting up tomorrow that you can get in to the doc tomorrow instead of waiting. That shoulder sounds painful and should be looked at asap. Cortizone shots might be painful, but a short burst of pain is better than constant pain, imo. My dad had those injections in his knee, and he said it didn't really hurt.

 

[hickgurltx]

Hi ya Dawn.

So sorry things have been difficult.

I hope your shoulder will feel better quickly!

lol re: water logged..

Hope you like working in your new area.

I hope you have a Goal Reachin' Thursday!

 

[Bellaryna]

Thanks Kimberly and Stacey for swinging on by and dropping me words of encouragement!
The shoulder is feeling a bit better though it would seem that I am somehow reinjurying it in some of the movements that I am making.
I spoke with Kelly last night at the Y and she said that she thinks it may be my Rotator Cuff.
Of course being the net-nerd that I am I came home and looked up rotator cuff injuries, symptoms of and causes.
And I think that she is right.
Even though Kimberly and I didn't get together yesterday I still couldn't get into the doctor's office. Grrrr
Usually I can get right in with no problems.
As long as I don't put alot of weight on to it, it seems to be okay. But then there are those moments when for no apparent reason my shoulder will "pop" and oh baby does that hurt!
Actually got "stuck" in the tub the other night as I couldn't put any weight at all on it without it feeling like it was gonna rip outta the socket. After some fancy finaggling I was able to get out but by that time it was hurting so badly I could barely dry off. Ended up taking a pill for muscle spasms just so I could sleep. *sigh*
So needless to say I haven't been doing much of anything as far as excerise goes. Heck yesterday it popped while I was on my cell phone in the car. ?????
My only real concern I have right now is trying to make it thru the weekend at work w/o it hurting to badly.
Since the nature of my job requires me to constantly be moving that arm in a rotating circular pattern I fear that it will be hurting.
Last night was my first night "working" (if that is really what you can call it LOL) in the Ladies only Fitness Center. Talk about BORING!!! All I did for 3hours was read a book. A good book at that. But still it's not like I was all cuddled up in my favorite chair. That and I had to listen to this oldies CD that was playing for most of the whole time. Blah. I don't mind oldies music but not 3 hours worth! LOL
In that whole period of time I think like only maybe 7-8 women came up there.
Oh well it pays for my membership. And I was told that if I wanted to I could run thru the circuit while I was up there. So at least there will be that after my shoulder is better.
Weighed in this morning at 190.2~
Not proud of that but at least it wasn't a surprise. Here lately it seems that I have been really struggling with my eating. Can't seem to figure it out. Everyday I tell myself that I am going to stick to it and everyday I blow it.
And then you add in no exerise right now and it is no wonder that I am up a bit more than normal.
I know that it would come off fast enough if I just could buckle down.
It's getting to the buckle down part that seems to be hard!
Well I need to pick up my kids from school. And get things around for supper.
So I will try to check back in tomorrow before I head off to work. Can't tonight..........it's the big LOST Finale! So I will be effectively rooted to my sofa for 2-3 hours getting in my last big tv fix for the season. LOL
At least after tonight there won't be anything else on TV that I want to watch all summer.
Ciao