Island Girl - Fat jokes? Aww, that's mean!!! I bet people will notice the weight loss! People who haven’t seen you in a while are the best judges. My little bro is the only person who's noticed anything, and when I talked to my mom on Thanksgiving she said he was going on and on to her about how good I looked. It felt good for my accomplishment to be acknowledged, finally!
Lisa – The week was good but you are right, it’s good to be back here in Mass. I need my routine! I am looking forward to my next vacation, where I will be completely responsibility-free. I went to Vegas in April and was doing reviews of my staff for year-end, then Oklahoma I was writing papers…. Next trip is gonna be relaxing and care-free! Which is good because I think that will be my birthday, in March. Family means well when they ask questions about marriage and babies, I suppose, but I feel like it must mean they’ve never been on the receiving end of that stuff. I usually don’t have too much problem with family, although that’s because I don’t see them ever, but at work, it’s another story. I had been with my boyfriend for over three years when I started working full-time, and a co-worker who I’d only known for a couple of months flat out said “If he asked you to marry him right now, would you say yes?” Now who goes and asks a co-worker that type of question??? And then the second I get engaged it will be “when’s the date” and the second we get married it will be “when are the babies.” I never ask anyone about dates until they’ve been engaged for like 6 months because I hate that no one just let’s people relax and take their time with anything! And the baby question would never come into my mind, haha, I guess because I’m so far away from that right now. That Vegas trip in April was with some married friends of ours, and the husband was very adamant we take this trip soon because they weren’t opposed to the idea of kids soon and wanted to get a good, crazy trip in beforehand. Took me off guard, but I’m glad he was planning, because they are four months along now, I believe!!!
Look at all these closet eaters! I am SO glad I posted that, as embarrassing as it was… We are all going through the same struggle and it’s awesome to have support from all of you amazing people!!! I got rid of Facebook a few months ago (since I was too addicted and needed more time for school). Right around that time I got on here, and even when I am not posting I am spending TONS of time reading everyone else’s diaries. If you are reading this and we haven’t communicated yet, know that I’ve more than likely read your diary and haven’t posted anything either!!! But I still get good advice and good motivation from all of you!!!
Tig – I wish my brothers and I were closer, but I am at least happy that we have never had any tough times like many others. I see my boyfriend’s family, where the little cousins include ME in their prayers at night, and send birthday presents to me that they pay for out of their allowances. Then I see my mother’s relationship with her family, which is “off” about 98% of the time (I’ve never quite understood why), and my dad’s with his, which is always mildly “on” but that still translates to an uncle who lives in the same town as him that he only sees once a year (on Thanksgiving). So I see all different levels of relationships. With my immediate family of 5 living in 4 differently states, currently, it’s a) hard to find things to fight about (which is good!) but also b) challenging to maintain the closeness I would like. My dad was expressing that he loved seeing my little brother and I together last week, especially when we were discussing his relationship woes. Dad can try and give advice, but 25 year old sisterly advice is different than 55 year old fatherly advice.
Well, it’s 7:30 in the morning…. I’ve been up for two hours already, getting ready for work, and am not even dressed yet. As boyfriend puts it, this is my “me” time… the one time of the day where I can kind of chill, take my time doing stuff, and not feel as if I should be doing homework. I’m at my calmest at this time of the day, which is one of the reasons my alarm goes off freakishly early every morning (5am) when I don’t need to leave for work until 8. I like to maximize my calm time. Sometimes I go into work early to study, sometimes to use the internet on a computer that DOESN’T backspace spontaneously or move my cursor while I am typing (seriously, I’ll be in Word and all of a sudden I’m typing in the middle of the document.. then I have to undo, then redo, to get it back to where it was before. It’s annoying). And sometimes I just sit and play on the computer, as I am today, with my coffee. I do need to finish getting ready, though, no excuse to be late for work at 9am when you got up at 5:30.