hehehe, you guys crack me up!
About the green bud... I've decided just to do whatever for now, and not to use the weed as an excuse for not doing anything.
I also want to start a new habit today: NO EXCUSES!!!

I didn't go do bodyweight training OR yoga OR meditation as I said I would yesterday. It's like the moment I got home I kinda knew that it just wasn't going to happen... just coz I didn't feel like it. I let myself off the hook TOO EASILY!
I don't know how to approach this, it feels like I make plans for myself and purposefully don't follow them!
I feel like I should do less planning and more DOING?? But planning is my LIFE!!! but I don't think it should be, I want to start making the DOING my life!!!
Aaaargh! I'm a little frustrated with myself if you can't tell.
Oh, oh, oh! Good news... the boyfriend got a free gym membership for 6 months... so I'm going to get one at the same place and we're going to start going together... I think that'll REALLY make a difference!
Besides, last time I did the gym thing it really helped to make the exercise a habit that I crave. That is where I want to be again... I REMEMBER how much energy I had then, and I WANT IT BACK!
And about how much the weed affects it... when I started exercising the last time, I automatically ended up smoking less weed, AND I made the decision to (and did) quit smoking cigarettes!
Therefore it seems all that is neccessary is for me to get the DAMN BALL ROLLING!!!!
Why does it have to be so difficult to take action?? It doesn't. I am going to take action today. It doesn't matter how, but in some way or another, today will be a successful day. I will eat healthily and I will do some activity to exercise my body. I will also spend some relaxing time rejuvenating my mind.
I'm going to start using fitday again, but stop planning my exercise.... why's this all so TRIAL AND ERROR!!!!???
Sigh, but I shall never stop trying, not until there are no more errors!