Amiba's journal> it is time to make it happen.

Hi!

I like reading your journal (though I have never replied before!) and think you are doing great! Keep up the good work. Hope you find a good pair of jeans!

WillLose60
 
Amiba as you know, I miss ya's!!

Sending positive happy thoughts your way!! :D

See ya soon!!

Lot's O Love :beating:
 

wow it's been forever since I last updated this journal!


I've been on vacation so I gave myself a couple of weeks off the internet as well. I watched the 5 seasons of LOST aaand saw the first 3 again with my mom, I know, Lostmania much but I really like that show. that is the good part.

Hi, I am Diana and I reward and punish myself with food.

After I got depressed for not losing any weight in the months I followed my diet and exercise I really let myself go.
You'd think after a couple of months of not following a diet and being over all lazy I'd be huuuge, at least a couple of pounds over, but nope. I am stuck in the magical 150, it doesn't matter if I go on a strict diet or eat junk food all day, my weight doesn't seem to change one bit, so I got worried.
I am starting to believe it could be hormonal but I can't tell until I go to a doctor
everyone says I lost weight and look better but I don't feel it, I don't see it

anyway that is still no excuse for eating crap and not exercising and it is starting to make me feel physically sick: I am terribly bloated, constipated, moody, my legs hurt due to poor circulation. I've been lacking the will to start over and it just made me more depressed but here I am, once again like an addict that checks in and out of rehab until he makes it, or kills himself.

I really want to check a gym out and make an effort to go every day, go back to salads, veggies, fiber and water. I am emotionally and physically tired of auto sabotaging. I miss the healthy lifestyle.

this time I gave myself a serious 4 month deadline. not kidding around this time, I have to eat better, exercise and look better by December. I know I can and I want that to be my xmas present.


any of you guys have ever been stuck in a plateau that prevents you from losing or even gaining weight, what was it and how did you break it?

it is good to be back
 
hi amiba!i find it funny that you and mikez0rr left around the same time and came back around the same time. lol. anyway. i'm glad to see yo back on here! i was stuck for a few weeks, but i just changed something, sometimes you have to take one step back to go three steps forward. When i was stuck, i at more. sounds funny, but it worked, if anything you gain pound or two then you go a little lass and you lose plenty more. i was at 260 for about 2 and a half weeks than bam! 255! and sometimes you do nothing wrong, and you still don't lose, but don't stop weather you lose or not doesn't matter as much. even though the scale isn't moving, you're still doing your body a favor by continuously treating it like royalty and giving i the exercise it needs. just stick with it!
 
kureransu said:
hi amiba!i find it funny that you and mikez0rr left around the same time and came back around the same time. lol. anyway. i'm glad to see yo back on here! i was stuck for a few weeks, but i just changed something, sometimes you have to take one step back to go three steps forward. When i was stuck, i at more. sounds funny, but it worked, if anything you gain pound or two then you go a little lass and you lose plenty more. i was at 260 for about 2 and a half weeks than bam! 255! and sometimes you do nothing wrong, and you still don't lose, but don't stop weather you lose or not doesn't matter as much. even though the scale isn't moving, you're still doing your body a favor by continuously treating it like royalty and giving i the exercise it needs. just stick with it!
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tee hee we went away together
jk!

I know I shouldn't let the frustration get to me.. oh well
I also know 150 isn't much compared to what other people have to go through and I am happy that even though I ate a lot and I have the biggest sweet tooth in the world, I didn't gain any, so even though I am not losing I am not further from my goal than before, I just have to keep on trying!

you have a good point, about treating my body right. I think that has to be my biggest motivation, not to look good or fit in a pair of 9's, but to feel better every day.

thank you!
 
Amiba said:
tee hee we went away together
jk!

I know I shouldn't let the frustration get to me.. oh well
I also know 150 isn't much compared to what other people have to go through and I am happy that even though I ate a lot and I have the biggest sweet tooth in the world, I didn't gain any, so even though I am not losing I am not further from my goal than before, I just have to keep on trying!

you have a good point, about treating my body right. I think that has to be my biggest motivation, not to look good or fit in a pair of 9's, but to feel better every day.

thank you!
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no prob home girl! Believe me, if you treat your body right, unless there is something medically wrong with you. it'll thank you, just give it time to warm up to you lol!

oh and might i add based on your old pics you look pretty darn good.
 
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back on track again

that is very sweet kureransu, gracias!

so I had a wonderful weekend.
I know the main porpoise of this site is diet and exercise, but I did none of that, hah! it was my farewell weekend. I've had a ton of those but this felt more real, also I really got tired of pizza so it is kind of a reverse therapy.
I ordered the double-decker with extra cheese, bacon and mushrooms. it was oh so delicious! I also ate french fries, ice cream, basically everything I usually love until my tummy was screaming ''no more!'' for some reason I am not craving sweets as much as I used to event though I haven't been on a diet.

I think the only thing I am going to really miss during these 4 months is the vanilla-chai tea with tapioca I love so much, but I might have one of those as a reward when I achieve a goal. every other sweet I should let go to break the cycle.

Also I am still going to a nutritionist or doctor I really don't know which, but if I go again and try diet and exercise and don't lose any weight I'd know something is wrong. but heck I'll do it for the sake of taking good care of my body.

anyway actions speak louder right,
today I had a small bowl of whole grain cereal with skimmed milk, fiber and a medium banana.

I'll go check a spinning place near by, if that place isn't too expensive i'll be perfect because it takes me aprox 10-15 min to get there walking and another 15 back, which adds to my daily exercise.
I am doing a 30 min routine on my bike anyway, and some repetitions on my swiss ball, some yoga too. Just a little to get back on track.

I really need to do this for myself, and 4 months seem like a perfect time to do so. maybe I won't reach my goal by then but come on, 30 pounds? I know that isn't much and it is something I can really achieve.

well that's all for now, I'll let you know how getting back to exercise felt. probably like death, but more productive :coolgleamA:

xoxo!
besos

Diana
 
hey hey, way to get it out the way! i'll tell you this every tuesday i get a mocha frappuccino from starbucks, it used to be the largest, now i get medium. So i say treat yourself to it once a week, and you should be fine. i'm glad you got all the crap out the way, now its time to get serious! i'll be supporting you the whole way, so let's do it!
 
thanks yet again!



I am very excited despite this being like the gazillion time I start diet and exercise. maybe it is because I am giving myself 4 months this time, it seems like a good number and a more than healthy amount of time to lose 30 lbs.

so I went walking on my quest to find a good exercise place and found a charming little spinning spot in a plaza near by. it took me 20 min to get there, which I am glad will add to my daily exercise effort. the instructor seems nice, well yeah I say that because he hasn't tortured me yet right. and the best part.. it includes a nutritional plan, and costs only 40 bucks a month! that's way better than most places around here. sure it is only spinning and not a full gym, but it opens 5 times a week, has flexible hours and including my 30/40min walk back and forth and eating properly again..seems like a great plan.

I just hope this time around I'll be able to lose weight and not get frustrated in the middle. kicking my sugar addiction has always been the toughest part. what do you guys do to take the cravings out of your mind?


well it is good to be back and be happy about it <3
xoxo all
 
don't forfeit what you crave. just adapt it into your new eating style.

ice cream? opt for a smaller bowl and a small spoon, enjoy a lil amount instead of a lot.

if you try to stop your cravings you will binge.


yup omgpancakes1!11!
 
Hi Amiba,

Have been following you in your diary. I have about the same number of lbs to lose, and I am giving myself four months as well!! I wish I would stop craving sweets though. How did your cravings go away?? Will drop by your diary and check on your progress in the next four months. :) And I walk a lot too, infact, I am walking to work right now. I live in the other part of the world so work day is just beginning for us.

Juni
 
Mikez0rr said:
don't forfeit what you crave. just adapt it into your new eating style.

ice cream? opt for a smaller bowl and a small spoon, enjoy a lil amount instead of a lot.

if you try to stop your cravings you will binge.


yup omgpancakes1!11!
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I binge for such stupid reasons, emotional mostly. I was educated to relate food with how I feel, and ''reward or punish'' myself with it, both my parents do the same. the thing is I hardly control my portions so I rather not have that food around at least not at the start.
also,

llllliiiicccckkks your face.
mmmh you taste like pancakes.
 
juni said:
Hi Amiba,

Have been following you in your diary. I have about the same number of lbs to lose, and I am giving myself four months as well!! I wish I would stop craving sweets though. How did your cravings go away?? Will drop by your diary and check on your progress in the next four months. :) And I walk a lot too, infact, I am walking to work right now. I live in the other part of the world so work day is just beginning for us.

Juni
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oh yay we should support each other then!
gah we are in the same war.. shaking a sweet addiction is so tough, but you can achieve it. I think I gave myself so much for so long that I got tired of it. I am not saying it is healthy but it worked for me: for example I loved cookies and I had so many one day until my tummy hurt that I didn't want to eat them again in my life. haha it is the fuhrer kind of way!

good luck in your journey I'll be around! :D
 
Haha, I tried that technique- eating one thing until I overdose. I do that too, but then I find another kind of sweeter unhealthier food as my weakness. If it was chocolate chip cookie today I eat until I wanna puke so I never look at it again, but I find chocolate cake tomorrow, Indian sweet the next, cheap sugary chocolates the next. :( There's no end to me being creative in finding ways to be unhealthy. That is going to change.

I have stopped walking past my favorite German bakery that makes all these yummy things. I take a different route to work now. I went shopping for food today and avoided the chocolates section...I guess I need to be use my creativity in coming up with ways to avoid getting caught in the sweet('s) world.
 
juni said:
Haha, I tried that technique- eating one thing until I overdose. I do that too, but then I find another kind of sweeter unhealthier food as my weakness. If it was chocolate chip cookie today I eat until I wanna puke so I never look at it again, but I find chocolate cake tomorrow, Indian sweet the next, cheap sugary chocolates the next. :( There's no end to me being creative in finding ways to be unhealthy. That is going to change.

I have stopped walking past my favorite German bakery that makes all these yummy things. I take a different route to work now. I went shopping for food today and avoided the chocolates section...I guess I need to be use my creativity in coming up with ways to avoid getting caught in the sweet('s) world.
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aww yeah I know what you mean, I usually overdose on something until I find something else. but lately I've been a good little girl, cutting candy out of my life but.. finding deep fried stuff instead. yeah not good! haha I think it has to do with what day of the month it is :p

avoiding the places that produce the little pieces of hell we love so much is a good thing. good luck!
 

so.. the new life begins! yet again :blush5:


I wake up a little late, I am still enjoying what is left of my summer vacation
then I had:
a small bowl of whole grain cereal, skim milk and a banana, for breakfast.

I basically watched tv and enjoyed being a slacker :p

then I cooked myself a small chicken breast, sliced zuchinni with a little olive oil and spices and a side salad with fat free ranch.

to drink, water with clight's watermelon flavor


I feel pretty good, I missed eating my veggies like a good girl. I truly missed them and eating all this junk was making me feel sick!


the hard part will be getting back to exercise, oh lord. today is my first spinning class, wish me luck!
I just want to make a habit out of exercise and I haven't been able to do so in, well, my entire life. so I know I'll have to take it slow and not rush myself. after all these are life changes and I won't lose what took me a life time in a day!

I want to share new photos, maybe I'll do so during the week

I am very excited because I am going shopping for materials for my photo shoot tomorrow with one of my girlfriends. we are creating a photo club which will not only help me practice but help me stay active.
another geek reason to want to go back to school!

xoxo
Diana
 

so!..today I went to my first spinning class

I was scared at first, then surprised of how well I handled the hour at full speed-intervals like everyone else. they even timed how long I could endure at a certain speed and the trainer had to stop me and told me it was enough for one day, but everyone was kind of surprised.
hell yeah the chubby girl can work it out!

I do feel a bit tired afterwards but excited that my body is getting the exercise that she deserves once again!

I gave myself a skim milk chai tea with splenda as a reward for my first day and that was also my dinner, didn't feel like eating anything else! just a fresh bath and I'll go to bed

I read a lot about my body type and what it needs for me to lose weight.
like I already knew, the fat around my hips, thighs and legs is the most stubborn. they recommend that I keep a low fat diet with cardiovascular workout like spinning and walking which is what I am doing

I usually have a low fat diet, my favorite things are sweets and carbs, hah
I can't but wonder how big I'd be if I also loved fatty deep fried stuff, and meat. ohh my
the diet is the easy part. keeping up with the exercise will be the challenge but I know I can handle it

good night all!
 
Hello Diana...oo sexy!!

LOL I noticed that too Keranusu (I betcha I spelled that wrong) cuz I've always had to copy and paste it. Anyways about how Mike & you left at the same time and than came back at around the same time. Too Funny! ;) :p

I am sorry to hear that your relation with food had gotten you down there for a bit. The Battle is on with the mind once again!

Your exercise routine and food change sound reassuring once more! What is this spinning? All I can think of is a Spinning Top....lol duh. IDK

I know this is a gay resolution but I need to stay out of the kitchen & out of the FREEZER!!! Must not go into the freezer, oh yea, I am on vacay, why am I inside and online? LOL

Oh yea I hit a plateau of 136 lbs for three weeks or so, a bit ago here, and I added in an extra run, with some runs on hills, HIIT Run's, & Power Walking hills in the afternoon. I also started eating a bunch more. Than I dropped. Although throughout the entire 130's I have yet to lose any inches. I guess I lost them all in my 140's. C R A Z Y!!!

So I know you're going to KICK SOME ARSE DIANA!!!! WOOO WOO WOO!! :party: Oo goody gum drops pictures!! I likez!

**MMhmm there are legal boy's here....nice and young.....lalalala I didn't do it! LOL Seriously though, bright eyed, muscular tanned youngin's runnin' around out here*** I just cannot stay focused. ​
 

rofl that post was so funny, thanks girl!

yes my relationship with food is a long and harsh one. but I've been adapting and actually I became so obssesed that I ate less than I should. silly me. now I am back eating 4-5 meals a day, and not cutting down all my favorite things so I still give myself some joy :p
I will share more and more pictures soon I promise

spinning.. ooh it is more painful than that!
you basically ride a mountain bike but you don't get anywhere. sort of like a small trapped and little chubby hamster, I am. the thing is we have intervals, we go faster and the intensity is controled by pressure. I like it because I work on the lower part of my body where all the oversized goods are :D


my journal will be a lil different from now on. to keep myself organized I'll add a review of my day, how I felt and what I did good and wrong. In this way I'll track what's working and what is not, so I'll know what to change or how to stay focused. and your reviews are important!


Today's review- July 29​

today was a good day despite yesterday being hellish- the power went off at around 11 pm, our power lines are so old and tend to fail a lot, oh and Monterrey's heath is unbearable! Gah I ended up going to bed at 4 am because I couldn’t sleep. Awful.
Sooo.. I got up late again :D still enjoying what's left of my vacation- got a bath,
Got breakfast which is a good thing:
Whole grain cereal with skim milk and a banana, num num
Drank about a liter of water or so
Got ready to go with one of my photography club’s friend to some retro stores
And I of course bought my black-frame wayfarer glasses! I love everything 50’s and rock and roll. I don’t know if they look good on me but I certainly don’t care :p
Oh I bought a pair of 50’s vibe pink ones, as shown in the pictures :D down here- what do you think aren’t they cute?
I bought a little wallet thingy with a print of atari’s space invaders and a couple of lucha libre masks, yes I am such a geek and I love it
I also went to some little reconstructed retro stores but the sizes were ridiculous, nothing bigger than a 5. that makes me think these girls don’t really know how the bodies looked back then. They had meat on their bones and they looked amazing! I have pretty much the pin-up look, with small waist, big hips and big thighs and butt. my hips are 10 cm bigger than the classical 90-60-90 (here in mexico we used it a lot as the perfect woman’s size, it translates as a 35-23-35. ) my waist is 28 inches and my hips are aprox 42 inches and I hardly find anything that fits! Take me back to the 50’s please.


Today’s class​

Anyway after my good day of shopping I cooked myself lunch: chicken breast with a little cream-green tomatoes sauce with sweet corn, a side salad and zucchini. I drank water and had a little cup of light mango yogurt. It was delicious and fulfilling

I surfed the web, watched a movie and basically procrastinated until my spinning class. I go at 7:30 so the sun isn’t too heavy on me, I go walking it takes me aprox. 15 min and it helps me as a warm up and cool down.

I wasn’t really sore from the first day except from.. well, my butt. when I got back into that bike it felt.. not like a virgin touched for the very first time let me tell you. It was more like savage butt rape. On fire. Yep
It took me around 10 min to get used to the pain and managed a good 35 min. the instructor gave me some leg exercises, the bastard knows exactly what I need and that is always what hurts the most. Hah! I can’t work too hard until I get in good shape, he says in a couple of weeks I’ll be ready for a harder workout. I want to incorporate arm work and some crunches but little by little, I have the rest of my life to get fit and I am starting to enjoy the exercise, I feel like I did something productive today
Well I’ll report more stuff tomorrow

Thanks for reading, :D
Di

 
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I read your entire last post last night & than it wouldn't lemme see the pics, net down.

LOL they are CuTe!!!! Especially the poses. And of course HOT Pink hair??? Oo La LA!! That's HOT! What does your shirt say? Bad Boys?

Last week I found this vintage store and bought a dress for $3 from the either late 60's or early 70's, it's a high neck line, with buttons down the side, kind of a square or long rectangle looking dress, straight, and ORANGE!!!

WoW you have a 23' waist! Amazing!! You could be a freakin model girl!!!​
 
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