I have a bit of insomnia tonight.. last nights dreams were not pleasant and brought up alot of memories. I decided to write a poem- it probably sucks. I just wanted to get my feelings on paper. I love all you guys, you are like a second family. I decided to post it and let the few who read my diary see. I just really need some words of wisdom now- some days It's so hard to make it through.
"You Haunt Me"
Behind those hands you touched me with, a guilty conscience lied. No matter how much you covered it up those feelings you were unable to hide.
Under those covers you broke me down, I grew Dependant on you I bet you felt proud.
You found someone with no voice of there own, someone so innocent, I was eight years old.
For years you made me think that I could trust what I was being told, you said you would never hurt me. I thought you had a heart of gold.
When I was wise enough, to see the lies you fed to me. I let everyone know the pain you had caused me.
You took all I had, and that just wasn't enough. You couldn't even admit to it, why couldn't you just fess up?
You tore me apart once more, you left no tracks behind.
Everyone was fooled by your deception, but only I was hurt by your lies.
I prayed that one day everyone would see through your trickery, the evidence against you was undeniable you see.
My day of justice never came, before you passed away did you ever feel ashamed?
I just wanted an apology, but that was to much it seems.
It wasn't enough you took my life away, now you haunt me in my dreams.
.. When I went on vacation, I got my ears pierced. I have gotten them pierced two times before, but for some reason I always let them grow up. I now remember the reason lol. Both of my ears have a huge infection, I mean knots the size of a pearl. =[
