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hey you - i just realized we are the same weight!!!! :) :)
i m 213 - as per last sunday - my weigh in is on sunday... i m hoping for some big changes - :p
would b awesome to hit 200 by beginning on April...Remember we can do it!!!!!!
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happy birthday to your son! :party:
careful with that cake though....try to save some for lunch!!!
i have noticed btw that we eat very similarly - you dont eat carbs either for dinner! For me it makes such a big difference!
Your workout plan sounds impressive!!! woohoooo!!!!

WE CAN DO THIS AMANDA!!! BRING APRIL ON!
 
I'm hoping the cake is gross..:puke:..but I doubt it.
It's marble with buttercream frosting...:drool5:..just gonna have to give it away in BIG pieces!
It's the rapure that I will no doubt over eat, the good news is we all like it and Mom's just making a small one..so hopefully no leftovers of that either!

I can't wait for us to show off our tickers, stating we are 200 or less on April 1st..it's gonna be awesome!

We CAN do it. Awesome support like this will keep me going!:waving:

Thanks for the birthday wishes :)

Definately BRING ON APRIL!!
 
Well, I left the house last night @ 7pm to go pick up Dawson's birthday cake @ 8pm, ended up going into town and picking up some groceries. Then the girls (my 2 and a friend) were hungry..so they ordered a baconator, spicy chicken and chicken nuggets at Wendy's not to mention my youngest wanted a donut to Tim's and some timbits...gee, not much for tempation huh?
I did end up eating 2 timbits after I got home...but that was it for the day.
Only back down 1lb of the 2 I had put back on..kinda bummed about that since I know today is gonna be a bad eating day....I am having birthday cake and rapure..the good thing is I know I am and I'm not beating myself up about it...I'm going to exercise this morning and tomorrow and try to get that extra weight of a.s.a.p.!

B-greek yogurt (nasty stuff, anyone like it?) this one has strawberry, which makes it edible, kiwi, gr. tea
S-banana
D-rapure and pc. of birthday cake
S-kashi bar
S-sm. pc. of rapure, didn't plan on it..wasn't really hungry
S-strawberries
Water-2L
E-Treadmill 30min. My back has been bothering me..think it might be the heavier kettlebell. Doesn't "hurt", just stiff.
 
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Sounds like you did your best to sidestep temptation! In these kind of circumstances, even if I give in a bit I always think of what I would have gone before and use that as a comparison to think how far I've come. If stopes lot if the negative "I've let myself down" thoughts.
 
I totally agree with jjjay. I am all about not looking at "bad" food as temptation but more as part of my diet. In EXTREME moderation, "bad" foods aren't so "bad". I'm sure you know this!

Overall just please don't get discouraged!! You are smart to plan ahead and know that you are going to let yourself have some cake.. better that than to tell yourself you can't have it, then break down and eat some and in your defeat, eat way more than you would if you had just been honest with yourself from the first.

Have you tried counting calories? That is one sure way of losing weight rather than maintaining or gaining. If you can figure your BMR, you will know exactly how much you can eat, and how much extra exercise it would take to counteract it!


 
jjjay said:
Sounds like you did your best to sidestep temptation! In these kind of circumstances, even if I give in a bit I always think of what I would have gone before and use that as a comparison to think how far I've come. If stopes lot if the negative "I've let myself down" thoughts.
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The "before" me would have had a grilled chicken combo, so fries and pop. Then would have bought 12 donuts and had atleast 2 of them for sure.
So, that is quite a difference.
 
bongabonga said:
Have you tried counting calories? That is one sure way of losing weight rather than maintaining or gaining. If you can figure your BMR, you will know exactly how much you can eat, and how much extra exercise it would take to counteract it!
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I don't count my calories. I'm not a number person. I'd frustrate me and I'd give up.
I go to a nutrionist, get a meal plan that changes monthly, it gives me recipes, teaches portion size, teaches me how to eat clean and it's what works for me.

I lost 70lbs doing this before but put some of it back on because I just stopped caring about me, let it go out of control and was stressed out.
 
So, I messed up a little bit more than I planned but am back at it full force tomorrow morning. It's supposed to be +11, so I might just go out for a walk/jog.

I'm really tired too lately, so hoping to get to bed a little earlier. Def. lacking in that department.

Might be joining a local challenge..something my niece is cooking up. All I know so far is it's groups of 4 working together to support each other, workout together. Not sure how many groups she'll get but can't hurt!
 
Sleep deprivation always makes me hungrier. It's very annoying I hope you sleep in lots tomorrow. I think its very hard when you start trying new habits we take steps back sometimes but we keep chugging along. If I had stopped in January cause I kept eating junk food I would be 15 pounds heavier then I am now. :) Good things come to those who keep improving :)
 
Thanks Tally! I did get to sleep earlier than usual..10:30pm and actually went to sleep. Danny and I go to bed and most nights talk for an hour or more..we talk a LOT but last night I went right to sleep...still awake at 7, but I'm heading back to bed because I have a cute little girl sleeping there on her daddy's pillow....

Thanks Justina. Your support keeps me going!

I'm only up 1lb, so back to the total of 2 since weigh in, so I'm def. going to take advantage of that and exercise today. It's giving rain, so not sure any outside activity will be taking place but that's why I have my treadmill!
 
Sooooooooooo, I have yet to exercise..been so stressed out with my son and his homework..he just doesn't want to do it, puts it off, hides it...ahhhh!

Been so sleepy lately...just can not seem to get out of this funk..what is up with me.
Not even sure what I feel like doing...

B-2 bread, kiwi, yogurt, gr. tea
s-banana
D-Sweet potatoes, chicken, green beans, brussel sprouts
s-cantaloupe
S-spicy chicken, spinach salad
s- 5 cal. jello
water-2L
E-ab pro x 60 twists/walk with Danny 1hr (wasn't a workout walk, more leisurely, enjoyed it though)
 
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Hop on the treadmill and let it take your stress away :) I always feel a little bit more relaxed and more in control after I exercise. If you feel a little less positive always remind yourself why you are doing it and then find the motivation to do it. It's never easy but it always feels good after you do it.
 
I ended up doing my ab circle for 60 twists and went for a walk with my husband. We were gone for an hour, cpl hills. Wasn't a "workout" walk but it felt good to get out.

Hoping tomorrow to get back into it a little more enthusiasticly.

I have so many little things going on that are bothering me..it's like a soap opera in my head...brings me down a lot.
 
Awesome job on the walk! I walk super slow all the time and I still consider it a workout. My fiance who is taller then me always grabs my hand if he is a hurry and rushes me along lol Way to make me feel like I'm 5 years old fiance!

I don't know if you feel like this but I worried a lot about projects at work and at school and then I had to top it off with the overall sadness of my weight problems. I feel like at least focusing on my weight has helped with 1 area of my life. It won't solve the other 2 but i don't have complete control over those. So I do my best with I can control and I try to take the rest in stride.

You should share a pic of the betty boop belt :) I'd love to see! Huge pat on the back for what you have accomplished already though!! Even when we are struggling up a huge mountain we should always remember to look down to see how much we have already climbed :)
 
" feel like at least focusing on my weight has helped with 1 area of my life."

You know I never thought of it this way..and I should be. Thanks for pointing that out.

I just had a talk with Danny this morning about this..
We were really good friends with a guy in 2008, he was fun, dependable, loved having him around. He was a 4-wheeling, camo wearing, drinking buddy.
He moved in with a woman atleast 13yrs older and he changed...a LOT. She's converted him over to be just like her dead husband..in EVERY way. We do not get along with her. Now, he lies, is ignorant..just not himself. One good friendship (that we'd still love to have back today) gone. I still miss it, think about it all the time.

I'm a VERY emotional/sensitive person. Things hurt me a lot more than the average person and then it stays with me, takes awhile to get over.

We made friends with another couple, hung out all of last year. Had some good times. We realized after a while that we were putting a lot of time and effort into it, we were the ones always planning etc. So we kinda stepped back a little just to see. They didn't come to our Halloween party (for whatever reason) and pretty much dumped us there. They moved closer and we didn't hear from them until we ran into her at a kids birthday party in Feb. How are you friends with someone then not contact them, tell them you moved, gave them your new number for 4 months!? Danny talked to her and acted like it was no big deal just busy....and we still haven't done anything with them (because WE haven't set anything up).

We are more than willing to do our part in being friends. I love to have parties, we love to go 4 wheeling, camping, pretty much up for anything. I just don't think it's fair we have to do it all or it doesn't get done.

Of course there are other issues and some have more details than mentioned...I just want it all to be the way it was before...and it can't be.

Makes me feel like if I'm not worth being friends with, then why bother with myself at all. Danny's said he loves me the way I am. Why struggle and work so hard for a better me, if I'm not good enough now?

Trying to start today off with a more positive attitude but so far it's not happening. I dwell on the past too much, I know this..there are just things I miss...and hate to come to the reality it's gone.

I used to have a positive attitude, it lost me 70lbs..just don't know where to find it right now.

I know when I go exercise this morning, it won't be with the attitude it should be...so how effective will it be?

Sorry for being such a downer but..this is on my mind all the time.
 
Amanda2010 said:
I'm a VERY emotional/sensitive person. Things hurt me a lot more than the average person and then it stays with me, takes awhile to get over.
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Makes me feel like if I'm not worth being friends with, then why bother with myself at all.
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Trying to start today off with a more positive attitude but so far it's not happening. I dwell on the past too much, I know this..there are just things I miss...and hate to come to the reality it's gone.

I used to have a positive attitude, it lost me 70lbs..just don't know where to find it right now.

I know when I go exercise this morning, it won't be with the attitude it should be...so how effective will it be?

Sorry for being such a downer but..this is on my mind all the time.
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Hey lovely...welcome to the club of super sensitive/emotional people...i m just like you. i can think hours about people sounding their horn at me while driving - it could let me down...especially when the other driver was in the wrong!!! hope it makes sense...

then recently i just realised there s no point feeling down for this. at all. :chillpill: it s just a waste of energy. and i m really getting better at being positive and optimist. give it a go Amanda!!!

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~Dr. Seuss

Also i know people change - but let them go. It not easy - but dont think - not even for a minute that you are not worth being friends with. People are different - not bad not good different. If you make efforts with them a few times and they dont get back to you - it doesnt mean there s something wrong with you - it s more like they might be lazy or just have a lot on their plate. So dont stress about it!!!!

STAY POSITIVE - YOU ARE WORTH IT - YOU CAN DO THIS!!
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HUGS :grouphug:
 
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Yup, makes sense to me.

I come from a family of pessimistic people, my Mom being the worst, it's a real struggle for me, right up there with weight loss. I can go thru phases where I'm "positive" doing the whole "screw you" bit...lol..but it never lasts, there's always something to bring me back down.

It's funny you use the term "too much on their plate" because that's a line we get everytime from our friend when he disappears for months at a time.."too much on my plate", we just can't figure out why we're the first thing to get booted off...

I'm going to try and be more positive..but it's a real job for me. I can beat myself up just as bad as anyone out there.

I just hate it when you think "this ones different" and then they turn out the same as all the other people in your life.
 
B-greek yogurt w. berries, kiwi
s-banana
D-Asain chicken, potatoes, asparagus, carrots
s-2 mandarins
S-spicy chicken, spinach salad
s-boiled egg
water-2L
E-treadmill 30min.
 
Hey Amanda!

Just dropping by and seeing how you're doing.

Happy belated birthday to your son! Awesome job not giving into temptation and moderating the food. That takes a great deal of willpower!

I think we can all tend to get really down on ourselves at times. I love the advice Justina gave you. "it s just a waste of energy." Soooo true. I used to get down A LOT and I think I was rather pessimistic. Then it just clicked inside me one day that I'm responsible for my day and my attitude. Every morning I wake up, I have 2 choices: to have an amazing day or to have a crappy day. Why waste my energy into a crappy day? I have the power to make it a good day and damnit I WILL!!! Doesn't mean I don't have bad days but just realizing that I have that choice and I CAN do it. You CAN do this. Whenever I have that negative energy, I channel it into my exercise. I push myself that much harder. If I'm upset or feeling down, I just work it off. Channel that energy into this better lifestyle!

Those so-called "friends" aren't friends. Friends make the effort and WANT to be there. Rid your life of the negative people. There are still good people out there and you will find them. For now, you always have us here! :)

You're doing an amazing job with the eating and congrats on kicking up your kettlebell workout a notch. You go girl! YOU GOT THIS!
 
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