Ok, so this morning I didn't smoke weed. That's the first time in a long time.
It's actually a bit hard. Broke down and told the bf I don't kinow if I can. He came out and said he won't smoke as much either, so that I don't feel tempted.
I'm still going to smoke after hours, but not in the working hours. I don't know if that's good enough
Had a wave of emotions take me over this morning outta nowhere... just wanted to get swallowed up by the earth, not have to face anything. Yet here I am, still. I am fine, and I will be fine. Everything will be okay. My bf was saying maybe it's time to change up my antidepressants... I said I'll try cut down on smoking first.
I have planned to exercise again a bit this week. I need to stay accountable to someone other than myself though, so I'll be posting my commitments here.
Tonight I plan to go to my usual belly dancing class for an hour. Then I want to do:
50 crunches
50 pushups
50 squats
That's it.