Weight Loss Journal

Oh my... some girl from my work brought Cinnabons this morning. I thought they'd be all gone by now but nope... there is still a FULL BOX.

I'm not stepping in the lunch room again.
 
Just thought I'd mention that I think I'm starting to feel better about everything. I feel like I am getting the will power back. I am not sure why... but I am thinking that it's the combination of cleansing and eating healthily and restricting myself today, as well as being back at work and into my routine. I feel like I could jump back on my regular diet tomorrow! But I won't. I want to get back down to a decent weight, even if it is water weight... and I want to cleanse my body.

So heres to feeling better and more confident :D :cheers2:
Going to have a great week (Thursday to Thursday?) and an awesome month!!!!
 
July 4, 2008

Oh man the site is dead today. Oh well. I woke up this morning and had trouble getting out of bed AGAIN!!! I am really glad tomorrow is the weekend. I just want to get the hell outta here. Lucky for all you Americana's that have today off. I am very jealous, but I did just have a 6 day vacation (was supposed to be 5) so I can't really complain.

I seem to just not have any energy to do anything in the morning. Then after around 1:30, I feel energetic and ready to start my day. I am generally not a morning person so that's probably why it's been tough to get back into my routine.

I DID go to the gym this morning though. I dragged my ass there. I was so drained for the first 15 minutes on the treadmill and then afterwards I was like powering my way through it. Everytime I get to the 15 minute mark, I start counting down to when I am done running. It makes me have a little more stamina and drive to get through it. The ab exercises were realllly tough. I wanted to keel over and die. I didn't have the energy. Probably because of my low cals yesterday with my soup detox.

I am on day two of the detox, and I have not cheated. I was cooking my veggies last night for today and to see if they were good well, I put an onion in my mouth and chewed it and then spit it out haha. Anyways, so today is soup and veggies day. I have been craving carby foods here and there. Muffins, cookies, bagels, anything. Though tonight, I am allow to have a baked potato with butter :) That should tie me over.

Day 5 and 6 are beef days, and you can only sub in the beef for fish on one of the days, so I am going to the organic butcher on lunch to pick up some deer and organic chicken. I am soooo fucking excited to eat those damn steaks it's not even funny. I am going to pick up some more organic meats too so I can have them when I feel up for meat. I also found this place that sells buffalo and ostrich, I am really stoked about that because I have never tried either of thems.

Oh I managed to grab a green tea today to cure my tired. I have never had green tea before, and I put just a little skim milk in it. It was actually really good. Something I may consider drinking more often.

Meals today:

Breakfast: Soup
Snack: Cucumbers w/ a little salt
Lunch: Soup and sauteed veggies (fried in water: red, orange, yellow pepps, onion, zucchini, mushroom, garlic. Added worchestire, little seasoning salt, pepper, little soya, hot sauce, and jerk powder)
Snack: 4 pickles
Dinner: Soup and BAKED POTATO W/BUTTER

Oh yea, so I jumped on the scale today and yesterday it read 142.2, which I mentioned was probably a false high because of my late heavy dinner. This morning, I weighed in at 139.4. So I probably lost almost 2 lbs (if my actual weight was aroung 141.) I am not going to move my ticker so hah!. Oh and after day three, the detox says I should have lost 5-7 lbs, so we'll see if I hit that on Sunday. The detox says that by the end you should have lost 10-17 lbs. I know that when I go back to my eating most of this will come back, but if I can be down to maybe 134 and keep that, I'll be happy. I am just really scared that I will jump back up to 144 or something. AHHH!!

Anyways, gotta change the biohazardous garbages.

I am really sorry for always writing so long. Just have lots to say. And thanks for taking the half hour out of your day to read it :)
 
Oh man I'm sooo excited. i just got back from the Healthy Butcher and bought a ton of nice meats. Mostly red, but organic and very very lean. I bought some ground venison, 2 other venison steaks, 2 organic skinless chicken breasts, and 1 grass fed mocktender beef steak. :drool5::drool5:

I will probably eat all this throughout the course of a month or so. Red meat, though lean, is not the greatest for ya. So i need to watch how much of it I eat. AND ITS EXPENSIVE!!!! I dropped 40 bucks there. They had bison and elk there too. Something I want to give a try. The venison was the cheapest though and probably the most correctly portioned (about 3-5 oz each), as well as the leanest so I think I will just stick to that. There is NOOOOOO fat in my meats what so ever. Very exciting. :smash:

Anyways just wanted to share my joy with yous.
 
Mmmmm the meat sounds soo good!

I heard about the sacred heart diet a while ago, I never tried it but always wanted to! If it works well for you I might give it a shot!

Good luck with Mike - sometimes a little distance is all it takes for them to realize what they are missing! Take it slow and enjoy getting to know each other again. I miss the excitement of wondering what the future will bring!

Good for you for getting to the gym today. I know my gym days are always SO FREAKIN HARD if i didn't eat much the day before. It's awesome that you made it through it!

Happy Fourth!
 
Yeah, you made it to the gym! Feels good to get it over with! I was in the same spot as you this morning.....I'm so glad you're starting to feel back on track. Boy troubles can be horrible....I really hope everything works out for the best.

You have so much willpower with your cleanse. I simply could not do that. I hope it works great for you
 
Hey thanks dawnkyung for stopping by. Yea, usually when you do the diet, it is mostly water weight you lose, and you gain it all back. I am eager, and scared, to see how my exercise and healthy eating habits will effect the weight gain. Just keep checking out my journal, as I will be posting about every day on here.

And I am a vegetarian, for health purposes and for the boycotting of feedlots. I only eat fish and organic meat and wild meat like deer elk, etc. I haven't had any meat besides fish though since Easter, so this will be a reaaaaallll treat. I can't wait!!!

And I'm not too concerned with the boy troubles. Whatever will be will be. I'm not going to force, nor rush into anything. Just take 'er easy for now.

Oh and I'm canadian, my fourth was the first! But it's alright. Happy fourth to you too, and I'm here working on behalf of all the americans that are off today. woohoo....

Purpleshirt (HAHA I almost wrote purpleshit by accident - no offence). The cleanse is pretty tough. It's not too bad if you have lots of things that you enjoy eating as your fruits and veggies. Like I said, I am craving the carbs pretty bad, but it's kinda subsided now. I do get hunger pains a lot through the day, but nothing I can't handle.

I can't believe I made it to the gym. But like I've said before... if I don't go, then I sit in the lunch room for half an hour and wait for the girl to come and open my door. May as well go make use of my time :D
 
July 6, 2008

Well the weekend is going well, and so is the detox. I went to the gym yesterday, even though I only slept 5 hours the previous night. I managed to do my entire work out. I have not drank all weekend, though I used subs to make it easier.

Yesterday was day three of my detox. Fruit and veggies with soup. This day wasn't too bad. I have not cheated and I have not really craved anything. Actually....that;s kind of a lie. I was only REALLY craving other food when it was directly in front of me. My friend ordered some yummy looking fries last night, and I had to sit right beside her and watch her munch out and smell the delicious aroma. It wasn't too bad though...only like 10 or 15 minutes of torture.

Food yesterday was
Breakfast: Bowl of watermelon and soup
Lunch: Sauteed veggies and soup
Snack: Couple pieces of papaya
Dinner: Sauteed mushrooms and asparagus w/ soup

I jumped on the scale yesterday, and it read 136.8. If I go by my high weight of 142.2 the morning I started, that's a loss of 5.4 lbs.

Today is day four of the detox. Bananas and skim milk with soup. It's going very well. I like that I can eat bananas today and I don't have to eat my other regular fruit, BUTTTT now theres a ton of cut up watermelon and papaya in the fridge and I want some soooooo bad. Oh well... gotta wait till Thursday.

Meals today:
Breakfast: Smoothie (banana, skim milk, couple ice cubes)
Snack: Banana
Lunch: Soup w/ banana
Snack: Banana
Dinner: Soup w/ smoothie (exact same as breakfast)

I went on the scale today and it read 135.4. That works out to a total loss of 6.8 lbs. The detox says, as I have mentioned before, that after day three you should have a loss of 5-7 lbs. I am definately on track. After today the detox will only get easier. Tomorrow is the first of 2 meat days and I have made lots of fish. I am very excited to eat something other than soup, fruit, and veggies.

I am probably going to go for a nice long walk tonight, but my friend just phoned me and told me we might be doing something, soooo I dunno.

I am so happy that I have my willpower back. I am feeling very motivated, and I am excited to see the end result of this detox.

Well, I'm off to eat dinner....
 
July 7, 2008

HOLY SHIT I JUST ATE THE BEST SALMON OF MY LIFE!!!! It was sooo flavourful and melt-in-my-mouth-ish. Maybe it's just because I haven't had anything other than soup, fruit, and veggies for the last 4 days. The salmon was seasoned at the store I bought it from. I think it may have been coated in oil too which probably isn't too good for the detox. If it is, that's definately a cheat. I actually didnt even think about that till now...meh oh well.

Today is day 5 of the detox....only 3 days left (including today). It's beef and tomatoes day today. I substituted all my meat for fish today. Tomorrow I will eat my steaks. Went on the scale today, and it told me 135.8. A gain of .4 lbs. I am not THAT concerned, but the next couple days will be heavier eating than the last four, so I think I am going to gain more.

My cravings today are immense. On the way to work I kept thinking about fries, poutine, thai food, mcd's, bagel w/ cream cheese. Ugh... the last think I want to do when I finish this detox is yo-yo and binge eat. I need to have more control than ever and just stick to my regular daily foods.

I went to the gym today as well. I didn't have my water bottle and that made the workout 316987 times harder than usual. I was sooo exhausted, but I pushed myself to finish everything and not slack off. I even upped my workout a bit which I think made me more tired. I did the majority of the weight machines at 25 lbs. I usually do what feels comfortable, but I want everything to be uniform so I can keep track of how much I am lifting for each machine. Then, I can up them all at the same time. I also want to start seeing more fat loss on my arms and more definition.

I ended up going for my power walk yesterday. About 1 hour and 25 minutes. It was pretty tough and I managed to break out a pretty good sweat. I was soo wiped after and went to bed almost as soon as I got home.

I am extremely tired today, and I just want my bed. I may leave early today and go home and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep or just lounge around. I don't want to do anything that requires energy.

Anyways... I need to stop writing so long

Meals today:

Breakfast: Soup and fillet of salmon
Snack: Canned whole tomatoes (no salt added)
Lunch: Soup and fillet of trout (I've never tried trout!!!!)
Snack: More canned whole tomatoes
Dinner: Soup and fillet of cajun catfish
 
Sooo trout isn't all that great. I don't think I will be eating it again, unless it's prepared differently. It hardly had any flavour, and I was pretty much gagging through the whole thing. Never thought I'd say this, but thank god lunch is over. My tomatoes for snack are not very flavourful either. This day is not going as great as I was hoping it would.

One thing I forgot to mention in my earlier post is that one of my friends that I hardly see, Jessica, commented on my weight loss on Saturday!! She said that my face and neck look slimmer! Woohoo!!!:party:
Ya that's it..
 
July 8, 2008

Day 6 of the detox. Only 2 days left. I think I am starting to get binging on my mind. I just keep thinking about every food that I want to eat all at once. Thinking is one thing.... acting is a completely different ball game. I am soo scared that I am going to binge eat after this detox. I NEED to control it. Went on the scale today and it read 136.8 lbs. A gain of 1lb. I'm not sure if it's because of my lack of fibre lately or if its because I'm eating more solid foods these last few days. It's ok...at least when I go back to my regular eating, the scale shouldn't jump too much.

Went to the gym today. I went on the eliptical instead of the treadmill. That thing is friggin hard!! I went on for 25 minutes and my legs felt like jello afterwards (they still do). I took a multi-vitamin yesterday and it perked me up a bit. I have been soo drained the last couple of days, and I think it was a lack of certain nutrients. I just can't wait for thursday to arrive, so I can eat normal foods. I just want to eat normal food.

Today is beef and veggies day. I'm glad I'm not eating fish. BUTTTTTTT....I killed my venison steaks. Overkill. Well done. Kinda sucks, but oh well. I plan on cheating tonight and having a bit of BBQ sauce with my venison.

Meals today:

Breakfast: Venison steak w/ veggies (broccoli, cauliflower, carrots)
Snack: Soup
Lunch: Chicken breast w/ veggies
Snack: Soup
Dinner: Venison w/ veggies and probably soup

Tomorrow is brown rice day, and I am very excited about that. I will probably eat brown rice for breakfast and lunch and just the veggies and soup for dinner. That way, when I eat normal on Thursday, it will be a similar structure as wednesday (since salad will be for dinner).
 
I honestly don't think I can go one more day with this stupid detox. I've proved to myself that I am back on track and that I still have the willpower. I could keep going if I really wanted to..... BUT I REALLLLLLYYY DON'T WANT TO!! I don't know... maybe I'll just suck it up during the day and have a nice salad for dinner tomorrow night.

UGHHHHHHHHH!!!:cuss::cuss::cuss:
 
Change of dinner plans for tonight...

Dinner: Venison steak w/ SALAD

Screw the detox, I'm outta there.

My body is flushed of toxins, and the number on the scale is much more pleasant. I'm going back to my regular eating tomorrow.

I can't wait to bite into some Fibre One cereal!!!!!!

I've also decided that I'm going to start giving myself more of a variety of meals... mainly breakfast. I found these bagels that are 170 cals per bagel! And I will buy reduced fat cream cheese. Other options are weight controlled oatmeal, and whole wheat english muffin with healthy jam.

I am also going to buy some protein bars and fibre on bars (for the days I don't eat the cereal).

I'm eating this soup for the last time right now, and as soon as I get home, I'm throwing the rest out! I don't want to be deprived any longer.:sifone:
 
Ok, I didn't have salad for dinner like I intended to. I had the strong need for fibre... if ya know what I mean. So for dinner I had the steak and a small mug of Fibre One cereal. It was sooo good to be able to eat that again. Well being off the detox.... I did kinda munched on things here and there tonight... nothing too crazy though. It may seem like a lot, and it probably worked out to about 250-300 cals, but that's not nearly as bad as those 500-800 cal binges. Heres what I snacked on:

Couple pieces of watermelon - maybe 60 cals?
Couple mini rice cakes - prob 40 cal
2/3 of a cookie - 55 ish cals
Few tiny pieces of fibre one bar - 40 ish cal
Couple fingers of PB - 65 ish cal

Thats 260, but I'll round up to 300. Tomorrow I am back to my regular eating habits, and I couldn't be happier.

Lesson learned during detox: I'm never doing it again. (This has been said before and recorded mentally, I'm sure. But this time it's documented so if I every decide to do this stupidness again, it's written on here that I WON'T!). In addition, this detox is not very nutritious. It lacks many nutrients and I felt tired, and deprived for most of it. And now I also need to get over the feeling of wanting to eat everything I see.

My body is going to hate me, and at the same time love me, for feeding it fibre tomorrow.
 
Amanda, congrats with the detox. Not that I approve on the methods, but you weren't going for real nutrition. You were doing it to get back on the weight loss kick. It really looks like you did that. You are back with a vengeance. Your motivation is apparent and I know that you'll do great from hear on. Now to focus more on nutrition. Good job. :smash:
 
Hey thanks a lot Trops. I actually feel sooo good today it's amazing! Despite my small little munch-out yesterday, I feel like I am beyond back on track. Like I want to consistently make good food choices, no matter what day it is, or where I am. I just hope it lasts.
 
July 9, 2008

I can't believe how fantastic I feel today. I am soo glad to be off of that detox. I woke up this morning full of energy (I didn't even sleep on the train ride to work!). I walked to the gym this morning with an extra skip in my step, and I did HIIT for the first time in a week.... AND I HAD NO TROUBLE AT ALLLL!!! I feel very healthy and light this morning. Almost as though I am living life to the absolute fullest. I am just soo happy :D

My back was really sore today from my workout yesterday, so I avoided the back equipment today. I notice that my arms are getting more defined since upping my weight on all machines to 25lbs (even though it's onle been 3 days). My stomach looked flatter than ever this morning and my upper body looks really defined when I flex.

Went to the grocery store yesterday and picked up a bunch of healthy stuff to change up my breakfasts. Bought some Fibre One bars, but kinda regret it after seeing the amount of sugar they put into them. Oh well, I'll eat them till their gone, and then I won't buy them anymore.

Food today:

Breakfast: Fibre One cereal w/ skim milk - 280 cal
Snack: Vanilla yogurt - 42 cal
Lunch: PB and banana sandwich on rye - 315 cal
Snack: Watermelon chunks - 73 cal
Dinner: Salad - Approx 250 cal

Total: Approx 1150 cal

I jumped on the scale today to get the total weight lost on the detox. The scale read 137.2 lbs. Another gain of 0.4, but a total loss of 5lbs. I will have to wait and see what the scale says on Friday to find out if I did any harm by doing this detox. My main issue now is trying to psychologically convince myself that I have not been deprived the last couple of days and that I have been eating all of my normal foods, just to get the nasty binge thoughts out of my head. I guess we'll see how it goes...
 
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