A new lease on life - Xenon's Diary :)

[Xenon1]

WARNING: This post is about Japan and is emotional

Hey guys,

Just wanted to get this in before I start talking about weight loss. This morning I saw an article on Japan and the hundreds of bodies which have been washing up on the shore post tsunami. I really cried for about an hour and I kept searching my mind to consider if there was a way for me to travel there to help..came up with nothing because I cannot think of who will take care of the little one. PLUS if I just go there to help it will be nothing just me by myself. It really got me to thinking because for many years I wanted to be a geologist to work on ways for helping people in natural disasters and conducting research to develop more effective warning methods, but I changed my major to astrophysics because space sciences comes more natural to me. I know no single person can save the world, and natural disasters are not readily controllable, but it really kills me to see the tremendous loss of human life. I believe a third nuclear power plant has lost its cooling ability as well --which causes more health concerns. I admit I do not know all of the organizations around which intend to help or are helping, but it really seems to me that in all of our human potential we can do more for these precious people. I just wish we (humanity) had a really strong world disaster organization with cooperation of all nations. I know the UN does stuff but I think there needs to be a more advanced and comprehensive recovery organization. I know that Japan did a lot to protect its citizens including a 25 foot tsunami wall and many buildings built to withstand 7.0 quakes. We cannot always avoid such terrible disasters, but I wish we could do better at warning, evacuation, and recovery as a human family.

 

[Xenon1]

you should try picturing yourself at your ideal body weight, maybe that will motivate you.

you are doing really well keep it up, we're all behind you.

Thanks so much Katie, this is really a good idea, and I tried this a little before I got so depressed and was surprised to find I could not idealise myself! What I have been doing is trying to remember myself when I was thinner and I'm also trying to recall all of the things I used to enjoy before i got out of control with food. I posted a little about this on another forum as well. Basically I now realise that this entire journey is much more than just the weight loss, it is learning to appreciate who I was, who I am, and who I am becoming.

Hey Xe, I'm sorry yesterday wasn't great for you. But you know, we can't be perfect every day, and every now and then this happens, it's just important you pick yourself up again and keep going. Just remember the biggest part of weight loss is CONSISTENCY. So put yesterday behind you and keep going lady!!!

BTW.... Glad to see today was better for you!

Thanks so much Luz. You are totally right about consistency--and consistent is one thing I am not -_- I have been doing good at being persistent despite my failures, but I really need to work on consistency.

Hey Xenon
i m happy you are feeling better!!
so clever that you cook for the week! well done!
Your youtube video is fun - i m always on the hunt for some free excercize videos on the web! I usually do a bit of a modified version too! ehehe
Keep up the good job!!

Thx Justina! I make like a basic chicken for the week and then dress it up as I warm it My basic chicken has a lot of spices though lol Glad you liked the workout! I'll send you the link for that boot camp one via pm because I think it has some advertising on it and i never know what links are allowed in that case lol

Hey Xe

I have been feeling the same all of last week.....The weather is getting nicer out that will give me a boost. I hope you are feeling better.....I found mysefl snacking on lot of junk especially last week hubby worked nights so I was alone most of the time...We just gotta keep going....we both have worked hard to get where we are...if we turn back we have to start over....but if we keep going we are already part of the way there right? I hope you are feeling better this week!

We are having too many bad weeks at the same time Veronique lol. Sorry to hear that your week sucked too, but you are right, we just have to keep on going and we have come a really long way. I also think you are right about the weather. I went outside with my son for a walk today because I had to drop off my car at the mechanic. The weather is getting warmer so I didn't mind being out with him and walked a lot further than I planned. I think outside exercise is really very good for the mood. Unfortunately two car accidents almost happened beside us while we were on the sidewalk--both of which would have came over the sidewalk SO I need to find a park or something that we can walk in because I REALLY do not want to walk with him out there again! And I have to go out there with him once more to pick up the car But thanks again Veronique! We will make it as long as we keep fighting through!

Weigh in day is tomorrow--I would say wish me luck, but that probably won't help since I've been eating like a pig lol

 

[luzdafuzz]

Hey Xe!

So terrible what happened in Japan So many horrible things seem to be happening all at once- I'm still recovering from the devastation in New Zealand (I have family over there, they are all ok but everyone was affected. Plus everyone knows someone there/grew up there/ my mum used to live there)

Good luck on your weigh in tomorrow... It's my weigh in day too! We can do this!!

 

[healthyjess]

I could never picture myself as slim either, it never happened for me, and now that I'm closer to my goal I find if I see a reflection of myself it still really surprises me.
You can do it! Good luck for your weigh in

 

[Sunflower2]

I've been following the updates coming out of Japan--Breaks my heart. Feel like just going there and helping but we'd not be able to do anything

Try and have a good rest of week, hun xxxx

 

[bluepig1]

I panicked when I heard about Japan as we have family over there but luckily they're all fine..
But there is so much still happening, they're still getting awful aftershocks and now all this bother with the nuclear power plants!!!

 

[Justina]

Japan news are terrible It makes me sad. I really hope you can find a way to contribute/help

on a seperate note - i hope you have had a happy weigh in!

 

[Xenon1]

Well guys weigh in is exactly 266.6! WEIRD! Straight maintain --no gain, no loss. I was really expecting a gain with the way I've been eating! Feels like a clean slate for me and I'm going to really push this week and get my activity levels up. I find that being outside really helps my mood and reduces stress levels, so I'm looking for parks that I can go to with the little one so he can get some play time in as well. I've read everyone's comments and really wanted to respond now but the little one has other plans lolol he is tearing up everything!

 

[Xenon1]

Hey Xe!

So terrible what happened in Japan So many horrible things seem to be happening all at once- I'm still recovering from the devastation in New Zealand (I have family over there, they are all ok but everyone was affected. Plus everyone knows someone there/grew up there/ my mum used to live there)

Good luck on your weigh in tomorrow... It's my weigh in day too! We can do this!!

I have to check to see how your weigh in went Luz
I really agree with you that a lot of terrible things seem to be happening at once. When I heard about the cyclone going to New Zealand I was horrified, then relieved, then when I heard about the earthquake I was so sad. I'm really sorry to hear about your family experiencing this, but I am very happy that they are all fine!

I could never picture myself as slim either, it never happened for me, and now that I'm closer to my goal I find if I see a reflection of myself it still really surprises me.
You can do it! Good luck for your weigh in

Jess your post really means a lot to me! I was feeling so terrible that I could not envision myself slim--as if I lost touch with myself or something. I'm happy to know that you are now able to see something so beautiful that you could not envision I wonder what my reaction will be when I get there lol

Gotta run again bbl

 

[Xenon1]

I've been following the updates coming out of Japan--Breaks my heart. Feel like just going there and helping but we'd not be able to do anything

Try and have a good rest of week, hun xxxx

I know! It kills me. If I go there just by myself to help, what good will I be? I'll just be taking up resources that could go to someone who really needs them. If I had a way to go with my own resources plus more it would be better.

Thanks for the well wishes on the week! I hope I'll be more consistent

I panicked when I heard about Japan as we have family over there but luckily they're all fine..
But there is so much still happening, they're still getting awful aftershocks and now all this bother with the nuclear power plants!!!

OMG your family is so lucky! I am so happy to hear that they're all fine redpiggy! I cannot imagine how you must have felt when you heard the news, I am so glad you were able to contact them! I have a gadjet that monitors earthquakes and I can see just how many aftershocks they are having...some are really quite notable..even a 6.1. I haven't looked at it in a few days because it really makes me so sad.

Japan news are terrible It makes me sad. I really hope you can find a way to contribute/help

on a seperate note - i hope you have had a happy weigh in!

I know it makes me sad too Thanks so much Justina, I really hope I can find something to do as well.

Weigh in was ok today I weigh exactly the same which is so strange to me lol hopefully the next weigh in will be a loss.

 

[Xenon1]

Well as I sat here eating a slice of pizza looking at my obese avatar eating a slice of pizza--I figured I better change her haha Oh and I found a really nice park not too far from here! The little one was loving every second of it lol I was letting him walk about almost freely (had to catch him when he tried to go into the lake and when he started to walk toward the street) We really had a good time together and I'm looking forward to going back again

 

[bluepig1]

mmmmm Pizza!!
I'm so off to put a pizza in the oven

 

[Xenon1]

Sorry for mentioning it redpiggy! Although...Veronique put me on to pita pizzas and I once made a pita pizza with turkey pepperoni and mushrooms...cals were only 155! I think I should do that again whenever I'm having a pizza craving!

 

[Xenon1]

Off to a good start today! Got enough sleep -- which is very uncommon for me. Eating according to my diet plan, and will be off to go shopping shortly after!

 

[Justina]

Off to a good start today! Got enough sleep -- which is very uncommon for me. Eating according to my diet plan, and will be off to go shopping shortly after!

Woohoooo!!! have a nice day lovely & dont worry about the scale - on the long run you are doing great!!!

 

[Xenon1]

thx justina I stuck to it entirely today

 

[bluepig1]

mmm Pitta pizzas... I might go make one
I did have pizza after your post, but I teamed it with a HUGE salad
Well done on sticking to it exactly

 

[Xenon1]

Thx redpiggy I had pizza this morning it never ends! HAHA leftovers from Tuesday -_-. Pizza and salad is a good combo...and I don't think pizza is all that deadly if done in moderation. I was going to have fruit with mine yesterday but neglected to do so for fear of getting some more slices while getting the apple
Unrelated question: What is the glider on your ticker? A hot air balloon?


I could not resist the scale today and I'm down .6lbs so 266 exactly. I feel good about it Guys I was wondering if you could help me with a decision. Last term my school had some wacky class schedules that did not fit into my schedule for some courses that are required for my major. No morning classes--I could not believe it. Anyways I was thinking of taking the two classes this summer but I'm feeling rather worn out now and I was pondering not registering for summer so I could regroup and improve my health a bit. The cost of not going this summer would postpone my 2yr graduation ceremony from summer of 2012 to january of 2013 -_- I was initially going to graduate jan of 2012 but missing these classes this semester would have pushed me back to summer of 2012. What do you guys think? Is it worth it, should I rest or just stick it out and rest like hell come winter break this year?

 

[bluepig1]

I'm really pushing myself to get in the shifts I need to pass the year and I'm worrying about the state it'll put me in so I can totally relate.
When do you have to decide by? How much time would you lose, and wouldyou lose out financially by postponing?
Way to go with the .6

And about the ticker.. I have absolutely no idea!!! I came on today and noticed I don't have a musical note anymore!! Yet when I go onto the website the musical note is still checked....
So I changed it to a star so here goes....


hmmm.. not a clue
ooh wait.. when I refreshed it changed to a star!

 

[Justina]

Hey Xenon - big decision!!

Have a good think about it.

I literally put my professional life on hold to sort out my health. Hence i have a job that is pretty much flexible (i m translator - was project manager before) so i can organize my excercize routine as well as health regime much better.

So i guess its pretty much a personal decision - just think where your priority lies.

i hope you can make a decision that suits you.