Becoming a Beauty Queen in 2013 ;)

Xenon, why are you so surprised? Of course you are beautiful! After all you are a beauty queen!! ;)
And you know what it's just gonna escalate even more this year!!! Can you possibly take more beauty ? :svengo:

I had an awesome gym in Spain - it was on the beach - the view was breathtaking. I loved the classes, the machines were new. There was a huge pool and sauna with sea view!!! oh!! how i miss it!!!
Enjoy your gym!! it's good thing you like it - it's more likely you go often!!

Have a good day sweetie!
 
That's awesome that you have such a nice gym! I seriously miss having a decent gym... Only a few months till we move though and I'll be at it again, YAY!! Wade and myself got PT while we were on holidays and we were super impressed with the trainers there so will be going back there! PTs are great (if you find a good one!) When I went with Wade he had never exercised in his entire life (and he's in his early 30s!) and he loved it. Sure it was freakin hard and he was sore after, and I'm not sure how much he would have enjoyed if I wasn't there lol, but he didn't miss a session.

I have no doubt you're every bit as stunning as you saw yourself- You have such an amazing personality and attitude I'm sure that your outside positively glows!! I think it's a really positive thing seeing yourself that way- this journey is so much harder if there's a large amount of self loathing involved. Focussing on things you know are working for you is healthy, it's big steps in the right direction! (Me talking from experience, I spent so many years hating myself-mainly through my late teens- and now I just wonder why? It's so counter-productive!)
 
Sorry for no update in a long time guys and ladies :D I have been so busy and I actually wrote a long post last night but somehow it got deleted right before I posted it. So I lost only 1.2 lbs last week which was WAYYY behind all of my teammates. I am determined not to let that happen again. Luz and Justina thanks so much you guys are so special to me. Yesterday I was having the worst day ever and your words cheered me up. I have to run again but will be back to reply more later *hugs*
 
Congrats on being a 9 or 10. I would say I was an before the weight loss, but now I think I'm up to about a ?. Which is ironic since not eating pies helped me get there. If I can get up to the first Feigenbaum constant, I'll be happy. Notice how all of these numbers are irrational, like me.
 
Hey sweetie, glad we could cheer you up!
By the way your weight loss of the week is not bad - considering - you had a cheat day!

Next week is gonna be better!:hurray:
 
Justina said:
Xenon, why are you so surprised? Of course you are beautiful! After all you are a beauty queen!! ;)
And you know what it's just gonna escalate even more this year!!! Can you possibly take more beauty ? :svengo:
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No I can't actually haha....but seriously I worry about how I am going to handle being thin and beautiful:svengo: and for much of my life I sort of keep myself fat when I start losing more weight. Girl I have ISSUES!
Justina said:
I had an awesome gym in Spain - it was on the beach - the view was breathtaking. I loved the classes, the machines were new. There was a huge pool and sauna with sea view!!! oh!! how i miss it!!!
Enjoy your gym!! it's good thing you like it - it's more likely you go often!!

Have a good day sweetie!
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This sounds absolutely beautiful. It reminds me of the place my cousin got married at--a historic hotel. There was another room beside the bridesmaid's room which was shaped like a circle and it was on the second floor overlooking the ocean. I cannot even describe how beautiful it was in that room. There were windows all around and it was already decorated for a wedding. It looked like it was floating over the ocean. To be in a gym like that must be amazing--especially if there is yoga involved.
luzdafuzz said:
That's awesome that you have such a nice gym! I seriously miss having a decent gym... Only a few months till we move though and I'll be at it again, YAY!! Wade and myself got PT while we were on holidays and we were super impressed with the trainers there so will be going back there! PTs are great (if you find a good one!) When I went with Wade he had never exercised in his entire life (and he's in his early 30s!) and he loved it. Sure it was freakin hard and he was sore after, and I'm not sure how much he would have enjoyed if I wasn't there lol, but he didn't miss a session.

I have no doubt you're every bit as stunning as you saw yourself- You have such an amazing personality and attitude I'm sure that your outside positively glows!! I think it's a really positive thing seeing yourself that way- this journey is so much harder if there's a large amount of self loathing involved. Focussing on things you know are working for you is healthy, it's big steps in the right direction! (Me talking from experience, I spent so many years hating myself-mainly through my late teens- and now I just wonder why? It's so counter-productive!)
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Thanks so much Luz. As a child I had serious esteem issues. I'm sure I have some now, but they are not as pronounced as they were when I was a child. It was so strange because my family acted like I was so fat and ugly, but strangers kept telling me I am so cute and I will be getting a lot of guys when I grow up. (some ambition haha). So it has always been a dichotomy for me. Where I live now the guys are really going crazy and a lot of women are jealous and I really still cannot understand for what. There has been several times that men have approached me to ask me for my number right in front of my husband! When I look in the mirror i really cannot see what all of the fuss is about..even still because although for the first time I can say I am beautiful, I am still fat as a mofo :D

MrVee said:
Congrats on being a 9 or 10. I would say I was an before the weight loss, but now I think I'm up to about a ?. Which is ironic since not eating pies helped me get there. If I can get up to the first Feigenbaum constant, I'll be happy. Notice how all of these numbers are irrational, like me.
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OMG look at you, you math nerd! e can be a pain in the @$$ sometimes, but I totally love pi. Sad thing is I had to look up feigenbaum constant...maybe I shouldn't mention that we did some work on fractals and bifurcations in differential equations and I never even heard of a feigenbaum constant!
Justina said:
Hey sweetie, glad we could cheer you up!
By the way your weight loss of the week is not bad - considering - you had a cheat day!

Next week is gonna be better!:hurray:
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Thanks so much Justina...I just wished I had my cheat day more in advance of weigh in day -_-
 
Sad thing is I had to look up feigenbaum constant...
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So did I. I needed a third constant and ran out of the one's I knew that worked on the 1 to 10 scale. :D

I find that the ability to learn new mathematical concepts is far more important than rote memorization of a whole bunch of them. At least now in the internet age and for the limited scope of what I do (statistics and probability).
 
Xenon said:
No I can't actually haha....but seriously I worry about how I am going to handle being thin and beautiful:svengo: and for much of my life I sort of keep myself fat when I start losing more weight. Girl I have ISSUES!

This sounds absolutely beautiful. It reminds me of the place my cousin got married at--a historic hotel. There was another room beside the bridesmaid's room which was shaped like a circle and it was on the second floor overlooking the ocean. I cannot even describe how beautiful it was in that room. There were windows all around and it was already decorated for a wedding. It looked like it was floating over the ocean. To be in a gym like that must be amazing--especially if there is yoga involved.

Thanks so much Justina...I just wished I had my cheat day more in advance of weigh in day -_-
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Hey lovely - well you better prepare yourslef - because slim & beautiful is coming to get you! :coolgleamA:

Yep - the gym was pretty special! So you are into yoga? I can't do the save my life. I really tried to get into it - I think it's cool & healthy bla bla - but my body is bot built for yoga - i am totally useless.
 
MrVee said:
So did I. I needed a third constant and ran out of the one's I knew that worked on the 1 to 10 scale. :D

I find that the ability to learn new mathematical concepts is far more important than rote memorization of a whole bunch of them. At least now in the internet age and for the limited scope of what I do (statistics and probability).
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:-o Prob and stats! I have never taken a proper statistics course and was thinking of taking prob and stats sometime before or after I graduate. I come across it alot in the reports I have to write...one to three sigma uncertainty and statistics of nuclear decay amongst other things. I write good reports but have always wanted to know the reasoning behind the methods. Or maybe I can shrink you and put u in my brain :D
Justina said:
Hey lovely - well you better prepare yourslef - because slim & beautiful is coming to get you! :coolgleamA:

Yep - the gym was pretty special! So you are into yoga? I can't do the save my life. I really tried to get into it - I think it's cool & healthy bla bla - but my body is bot built for yoga - i am totally useless.
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lol you sound like my sister--she is so perfect and says she is useless from time to time. Maybe you can try some beginner yoga stuff? I can't do the hard stuff even if you paid me, but I love the balance and stretching :D

Okay so I finally have some time to write an entry to my diary now that everyone is distracted with something else. I started tracking my eating, water consumption, and exercise on sparkpeople. I have been doing really well with keeping in line with my calorie tracking goals. Gotta run again lol the distractions have ended.
 
My.life.sucks.so.bad. :svengo:

So many bad days so few good ones and I feel like it will never end :sigh: yet still I keep pressing on as if I will defy Einstein's definition of insanity.
:nopity:
Anyways
been doing so very well with cals and exercise
got in all of my water yesterday and cried it all out today :cry:
well actually I just checked sparkpeople and I did terrible with cals yesterday...less than 1000 and less than 1000 so far today. I'll try to be more mindful tomorrow
 
Justina said:
Hey sweetie big hug :hug2: - tomorrow will be a better day!
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Thanks so much Justina :hug2: the day just started and I am crying already. Received a lot of bad news yesterday and TOM just started so I think the hormones are making it worse. good thing is scale is saying 278.2 ...although that is up 0.2 from my last weigh in, I usually gain 3-5 lbs during this time so by the end of the week or Monday I should be down 3-5 pounds.

Thanks so much again Justina, you have no idea how much your encouragement in this time means to me.
 
Hey sweetie - i got ToM too - totally understand. Things just seem 100 times worse...
Sorry about the bad news. :hug2:
Don't give up on your diet - you can do this!!! You are strong!
hugs xx
 
Hey Xenon, just checking in and wanted to give you a BIG hug. Sorry to hear about the bad news. TOM is the worst...makes us all overly sensitive and adds on lbs. Stick to your diet, you are doing fab!
 
I know that you have been mentioning in the challenge that you have been through a really bad week.

I hope that things settle down for you soon. :hug2:
 
Thanks so much Omega, Mands, MrVee, and Justina. Sorry I have been infrequent here but my world has turned upside down and I'm just trying to get things back in order.

I have not been to the gym in AGES
 
Welcome back Xenon.

All we can do is the best we can. Our brains are funny little creatures with minds of their own, and sometimes they just won't cooperate. Give the best effort you can and otherwise try to manage as best as possible.
 
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