Alee's new way of life!

Hi everyone- its been a bit since I posted last, I haven't really been around the computer to much. I have spent sometime at a friends lake house, and I have been doing my exercise regularly. I really love swimming too( although I never wear a bathing suit- just some clothes. one day I will though!)I am having a problem though. Lately I haven't been eating as well as I should, its hard being around people my age and going out and staying away from my home because I basically eat what they eat. Pizza, sweets.. its hard to find something thats good for me. Especially this past weekend on the lake. The lake house has candy and they ordered Pizza. I eat a piece of pizza or two and feel horrible. I know it was just one time, but its really hard to not pass up in that situation.


Besides that I am doing ok, a little down. My sister started dieting about two weeks ago- she ways alot less than me. She has lost alot more weight than I have. She sat around the house walked a few times a week( maybe twice) and watched what she ate. If I did that I wouldn't loose anything! Its frustrating.

Anyways- just a little rant. I hope everyone is having a good week!
 
2 more pounds down! It feels great, tomorrow I am going to get some things done to my hair with my sister and cousin! It will be lots of fun :]

I also have been cutting back on diet soda's and tomorrow I plan on cutting them off completely.. When my sister did she said she had headaches from caffeine withdraw. I'm not worried though- have to cut them out one day anyways!

I am thinking June will be a great weight- loss month for me! I am really excited. :]
 
This month started off in a little bit of disappointment. Not about my weight loss though! So thats great:]

I went to get my hair cut and everything yesterday- I was sooo excited. It turned out all wrong! Boo! I wont let it get me down though. Everyone says it looks fine but I really do not like it. I guess there could be alot more things to complain about though. hehe

I plan on June being a great weight loss month for me though. Not only because of the challenge I signed up for- but because July is when my wonderful boyfriend of over a year and a half is coming to visit. He lives in Chicago, I live 14 hours away :[ Its hard but it is just that much better when he comes here and sees the weight loss for himself! I am planning on going to college in Chicago after I finish my nursing degree here. I will get a job there and go back to school for Radiology! :] fun fun. I hope to be -16 pounds lighter by the end of join instead of my -8 at the moment :]

I will write back later:] Hope everyone has a good weekend!
 
Soo... I wasn't going to weigh until the 8th. I was so excited about cutting out everything but water and juice that I had to.

This morning I am 219.. finally out of the 220's :] Well at least till the end of the day hehe. It's a nice feeling!
 
I am still doing good - loosing weight at a good pace- and in a healthy way! :] I hope I will be able to post before and in between pictures in a few months! I am for sure I will reach my Christmas goal or be really close to it!

I said before in one of my other updates that my sister is "dieting" to. Well I have noticed some days she only eats one meal- and maybe a snack the whole day. I confronted her and told her its not healthy to eat as little as she is eating- she says " Well I'm loosing weight." I tell her every little while she can eat more than she is and loose weight- she doesn't listen to me. "You're not an expert." I know I'm not an expert hehe- I just like to read a good amount about the subject. Since I started my journey to loose weight - I have gained a good bit of knowledge. Or I think so. :] I just do not know how to get through to her!:boxing:

Anyways, I will update later! Hope everyone has a great week:]
 
Hey Alee,

A while since i've stopped by, but sounds like you are doing great.

YAY at your boyfirend coming soon, and good luck with your June weightloss ambition :)

xx
 
Today has been slow! I haven't had any slip ups' today though. That's always good! :] I plan on cleaning the house some.. and going walking. Maybe even go out to dinner with my family- or eat at home and go with them and get a big glass of water! Who knows. hehe


Will write back when more is going on :]
 
This week has been boring. :[ I need to find new hobbies- things to get out and do. I go out walk, etc.. come in do housework and study. It's horrible. I rhave a few people I hang out with. I have a cousin, she is engaged. Her finance works offshore, and is gone two weeks-home two weeks etc. When he is gone I'm usually with her. When he comes back I am bored out of my mind. My other friend is out of town for this summer - taking classes(she will graduate this coming year. )


As I have said before, I do online classes. Well, in the past two months I have decided taking my GED would speed up the process. So I am studying for that now. I know the person who is over the nursing department or better yet my parents do- they have said me getting my GED would not hinder me getting into the program. Which I already knew. So yea.. I am studying for the test. Walking- doing housework etc.. I really think if I had more things to do than it would be x10 easier to keep on losing this weight. Now, I think finding things to do would be a ton easier if I lived in a bigger town.

Population (year 2000): 8,794. Estimated population in July 2005: 8,691 (-1.2% change)
Males: 4,026 (45.8%)
Females: 4,768 (54.2%)

See what I mean? I live in the middle of nowhere. :[ So boring. So if anyone has any kind of suggestions for things I could try to occupy myself - please tell me =P:jump:

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I have been doing good on what I have been eating, I had one or two slip-ups in the past few weeks, I'm not discouraged though. Everyone has there moments. :] I think I could be exercising more than I am, I will try and work on that more. I have just been a little down lately at my lack of change, every day is the same and boring!

That's all that has been going on, I will write back when I have more going on- which will hopefully be soon! :]
 
I just woke up, I would have wrote last night but I was sooo tired. Yesterday I went with my sister out of town to shop. I hate shopping for clothes, it just depresses me. She wanted me to spend some time with her and I said ok. I can't wait to be able to find clothes a little easier. Everyone I'm around wears a size 3 or 5. It's frustrating :[

I found 2 shirts, a t-shirt and another cute shirt. I also bought a long skirt and some new shoes. My sister on the other hand bought 3 sun dresses a pair of caprice's, 3 pairs of shoes, and I know 2-3 shirts. It sucks. I know I'm big, so I don't buy tiny shirts that barely fit, and shopping for pants. Ugh don't even go there. It just makes me want to loose weight more, while at the same time makes me want to cry :[

Anyways, I will write back later!
 
It has been a little while since I wrote.. but I haven't had much to say until today :]

I went to the doctor an endocrinologist out of town today.. she said that it looked like I have a Insulin Resistance and I am Pre-Diabetic.. =/. Also that I produce to much male hormones.. great huh?=p So I have to go to my doctor here so they can do all that testing in a week or so.. then back out of town in 3 weeks to check with her. When I go back to her she is also setting me up with a dietitian.

but yea.. it was a long day.. :[ I guess I need to work harder to loose this weight.. she was really concerned. I am trying though. I believe its the hardest thing I have ever done in my entire life.

I will write back tomorrow! I am tired!
 
Well this week has been more than boring.. and also disappointing.. I have been walking at least a mile more than usual.. and I haven't lost one pound this week. I even cut my cal's back a little. :[ It's frustrating. I will keep my head up though!

I have to go to the hospital Monday for the sugar tests and all, I have to drink that nasty syrup drink! eww.. and then back out of town the week after that.. oh what fun :[ At least my boyfriend will be here in 10ish days!

Hope everyone's week is going well.. I will write back soon!
 
I have some new pictures as well. I took them 2 days ago..




:] also the scale is telling me 214.6 now .. makes me feel a little better!
 
I woke up late today.. :[ but I am still happy.. I thought I wasn't going to loose any weight this week and I was wrong.. I am down to 212.6 :O I even took a pic of the scale I was so excited.. I have officially lost 15lbs :] It's a great feeling.

June was a great month.. I have a feeling July will be too.. With me having company.. and the next week after that I am going to the mountains on vacation! Hopefully I will be around 200-204 by the time we go on vacation! Almost to ONEderland :] I am so happy!


pic of the scale!
 
I did really well considering all the food that was cooked here yesterday ( 4th of July) :] I am happy about that... this morning has been great so far- I am feeling super energetic today.

I was thinking what all I want to do when I get to my goal weight so I am going to make a list here!

- This may sound corny, but I want to be able to walk around my house in a towel and it actually fit all the way around me. It's so annoying that I cannot do this! I will conquer the towel! :]
- Buy a 2 piece bathing suit.I know every woman says this but.. it's just one of those things. I haven't worn a two piece since I was like 9- no joke. That will be a great day :]
-Go shopping, Everyone has there own personal style, and I really want mine- but its super hard to have your own style when nothing ever fits. I may find one shirt and a skirt that fits in an entire mall. That's usually in Dillard's.
- Work on my tan( I may do this while loosing weight too) I have lots of stretch marks, which makes it even harder to find cloths. I am hoping the tan will help them fade a little more.
-Get a new haircut and a makeover. It will be so much more fun to do this when I loose weight. When I get my haircut now its ok, but it would be great if I were thin.
-Take LOADS of pictures. Pictures are ok for me now if *I* take them and *I* can take them from a certain angle. I hate not having any pictures with my family because I am to self conscious :[
-I am going to go visit all those people who made fun of me. I am going to thank them. Although I won't go into detail about why I am thanking them. I just want to- they made me want this more, and made me stronger :]
- Go visit my old doctor's who knew I was going to be overweight , and sadly I ignored them.. thinking it would go away. I will show them how healthy I am. :]
-I will go on a road trip, stopping in ton's of neat cities along the way.
-I will wear shorts, shorts, and short skirts:] I have never been able to do much of that so it will make me feel x10 better.
-Most of all , when someone asked me what I have done with my life. I will tell them I have lost 93 pounds- How about you? :] Believe me some people never thought I would go anywhere or be anything because of the family I come from. It's awesome to know that my family and myself have come so far. I can't wait to see their faces. :eek:


My results from these past few months, have changed my outlook on almost every aspect of my life. I know I can actually do anything that I set my sight on and I am proud of how far I have come and how far I will go. :]
 
This may sound corny, but I want to be able to walk around my house in a towel and it actually fit all the way around me. It's so annoying that I cannot do this! I will conquer the towel! :]
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that's one of my goals too - it almost fits but not quite - so it's not corny at all :)

will wear shorts, shorts, and short skirts:] I have never been able to do much of that so it will make me feel x10 better.
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Skank it up while you're still young :)

and I have to tell you your sister is very beautiful :D thanks for sharing her story...
 
Well, tomorrow my boyfriend comes into town. He lives in Illinois I live 14 hours away. It is hard seeing him once a month or once every other month :[ It puts an enormous pressure on both of us. I am young though and I try not to let it bother, me I have alot of other things to worry about. Like this weight loss thing :]

I have felt super energetic the past few days, which is good. I think I added some things in my calorie intake that has helped. Proof that not always less is best right? :]

I am also super excited my mom hasn't had a vacation from work in forever and at the end of this month we are going to stay in the mountains(Gatlinburg, TN- indoor pool jacuzzi in all bedrooms the whole shabang) She is so happy, and that makes me happy. She has had alot of medical problems lately. She has a bacteria that leads to stomach cancer and two rounds of the medicine hasn't done anything for her. It worries her me and my sister.. but I am always there to tell them anything could happen and it be ok. I am the person who keeps everything calm, which amazes me because 3 or 4 years ago I would have panicked. I am just glad we are getting this vacation, she really needs it.

Anyways, thats all that has been going on with me lately. :] Hope everyone has a good weekend !
 
maleficent said:
that's one of my goals too - it almost fits but not quite - so it's not corny at all :)



Skank it up while you're still young :)

and I have to tell you your sister is very beautiful :D thanks for sharing her story...
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haha.. I will see how much I skank it up in a few months! :p I will tell her you said that :] She recently lost around 10-15 lbs too.. she looked fine to me before but she constantly said she "was porking it up" :[ So I helped her! lol
 
Well, this week has some good, and some bad. I will take both though and smile :]

The good: I am getting a treadmill today! I finally convinced mom into getting one. I am happy, maybe I can convince everyone to walk some. :]

The bad: My boyfriends car has some problems, and well he can't make it this week. The problems may cost a good bit of money though. He was really upset. He is planning to go on vacation with us though- if his car is fixed and he can get a few days off. So that's good.

.. More bad: I woke up this morning and my right eye is swollen in the color and red and it hurts all over. Under - around.. ugh.. My other eye did this last week. I have no clue whats going on. Maybe its an allergic reaction to something but what!:mad:

Anyways.. I will write back more later! :]
 
Ugh this week has just been terrible. As I have said before I ended up quitting school in the middle of my freshmen year for some reasons. Well, I was doing a program online and basically I was so far behind, I think catching up by myself would be to stressful for me to do alone. So, now I plan on getting my GED- I have the book and I am studying. I always thought I was smart and things like this would be easier for me. I am now finding it hard to go on and do anything.

A little background of my past with school: Certain event's happened, I left school. I started playing a video game and didn't leave my house. I decided to go back to school- this was when I was only a year behind. I ended up quitting again, with the pressure of being behind. Certain people's criticizing me for everything. It was horrible. I know it was a mistake to not stay in school both times, and I try not to have regrets. I am still young, and I can still do anything I want as far as schooling goes. It is just so much harder, I feel like I am doing it all alone and it is pounding my self -esteem into the ground.

Not only that, but Having the lack of support outside of this site with loosing weight is hard. My mother is always working. I have been worried about her lately as I said before she has some medical problems thats stressing everyone out. My sister is busy with her school and moving. My boyfriend and I have been going through major problems, and its hard for me to focus with all that stress.. he just really doesn't seem to care. It's starting to make me think maybe I should just let our relationship go. I have been thinking that was best for awhile, but now I know it is. It hurts, because I do love him. I just can't take having someone so negative and someone who just disregards anyone else's feelings but there own. With that said- relationships are at the bottom of my list. Before I met him they were. He just came out of nowhere I guess. Now the feeling of ever starting over scares me. I am not as pretty or as skinny as I use to be. I am not as outgoing as I once was.

After I quit school, I went into a slump. I didn't leave my house for 7-8months. Not even going outside. Until I met my current boyfriend. It's really hard going through everything alone, or feeling like I am alone. I want to be the first person in my immediate family to go to college and not drop out. How can I do this though- if I can't even finish high school?

I have gained two pounds and not lost any since all this stress. Some day's I wonder how do I keep going, and when is it going to get better? The only thing that keeps me going is the faith that I always had .. knowing it can only get better. Lately I am starting to question if that's really true?

I am sorry for all the ramble. I just needed to vent :[
 
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