A new me! (hopefully, with some help)

Hi, I'm bethshek444 and I'm so excited to part of the weight-loss community. Losing weight has been my problem before and I have tried different methods in losing weight but I ended up failure. Things came into my mind of Weight Loss a "Dream ? or I must really start in you MIND? Ohh... that sound funny right?

Yes, it is true when you dream of something in your life, it must come first of desiring something and thinking something to be real in your life. Weight loss must come first in your mind. Just like for example if you're planning for a baby, you must plan for it and there will be an implantation of that baby and for 9 months you are doing something to make that baby be realized and be birth out. Weight loss can be exciting and as you wait for the day to be slim and sexy in a new figure of

success.
 
Hi Kate, I also experience that thing before,I was motivated in reading some other people experiences and what they do on how losing weight and other methods.
 
AHey Kate,
Sounds like life is coming at you at "point blank range" these days...just know we're here for you! Love hearing about your runs! You get all the credit for reminding me I could run again! Thank you, and for that, I will forever be grateful!
Hugs!:grouphug:

Sarah
 
Hope you come back when life calms down a little, it's not the same without you here!! You were already here when I started out so long ago!!
 
Hi Guys :)

I feel so bad...It has been bloody ages since i have been on here :blush5: BUT i am back :)
I was going to start a brand new diary. A new start but then i thought 'this isn't a new start. It is a fresh start' :)

I am so so sorry for not being here for you all. i will make up for it...... i promise :)

I was going to get back on track on the third of Jan but i feel sooooooo fat after eating like there was no tomorrow over christmas. We have friends coming round tonight for food and drinks so I AM GOING TO START TOMORROW!!! 1.1.13 will be the start of 'A new me.......Part 2'

I have quite a few aims for this new year!!!

1. I aim to lose weight and my target is going to be 150lb
2. I am NOT going to eat bread for the whole of 2013 (got a bet going with a friend)
3. I am cutting down on my meds and then cutting them out completely
4. I am going to give up smoking!!!!! I have an app on my phone that helps me cut out over 30 days!
5. I am going to get super fit :) and i'm gonna storm my half marathon!!!!!

Not much of a list huh lol.......I'm gonna actually measure myself every week as well as weigh (ok, so i'm starting on a tuesday but i am going to keep my weigh day as a sunday so i have time to measure etc)

Right, i thinks thats it. I will put my weight and measurements on here tomorrow. Prepare for terribleness!!!!!

I've really missed this place and you all. Looking forward to getting back on it :)

Much love and hugs
Xxxxxx
 
Welcome back Kate! No need to feel guilty love...we all go through times when we dont want to keep going...good news is you are back! We've really missed you! Good job on the bread decision...bet or not, I'm convinced it's a good thing to be rid of. I heard a dr sway the 4 reasons for the obesity epidemic in the US could be traced to 4 foods: soda, chips, bread and I can't remember the 4th one, but you get the idea!
One day at a time girl, and we'll help each other along the way! Remember it's a journey, not a race! (Like I remember that every day!...good reminder for self today!)
Happy new year dear, and lets make it a great year together!
Sarah
 
Happy new year all :)

Day 1

Breakfast: 50g porridge
Lunch: Roast beef, yourshire pudding, roast potato, parsnip, carrots, leeks, cauliflower cheese, swede and gravy
Dinner: Turket salad with a little coleslaw
Snacks: 3 coffees
Total calories: 1185

I did as good as i could seeing as i was at Mum's for her new years day mammoth dinner.
We have a huge gateaux in the fridge which i haven't touched :hurray:

I didn't do any exercise today. Cleared up after last night, then to mums and smoozed on the sofa while the wizard of oz was on.....very late night last night!

Ok, onto the scales info and measurements..........Eeeeek

Weight........81.2kg (my new scales are in kilos and i dont know how to change it)
BMI............28.7
Water.........46.3%
Muscle........37.5%
Bones.........3.4kg

Neck...........36cm
Arm............30cm
Waist..........95cm
Hips...........111cm
Thigh..........61cm
Calf............42cm

I will post updates on these on a sunday when i will do a weigh and measure :)
 
Day 2

Breakfast: 50g porridge
Lunch: 2 flatbread & camembert
Dinner: Turkey salad and a little coleslaw
Snacks: 3 coffees, a bit of christmas cake, 3 savoury bites and some carrot sticks, cherry tomatos and grapes
Total calories: 1329

Busy day today....Spent most of it taking down christmas decorations and tidying up after the chaos that is christmas.
Jack had his 'after show panto party' (even though it doesnt finish until friday! Did i mention that Jack was in the Pantomime this year :) very proud mummy!! Only problem is that it has taken over our lives for the last 2 months!!!!) and i was a good girl :) i only had a few savoury bites and carrot sticks, cherry tomatos and grapes :hurray: I didn't have any of the yummy junk food that most of the buffet consisted of and i didn't have cake....so, double :hurray:

Back to work tomorrow so life will get back to normal hopefully and i can get some running in......My race is in 2 months eeek!!!!!
 
KATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You're BACK!!!!! :hurray: :hurray: :hurray:

I'm sure you'll get to your goal in no time, I don't remember anyone being more determined than you last time you were here! Are you still running and gymming??
 
Hellooooo, glad your back on it again :D I'm really glad to see your back here, at one point you had a big red box under your posts saying you were inactive oooooooeeeeeeee.

Have things calmed down with work now? Are you getting much time for yourself? Are you going to be going to the gym or braving running outdoors?

When you said that you'd be back tomorrow with your stats I was expecting it to be really bad, your still slim :D

Well done to Jack for getting a part in the panto :) I'd be really proud as well :D

Lets do it baby! xxx

I've just started a new diary.... Its called Apple-aid: The final goodbye.
 
WAAAaaaa I was just comign in to say hugs and helloos that we are both back...but you are now gone... *sob wail*
 
Hi

I have started reading thu this old journey of mine to try and inspire me to do what I did nearly 3 years ago now. I have to admit I am in an even worse place mentally at the moment than I was then and I was hoping that reading through it would give me some inspiration. I then thought that I should start yet another new diary (there have been quite a few failed attempts) but then decided that if I was going to do this then it was going to be a continuation of my first journey.

Ok, my life at the moment.......Pretty bloody crap to be honest. I saw a therapist yesterday and apparently I am suffering with 'severe depression' and 'moderate/severe anxiety'. I knew that I was struggling but I really didn't know how bad I had let it get before I went to see someone. My self loathing issues are really impressive right now. I have gained so much weight that none of my clothes fit. I'm disgusting!!!!!! I can't be bothered to do anything really and I worry all the time.
I keep telling myself that I have to do something about my weight gain and do it soon but seem to fail every bloody day!!!!!!
I'm gonna try and take it steady, each day at a time. Today was an ok day but I will weigh in the morning and start logging food etc. Well, try to. I have said this so many times but stop posting.

Here's looking to being more positive.

Kate
 
KATE!! :grouphug:

Hi luvvy, I'm so excited you're back around.

For starters: I'm so sorry to hear you're going though a bit of a rough patch. I have struggled with anxiety a lot in the past (and am a lot more now that I'm jobless and alone with my thoughts all day!) so I know how hard it is.

I'm gunna pop my 2c in, feel free to ignore my advice (I know people offering advice is pretty annoying, gunna do it anyway!) When you were here before you were trying to eat only 1000ish calories a day, which is WAAAAAY low. I'm 5"7, 161ish lbs right now, and I can sit on my ass alllllll day and do nothing, eat 1800 cals a day and still have a 500cal deficit a day... which is still about 500g/1lb loss per week. Don't try to lose fast or all at once, it is pretty damaging to your metabolism if you can stick to it and if you can't then bingeing happens. I exercise pretty much every day at the moment and I'm eating around 2000ish cals per day- besides exercising, I pretty much sit all day. I still manage to get a little hungry but it's not bad enough that I can't deal with it.

Also... have you considered weight training? Like proper weight training with really big n heavy weights? I don't think anything has changed my outlook on my 'ideal' body more than that has. Even though right now I weigh more than I have in several years, I am happy with a lot more of my body, I can see the things it can do, I can see/feel myself getting stronger. And I no longer want to be a waiflike stick figure!! Maybe consider getting a PT session- like once a week- so someone can give you a program and advice, and push you extra hard that one day. It's reaaaallly hard when you start out, the whole first month will knock you on your ass even, but then you find that with each session you can push harder, lift a little more, see a little more muscle. Also if you're eating too little your lifts just fail so you kind of have to keep food in check! (Haha, and if you have an overeating day then you become a crazy Amazon woman for your next session and can lift a crazy amount more! Makes you feel much less guilty!) Another great thing is that on weeks you don't lose weight... you can look back and still see that you worked hard and continued to improve yourself. Ha, I'm rambling, but seriously- Nothing changed how I think about my body/self more than weight training has!

I hope you stick around... I'm planning to this time!
 
Hi sweetie, depression sucks & I know how hard it is to get to the stage where you see a therapist. You are being very brave. Opening up is so very hard when you're feeling really down. The minute anyone shows me any sympathy at the moment I'm in tears. You will turn it around Kate because you are doing something positive about it. Unfortunately, you & I both need to keep on top of our health & well-being & not let our guard down. Eating healthy & exercising has to be the norm. It is hard, but it shouldn't be. The temporary gratification we get from eating bad food is far out-weighed by the self-loathing & lack of self-esteem that follows. I'm 60 sweetie & still learning. I think I always will be.
I love you like a daughter (or much younger sister) and want you to be happy again. You can do this Kate. Taking one day at a time & emphasising every good thing about every day & not dwelling on the bad is the way forward. We're in this together. Sending you gazillions of love & hugs & kisses, xoxoxoxoxoo Cate
 
Hi all

Day 1

Breakfast: 2 small slices of wholemeal toast with light spread and marmite
Lunch: Ham & tomato baguette with salad and a glass of red wine
Dinner: Ummm fried bread (I'll explain)
Snacks: yoghurt with mixed berries
Calories: 1382

Fitbit:
12442 steps
2358 cals burnt

I'm also gonna write an 'out of 10' score for how I'm doing mentally. Todays mental score is a 7. I've had a few moments but all in all a good day :)

I actually got my arse out of bed early and walked the dog :) only did like 15 mins but it's better than nothing. Worked this morning and then went to lunch at the pub with a friend from work, Kayleigh. I did ok there, I went for the healthier choice.
I've been avoiding going out. one, cos I cant face it and two, so I don't eat (I just do it at home lol) I'm gonna make a real effort to go out more and do more :)

I had an appointment at the doctors this afternoon as the 'therapist' told me I needed to change my meds because they weren't working. (I just thought 'imagine how bad I would be if I wasn't on them' rather than maybe different ones would help!!) She was lovely, very supportive and changed them. I have to cut down the ones I'm on for 3 days then come off them for 4 days before I start the new ones!! That'll be interesting :eek:

Recently I have become a scout leader (I got conned! and thought it would get me out) I go on a Wednesday to do scouts and a Friday to do explorers (14-18 yrs) tonite we made bannock bread which is why I had fried bread for dinner!! I'm really enjoying it, the kids are lovely and they are really starting to accept me now as a part of the team :)

I've got a party tomorrow night I have to go too. I'm gonna try and be really good food wise but I'll probably drink a bit. I'm dreading it really, I have no idea what I'm going to wear :( I'm on a course all day tomorrow too....lots of people I don't know. Tomorrow is going to be a challenge!! Deep breath Kate...

Lucy
Hello my lovely. Yay I aim to stay too :) I really need to. Even if its just to rant lol
Thank you for your advice, my sister in law is really into weight/strength training and she loves it, she also looks bloody amazing!!!. I will try weights but I really don't want to do big ones. I think I look like a man as it is (when I was a school someone said that I looked like a Russian shotputter!! and it's stayed with me :( ) I'd really like to get back to enjoying running again too.
I know I had too few calories last time. I've so not got that obsessive focus at the moment so I reckon slow and steady is good right now. I am going to make sure I have at least 1200 a day and more if I work out.

What happened with work sweetie? xoxo

Anyway, day 1 done :)

Oh, I've put a ticker on!!! Shit loads of weigh to re-shift!!
 
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