A new start for Iwan

Iwan naloseit

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Hey all! I'm back after a scary ride. I won't go into too many details but I do have issues with depression and I let it get the best of me and I let it contribute to a very unhealthy view of food and for a few weeks I found it difficult even to consider eating becasue I was terrified I'd just get fatter again. I feel alot better now, especially after taking a break from dieting and self loathing. I think alot of it came from my former job. I felt boxed in there, like even if I wanted to walk I couldn't because there was nobody competent enough to step up and do the job. Thankfully at the bottom of that hole I stopped caring who did my job.
I just started as a patient case manager at a small medical office, totally the opposite of what I was doing before and I love it. I work 7.5 hours a day which is a far cry from the 16-20 I was putting in at my old job. And since the doctor I work with handles alot of elderly and diabetic patients she has a staff nutritionist who has a wellness initiative in our offices so we get to weigh in, she makes dietary plans for us and evaluates our progress on a bi-monthly basis. I love her...lol.
For the last two weeks I've been holding steady at 198 lbs. I havn't been able to do any cardio because my excersize has been thwarted by the need to shovel mass amounts of snow out of my driveway twice daily (I could pay for a snow removal service but I get some good excersize doing it myself). We have had amazing amounts of snow this year.
Anyways, I just wanted to post a new thread, I'm back on the wagon and not planning on going off of it (because I want to win the office 6 month challenge). I missed ya'll. Oh, and if you were watching the news last night and heard about the tsunami warning we are all still alive...lol...my sister called me screaming and crying and freaking out telling me to go to higher ground or we were all going to die...she called from florida of all places...floridians knew about our tsunami warning before we did. Thank you alaska early warning system.
 
Hey Girl,
I have been so missing you!

Welcome back and good for you for getting back on track! It's good to hear you've got a new job - the last one had so much un-needed pressure!
 
WOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! You're back!!! I was so excited to see your name up there again :D I'm sorry to hear about your reasons for not being around...I hope this new year will be a lot better for you.

Please keep in mind that shovelling snow is a great workout.:D
 
Alright! I love federal holidays! Let me take a moment to truley appreciate all that MLK JR did for minorities in this country. I heart equal justice for all!

I have no hot water till later today. my water heater blew up a few nights ago and the new one made it in yesterday so my good ol' trusty plumber is going to be working on that today, tonight I can shower! I hope this doesn't effect my water pressure.

So, In my old journal I used to do alot of whining, my resolution for 2007 is to not be so whiney. I think I can manage that. Positive outlook! thats my new mantra.

I do have to have a moment of accountability though. I went out on saturday night and had a few too many (okay 4 drinks). not good. But I danced, not till I was sweating but I danced non the less. Thats gotta count for something. I went out with friends, yes, I finally have some of those. Its amazing what a change in careers can do for you. Now people aren't afraid I'm going to haul them in so they hang out with me. I'm cool now! LMAO!

So today my food plan is as follows. If I write it down I will follow it right? Hopefully.
B: good ol' trusty latte (137)
L: Lean cuisine (140)
D: Grilled cheese sandwiches w/ clam chowder (500ish)
S: banana (120), pria bar (110)
water: 100 oz (did you see that article about the california woman who drank herself to death with water for a nintendo wii...hellooo! everything is lethal is large doses!)

I found a local weightloss friend when I was at the bar on saturday, I told her about this forum and I'm going to remind her of it when I email her today. Hopefully she'll stop by and like what she sees.
 
Iwan!!! Welcome back girl - I was just wondering where you'd gotten off to?! Congratulations on the new job! And yay for the in house nutritionist!

Good Luck with everything! :D:D
 
Hey my amazing shrinking friend! I missed you too. But, sometimes a girl has to take a break for re-evaluations and mental health. I"m not claiming I'm mentally healthy here...
 
mentally healthy is way overrated -- come sit over on the insane portion of the forum - I've got the good coffee :D

I'm so glad you're back - i've missed you :D
 
Would you look at you out dancing and drinking!

:)

As for the insane portion of this forum - count me IN!
 
hi :)

Glad to see ya!! Nothing marks a fresh start like a new diary!

Anyways....good luck!! You can totally do it!
 
Welcome back! I hope eveything's just going great for you. I knew you were struggling in your last journel and I am glad you are back with us!!:)
 
I'm not missing! I was just super busy and then I got sick on top of it. Good thing though, I lost 5 lbs between friday and monday. Of course its probably due to dehydration. So today I'm going to lunch with my mom and I am eating the fatiest thing I can find on the menu because I havn't eaten a real meal in four days. This is what happens when you start working at a dr. office, you get every nasty germ known to man. Yeah!!
Anyways, still here...very busy...the king crab A season started this week and it has been hecktic to say the least.
 
NOt better. Worse. The flu has turned into a raging soar throat, a fever/chills, headache...you name it I feel it right now. And I'm at work, yay!
I've been eating to my fat hearts content since sunday's barfest. I even dared to eat chicken chow mein which is rumored to have about 1200 cals per serving and you KNOW that what they give you is not one serving...more like 2. But, I havn't gained anything so I'm all good.

Todays numbers:
B: coffee w/ creamer + yoplait light = 230 cals
L: tuna, tomato, jalapeno, celantro, lemon, salt, pepper + rice= 200
D: same as lunch=200
Snack: fig newtons, cottage cheese, banana, clemantine=330
T: 960...this is just a forcast, it could get worse.
speaking of forcasts, our weather sucks, snowing white out conditions winds 50-70 mph gusting to 80...at least my life does not lack excitement.
 
ahhh, thanks Mechelle...I could use more healing vibes (I'll share with our patients I promise). My head feels really strange right now. If I stand up real fast....
 
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