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Verobc1

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I have been on this website off and on for a few years...I was doing really well in my weight loss but when I change jobs and then lost that job....everything went downhill....at first I at least maintained but now I am back at 188lb and really not feeling good about myself....my emotions are all over the place but all in the negative....I need to start focusing more on my weightloss I am searching around to buy a threadmill since a gym is not an option....I need to be less lazy and make healthier meals I always go for the easy fix and as we all know that is not the best!


My sister used the Pink diet and says it worked great for her...but she is a stay at home mom of older kids...I work 4 hours a week I am taking college clases online and I have to little kids to take care of and a husband who thinks that now that I am a mom I should just concenrtrate on taking care of him and the kids and forget my needs cause I am a mom and nothing else now.

if I sound bitter when I say this I am. I try to make him see that yes I am a mom but also a wife and above all a women. the same one he met and fell in love with and that she need caring as well, He just won`t see it that way, so instead of waiting for his eyes to open I will just have to make time for me even if it mean a messier house or a few less hours of sleep . A women I work with is losing weight in order to get breast reduction after looking through her research I want to do the same thing....I tried running I love it but it is very painfull for my chest area and upper back and neck and same with Zumba... I know I have about 25 lb to loose before even thinking about the surgery so this is my goal....go down to 140 - 125 lb hopefully by this time next year....2lb a week is a healthy weight loss so in 7 months I can loose 56lb but I give myself a year ....I will mostly check what I am eating eat clean and real foods, I will start with walking depending on how it feels I will gradually start running. Ladies if you can recomend a full support bra that will not break my budget I would love to hear it! If anyone on here is thinking of getting the surgery or had it done I would love to hear from you as well. I am a bit worried about the pain and recovery time after.
 
Hi!!

I'm glad to see you back here!! It's too bad that you're so down, though...you should be kinder to yourself!!! It's totally awesome that you found the motivation to get back on this site and to start getting healthy again!


It's really too bad that your husband isn't giving you any support in this. That makes it more of a challenge. I have to say that my husband was no help to me at all during my weightloss. ( And now he tell me that I'm too skinny !) So, it can be done.

It's nice that a woman at work is losing weight. Maybe you guys can hang out and bond and talk diet/exercise? n IRL pal doing the same thing as you can be a real life-saver, IMHO


I have to get going now...but know that I'm thinking of you and waiting to hear more!!!!!!
 
Day two!


Ok I have been taking my vitamines for almost a week and I can already feel the difference, I had a blood test a few weeks back and just got the results back last week my Iron vitamine b and calcium levels where low so that would explaine my feeling down and tired all the time, also the reason for my Dr appointment I was getting a cramp (like a charlie horse) in my abs always on the right hand side ever since I had my son....it was worse now that I am trying to work out, I was afraid that I had an ernia (not sure how to spell this) but it`s not lack of calcium that makes my muscle try to bunch together....very painful so I am hoping that I can start the workout again in a couple of weeks!


Ok got interupted I wanted to add today's menu


Breakfast

Coffee 2 cream one surgar

bagel toasted with butter


Lunch

thai take out

Thai Chicken spicy soup

and a thai stir fry with lots of vegies including hot peppers



Diner

left over Thai stir fry


I don`t usually eat take out often but today we are celebrating secretary day today and I am a secretary so boss was buying lunch but I voted for the Thai restaurent cause other then that it was fast food.


I think I will try to workout tonight nothing hard core for another few weeks after a month I can start over my abs workout but for now I might just play one of those dancing games on the x box that is a cardio workout and I can play with the kids.
 
Hello


Ok so friday I was away at a secretary convention....kept the food healthy indulge with some extra coffee and that all and did a lot of walking in the mall after it was over.



Saturday went shopping again kept food healthy and walked a lot


Sunday had a lazy day with the kids since it was raining but kept the food healthy


today


coffee

bagel for breakfast


a VH steam microwave for lunch curried chicken


diner salad with chickpeas


kind of short on time today so I got to go!
 
Your food choices are looking really great! Good for you!


Still taking those vitamins?
 
Hey Rox it is nice to see a familiar name on here!!! I am still taking the vitamines but I got to admit that on the weekend I forgot....but when I got back into my routine I got right back to it.


Last night my meal plan changed. The kids love it when we do `a raclette`` sorry for the french but I am not sure how it is name in english

sort of like a fondue but instead of oil or broth to cook the meat and veggies it`s a small electric grill you cook the meat on top and there are little trays under the grill where you cook veggies and top em with cheese of sauce.


I ate 3 ounces of chicken and about 3 cups of veggies I did add cheddar on top but way less then I usually do and also I usually drnk a glass or two of wine with a raclette but I drank water instead.


I noticed that lately I stopped drinking water, I drank a lot of coffee and pop. I am having a hard time getting back on the water band wagon....I either forget to drink cause I am actually quite busy at this job...(anything is busyer then the job I used to have) or I tend to say yes when someone goes to Tims for a coffee run....I must work on that, I remember drinking 3L of water a day minimum. Last weekend to I bought myself a glass bottle to keep on my desk, it`s about 750ml and it is right in front of my face....so far this week it is working, hopefully i can shed some of my water weight my wedding bands are so tight.


I weighted in at 192lb I never have been in the 190`s 189lb was my top weight. So I am very disapointed in myself, and angry also, I am angry at everything, my poor husband gets his head bit off if he just looks my way...maybe I am PMSing or something I am not sure I just know that I must do something and I must do it now....and for good.


There are 5 of us at work that want to loose weight so we have formed a weight watchers type club. that should help, I am also still looking for a threadmill don`t reallly have room for it but I will have to make it, I have the x box 360games but a lot of those work outs have jumping and with my chest size that is too painfull so I will start with walking I do outside right now but I don`t really like that cause I have time after the kids are in bed and by then it`s dark I would feel much safer inside and also when it rains of it`s too cold out or the husband is working nights I could still have my work out....in a couple of weeks I will add some free weights....I am looking for a app on my I phone like a personal trainer app any one here can recommand one?


ok I Forgot my meal plan for today


Breakfast

Coffee 2crean one surgar

french toast bagel

(breakfast needs work I know)


Lunch

greek salad

100 calorie pack of almonds (had to find some protein)

rasberries for desert


diner

don`t know probably salad with either tuna or chicken


I am gonna stick to salads for a few weeks and eventually bring more ballance !
 
Raclette sounds good! It's a really popular thing here in the Haute Savoie where I live. I haven't gotten out our raclette machine for ages, though the kids do love it....


And having a weight-loss group with work pals is a super idea! You will really be able to motivate each other!


I know how upset you must feel that your weight went back up and now you have lots of work to do to get fit again. But just try to remember that you are making positive changes now that are taking you back to where you want to be.
 
Thank you Rox....I love comming on here and fiding post in my journal! Raclette is very popular in my house hold and I found that if I measure my quantities in advance I can still keep it healthy so I think they will keep being popular, I love that the kids enjoy it and it gives us time as a family, and it`s healthy as well since they mostly eat shrimps and veggies !



Ok so today I found out why I reached 192lb this week TOM is here so I find it hard not to eat junk and I am craving all the wrong stuff yesterday I had fries a handfull mabee 10 or 12 with salt and vingar on it at first I was like YUM but then figured if I have to put that much salt and vinegar on this to enjoy it then it must not tast that good....I then had my planned super 3 egg whites veggie scamble (supposed to be an omelette but that didn`t happen) with a whole wheat toast.


today

breakfast

whole brand bud with yogourt and 3 giant strawberries!

black coffee



Lunch

Salad (have to go find dressing)

1.5 ounce of chicken baked in fat free salsa


Snack

100cal pack of almonds


diner

something veggie need a break from chicken!
 
Hello


Ok so yesterday we got new computers at work so I didn`t get a chance to come online....here is what yesterday looked like


Breakfast

1/2 a toasted seasame seed bagel lightly butteres

1/2 a banana

coffee Large 1 cream 1 surgar

1/2 cup of pine apple


lunch

3 cups of vegie salad

1 tbsp of greek dessing

2tbsp of hummus

7 pita crisp (whole graine Kashie)


Snack

Apple


diner

Home made club type sandwich

3oz of chicken on whole wheat toasts (2slices)

topped 1 slice of cheese (processed) lettuce, 2slices of chicken bacon and mustard


I drank 4X750ML of water and ended the day with 3 points bites left


For those of you who wonder what I mean by bites I am using an app to keep track of what I eat called `'I track Bites' Love this app I can calculate how many point by portions right in the store and there in a food and exercise log, It makes keeping track so easy I love it!


Ok so the big news is that this morning I weighted in at 190 LB so that means that in the last week I have lost 2lb while TOM is here so for me that is almost imposible I usually stay at the same weight during that time I don`t remember loosing so yay!


todays menu


Breakfast

A mini bagel

1 egg fried

coffe Large 1 cream 1 surgar


snack

banana


Lunch

3 cups of salad

3oz oc chicken

1TBSP of greek dressing

7 pita crisp

1 cup of fresh Mango


I am not feeling as hungry today as I did most of the week I am sure it has to do with more protein with breakfast. I was able to make it work this morning made the bagel and egg and then wrap it and ate it at work. It`s 3 points altogether and very filling keep me full until now. I have to firgure out diner tonight!
 
Hello forum friends.


The Weekend was very tough....I didn`t stay on track very well...stayed within my points cause I was more active then usuall but hopefully next weekend will be easier,,,,,I will have to keep busy that way I don`t have time to indulge....we also got the bbq working it`s been a year since we used it! I was very happy about that


friday ended up with

another homemade club type sandwich and a glass of wine wich put me 2 over in points but I hadn`t touch my weekly 30 pts so that should work



Saturday

minibagel sandwich and coffee


Lunch

pop corn ( I was on my way to an unschedualed outing)


diner

restaurent club no bacon no mayo and fries!

(I had just walk for 2.5 km on uneven terrain somethime carying a 3year old!


and a glass of wine


since I had 7 added points... I ended the day even also I gave 1/4 of the club to my daughter



Sunday

Woke up late

so made my usuall mini bagel sandwich but added 2 stripes of chicken bacon and cheese to up the calories since I knew that I would not be eating lunch with my usuall coffee

I ended up eating some corn in mid afternoon


we did some yard work and fixed the bbq

so grilled chicken for supper

with 1 cup of grilled veggies

I had a few licks of my sons ice cream because he didn`t think it was fair that mommy didn`t have desert like the rest of the familly


today

breakfast

usuall mini bagel with an egg

coffee (can`t live with out this mabee this summer if I am off I will break this habbit I can`t deal with the migrains I went down 1 cream and take a large instead of an xtra large so I am inmproving.)


* I had forgotten todays menu


Lunch

Grilled chicken and my usuall salad one tbsp of greek dressing


snack

banana


once all of this is consumed acording to my points tracking app I know that I will still have 16 points for the rest of the day.....I will probably eat some yogurt in the afternoon so that I am not over hungfry at diner we will see if it`s needed


This morning I wieghted in at 187.2lb I think this is my actuall weight now that TOM is over!
 
Sounds like you did pretty well over the weekend. I know what you mean about it being hard and needing to keep busy!


As for coffee...I LOVE coffee and would never give it up!

I take it with skim milk and some sugar-free flavored syrup (amaretto is my fave!)

The only calories are from the skim milk and it's SO good!

Why do you think you need to give up your coffee? Especially if it helps with the migraines?
 
Hi Rox!


I think I want to give up coffee cause I hate being addicted to it. If I don`t have at least 1 cup a day I get a migrain. It would be nice to be able to have a cup when I want to but not have to have it!

As for the surgar free stuff I stay away from it I find it contains many chemicals that should not be ingested plus I found that when ever I eat something surgar free a few hour later I get a very bad headach and if I continue to eat it the migrain comes back...that is my trick to get rid of migrain stop surgar free stuff and drink at least one coffee a day...but I could use one of those flavored whitner instead of cream and not add extra surgar,
 
Ok so it's 9 o clock and I am on here catching up on some diaries and also trying to keep my mind on food I have 5 points left but I hate the idea of going to sleep after eating....I just made myself a cup of decaf green tea and hopefully that will do the trick....I am not actually that hungry I had a big diner. In the afternoon I had a second coffee I work with a bunch of coffee addict so since I had more then enough points left decided to go for one so that left me with 14 points left for diner the kids and hubby wanted pasta so I thawed out some homemade sauce and cooked some pasta for them but I knew that pasta was worth so much point so I went out and bought some spegatti squash and made some vegie sauce. It was so good and I made enough to last until friday so that will be my lunch all week very filling and healthy.


i am a bit frustraded at my husband....he does not get how hard this is for me at all! He does not or ever had to lose weight for him it was more like he needed to gain. He get annoyed with me for not wanted to sit with him and watch tv.....or a movie.....I am just not strong enough to sit beside him while he eat whatever in whatever quantities he wants...it makes me angry that he can do that, I gain weight just from watching him. I am also trying to get to bed earlier he had issues with that too. I get home from work and he is usually naping on couch (he gets up at 2:30 am to get to work on time) I have no problem with him sleeping for an hour in the afternoon, what makes me angry is that he gets home at around 2 then playes video games, or watches something on Netfilx until 4 then naps until 8 so I get to rush home from work pick up the kids, make super, bath, homework when there is some (kindergarden has homeowork now) put the kids to bed clean up the kitchen prep stuff for the lunches in morning get the laundry, started or folded depending on the day try to get some studying in.....and then he wakes up at 8, and tells me can you fix me a plate.....I am so close to loosing my cool....did I get pregnant on my own? Did I wear all that laundry?? Then why the hell do I have to do this all on my own....I don<t care how it worked when he was little his mom did not work outside the home 40hrs a week his mom was not going to school. Starting this week all laundry that is not in the laundry basket will not be cleaned and if he is not at the table for diner then too bad he can cook his own damn meal. I am not a cook or a servant. It feels so good to let this out. Some days I fell like I am gonna blow, I am usually good at dealing with stress I just need help, if he could nap at 3 and then wake up for 4 and then start diner, I would have no problem with doing the kitchen clean up at least I got to relax for 20 and enjoy familly meal....is that so hard to do or even uderstand and if I bring it up I get the Well I work for a living.....just cause I work in an office doesn't mean I don<t get tired, Mabe not the same kind of tired he his but still I work the same amount of hours he does. Ok now it's out I feel somewhat better and no longer want to eat away my anger I will go do some reading before going to sleep. Good night and well I am not sorry for this rant it is my journal after all!
 
Ok so today I am feeling a lot less frustraded!


Breakfast

mini bagel

1 egg whole

1 cheese slice


2 coffees with cream and surgar in each


Lunch

3 cupsveggie spegetti sauce

1 cup spegetti squash


Snack

yogourt (if I am hungry)


Diner

A Vegie Salade

1tbsp or 2 of dressing

1 can of tuna
 
Hello forum friends


Today I feel like giving up. I am an emotional eater and I eat when I am angry or sad or lonely.....now that I don't have food to keep everything down I don't know how else to deal with all these emotions....I want to bite everyone head off....I should be away from people.....my husband and I are barely speaking right now....I think all the emotions I have been keeping down with food and now they all want out! I am gonna have to find somethiing to chanel them in .... it's been raining cats and dog outside for days so I can't get any exercise in I feel trapped and I just want to scream at the top of my lungs......I am hoping these feeling are not here to stay cause I am gonna end up alone, someone told to just let it out scream have a good cry but growing up I was told to keep my emotions in you know not show weekness., worked well in school never got bothered by bullies but now that i am an adult I need to let these feelings out, so I can have a healthy relationship with the ones I want close to me!
 
I am SO sorry you are going through this!! Please believe that I really understand how you feel. I'm a stress-eater too and I have been where you are now.


It's good that you are using your diary to vent some of your feelings.

But do you have someone IRL that you can talk to? A girlfriend or sister who you can confide in?


You definitely need to talk seriously with your husband, too...but maybe when you are feeling a little more calm and have a more rational understanding of what you need.

IMHO, you really need two things:

1. You need to have more time for yourself. That way you will feel less stressed time-wise and you'll feel less resentment towards your husband.

2; You need to find another form of stress-release besides eating. I use sex and shopping. That's what works for me, but you need to find your own thing that comforts you.


You need to figure this stuff out in detail and your husband needs to be part of the team...


This is all just my opinion, of course, to take or leave as you please.

Just know that I am thinking of you and my heart really goes out to you. Please don't give up!
 
Thank you Rox you are right I must find a way to deal with stress cause eating it is not healthy.




I just had a major wake up call today....we had to call an embulance for one of the ladies at work that is part of my weight loss group, she had strock symtoms.

She is the same height and weight has me....and about 4yrs older...her kids about 4years older then mine so that hit close to home.....I hope she is ok they took her t the hospital and one coworker followed her in and will update us when there is news...I need to focus on my health, and I will need to have a talk with my husband he needs to share le loads in the houseold just like we used to before we had kids. I have to get back to work and I will log back on with todays menus.
 
ok here goes the menu


Breakfast

mini bagel whole wheat toasted no butter

1 large egg fried


Lunch

1 cup of spegetti squash

3 cups of veggie sauce ( didn`t eat all my stomach is doing flip flops I am woried for my co worker )


Diner

I want to do a Southwest chicken Stir fry (chicken, red peper, corn, jalepeno, oignions, black beens)


Snack

Kashi pita chip 7 chips ( when my stomach is upset salty food helps big time)


I so want a poutine or a bag of chips right now or a giant chocolat bar but that won`t be an issue left my interact card at home and the only money I have will be needed for gas in order to get back home. I am not strong enough to not easily fall back into the eating for confort so I am leaving my cash at home that way I can`t just sneek of next door to the grocerie store and eat until I fell over stuffed.
 
Breakfast


Yogourt with granola and strawberries (a treat this morning)

Coffee black


Lunch

3 cups of salad

3oz of chicken

1tbsp of greek dressing


Diner

I don`t know yiet!


I weighted in this morning and even if I have been sticking to my points I didn`t loose anything.....I am still gonna keep going I do stil feel better when I eat this way !
 
I just spent my lunch hour reading one of my old diaries on here.....I wish I could say I made a lot of progress....but I can`t but I can say I have learned alot so that is good. I come on here a lot lately instead of diving head first in a bag of chips! So that is good.....I will be busy tonight I haven`t done laundry al week mostly did some school work so I will have to do that while watching Grey`s Anatomy! time to get back to work!
 
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