Amiba's journal> it is time to make it happen.


hi guys!

sorry I haven't been around as much, but this week and the next one are gonna be heeectic!

my final exams are around the corner so I have tons of homework and projects. my first solo exhibition is this May 23th and I have to take care of all the prints and stuff.

Also I have to work on two separate photo shoots and prints for a contest, or a couple of contest I want to try and well lots of work in general.

also I haven't been taking care of my diet and exercise as I should, but I've been having these awful headaches and.. excuses.
but I can't wait for the semester to be over and finally join a gym!
be on a strict diet for a month or two. that's what I really want.

it is not that I am eating junk every day I am still having fruit, salads, lots of water etc- but today for example I stopped by an Ihop and ordered pancakes.

remember that episode in friends where Joey eats all of his date's chocolate cake and then says ''I am not even sorry!'' yeah that's how I felt haha.

but I only had a piece and couldn't eat anymore.

guess that's how eating works, you still have some yummy things but learn to eat small portions and stay on track, I don't know, my head still hurts and I am working on a couple of essays so..

that's it for now.
I so want this week to be over!
 
I still don't know what pancakes you guy's are talking about, but I Just gave my 5 lb bag of it away.

I miss Amiba too. :p
 
Would you like some secret Sass to your secret pancakes? lol I made a funny...
 


haha aww I miss pancakes too..


well my life is a pretty wreck right now!

I am both excited and stressed over all the things I still have to do.
my art exhibition is this saturday and I have to finish all my school work and find a place for a conference, take new photos, start my social work etc!

so yeah excuses are still rushing in.. which means I am currently not exercising. my meals are still as sensitive as I can, I am just having a whole grain muffin and coffee in the mornings and I try to eat salads but sometimes I slip especially when I am on a rush.

I really really want this week to be over and gain my life back: my house needs cleaning, I need cleaning haha, and yeah.

I like having a lot of stuff to do and I should be happy and not care. --starting to not care-- I should lay back and just wish for the best, do things as they come along

and for heaven's sake someone help me get back on track
I can't keep up with the silly excuses and not exercise or diet properly, I will never achieve my goal this way :s
it is harder than I thought to break a life time of bad habits..


I had to make a ''therapeutic'' object and all I could think of is metal with hair hanging from it. I know weird. but I am stuck and I can't do anything right now
I miss taking photos and I have to step up my game and work harder.


anyway rant is off for now
hopefully it will all be over in a couple of days!

I so need a hug right now
 
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You can do it Amiba!!! Just Remember to Look Back On How Far You've already come!! Put All those lil bits together until it spreads out farther than yo u can reach it!!!
 
aww thanks girl!
thanks for the hug !

well the good news is even without the big effort I am stuck in the same weight. my beautiful 150 plateau haha, which means I am not sinking deep :p

this next week will be an opportunity to start again. w00t
 
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lol How are ya? How's your project's comin? Are ya done? Lalalalalaaaaa
 


hey guys!

I am finally on vacation.. two long months without school
and as I ran out of excuses to not continue with my healthy lifestyle I am back in the game.

I've been kind of depressed lately for many reasons, but I can't just keep feeling sorry for myself now. I was supposed to start my diet-exercise again this week and I haven't which kind of sucks.
I know why I am so addicted to carbs and sugar, they represent a safe place. but they just make me feel bad and sluggish it is terrible. I literally feel tired after eating too many carbs.

I also miss exercise, what is wrong with me? I have to stop self- sabotaging if I want to achieve anything.

in better news I finished my semester with my usual 4.0 GPA, straight A's, such a geek.
also I am going to start my social service soon, which is exciting. let's see how that goes

and my grandma is coming this friday, I haven't seen her in 5 months. it is sad that she doesn't get to see a skinnier version of me, but hey. I'll have another chance.

I am feeling sleepy now so I'll let you guys know how it goes tomorrow
 
Hello Amiba,
Congratulations and hugs from me also!

I know the feeling of rushing about and not have anythime for myself let alone excercise with so much to do and little one's to look after, the list goes on.

However, you've done it, well done! You appeared focused and your health and fitness did appear to be always on your mind.

Someone once told me, "It's not about diet and exercise it's about lifestyle changes and healthier choices and doing everything in moderation. For example, some excercise, some carbs and fats, some protein and vitamins."

I do try to apply this principle myself since I've understood it -Yes it took a while before it sunk in!

So, don't deprive yourself or feel bad, at least you are much smaller than your were 5 months ago. Your grandmother will be thrilled to see you no matter your size!

Take care!
 
Waay to go on the 4 point 0!!! haha I made a rhyme!!! :jump: Are you going to go home for those 2 months after your Grandma comes for a visit? Aww that's sweet that she comes to visit you!

Well I'm at my dad's and having cheese and an apple once again!! Lata
 
hi guys thank you SO much for the support!

after a lot of excuses I am back.

I had a pear, some orange juice and a salad with chicken breast.
I am having some frozen yogurt and another fruit and that might be about it! but I don't feel hungry or bad. I just miss exercising so much, tomorrow my grandma goes to visit some other relatives and I'll go out for a long walk.


shopping is SO depressing- I hate seeing all those amazing clothes, great jeans and cool shorts and I can't fit in them!
I mean come on, the sizes don't go higher than 8, which is pretty small. sometimes I wonder how bigger girls dress, it must be really sad to not be able to visit those stores because you know you won't find anything. at least I don't have a problem buying dresses or shirts, peechy, because I am a medium. but when it comes to jeans or skirts.. hah! I am huge :p I tried some size ''10'' jeans I magically found and they didn't go up half my butt.

don't these sites know whe are latin women and we have curves?
anyway..
I know I shouldn't be on a diet because clothing stores hate curvy women, but because of me and my health.. but I guess finding clothes that fit can't hurt either. I just want to look and feel better

I miss going to the united states where a size 11 isn't big at all in the stores. it is a place where I can feel NORMAL in that weight. sigh

will I ever make it?
don't know. but I keep trying and trying and trying!
--grabs her muffin tops--
oh dear.


well enough of that, I added a couple of pictures :) from my art show.
xoxo
 
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so.. today was the first day.

it ended with the frozen yogurt and I might have a fruit or veggies in a little while but that is it. I am not hungry or anything so it is great

I didn't exercise today like I should have but my grandma is still in town but I will tomorrow. I am starting little by little again anyway, I don't want to feel stressed and frustrated about my weight really.

today I went to another mall with my grandma
I am still struggling to find a pair of jeans or a skirt.. every piece I see isn't bigger than an 8. that for them, is a LARGE. so what am I then at 11-12? sheesh.
anyway I just felt like venting out again because I had to go through it again. I don't know why I keep putting myself in that position. hope I guess? that things might change?
that clothing stores will soon realize we have an ass? I don't know.

I feel a little depressed
but I bought a great pair of sandals, at least!


xoxo
 
jeans are a pain. i absolutely hate buying jeans and only put myself through the misery like once a year. even if i buy a couple pairs, one pair becomes my favorite and i wear those until they fall apart, and then the search begins again.

can't go wrong with shoes...they always fit!! :)
 
Amiba said:
hi guys thank you SO much for the support!

after a lot of excuses I am back.

I had a pear, some orange juice and a salad with chicken breast.
I am having some frozen yogurt and another fruit and that might be about it! but I don't feel hungry or bad. I just miss exercising so much, tomorrow my grandma goes to visit some other relatives and I'll go out for a long walk.


shopping is SO depressing- I hate seeing all those amazing clothes, great jeans and cool shorts and I can't fit in them!
I mean come on, the sizes don't go higher than 8, which is pretty small. sometimes I wonder how bigger girls dress, it must be really sad to not be able to visit those stores because you know you won't find anything. at least I don't have a problem buying dresses or shirts, peechy, because I am a medium. but when it comes to jeans or skirts.. hah! I am huge :p I tried some size ''10'' jeans I magically found and they didn't go up half my butt.

don't these sites know whe are latin women and we have curves?
anyway..
I know I shouldn't be on a diet because clothing stores hate curvy women, but because of me and my health.. but I guess finding clothes that fit can't hurt either. I just want to look and feel better

I miss going to the united states where a size 11 isn't big at all in the stores. it is a place where I can feel NORMAL in that weight. sigh

will I ever make it?
don't know. but I keep trying and trying and trying!
--grabs her muffin tops--
oh dear.


well enough of that, I added a couple of pictures :) from my art show.
xoxo
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I really LOVE these pictures, and I am not just sayin that, to be a pleaser, I really do, once in my bedroom for probably a couple of years, my one wall was just plastered in pictures from magazines of mostly women, because most magazines I read are for women , with women in em. ;) But I didn't have the pics up for "the women", I liked the statement, or mood, or depth of the picture. I know it sounds corny, but I guess I just see things in a different light. A weird one. :D

Anywho, I am sorry you are feeling down right now. And I give you lot's of Hugz!!! You will beat this yet my dear!! You always have such good things to eat, and you are working hard to get in your exercise(s). You have a great passion and zest for life, I jus wanna oooooo squeeze you!!! And I am NOT a touchy feely person either...odd. haha

Anywho I best be going, or I won't get up for my run, and it is going to be HOT tomorrow, and that would be a punishment running in a pool of sweat, although not sooo bad cuz it would keep me cool.
 
Shep03 said:
jeans are a pain. i absolutely hate buying jeans and only put myself through the misery like once a year. even if i buy a couple pairs, one pair becomes my favorite and i wear those until they fall apart, and then the search begins again.

can't go wrong with shoes...they always fit!! :)
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ahh I know!
the bad part is that I kill my jeans early, my thighs are big and I wear them out too soon :/ so if I find a pair of jeans that I really love and use them a lot I always know they won't survive much. gah!

I can't go wrong with shirts, well most of the time. I just usually grab a medium which is odd considering I have to conduct a witch hunt to find jeans haha
 
RunningGirl said:

I really LOVE these pictures, and I am not just sayin that, to be a pleaser, I really do, once in my bedroom for probably a couple of years, my one wall was just plastered in pictures from magazines of mostly women, because most magazines I read are for women , with women in em. ;) But I didn't have the pics up for "the women", I liked the statement, or mood, or depth of the picture. I know it sounds corny, but I guess I just see things in a different light. A weird one. :D

Anywho, I am sorry you are feeling down right now. And I give you lot's of Hugz!!! You will beat this yet my dear!! You always have such good things to eat, and you are working hard to get in your exercise(s). You have a great passion and zest for life, I jus wanna oooooo squeeze you!!! And I am NOT a touchy feely person either...odd. haha

Anywho I best be going, or I won't get up for my run, and it is going to be HOT tomorrow, and that would be a punishment running in a pool of sweat, although not sooo bad cuz it would keep me cool.
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aww thanks sweetie!
yes we are saturated with images guess I wanted to try something different.
haha.. I am trying. I know not as hard as I should and I don't know what else to try! I so miss exercising but for some reason I don't put my mind to it. I auto-sabotage it is crazy!
I almost don't sweat xD I am not human
 
Amiba dearie! I missed reading your journal. I know I randomly went POOF, but like I told Mike, I'll be coming around more often. Good, yeah? ;]

By the way, I SO know what you mean by jeans ripping at the thighs. It is the most annoying thing ever. My mother bought me True Religion and Rock and Republic jeans, both I hardly ever wear in fear of ripping them. You know how pricey they can be. Terrible, terrible.
 
hello amiba!!
i love how steady u are with your diet and workouts... i cant WAIT to see you at ur goal weight... which u SO totally deserve to reach ASAP!!!
 
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