Weight Loss Journal

Thanks a lot Shaun and funmom. I will try my hardest not to let this get to me in such a way that I lose motivation and start drinking more often (I usually deal with my problems by drinking and doing drugs). I think that if we do break up, I'm going to let it be my "ME time". I haven't had some of that in a while. In the last 2 years, I have had three relationships.. 1 lasted 12 months, the next one 6, and this one 3 or 4(if we break up)....Geez, I hope the next one isn't 1.5 months... they seem to be dividing in half. Anywyas... I'm past the initial shock and though I am thinking about it constantly, I am prepared for the worst. I think we are going to talk tonight and I'm going to see what's on his mind and if there's anything that he wants to do to keep the relationship going... or maybe just take a break... I dont know.

Well, I should probably mention the one good thing that has happened. I am on the last notch on one of my belts. It fits nice too. Hopefully I can throw this one out soon and buy me a new one. That probably also means that I've gone down a size...maybe?? I don't know but I'm going to that BBQ now.
 
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Well, I should probably mention the one good thing that has happened. I am on the last notch on one of my belts. It fits nice too. Hopefully I can throw this one out soon and buy me a new one. That probably also means that I've gone down a size...maybe?? I don't know but I'm going to that BBQ now.
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I have a belt from when I started. I'm past the last notch and punched a hole to keep going. I'm hoping to have two more holes by the time I'm done. I only can wear it at work because of the extra long tail it has now. :D
 
That's actually not a bad idea. But the tail is super long as is.
Alright, so I went to the BBQ and it went well, I'd say. I had a veggie burger with a tablespoon of potato salad, about 6 carrot sticks, celery sticks, and red pepper sticks with a water. I was going to get a tad bit of ice cream but A) I was too full, and B) I decided to grab two pears instead. I'm too full to eat the pears now though, so maybe I'll eat them for a snack and not eat the crispy delights. Or i'll just eat one and the crispy delights and bring the other pear home. I'll log it into fitday and whatever is the least calories is what I'll eat. Oh yea, i should mention all the stuff that I turned down, just to kinda give myself a pat on the back:
cheese slice, mayo, chips (doritos, pretzels, cheesies mix), Samosas, veggie DIP, and ice cream w/ cone (flavours - cherrie, vanilla, cookies and cream, FRIED ice cream [WTF is this!?])

So then,

Breakfast: Vanilla yogurt w/ Fibre One and almonds in it - 150 cal
Lunch: Veggie burger w/ potato salad, celery, carrots, red peppers - 531 cal
Snack: 1 Pear and Crispy Delight rice cakes - 210 cal
Dinner: Salad - Approx 250 cal

Total: 1200 cal

One pear is 123 cals holy shit. Definately taking the second pear home. Probably going to go for a walk tonight. Burn off some of this veggie burger.. I am wayy too full right now, I feel like I'm going to burst. I need to walk around a bit, I think.
 
Yea... I saw this coming.... my bf and I broke up today. He said he wasn't ready for a committment like he thought he was in the beginning. I don't know if that is really what that means... I'm not a guy and I'm not in his mind. But how sad.. I cried a bit. Tears rolled down my face on the GO train... My weekend plans are over. I get to mope around the area for my vaca... nice.. It sucks the most cus for the first time in a while, I had finally found someone I could communicate with and he treated me with the utmost respect. Now it's all over. Wow is me...

Had a glass of baileys on ice to numb my mind a bit... just one... that's all. Now I'm going to power walk it away for a good hour or so... take my mind off... or put my mind solely on my current situation. I'll let you all know how I'mm feeling tomorrow... WEIGH IN AND PHOTOS!!! DONT FORGET!!!!
 
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Damn, Amanda. That is sad to hear, but I think it's his loss. So many young guys let you wonderful women go and I can't understand why. The older guys think back and wonder what they were thinking letting that prize slip out of their fingers, but then it's too late. For what it's worth, I think that if he's going to make such a big mistake, then you probably don't want that guy around.

By the way, Baileys isn't so good for drowning the sorrows. Go with tequila. It helps put things in a better (angrier) position.
 
lol Trops you are right. You made me laugh with the tequilla comment and then I got a tear in my eye.

I think that this morning it really sunk in that me and him aren't together. I had a dream about him last night and I woke up at 6:30 (my alarm was for 7:30) and just started bawling.....I shed like 2 tears yesterday, and today I bawl? oh well... it will only get easier from here on in.

Anyways, I have more terrible news. My sister has the damn camera and is not home so I couldn't take some good quality pics. I did take pics with my phone camera, but they aren't very good... oh and the bikini one will have to wait.

Anyways official weight this morning is 138.2 lbs!!!

April 30th measurements:
Arms: L 13" R 12.5"
Chest: 37"
Waist: 36"
Hips: 36"
Bum: 37"
Thighs: L 22" R 22"
Weight: 146 lbs

May 31 measurements:
Arms: L 10.5" (-2.5) R 10.5" (-2)
Chest: 36" (-1)
Waist: 34.75" (-1.25)
Hips: 35.25" (-.75)
Bum: 36.5" (-.50)
Thighs: L 21.5" (-.5) R 21.75" (-.25)
Weight: 144 lbs (-2)
Total lost: 8.75"

June 28 measurements:
Arms: L 10.3" (-.2) R 10.3" (-.2)
Chest: 35.5" (-.5)
Waist: 34" (-.75)
Hips: 34 (-1.25) [this is where my pants sit, so you hav see why im tightening my belt]
Bum: 36" (-.5)
Thighs: L 21" (-.5) R 21" (-.75)
Weight: 138.2 lbs (-5.8)
Total lost: 4.65" Total since first measurements: 13.4"

I am really suprised at how I didn't lost that much off my waist. I think it's because it's not sagging anymore; it's being pulled up so the part that usually saggs is sticking out now.

I have to find my chord for my phone so I can upload the pics so they wont be up just yet.

Today is the first day of my vaca and I start my day off with a doctors appt, then an orthodontist appt, then i get to go to the gym, then i will get my legs waxed, then i will come home to with some alcohol and commence my holiday adventures.

Food: I have nooooo clue, obviously healthy stuff though. I'll fill it out as I go along.

Ok so heres the shitty camera phone pics. the first and third are from the end of april and the second and fourth are from this morning. I'm sorry I wasn't wearing the same pants in the last two....Can't turn back time. I'll take better pics when I get that camera and I'll take my bikini pics then.

I think my stomach almost looks the same and its probably because these tights are effin tight. but look at my legs!!! ooooo...aaahhhh... shrinking!!!! :D
 
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Amanda, you are looking so good and the measurements are so very impressive. I can't wait for the full size shots.
 
I'm sorry about the break up. I hope you start feeling better soon, but that is a long time to be going with someone, so let yourself feel it.
You look great, and are you more tan too? Good job resisting all that yummy food at the bbq
 
Woww... I've slipped on my vacation. I've eaten horrible food everyday since saturday. I have been drinking rediculous amounts of alcohol everyday. Saturday I had like 10 double vodkas, and 5 singles. I plan on drinking tonight and tomorrow night as well.....I just hope that I can maybe decide to eat something healthy in the next upcoming meals. Didn't go to the gym today, but I really want to push for it tomorrow.
 
Alright...I'm almost back. I was supposed to be at work today, but because of a thing called a hangover I am at home and taking it easy. I am feeling a bit better now though. I was really craving some greast food this morning (McD's) but I stuck to my prepared breakfast. It's going to be a lot harder than I thought to get back on the wagon. I don't want to eat healthy, and I don't want to workout. I have raw patches of skin inbetween my toes on each foot because of my flip flops, and I've been walking on the sides of my feet all weekend. I definately won't be running for a bit. But today I decided that I cannot eat lunch until I finish at the gym. I am going to ride the bike instead of the treadmill.

For the last 5 days, I've been eating crap. Veggie burgers, fries, chips, egg sandwiches. Not making any effort to make it healthier. I did eat more helpings of veggies and less of carbs when I made some meals. Overall, not too great though. I am hoping that after a workout today, it will be easier to jump back on the wagon. I am going to eat some pho today because I am craving it. Not super unhealthy, but not entirely healthy either. I'll work out the calories at some point.

Meals today probably are

Breakfast: Fibre One cereal w/ skim milk and blueberry yogurt - 330 cals
Snack: Apple - 81 cals
Lunch: Rice vermicelli w/ spring rolls and fish sauce - Approx 500 cals
Snack: ??
Dinner: Salad - Approx 250 cals

Total: 1400 cals

I am hoping that I don't slip today, especially after eating that rice vermicelli dish, but I think it will probably happen because I'm home today. Pizza down theres lookin pretty tasty.
 
Hey Amanada! Welcome back, you were missed! The longer you stay away the harder it is to come back, I know how it is. You're back though, and on your way to the best shape of your life ;).
 
Hangovers suck, but you can work through it. Hit the gym early and you'll be doing better for it. Your workout might suck, but it will kick your body back into, well, not high gear but higher then low. :auto:
 
welcome back. I hope you're feeling better soon so you can get back on track. Hangovers are the worst. Sounds like you had fun though!
 
Alright, I went to the gym today even though I felt horrible. I didn't do any weights because I wasn't up to it. I went on the bike for 40 minutes and then I did my ab exercises.....can't let the stomach get big!!!! I refuse to let it expand to what it used to be!

I think that the workout today did help me though and I will probably be back on track with everything tomorrow. I am going to workout on Saturday this week too because I missed monday and tuesday. Actually, on Friday I was reaaalllllly drunk and appearantly I ran all the way to the bar. I think it was like a 30 minute walk, or more?? I didn't run the whole time, but I did run for a bit. I don't really remember, this is what I've been told. That's a decent workout haha.

I am thinking that I will do a cleanse this week starting tomorrow. It is a soup detox called The Sacred Heart Soup Diet. It's not really from Sacred Heart. I think someone decided to call it that and give it a fake story, kinda like those chain letters you get in your email box. If you look up Sacred Heart Soup Diet on google, you will be able to find it and you can read what it's all about. Anyways, I just want to do this so that I don't feel so bad about my 5 day binge of alcohol and junk. Also, I feel it will really push my willpower into overdrive and back on track. I need something to restrict me severely right now, because I am getting the vibe of "oh its ok if I have this and this and this" Probably because I have been saying that for the last 5 days.

Well I will probably grab all the ingredients tonight and make the soup. This diet it probably the hardest thing I've ever done before. The first 3 days are brutal... nothing but soup and fruit and veggies. I know once it's done though, it will be easier to stay on track and not have a poor mentality. I will be cleansed of all the crap I put into my body this week, and I know I'll feel much better and rewarded once all is said and done. I'm going to see if my mom wants to do it with me. She usually cheats or gives up halfway, but I stick to it till the end. Should be a fun challenge, and I'm excited to see how much I will lose, even though most will be water weight.

Alright well wish me luck with the diet then....
 
July 3, 2008

I am at work for the first time in a week and I want to go home!!! waaaaaaaa!!!! :(
I woke up this morning and almost didn't get out of bed. My alarm goes off every 9 minutes, and after my first alarm, I managed to fall back into a deep sleep and have another dream. I really want a tea or something to give me some energy.
I feel really bummed out this morning. I am just thinking 'well what if I only get through 3 days of the detox?? Then I'm doomed and I will be without willpower and at that point, I may very well give up.' After making the soup yesterday, I was regretting even making it.
Oh and the salad for dinner yesterday....didn't happen. Instead I had way too big a portion of fish fingers, rice, and beans. I was sooo full afterwards. Actually, I felt really stuffed when i woke up this morning too. I went on the scale today to see a horrifying number. This is mainly because I ate at 7:30 and went to bed at 9:30, and my meal was very heavy.
I started my detox today. Day 1: Fruit and soup all day. Not really sure how I'm feeling yet. I just ate the soup and some fruit and I've already got some hunger pains. I've decided that once the detox is finished, I will eliminate my snacks for a week or so, just because I don't want to gain all the weight back by jumping from 800 cals to 1400.
I went to the gym this morning too. I'm kinda forced because if I don't I will have to wait for the girl I share my office with to come in. She has the key. So I went and I was soooo tired. I can't believe how 4 days of no exercise took such a toll on my stamina. I wanted to stop at 15 minutes of treadmill, but I pushed it to 25. I did my entire workout today, so I don't feel too bad after it. I'm still feeling glum and unmotivated. Just like everything is going to crumble soon. I need to see the scale get back down to where it was. I'll probably get the will and the drive at that point.

I partially blame my ex for hurting me for my loss of willpower. And I partially blame my ex and my binge drinking for my current depressed state of mind. I'm sure I'll get out of it soon. I am kinda starting to forget about the ex because my other ex (the 6 month one) told me a few months ago that he still loves me and wants to be with me... so we are kinda talking again. I want to take things slow though; not rush into anything. When we were together we got down each others necks really quick because I pretty much moved into his place. This time (if there becomes a this time) I only want to see him like 2 times a week. It will probably be easy since he works afternoons. Anyways...no more talking about the boy situation... it's not really important right now anyways.

Well I am not going to post my calories during my detox, but I will post my meals:

Breakfast: Soup and fruit (watermelon, blueberries, strawberries, honeydew melon, canaloup, pineapple)
Snack: Fruit (Same as above)
Lunch: Soup and fruit (Same as above)
Snack?: Fruit (Same as above?)
Dinner: Soup and fruit (probably orange)
 
Lots of soup! I wish you well on the soup detox, I need to clean out my system too. Thinking about doing that lemonade.
 
Ugh, boys. I agree that taking it slow is the best thing! I have a tendancy to leap into things 110% (moving them into my place, moving into theirs, etc) and I think that it really helps to take it slow so you don't forget about YOU in the process.

You will get your stamina back! Just mow through these hard days and before you know it you'll be back in the rhythm. :)
 
Hey thanks so much dawnkyung. Yea my ex (Mike) and I really got too into things too fast. It got to the point where if I were in one room, he'd move to another. I did get the point, but even when I tried to go home early and stuff, he'd be like "what the hell? why you leaving so early?" So I had no idea what he wanted, and he'd never ever tell me. When we broke up, it was really hard because their was no reason for it. I took it soo hard and I think that's why I jumped into my most recent former relationship (with Chris...things are getting confusing so I need to provide names). But I always still cared about Mike. So now I think if we make some serious changes and try to work things out, they won't be the same as they used to be. Soo tense and stuff.

Shit son...how do i manage to write the longest damn paragraphs about boys?

Well yea.. Shaun I'm looking into this lemonade detox right now. I am quite curious to see how it goes.
 
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