ADAY 227
Breakfast: 2 small slices of wholemeal toast with light spread and cheese slice
2nd breakfast: Same as above (454 cals)
Lunch............................
Dinner: Roast chicken, roast potato's, green beans, peas, brocolli and gravy (575 cals)
Snacks: Christmas cake!, banana cake!, granola bar, 3 coffee's and a biscuit (734 cals)
Total calories = 1763
Exercise: 5 mile run. doing 2 min walk/5 min run on the way up and run all the way back.
Yesterday.
We had a lovely lazy waking and getting up. Then i did something i really don't think i have every done before...........I shared a shower with Mark! No, nothing naughty, not really anyway, we were just silly really, it was fun. It made me think about my confidence level, i really didn't think about my body and 'wobbly' bits which was a really big step for me. I think the fact that Mark is loving my new body and and can't leave it alone has really boosted my confidence. Not that he wasn't all cuddly and tactile before but not like he is now, it's lovely. Real biggy for me
We didn't go downstairs for breakfast til well after 10!!
how lazy is that!!!! We then did our usual saturday morning shop up town, in one shop, Mark was at the counter and i was looking at the newspapers when one of my patients came up to me and was gushing about how amazing i looked (i was fine with it
) then she went to go and as she got to the shop door she turned around and came back and asked how i did it and what exercise i did. It was really odd having people actually asking me for advice. I had forgotten to say on friday's post that someone did exactly the same thing to me at the supermarket, she even walked away and came back and started quizing me about what i had done too. They were both suprised that i had done it the 'proper' way of eating healthy and exercising!
I went into Barnstaple in the afternoon to get my glasses
I was really nervous about getting them but the woman who makes sure they fit properly actually said to me 'ooh they look really good on you'
I don't know if she says that to everyone or whether she picked up on my nervousness but it really helped. I was really shocked at how much clearer my vision was with them so i kept them on. 'Come on Kate, you can do this!' As i was walking down the street i saw my mum and dad and i not joking here, i actually had to stand right in front of them for mum to recognise me!!!!! Mum normally comes round to ours for coffee at about midday on a sunday when i have just got back from my run and had a shower so i usually have my PJ's and dressing gown on and my hair is wet and tied up. When i saw them in town i was wearing glasses! My hair was down and straight and i was wearing make up, i had on knee high boots, thick black tights, knitted mini skirt and a really nice jumper. Mum just stared open mouthed at me, bless her
I thought she was gonna cry!!!! She said 'OMG you look.....oh i won't say anything......but I am so so proud of you' I thought i was gonna cry then
That was a moment i will treasure for the rest of my life, it really is
Bec's came round in the evening and did my hair and we had a few glasses of red wine and a damn good catch up, it was lovely
Today
Mark and Jack stayed out all night last night so i had another lazy, strechy waking up in the bed all to my self.....bliss. I got up and weighed. I really was quite nervous about doing it, i had at one point decided not to but i woke up feeling like it would be ok, if that makes sence. I was totally blown away that i had lost at all let alone 2lb!!!!! And then i realised that i was now 160lb which was my first target!!!! OMG!!!!!!!
When i first started my diary i genuinely never ever thought i would be able to stick with this for more than a few days let alone actually reach a target i have set. I moved my target after christmas and kinda forgot about this one and it wasn't until i read
Jess's post this morning that i really thought about the fact that i
HAVE ACTUALLY BLOODY DONE IT!!!!!! I really can't put into words how totally blown away i am with that.
Our run this morning was awesome. We upped our interval run from 4 to 5 mins and it was definalty harder but we felt great when we were finished. I love my sunday mornng run and then coming home to a 2nd breakfast
I jumped into the bath after breakfast and sat there thinking about everything i have acheived and how different i and my life is.
Jess's comment really made me look at my progress and i lay there thinking about my journey and i am now gonna say something that i use to feel that i had no right to say.......
I am really quite proud of my drive and determination!!! I also have to say that there is no way that i would have ever done this
without you!!!!!!! You have all completely changed my life and i really mean
COMPLETELY, TOTALLY AND UTTERLY!!!!. You have dragged me out of my grumps, encouraged me when i'm struggling and got excited with me when i have been like an sqealy child...........You are totally fucking awesome and i love you from the bottom of my heart.
Thank you 
I think i need to get some more photo's taken
Anyway....
Cate I know we all get the grumps and i know we all get thru them but i use to be like that ALL the time before and it scares me, ya know. Luckly it didn't last too long and i didn't do any damamage foodwise so
I still can't believe i had agreed to go running with 'wooffy' His name is Andrew but that is what everyone calls him. I am kinda looking forward to it but i am also really nervous. I keep having to tell myself 'you are not that person anymore, you can run and you don't look like a blob running anymore'
Yes, Mark is awesome
We have been together for 22 years and he is my soulmate. As the years have gone by we have got closer and closer. I couldn't ask for a better person to grow old with
Sarah I'm not doing a full marathon!!! Omg i can't see me managing that. I am doing a half marathon. But you never know, maybe in a few years........
Size32 Cheers for stopping by and thank you for your lovely comments
Oh, what's your name? If you don't mind me asking.
And finally
Jess My darling girl, what can i say. You are the person that flicked the switch in my head that made me do this, YOU!!!! I will forever be grateful. Your wonderfully kind, encouraging words have changed my life. Look at what you gave me the courage to do. Love you
How do i feel? It is really mixed. Mentally i still see myself as fat but i know that will get better with time. I do still focus on my floppy flat boobs and my wrinkly stomach but i have been so fat all my life and i am 38 so i know it's my own fault and have to put up with it. I do see the massive difference and on the whole i'm really pleased. I still can't look in the mirror at my naked body and say 'i like that' but i don't think i ever will. I can stand in front of the mirror in my size 12 clothes and think 'you look quite nice' I have never ever thought that before, actually i didn't look at myself in the mirror if i could get away with it. The main thing that i love is my new found self confidence, Mark has noticed it and Mum too and they both love it. And yes, i do have my moments where it freaks me out but mostly i am blown away with how happy i am now.
Thank you so so much
I have written a bloody novel here so won't get chace to check out everyones diaries but will give it a go.
! It would be nice if we never had those "stuff your face because you're feeling grumpy" days. I have felt the same sweetie! Look at you though! What have you done? Committed to a regular run with a marathon runner! GO KATE!!! You have taken the bull by the horns sweets & are moving on. Proud of you! Mark sounds like such a sweetie. We're 2 very lucky women Kate, xoxo Cate
I'm not gonna say another word about it. 
Accepting our new selves is good, but learning to love our new selves would be great! Let's both work hard on that one. We do deserve it, you know!