Veronique's Diary

[Verobc1]

06 May 2010

Happy thursday!

Ok so last night I did about 20 min of my reg circuit but I am so not counting it I was just going through the motions and not putting any energy or actuall work into it. I hate that my mood is so low lately, I need to see positive result but how can I expect those if I don't work for it I am cought no in a downward spiral but in loop going in circle not seing results being angry and depressed but not doing a thing about it. There is so much stuff going on right now, I am so tired of money being a issue and the fact that on friday the car payement will either bounce or we will have to borrow money again is so stressfull it feels like I am paralized you know like watching a train reck...I want to go see a financial advisor but the hubby is being the typical man "Why we can do it on our own! Just like stopping for directions," We have been doing it on our own for 10years now and it's not working damn it i am sick of this stress and so is he but he still won't go for help....I am wondering what his reaction would be if I just went an met with the advisor on my own, would they even help if he isn't there a lot of things are in his name so I don't know. In September our Daughter is starting school so we are gonna save like 40$ in day care a week that is 160 a month that will help big time...I was working on our budget can you beleive that my expenses for going to work are between 1000- 1200 a month, it's 1000 now cause I take the bus I make about 1600 a month so I am basically working at this deadfull place for like 400$ a month but we need that 400$ so I just need to keep looking for a better job nothing else I can do! I think once we can catch on on our bills and I feel less like I am 20ft under water and can breath easilly it's gonna be easyer to loose weight. I am not giving up I will keep trying cause I don't want the scale to go higher, I got to get my finances in order, that is really the biggest stress in my life and i am sure it contributes to my weight problem. I am not expecting a loss this week but I hope I didn't gain.

Breakfast
bagel 6pts
coffee 2pts

no snack

Lunch
Chicken sandwich with mustard 6PTS

Snack
green tea
mabe Kashi bar 2pts

Diner
Salad with chicken or legumes 4-6pts
23pts for the day

I will go walk at lunch if the weather permits
and tonight I will attempt another work out

 

[MissJellyBelly]

I hate that my mood is so low lately, I need to see positive result but how can I expect those if I don't work for it I am cought no in a downward spiral but in loop going in circle not seing results being angry and depressed but not doing a thing about it.

Hi V!

Stopping by to see your diary! I can relate to how you feel. It's so hard to be in the spiral of not seeing the results you want.

Sometimes I feel like I am on a roller coaster and I cant get off!! lol

Hope you see some good results soon, that always cheers me up and helps motivate me.

 

[Verobc1]

Hey hun, you are still trucking right along, but where is all that exercise you and I were supposed to start doing? lol.

I did start the couch 2 5k challenge, but then I hurt my knee. While I was doing it though, it really worked well at letting you gradually build up to running. It pushed hard, but just hard enough. They have a lovely active Facebook page you may want to check out.

Good job skipping snacks at the movies. That is always hard to do. Keep on moving and you'll get there eventually.

I am trying to find where the heck I put my motivation cause I need it bad!
I was so full from Diner that the popcorn smell didn't even get to me! Thank God!

 

[Verobc1]

Hi V!

Stopping by to see your diary! I can relate to how you feel. It's so hard to be in the spiral of not seeing the results you want.

Sometimes I feel like I am on a roller coaster and I cant get off!! lol

Hope you see some good results soon, that always cheers me up and helps motivate me.

I would love to see some good results but since I didn't work for them I really don't think I will see them, I am just hoping I didn't do to much Damage!

Thank You for stoping by my diary!!!!

 

[Xenon1]

Veronique I totally feel you on this one! I have been *excuse my french* a real crabby ass lately and my hubby is trying to deal with me lolol but i know I am being a bit much. My stress is balancing everything.

I have been there with finances, and financial stress is really a difficult thing to deal with because it makes you feel unstable and irritable. If you can find a financial advisor who can give you a free consultation, talk it over with your hubby--what have you got to lose if it's free. I am sure they can give you a few good pointers and if you discuss them with your hubby after the free meeting, maybe he might lighten up towards it! Just trying to think of a solution on my end, I am certainly not meaning to pry. Now if I can find a solution for my mess, everything will be ok

But I am also trying to even out my mood because being a crab ass isn't going to fix anything. I've been brainstorming so lets see if anything works!

Anyways you are really doing a great job in spite of everything and I know its hard to realise it when the scale is being stubborn, but just hang in there! believe me you are awesome!

 

[Monique01]

Hi, just thought I'd stop by and see how you are doing. I'm doing pretty good. With this weekend being Mother's Day it will be a real struggle. I am going to try to be good...

 

[Verobc1]

Veronique I totally feel you on this one! I have been *excuse my french* a real crabby ass lately and my hubby is trying to deal with me lolol but i know I am being a bit much. My stress is balancing everything.

I have been there with finances, and financial stress is really a difficult thing to deal with because it makes you feel unstable and irritable. If you can find a financial advisor who can give you a free consultation, talk it over with your hubby--what have you got to lose if it's free. I am sure they can give you a few good pointers and if you discuss them with your hubby after the free meeting, maybe he might lighten up towards it! Just trying to think of a solution on my end, I am certainly not meaning to pry. Now if I can find a solution for my mess, everything will be ok

But I am also trying to even out my mood because being a crab ass isn't going to fix anything. I've been brainstorming so lets see if anything works!

Anyways you are really doing a great job in spite of everything and I know its hard to realise it when the scale is being stubborn, but just hang in there! believe me you are awesome!

Lol I know what you mean about being a "crab ass" stress with TOM comming it's doing nothing good for my personality!!! That's life right?? Ok so I am putting my papers together tonight (he isn't home he will be at work) and I am gonna try to get an appointment with an advisor with a really good reputation in the next couple week, during the first appointment he is supposed to give you a couple of different plan of action that he can set up for you, once I have those I can go and sit down with the hubby with clear idee in mind. I just need to see progress I know the finance may take as much time as my weight loss but like I am doing with my health I want to take controle of my finances! Then I will feel better!

 

[Verobc1]

Hi, just thought I'd stop by and see how you are doing. I'm doing pretty good. With this weekend being Mother's Day it will be a real struggle. I am going to try to be good...

I am glad to hear you are doing good I am gonna go check out your journal to see just how good!!

I know what you mean about mothers day we have two places to be on Sunday! My mother in law talked about having the familly over on Saturday but that means that I get no breaks no day at home to do the laundry...and as far as food I think I will do great my mom's familly have a buffet everyone brigns on thing and most of it will have porc, ham or red meat wich I don't eat so I will stick to the vegetable salads and have only 1 4oz of wine I should be fine. At my in laws I will mostly have bbq chicken and salad I can skip the potatoes ( she always boils the potatoes yuck if they where baked on the grill then I would have a hard time to resist but boil no problem).

 

[Verobc1]

May 07 2010

Happy Friday people!

Ok well I weighted myself this morning and I am still at 178.2 I am starting to really hate this number 1 mo of it is enough! Since I didn't eat all that great, and really didn't work out enough I should thank the hatefull scale goddess that I didn't go up.

So I have a new plan of action. I was only keeping my food diary online and not on paper starting today I am gonna I am gonna keep both I will measure myself and I already weighted myself I am starting over! I will write down everything I eat and all exercise I do! I will mesure my food so the quantities I write down are actually what I eat....I want to track not only my weight loss but also my fitness level so I can really see where I started at and where I will be by the time I reach my goal weight. This is the way I succeeded in losing weight last time and I beleive it is the way I will succeed this time! I am not waiting for motivation or inspiration to hit 100% cause I don't know when that comes back but what better way to bring it back then actually getting good results?

Yesterday I had forgotten my usuall water bottle at home so I ended up using the Wendies big large cup but I wasn't sure I many oz there are in there so after drinking 4 I decided to go online and see how many 42oz that is like 168ox of water in my day from 8:15 to 4:25pm At least that was good.
I also did a 25 min workout and for the first time in a long time really gave it my all and I can really feel it this morning! lol!!!

Today
Breakfast
oatmeal, 1 banana, 1TBSP of Peanut Butter YUM!! 8pts
coffee 2pts

lunch
Salad 0pts
1oz of feta cheese1.5
2oz chicken 2pts
dressing 2tbsp 1pts
lunch total 4.5

14.5 pts
if I am hungry I have a muffin as a snack 4pts
wich bring my day to 18.5 pts
4.5 pts left for diner so legume salad
I am hoping to get a walk in at lunch depending on the weather!
Happy Mothers day to all the Momies on here!!!

 

[skkroll]

You tried the peanut butter banana oatmeal!!! And YUM is right!! Wrtiting down food AND exercise is a great idea... that has helped me a lot in the past. Even if I already wrote it on here, it's nice to have a journal as well. And if it worked for you before then there's no reason it can't work again! Nice job getting that water in yesterday... I still have a hard time drinking that much!

Have a great day and a nice weekend!
~ Sarah

 

[mizzie]

I know what you mean about hating a number! I got a little stuck at 206.6 and I think I'll hate that number forever now. It wasn't even that long, about 1 1/2 weeks, but it was so maddening to see that number all the time!

I think you are on the right idea. Get back to tracking your food and exercise and you'll start going back down in no time. You might be gearing up for a whoosh too, you never know.

Happy Friday!

 

[mrskt20]

Veronique, good job on giving it your all during your workout. I truely understand how you feel about your financial issues. My husband lose his job back in Sept. and things have been pretty hard since then. He now has a part time job and he's in school but our income has been cut in half. The bad part about it is our bills haven't been cut in half. So I know your stress. Just try to stay encourage, things will work out for you all. I always tell my self that I rather be stressed out by bills only then to be stressed out by my bills and my weight. So keep up the good work. Things will get better.

 

[Verobc1]

You tried the peanut butter banana oatmeal!!! And YUM is right!! Wrtiting down food AND exercise is a great idea... that has helped me a lot in the past. Even if I already wrote it on here, it's nice to have a journal as well. And if it worked for you before then there's no reason it can't work again! Nice job getting that water in yesterday... I still have a hard time drinking that much!

Have a great day and a nice weekend!
~ Sarah[/FONT]

Now thanks to you I can say I love Oatmeal!

I don't know why I didn't track it on paper as well since January since I knew it worked and on weekends I can't really be online alot.

As for the Water, I work as a receptionist so I talk all day long and I used to get sore throat all the time my DR told me to sip water all day long, so for me it's easy to do on the weekday! Weekends it hard to just eat so drinking water is much more of a challenge I try to just keep my water bottle around to track how much I am drinking.

Thank you for visiting!

 

[Verobc1]

I know what you mean about hating a number! I got a little stuck at 206.6 and I think I'll hate that number forever now. It wasn't even that long, about 1 1/2 weeks, but it was so maddening to see that number all the time!

I think you are on the right idea. Get back to tracking your food and exercise and you'll start going back down in no time. You might be gearing up for a whoosh too, you never know.

Happy Friday!

I hate the number but I can only blame my own self it's fun to blame the scale but since I am the one who feeds me and I am the one who choose not to work out right? Blamming the scale feels so much better, lol but at least I know the reason behind the plateau so it's fixable. If I had worked hard and not gotten any reasults it would be much more upsetting!

I was still tracking on here but on paper I can drag it around with me easier then my big pc!

Thanks for visiting!

 

[Verobc1]

Veronique, good job on giving it your all during your workout. I truely understand how you feel about your financial issues. My husband lose his job back in Sept. and things have been pretty hard since then. He now has a part time job and he's in school but our income has been cut in half. The bad part about it is our bills haven't been cut in half. So I know your stress. Just try to stay encourage, things will work out for you all. I always tell my self that I rather be stressed out by bills only then to be stressed out by my bills and my weight. So keep up the good work. Things will get better.

Thankyou. I was on maternity leave for a year with only 55% of my salary comming in so that is the reason we are behind on many things, also lately we have had some expenses to like a new lunch box for my daughter she won't be going to school till next year but she is going for 5 full days during this month, she needed the lunch box and a indoor pair of shoes. You are right I can't pay with money I don't have I have to take it one day at a time and stop stressing! No Spending money we don't have. Thanks for dropping by!

 

[Xenon1]

Happy Friday people!

Ok well I weighted myself this morning and I am still at 178.2 I am starting to really hate this number 1 mo of it is enough!

Ahhh that is all you needed to say! Once you develop a hatred for a number you go below it in a week and then the weight comes flying off! I have seen it so many times. Now please insert a dollar in my crystal ball to cover the cost of fortune telling

I'm happy you're going to get to see an advisor. You are absolutely correct, it does take time to get things in order and it is much like working toward good health! I'm working on it now myself.

 

[Isabel2]

Oh, it's so frustrating when the scale refuses to budge. I find kicking it helps

 

[Xenon1]

Oh, it's so frustrating when the scale refuses to budge. I find kicking it helps

lolololololol :-D

 

[chubbygirl]

Keep at it Veronique - you won't see results any other way! And going backwards is no fun! It took me like 6 weeks to lose 5 pounds but after a crappy week it's very easy to gain 5 pounds - it's just not fair! Hope you had a good weekend and are still on track. I'm sorry to hear you are having some money stresses - I know it's easier said then done but try to not let it get you down - one day at a time. Take care.

 

[juni]

I am with Lisa on this on all counts. Keep at it. Last time I was here I was doing everything and I wasn't losing much. Then I just gave up and fell off the wagon and look where that got me. Had I continued on, I would have probably reached my 120lbs goal by now (please note I was here last in July 2009 and left around oct). You eat really well, and are sooo consistent with exercise and are doing everything right. It is just taking some time.

Sorry to hear that you are having financial problems. It is really hard watching every penny, but that is what is going to make you get through this. That and patience. Things have their way of working out...Im keeping all crossing our fingers for you. Good luck.

Lets try to stay focussed and end this week strong!