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Weigh Day! Weigh Day! .... 234! A 5 pound loss. Yes, I can live with that!

Thanks Kori and Dreaming :) It is gratifying, but I think part of me still is having trouble adjusting to the weight I'm losing. Mentally I still think I'm super huge and have to sometimes remind myself, "Hey! You can fit in that booth now. Remember? DUUUH" I guess the mind and the body still have some catching up to do.

Cabbie, I'll check out walmart. I really want an odometer. Thanks for the mention about the cycling club. I'll pop in there and have a look around. This cycling for me is becoming more and more enjoyable.

Oh and last night while on a bike ride, I stopped at a park and went swinging on the swing set. I even jumped off, and it felt fantastic :D
 
An $8 bike? Awesome! And burning that many calories? Cool! I wish I could do that! You're my inspiration!

WillLose60
 
ymcachick said:
I think part of me still is having trouble adjusting to the weight I'm losing. Mentally I still think I'm super huge and have to sometimes remind myself, "Hey! You can fit in that booth now. Remember? DUUUH" I guess the mind and the body still have some catching up to do.
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:iagree: So true!! Or what about the public toilets, and being able to get around the door without practically falling into the potty? :doh:

Hope you have a blast at the amusement park! :party:
 
ymcachick said:
Weigh Day! Weigh Day! .... 234! A 5 pound loss. Yes, I can live with that!

Thanks Kori and Dreaming :) It is gratifying, but I think part of me still is having trouble adjusting to the weight I'm losing. Mentally I still think I'm super huge and have to sometimes remind myself, "Hey! You can fit in that booth now. Remember? DUUUH" I guess the mind and the body still have some catching up to do.

Cabbie, I'll check out walmart. I really want an odometer. Thanks for the mention about the cycling club. I'll pop in there and have a look around. This cycling for me is becoming more and more enjoyable.

Oh and last night while on a bike ride, I stopped at a park and went swinging on the swing set. I even jumped off, and it felt fantastic :D
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Well done on the 5 pound loss!!!! Very well deserved too you are just amazing on the workout/exercise!!!

I know what you mean about the "thinking big" I am sure I will be like that too when I get skinny!

I absolutely love the swing story :D Brilliant!!!!!
 
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I think I'm one of those people who is adversely affected by the weather. It's been rainy and cold and I've been depressed. It doesn't help that my period also stopped by for a visit.

Once again, I've had a bad couple of days with eating. I'm starting to notice a weekend trend and I don't like it one bit. I think my goal this week is to go until next monday without any cheating. I need to get this stress under control too and see my therapist again, but I don't have an appointment until the end of the month. Oh well, guess I need to just put on my big girl panties and deal with it.
 
i've also noticed that since i've had a hectic two weeks i haven't been able to exercise as much and in turn just want to EAT! i had told myself i'll be having a treat every two weeks but after just a few days found myself making friday an unscheduled treat day.....and i don't know about you but for me about 2-3days after my treat days it's like my cravings increase like x100! it's crazy! so i need to get back to my daily gym schedule so that hopefully my cravings/treatdays get under control.

i hope you feel better hun, and hope that weather lets up so that you can get on biking and kicking a$$ with your workouts!
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I think I'm one of those people who is adversely affected by the weather. It's been rainy and cold and I've been depressed. It doesn't help that my period also stopped by for a visit.

Once again, I've had a bad couple of days with eating. I'm starting to notice a weekend trend and I don't like it one bit. I think my goal this week is to go until next monday without any cheating. I need to get this stress under control too and see my therapist again, but I don't have an appointment until the end of the month. Oh well, guess I need to just put on my big girl panties and deal with it.
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I hear ya on this, when the weather is miserable I just want to eat rubbish too. I get mardy and irritable. With aunt flo visiting you must be having a tough time of it.

I don't know what it is about cheating. I find that if I go cold turkey for a few days the cravings go but as soon as I eat one bad thing then the floodgates just open up and I become a human eating machine.

Can I be nosy and ask about your therapist? Do you talk about your relationship with food? I understand if you don't wanna answer I'm just curious cos I'm thinking of getting one myself.

Congrats on the losses too - so incredible and I almost fell off my chair when you posted how many calories you burn in a session!

ymcachick said:
I think I'm one of those people who is adversely affected by the weather. It's been rainy and cold and I've been depressed. It doesn't help that my period also stopped by for a visit.

Once again, I've had a bad couple of days with eating. I'm starting to notice a weekend trend and I don't like it one bit. I think my goal this week is to go until next monday without any cheating. I need to get this stress under control too and see my therapist again, but I don't have an appointment until the end of the month. Oh well, guess I need to just put on my big girl panties and deal with it.
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Thanks, Ladies. I'm doing much better. Not quite so emotional even though it's yet another day without the sun, but I ate well yesterday and again so far today. I got my exercise in and I'm also planning a bicycle ride this afternoon.

Concerning my therapist, I don't mind you asking. At first I was little embarrassed to even admit that I see one, but now I don't really give a shit who knows because it's really about me getting my mind as well as my body healthy and insync with one another.

As far as what I discuss with her, we do talk a lot about my relationship with food and how I used/use it as a coping mechanism. I also discuss all the changes that I'm going through given my weight loss. A lot of things have changed in my life and continue to change and it's really nice to have a neutral person giving you insight. In my opinion, seeing her has given me an incredibly new perspective when it comes to my eating behaviors, and for the most part, it keeps me on task because I'm acutely aware of it now, and not only am I aware of it, but I know that there are healthy alternatives to becoming a "human eating machine".

This of course doesn't mean I'm perfect when it comes to my eating. It's all work in progress, but I've learned that a couple bad days doesn't erase all my progress. In essence, I've learned to forgive myself, shrug off the guilt, and move the fuck on lol.
 
Hey MsY :D just been catching up on how you have been doing over the last few days I was away.. sounds like you have come through it fine :)

I love this ...

In essence, I've learned to forgive myself, shrug off the guilt, and move the fuck on lol.
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LOL brilliant! and pretty much where I am too, I no longer feel guilty, just slightly annoyed that have taken a backward step.. but YEP I move right on now! Feels great to be able to after years of the feel shit/eat/ guilt/eat/guilt/eat cycle!!!
 
Hey YMCA,

I think its great that you see a therapist. I'll never forget something that Oprah said once - that every fat person you see has some sort of emotional problem, that something is really getting to them and the best way they deal is with food. So obviously nearly everyone here can totally understand. It's extremely smart of you to know that your mind needs to heal as well as your body.

I'm glad you're feeling much better. :)
 
lol WillLose, I'm glad I'm not alone.

Hey Kori, it's pretty great to feel like you have the upperhand on such a viscious cycle isn't it? Sure I'm not perfect in my ways, but I recognize what I'm doing and that helps limit the damage lol.

Dreaming, thank you. I know this is so hokey, but you guys are really a great support system. It's like I'll feel guilty if I don't check in and keep myself in check too!

Speaking of which, it was weigh day today. I lost 2 pounds for the week, but I'm totally okay with that given that I binged out for a few days. So far so good this week, but the weekend isnt here yet lol.
 
So the weekend is here, and I've actually done pretty well considering all the stress. My stepdad had triple bypass surgery on friday and is recovering, but as a consequence, my mom has been unbearable to deal with seeing how she has a tendency to use me as an emotional punching bag.

As a result of the surgery though, I've sort of realized just how toxic my mother is to me and my lifestyle. The day before his triple bypass, she brought him up donuts (despite my protests). Thankfully he turned her down citing that he needed to lose weight, but she wasn't having it. She even shoved the open bag in his face and said "JUST SMELL IT". What the fuck is wrong with her? She has done the same thing to me in the past too. I remember when I first started changing my life, she went out and bought every single thing that I liked and ate it all in front of me. While she was doing that, she kept saying, "ohh this is so good. sure you dont want any? one little bite isnt going to hurt you"

Ok end of drama rant. I'm starting to see red again lol.
 
OMG your mom is so blatant about her desire to sabotage everybody else, obviously so she doesn't have to feel bad about what SHE's doing to herself. I just cannot imagine someone giving a person about to undergo surgery all that sugar, trans fats etc. Totally crazy! Frankly, considering how very blatant she is about doing her best to sabotage her family members it seems appropriate to call her on it. She wants everyone to stay big so she isn't the only one harming herself. Giving her a reality check may help her and your dad, she sure needs it. Hope your dad is doing great!
 
Good for your stepdad for turning it down and good that he wants to lose weight. My dad had a quadruple bypass in the 90's. He unfortunately passed away a few years ago. He never gave up smoking and bad eating habits. He was a good man, but he was just the sort of person that just wanted to do what he wanted to do. But it's good that your stepdad wants to change, and its really quite ridiculous of your mom to do that to him and to you. I agree with Blancita, you should really call her on it. The one thing your stepdad is going to need is support, not anything to bring him down.
 
OMG! I am pretty stunned by your Mom's behaviour.. wow, I just can't imagine someone being so blatantly distructive to her husband.

It is great that he passed on the donuts, I just hope he has the strength of character to get through the recovery and to change his life without her help, coz it sounds like it will not be coming anytime soon! My Dad had a quadruple bypass about 7 years ago, and he is doing fantastically well, but he is fanatical about keeping healthy and has never smoked etc... just after the Surgery he did tell me that "you never want to go through this" when he was recovering, it *is* a big deal, and your Step Dad will need lots of support.

Has she always been like this? The story of her trying to sabotage you at the beginning just blows my mind... wow Can you call her on it?

Sending you lots of good thoughts anyway, I know it must be a stressful time for you.
 
hey girl,
so sorry to hear about all the drama your going through i have to commend you for being one heck of a strong woman for being able to do so great on your weight loss despite having a mom who unfortunately doesn't seem to want to support you on it. i don't know why life has to be so complicated sometimes. wishing your stepdad a quick recovery. take care hun xoxo
 
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