Amiba's journal> it is time to make it happen.

hi girl!

hah not quite, I want to get there my waist is a 28 not 23, but not far!
I adoore vintage, unfortunately they are too expensive here in Mexico. I am still trying to find new things or heck I'll order from ebay
my t shirt says I love bad boys :p lol
 


the weekend was fun!
also it was interesting ''balancing'' my first weekend, one where I wouldn't go crazy eating junk food, ya know. especially one in girly episodes, where you just want to get a bucket of ice cream and eat in watching chick flicks. -cough-

the meals:

it started friday: eating out wasn't as painful as I thought it'd be.
I picked a little charming placed called ''iceberg'' with traditional burgers, sandwiches and salads in combos which is great because I get half of each, smaller portions. I ordered the tuna sandwich with whole grain bread instead of white, aaand.. a side salad instead of french fries. that made me so proud because I simply adore french fries, my mom tells me I used to steal them from other people's plates when I was little, ah such a young felon :p
I had a diet coke instead of my usual iced tea. It was a nice meal

saturday I really wanted sushi but I had tuna sashimi instead, it is a great option to avoid eating rice. and fresh, sliced tuna is a good substitute to my usual packages that look like cat food. it tasted good and I still had two very small fried crab and cream cheese rolls as an appetizer.

sunday I ordered entomatadas: chicken inside a corn tortilla with tomato sauce. the order had five! I only ate two and a half. they weren't greasy at all and they didn't have cheese or cream on them, which was nice because they weren't fried or had extra calories on full-cream dairy.

I did have some mac n cheese at night, with broccoli to add my veggies. I used skim milk instead of whole of course, but I did add butter. I didn't feel bad at all because I've been eating very well and balancing my calories, so I knew it wouldn't do much of a harm. I am learning not to hold back on my cravings as it will only induce mental illness. I swear

the exercise

friday was not an excuse to avoid my spinning class so I went. I handled the 40 min very well and I am starting to enjoy the endorphin rush quite a lot. I am actually looking forward to going on monday! there are no lessons on the weekend but I'll might add a little yoga and pilates just to relax from the week


as to what I did, I basically just watched TV series: the shield, leverage, true blood. I know I have weird taste but anything from con artists to zombies gets my attention. some of my fav series are though: LOST,dexter,
big bang theory- in that particular order but I've watched every single episode from them already- I am such a geek

tomorrow besides going to the gym I have to fight with a hellish company called telmex. phone companies in mexico reaaally suck and I haven't had a phone in oh, over a year. they keep charging me but they haven't fixed my problem so I am very tired of paying for thin air. let's see how it goes! I'll do my mean face. hah

I took some photos today wearing a dress I really like. I am all in my dress-phase, hiding from jeans and how hard it is for me to find one that actually fits! I also thought it'd be fun to show what I like instead of what I don't like- sure my legs are big and I have to work on my inner thighs to make them stronger and not flabby but I kind of like the shape. I wouldn't like having skinny legs. small boobs go well with ruffles on the top- it adds volume without making me look tacky
and I kind of like my face so, yeah I am chubs but it could be way worse! right? you have to love what you have and work on small changes without forgetting who you are and what really matters.

anyway it's been good, I have one week left on vacation and I'll try to really enjoy it before going back to school, although I do kind of want to go back! having something to do, seeing other people. I am kind of a loner the rest of the time

see you guys soon

Lore

 
Hey well done on your weekend of eating out. I think thats one of the hardest times not to think oh I'll just let myself have on desert etc. Its a big struggle for me and takes loads of willpower. Congratulations :D
Woah I love your outfit and your hair. You look very slim in them photos!
 
thanks Kirsty!
and I am chubs, I just know my angles haha


Today was a simple yet confusing day

I got up around 12, yes I am such a lazy bum

Had whole grain cereal with skim milk for breakfast and did some errands: send some papers. Then I checked my bank account and I had like half the money I used to have, called my dad. He has been using my personal money to support my family because he is unemployed. I don’t mind helping them of course but that money is from a scholarship and I won it to work on my photography projects. The last 1000 bucks I had to basically use to survive a couple of months and couldn’t work on my photos. This time it is happening the same all over again and, I can’t help but feel a little pissed. If I don’t work on those photos I could get sued and I’d have to return all the money, but my dad keeps taking that money and I feel hopeless. I let him know how I feel but oh well.. this is not new, he’s been unemployed for over three years and even though he found a job it doesn’t pay until September or October. It makes me feel so frustrated because when he first quit his job following a dream three and a half years ago, he used all of our money and more: college funds, savings, money from other relatives.. and he lost it all in an investment to start his own company. We then survived thanks to the credit cards for another year or so, and now that he’s find a job he is paying the debts and things are worse than ever.. I am just so tired and sad, I’ve been doing the best I can I have a scholarship at school that takes a lot of hard work, another scholarship to work on my photos which I haven’t been able to use, anyway
I just wanted to vent a little.

I did a little grocery shopping, some basics: eggs, turkey ham, whole grain bread, veggies, some fruits. Just to hold on and avoid eating out as much as I can

I had some white sushi rice and tuna with chipotle mayo for lunch, it wasn’t a big portion but it was enough!

I don’t know what I’ll have for dinner, something light I guess. Also I’ve been sooo thirsty lately, I’ve been taking some artichoke extract that is supposed to be natural and has fat burners and vinegar in it. It tastes like crap and it makes me drink water like crazy but let’s see if they actually do something else.
Oh and a bought red tea, I’ve read it also aids in the weight loss process. I don’t know I am just tired of not seeing any results yet..

But my spinning class was great. I really like it, love the energy and a lot of people go on Monday, which is funny because you just notice the energy level drop from Monday to Friday, when we were two people only. I love it, It is a good excuse to make my blood circulate, burn some calories and listen to music. The walk also makes me good and I kind of clear my mind from all the bad stuff- I am still red!

well that's it for today guys
read you soon :D
 

well another day starts!


I am currently drinking an artichoke extract that is supposed to be really good and all natural. it tastes just as it smells: crap. but oh well, it has carnitin in it and it makes me drink water like crazy!

the thing is I might not be eating enough. I want to buy a juice extractor so I can have all the veggies I need in different colors. I noticed I only eat green stuff don't really know why eek.

but hey I am still on the right path which is always good. I am going to my spinning class at 7 30 like every day. I am really enjoying the class

any diet recomendations are well recieved!


today´s meals:

morning- artichoke extract
water
fitness whole grain cereal with skim milk-fiber
and a medium banana


afternoon
salad with broccoli and tuna


night
red tea with a small pear


I know it doesn't seem like much but I am really not hungry! also the artichoke extract controls my sweet tooth so I am almost not having anything sweet, just a couple of fruits.


anyway.. I am kind of sad. worried mostly

I lead a pretty healthy life (just the candy I couldn't say no to, heh) but I don't smoke, I hardly drink and currently I am not having even a beer so I won't add empty calories so you could say I don't drink.
and of course, I don't consume any form of illegal drugs

wish I could say the same about my little brother.
he is the total opposite, drinks, smokes and consumes marihuana. my mom is really tired of it and very worried. not only that but he was expelled from the navy just a couple of days after joining because of an anti doping, they found traces of marihuana and he was kicked out..
now they don't know what to do, maybe he will have to wait for another year and see if he has learned his lesson.

I know is crazy but your lifestyle choices really are that important and he is learning it the hard way.

oh well that's it for today
xoxo
 

wow does anyone besides a couple of friends read this diary? I know I can be boring at times :p but don't be shy and leave a msg!


today was ok. my back pain is worse than ever and it has to do a lot with stress for sure. the idea of not having my scholarship money to work with. also the fact we won't have an income for a couple of months or so, it drives me crazy not having money at all!
at least exercise helps a little.

today's spinning class was intense, we are working on resistance and we talked a little about nutrition. it is funny how people's perceptions can be SO off.. there's this really skinny girl that said that carbohidrates are BAD, just like that as if they where the devil :D I had to explain her that there are complex carbohidrates and it all comes down to quality and quantity but oh well.

I started chatting with this woman, she is prob. in her mid 50s and she's been going to the class since january. she says she hardly notices any changes but then told me her diet didn't change, oh well! some people use exercise just to mantain their current weight and that is great, wish that was my case but I am still a bit over 30 pounds.. sigh

but that's ok I know it takes a while, at least for my body. with small changes I hope, like I only eat whole grain carbs and I only drink water, no soda, cookies or anything like that for me right now.



today's meals

morning> usual, whole grain fitness cereal with a banana

afternoon> wasn't hungry but had a whole grain sandwich with chicken breast ham and a bit of chipotle sauce

dinner> nothing yet, just a chai tea, I allow myself one per week and I really wanted one today.
maybe I'll have a red tea and a fruit and that's it, or some ham. not really hungry

hopefully my diet will improve once I get to school this next monday. I'll have to get up at 6 or 7 am instead of.. 1 or 2 pm, lol which will allow me to have my 4/5 meals like I should.

also today's been two weeks since I started my spinning class!
yey, closer to my first goal of resisting for one month.


xoxo guys
 
Hello Sorry Amiba, (okay it's a doosey)

I have been dumpy for a long time, I kind of quit reading and posting on other ppl's diaries, I only keep to a few. I just don't have the energy to read and post. IDK. :(

It's none of my business but to negate what I've just said, I'm going to poke my nose where it doesn't belong.... You say (if I read correctly?) you're dad's been dipping into your funds for a little over a year..? You've talked with him, you want to help, that is VERY genuine of you. Speaking from experience as an expert manipulator and parent's whom are enabler's...maybe it's time to cut him off...or maybe you might consider giving him a certain amount, but not letting him take whatever he'd like? You have to remember to put you first too y'know. ;) (or you can do whatever you'd like :) ) Which out ways the other? Pro's and Con's list? I like those. ;)

So Sashimi is no rice? I'll have to remember that..I thought sushi was a lot of raw fish or veggies or some cooked, but mainly wrapped in rice.

Ughness I hate to see you stressed. I love seeing my bubbly Amiba! :hurray:

I like to be around ppl too more often than not, although usually avoid them like the plague. lol:hat:<< I'm a nut job. Where's the pimple one?:conehead: ahhh to pop him.

Hey! I was that dorky skinny girl that didn't have any clue about carbs, and you explained it to me. How did my twin get down there? I wonder.

We'll get this weight thing worked out yet! Have you started with your Dietician or Nutritionist?

Also you've prob already seen this around the forum, based on how sedentary someone may be, a person takes their CW x (14, or 15, or 16) which are calories/pound equals maintainence (no I cannot spell) subtract 20-30% from there and you have your losing weight stage (cut cals) That really helped me soooo much. Was a freakin life saver.

Another little trick I use, is I write out my groceries on my *pages* (word). It's actually for price & yadda yadda, but I use it for meal plans, to remember what I have, I just pull that up on the comp. Like so:



JULY 11 2009

CO-OP:
Kraft No Fat Italian Dressing $3.49
Kraft Dressing Thousand Island $3.49
Kraft Mandarine Orange Dressing $3.49
Clamato Juice $2.49
Turnip $2.40


TOTAL $15.64 I Saved $0.50

COMMUNITY NATURAL FOODS
Omega 3 Eggs $3.79
Almond Vanilla Milk (3) $8.07
Ground Buffalo $7.99
Reusable Bag $0.99

TOTAL $20.84

TOTAL AMOUNT FOR GROCERIES TODAY: $36.48


JULY 22 2009

Coop

Coop Prune Juice $5.69
Activia Yogurt (5) $20.45
Cereal Muffets $3.99
Coop Salsa $7.49
Coop Frozen Baby Cabbages & Corn (2) for $6.98
Rainier Cherries $3.99
Sweet Onions (2) $4.23
Rutabagas $1.90
Celery Stalk $1.99
Green Cabbage $2.32
Red Cabbage $3.35
Broccoli Bunches $2.49
Zucchini $0.89
Fruit Tea Non Caff $4.09
Head Of Lettuce $1.49
Red Peppers (2) $5.45
Large Yam $1.07
Acorn Squash $3.82
Kale $1.69
Avocados (2) $3.98

Cab: $7.20

TOTAL:$87.63+ Cab $7.20: $94.83 I SAVED: $1.50

&&& you thought you were nerdy....lol :willy_nilly:

Than when I have time, I've made a list for the vegetables or whatever I think of along the way that I'd like to make meals from:

Vegetable & Fruit Ideas
Artichokes, Squash, Zucchini, Cucumber, Tomatoes, Onion, Garlic, Olives, Peas, Broccoli, Spinach, Beets, Carrots, Celery, Hummus, Beans, Radishes, Cabbage Peppers, I can no longer find Fiddle Heads in the store (what is up with that!?!?), Corn, Turnip, Cauliflower, Lettuce, Potatoes, Pepper, Mushrooms, Eggplant, Scallions, Brussel Sprouts, Lettuce Parsnips, Fennel, Yam, GOOD GREENS Spinach. Broccoli. Lettuce. Celery. Kale. Lettuce. Leaks. Scallions. Brussel Sprouts. Collard greens.

Than I have my daily caloric intake, which you've seen, helps keep me in line with what salty, sweet, and dairy I have throughout the week, since I have a horrible digestive system for food.

Plus I made these meals out here on vacay, I got this one from BrazenlySasse (Michelle)

-Buffalo stuffed Red Pepper's, and I mixed it with some celery & sweet onions. I have that step by step preparation if you'd like.

- (from my mom) Chicken & mango ( I used Nectarines) wraps (whole Wheat mini sized ones). Lettuce & half the fat mayo, or whatever get creative!

- I try to keep away from pasta, noodles, unless no grocery money and I'm stocked up on the stuff. (Whole Wheat) Asian noodles Chicken Veggie Stirfry, no oil.

BTW I rarely cook any of my meals in butter, margarine, or oil anymore. I just turn it up high, than put my meat on and watch it. I know, how odd.

- Most of the time I eat a lot of greens to the point of not being able to finish my lunch or supper's. That's prob not a good tip as I am still figuring things out, but it helps when I have lower cal days. *shrugs* go figure.

I don't find you boring at all. I don't find anyones diaries on here boring though, I like reading into ppl's lives.

Woo Hoo Awesome Job on the Spinning!!!!​
 :hurray:

I have to go to bed now I will see you soon. Hope I helped a tinsy bit. :jump:

-Ceraphina
 
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hey sweetie!! that's ok I know you've been going through some stuff.

thanks a lot for your help! that sounds really yummy. the reason I want a juice extractor is because there's like no way I can eat all the things I need to eat each day! for instance I just had a whole grain sandwich today and I am about to have zuchinni, eggs and tomatoes for dinner. I know, not enough!!

I am just not getting hungry at all thanks to the artichoke extract thingy. I am just sooo thristy ALL the time! I prob drink 3.5 lts a day!

yup sashimi is just raw fish> you can have tuna sashimi, salmon sashimi or even meat sashimi but it doesn't involve rice which is nice. pure protein! now sushi is the classic raw fish on top of rice with a bit of seaweed.

maki is the common sushi roll with seaweed also that sometimes includes cheese and other yummy stuff.


I know, it is just that my dad has been there for me all along.. he is still supporting me money wise, he is not a bad guy or anything. I am just bummed by him taking the money without letting me know first but he understands that I need it back and he will pay me back when he can, I've just been stressed in general for many reasons not only money wise, but my brother being kicked out of the navy for marihuana (gah so dumb) and not being able to lose weight.

but I know it is only a phase


I also hardly use butter or oil, just a little bit of olive oil because I hardly eat fat anyway and I know my body still needs some. I just want to increase my veggie and fruit intake and I'll be great!


you did help a lot, thank you very much!

have a great weekend, mmmmmua!
 


another day ends!


today I finished my 2nd week of spinning. I feel good, at least I know I am working on my resistance and that can't be bad. I get this great feeling of doing something productive during the day which I love!
also I am getting to know some of the girls that go to the class and seeing people is fun, I am not a very social person outside the net, don't know why, guess I am a bit shy and scared of being hurt, oh well.

I am watching one of those carl's juniors commercials while I write this and I can't help but feel a little sick in my tummy. I've always loved french fries, burgers, ice cream and whatnots but currently.. I am not in the mood of anything! which I think it is kind of an extreme situation because I am not eating enough, but I am really not doing it on purpose, I am just not hungry.

that juice extractor has to be mine. that or they have to invent that food pill the supersonics have, haha the whole meal inside one single pill.

anyway I am having zucchini, tomatoes and eggs for dinner, I need the protein and it just sounds yummy.

I don't want to weight myself again anytime soon, maybe in a month or so. but if in a month I haven't lost any weight then I'll get a bit worried! because I am working hard. yes!


well that's it for today. happy weekend everybody
 
Hello Amiba, you're doing so well for yourself, I hope the weight starts to come around for you. :)

I apologize if I came across as knocking your dad. Eek. I hope I didn't. It's nice to be so close to family, or just having family to be close with, so they and we can help one another along when we truly need it. :)

I know I should probably stick to cooking with olive oil and that butter is better than margarine, I like all three!! :D I need to remember to keep my *healthy fats* & not cut everything out entirely. I need to keep this brain afloat. :D

Or like the very first Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory where he makes that pill with Turkey & potatoes and than the Blueberry Pie!!! Hell Yes!! Than could I PLEASE have some banana lick wall paper!! LOL

A Juicer would be a bunch o fun. I swear eating right even with cutting calories is more than what most ppl eat. Especially when following a certain amount of cals per day. :party:

Anywho gotta be up soon....haha Laterz

Oh and major double P.S. I think I totally forgot to mention in the last post how utterly adorable those pics are of you! Snazzy Dress!! I wanted to, but I forgot cuz I had alot to say. ​
 
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hey sweetie thanks yet again! I love reading what you have to say :) you are a great friend

so after a lot of thinking and years of feeling a big off, I decided it was about time to make an appointment for a colonic hydrotheraphy. they are a bit scary but so SO necessary for a girl like me who suffers from cronic constipation. stress just makes it worse and lately even though I've been drinking a lot of water and exercising, having more fiber I am still not able to go to the bathroom on a regular basis, or it just hurts badly.
60 bucks well invested let me tell you, I am excited about starting to clean my poor colon and I know it will aid in my weight loss process. not because I ''lose some'' but because I clear the way for all the healthy nutrients I am having and my poor body can't appreciate.
I'll let you know how it goes, well not ALL the details that's for sure!


I am back in school and even though I am not too excited about having to work and get stressed again I am happy about doing something during my day, something productive, I love to learn.

my spinning is going strong, this will be my 3d week. it helps me relax, I sweat a little and the cardio doesn't hurt either.
ha that reminds me, I had one of those electroacupunture tests, to see how my energy levels are and basically everything inside me is screwed, just not my cardiovascular system, go figure! exercise does help.
but yes stress and a damage to my nervous system, and the severe constipation isn't helping. I feel weak and vulnerable, my back hurts and my tummy is bloated, I am hoping the colonic and exercise are a start to a healthier lifestyle that will result in a better me!


I had pita bread today with ham and cheese, it was lovely
cereal for breakfast and a granola bar so far

xoxo

Di
 
I had cereal for Lunch! LOL I didn't want to cook, well rather can't really move around in my kitchen, it's a tad crowded. :willy_nilly:<ahahah I LOVE this lil guy sooo much! LOL

You and me both, constipation, I get sooooooooo happy whenever I finally pass some. SICK. :D I ate a month's past the due date old yogurt a few nights ago, and I pooped some pounds I Tell YA!!!! Yea my dad likes to keep yogurt that long....geeesh.

I'd like some more old yogurt please!

I hope your treatment goes well! I am excited to hear how it goes for you!
:)​
 
haha yeah many of us girlies have constipation it is SO awful because it is preventing me from losing some weight it seems.. I have the digestive system of an iguana. sigh :p

colonics can be a little scary but boy do they work. I want my system clean so I can nurture it the way it should with healthy food. all those years of poor habits can really hurt our bodies who aren't that used to all the artificial stuff

lol omg bad yogurt sounds like a party in your stomach!
I once had a stomach flu and couldn't eat for a couple of days, I hardly got liquids in and of course everything I had came out, haha those are some fun ways of losing weight!




so today's spinning class was ok. I wasn't too tired, so I don't know if I am building resistance or just not working hard enough, I'll try to kick it up after my colonic therapy, I so need to feel better.

gosh I am so boring today haha nothing new. will let you now how the therapy goes and well, just staying on track!

xoxo
 
oh P.s. Check out Alta's Diary, she eats Raw, and mixes with her juicer all the time too!! Really good recipe tips! :)​
 

this is my third year of school, I want it to be over!
and move to the states and study there after :)



sooo.. the colon hydrotherapy was interesting. the clinic is beautiful and it was well worth the 60 bucks that's for sure! I wasn't too nervous and the nurse was very kind and it didn't hurt at all. it was a bit tough because of my constipation but that's why I am cleaning my poor colon, my next session will be in about 15 days. I know many people don't believe these type of interventions are necessary but live with my colon for a couple of days and you'll see!

my spinning is going strong <3 from monday to friday, I am a better person because I exercise. I feel stronger and I am starting to enjoy the sweat, the pain and all. lol such a masochist

I am still struggling with a diet plan and I am not currently counting calories, just an approx.
like today I had a V8, a banana and a small whole grain muffin for breakfast
soy meat with veggies, beans and whole grain tortillas (around 90 cals for the tortillas that I did check)
and I had a whole grain sandwich with some tomato juice.
oh and chai tea!

I know a lot of carbs still. I love them so much! I have to cut them down especially at night but heck, sometimes I just can't resist it :p
I have to eat more ''healthy fats'' which I am lacking and also aids the colon so, avocados come to me. and olive oil! in moderation of course


I don't know, I am giving my best and sometimes I just get frustrated. all of the girls in my spinning class are slim, some are even crazy thin, like no ounce of fat in their bodies. they just appear so obsessed with exercise and looks it drives me nuts sometimes. it is tough being the ''fat gir'' with only 150 pounds but at least I am trying hard and I can keep up with them and even more, so I am proud about that!

I do embrace my curves, I just want to control them a little bit! haha

that's it for today, another struggle. let's see how tomorrow goes
 
Hey Amiba,

Sounds like you're fighting the good fight!

Sweating and All!! WOO!

What is the difference between whole wheat and Whole Grain? Why is Whole Grain Better than whole Wheat?

I found some Whole Grain Tortilla's the other day, and they were like $8 bucko's...seemed expensive, but of course it's because they're organic.

All I want to eat tonight is Frosted Mini WHEATS!! But I've been good.

Where in the States do you want to study? Isn't your dad in the states too? Will you be closer to him? If you move to the States, you'll than be a WHOLE country closer to me! LOL

Laterz ;)​
 
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