OK.
After all the drama from the day I have reached a few conclusions.
1. I am not crazy. I need to remember that this is my first real attempt at losing weight. I am going to do things wrong.
2. I need to keep a tighter rein on my calories. I need to start counting again. *sigh*
3. I need to start taking measurements. This will happen in the am tomorrow.
4. I need to remember where I came from- not where I need to go. I was a 265 lb chain smoking sob 5 months ago. Now I am a 225 lb sob who eats right and doesn't smoke.
5. I need to start focusing on the positives.
6. As long as anything is changing- scale, measurements or fitness/strength it is a good thing and a tool to keep moving.
Ran 6 miles today in just under 54 minutes. My goal by the end of next week is going to be to run 10 miles in one run- averaging a 10min mile. 1/2 marathon on 8/15!