I really do wonder if I can sometimes...guess I'm the glass half empty type of person.
I do try..but it never sticks, darn it!!
I want that to be my motivation but when "We love just the way you are" comes out, it makes it easy. Yes, I'm glad he feels that way and isn't verbally abusive, making me self concious but it's easy to "fall of the wagon" too.
Just decide I can do it.....that doesn't come easy but I can try....I didn't go to bed but I'm sitting here freezing and although exercise would warm me up, I'm slow to start..
I'm trying to prepare myself for "mistakes" but I'm always thrown for a loop somewhere it seems.
O.k. I'm back but it's not sunny yet!!
Thank you Justina..what would I do without you?
.....Ahhhh the ol "I like you the way you are comments." **shakes head**
It's so funny that in all reality, the people that say those things
really do mean it when they say it. They say it with love and care. But the real reality is that
if you change and they don't it makes them re evaluate what's wrong with them? Why did they give up on their goals, and you didn't? Why don't I change?
..and the truth is, it's
easier if you QUIT. That way, nothing for them has to change. They aren't pushed out of their comfort zone, they aren't envious that you are
doing the things that will take you closer to your goal, whether you want to or not. You are doing it! They aren't.
Of course, they like you just the way you are!! **Shakes head**

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I know I've let those comments sabotage me into a distorted perception of myself to the point that I think I can quit on myself often.
Fuck that. We are better that "
Just the way you are!"
You know it. I know it.
Let's use those comments as
FUEL!
I find morning workouts to be the best too. I completely understand you on how it is to be stuck at a weight for two weeks. I mean, damn. I think mine is running on 3 weeks. Up and down just like you. Today, I decided.
FORGET THAT! If the scale isn't budging....
PUSH HARDER!
...I didn't want to, but I pushed play on my p90x and did my 2nd hour of working out today. All I'm saying..is
OUR TIME IS COMING. Let's not let anyone derail us of our dreams! ...I mean afterall, they are
our dreams. Of course, they are satisfied if you don't reach your dreams. They aren't
their dreams that aren't being reached, afterall right? Their dreams being abandoned? So why would
anyone really care as much as
YOU!?
....I always have to remind myself, that this is a
lifestyle. Results or no results on the scale. Something is happening. My blood in my veins is pumping faster. My heartbeat is moving. I might be getting closer to a healthier heart. Maybe even a longer life? Who knows. It might not show now, but does that mean that I should just stop, and allow the junk food & laziness to slowly kill me?.... Then, usually, I get up off the couch and push PLAY.

! Stay INSPIRED!!! Go to youtube. Find "body transformations", "p90x before and afters", "weight loss before and after"....remind yourself, that
OTHERS HAVE DONE IT TOO!! I tell you this, because this is
what I do daily.
There is no way in hell that I'd be working out 2 hardcore hours a day, and seeing that scale not move on me these past 3 weeks, and still continue if I didn't youtube daily. I did it tonight. I didn't want to push play. Then, as I was doing my video, I realized, that this is
BIGGER THAN WEIGHT LOSS. THIS IS ABOUT FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE! THIS IS ABOUT TAKING CONTROL!! THIS IS ABOUT ADDING YEARS TO MY LIFE! THIS IS ABOUT BEING THERE FOR MY LOVED ONES DOWN THE LINE!...this is about more than what I will look like outside. That's just a by product of the
love that I will give myself by doing the actions. 
!! Cheers to a better weigh in next week!! My weigh in comes Thurs. Let's see how it goes!
Way to
PUSH YOURSELF!! Happy for you!!

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