ups and downs and shifting around

[SoSel]

Drug him and leav him passed out... he'll never know HAhahahah!

*wiggles eyebrows*

That little chicky-thing on your ticker is so suited to you. See that determined face? You keep going no matter what and that is so awesome! I'm so glad to have met you on here.

 

[cinderelly]

Hey you I will catch up in a bit See ya later on

 

[Boam46]

*wiggles eyebrows*

That little chicky-thing on your ticker is so suited to you. See that determined face? You keep going no matter what and that is so awesome! I'm so glad to have met you on here.

Thanks Sel!

I saw it and it just looked like it fit... i was like damn that's how I feel

You having a good day?

 

[SoSel]

I feel so overwhelmed it's almost unbearable. I don't know what to do. It all started like this...

I went school supply shopping with my daughter and good friend. I spent more than I had intended to b/c I bought 2 outfits to bike ride in [shorts and tanks- it's so d*mn hot!] and a set sheet [600 thread count at 45 bucks]. I can't pass a clearance rack to save my life. Well, I got home and checked the account and was shocked by how low it was. On top of that, my hubby had to pay a speeding ticket. There goes the sheets. Return time. Ok, fine. Then I got a letter saying I missed a car payment last month. I NEVER do that. Oh yeah, but I did. I forgot. More money out the window. Add to that the 89 bucks a week for day care, starting next Monday... and we're poor. I don't see how to get out of this slump.

My hubby tried to cheer me up. He doesn't hold the mistake against me and practically begged me not to cry. He kissed me a lot to make me smile. [weird, huh?] I volunteered to go get a job on every other weekend [he's off b/c he works shifts] and he told me that he'd take care of the money thing. I would be happy, but it's him that put us in debt in the first place with all his big-ticket and constant purchases. SO WHY DO I FEEL BAD!?!?!?

I'm so under pressure that if I explode, there goes America. Ha! It's not tom and it's not my hubby, it's just my own personal standards. I want things to be alright all the time. I have trouble letting things go. Like I can really control the economy or something. 2 and a half years. I can graduate in the winter of '09, get a job, and take care of these money issues. I feel like it's hard to breathe like this. I'm so worried.

On the upside, I should get an internship after two semesters. My advisor will see to it. So, if I make any money after paying for daycare.... *groans*

What to do?

 

[SoSel]

8 mile bike ride [maybe longer- can't afford the 20 dollar bike pedometer thingy] in 45 minutes. Could have gone faster, but I passed a freshly mowed field and my throat felt like it was closing up. Darn allergies. I'll post food later.

After the bike ride, I came home and thought to myself "Better start letting people take your pictures- you're gonna be skinny soon!" And those bike shorts were well worth the investment. They look cute on my butt and they stay in place. ;]

 

[bikinibound]

I feel so overwhelmed it's almost unbearable. I don't know what to do. It all started like this...

I went school supply shopping with my daughter and good friend. I spent more than I had intended to b/c I bought 2 outfits to bike ride in [shorts and tanks- it's so d*mn hot!] and a set sheet [600 thread count at 45 bucks]. I can't pass a clearance rack to save my life. Well, I got home and checked the account and was shocked by how low it was. On top of that, my hubby had to pay a speeding ticket. There goes the sheets. Return time. Ok, fine. Then I got a letter saying I missed a car payment last month. I NEVER do that. Oh yeah, but I did. I forgot. More money out the window. Add to that the 89 bucks a week for day care, starting next Monday... and we're poor. I don't see how to get out of this slump.

My hubby tried to cheer me up. He doesn't hold the mistake against me and practically begged me not to cry. He kissed me a lot to make me smile. [weird, huh?] I volunteered to go get a job on every other weekend [he's off b/c he works shifts] and he told me that he'd take care of the money thing. I would be happy, but it's him that put us in debt in the first place with all his big-ticket and constant purchases. SO WHY DO I FEEL BAD!?!?!?

I'm so under pressure that if I explode, there goes America. Ha! It's not tom and it's not my hubby, it's just my own personal standards. I want things to be alright all the time. I have trouble letting things go. Like I can really control the economy or something. 2 and a half years. I can graduate in the winter of '09, get a job, and take care of these money issues. I feel like it's hard to breathe like this. I'm so worried.

On the upside, I should get an internship after two semesters. My advisor will see to it. So, if I make any money after paying for daycare.... *groans*

What to do?

Hmmm...hubby was actually being a good hubby for a change. That must be nice. Don't sweat the finances--I know from personal experience that this is easier said than done. He said he'd take care of it--hold him to it! It will all work out in the end--but some days it's just damn hard, isn't it?

 

[SoSel]

Food today:

bf- slimfast snack bar [120 cals], coffee, milk, splenda
l- Zaxby's grilled chicken sandwich and fries, accidentally drank REAL COKE with sugar! Opps!
d- breakfast burrito [hubby cooked] consisting of egg, 2 slices turkey bacon, shredded cheese, tortilla [150 cals] and salsa
s- baby carrots w/blue cheese dressing [just a touch] and an orange

I'm feeling incredibly down tonight. And it seems that everyone is having a crappy day. Anything good out there?

 

[Boam46]

hey sel,

Yay for the fruits and veggies... its great to see the fresh fruits in there.
Sorry I'm not in a cheery mood tonight... I wish I was feeling witty and clever to make you laugh... but im in the dumps :sad:

HUGS

 

[bikinibound]

hey sel,

Yay for the fruits and veggies... its great to see the fresh fruits in there.
Sorry I'm not in a cheery mood tonight... I wish I was feeling witty and clever to make you laugh... but im in the dumps :sad:

HUGS

Well, this is just too much! Everyone is having a shitty ass day, it seems. It's time we had a few laughs. Bring on the midgets!! Where the hell is Sheryl? She must have sent them to torture her neighbors.

 

[AmbaLove]

Yep, when you need a laugh, you really need some Sheryl time.

 

[SoSel]

I can't believe that's it Saturday! My hubby is off this weekend, but he went to go help his parents. I'm extremely dissapointed, to be honest. I like that he helps his parents. But I've been trying to go on a family vacation for 2 years now. I keep asking, but he keeps disregarding my requests. Sometimes we go visit his friends. Sometimes we go to the lake with my family. But what happened to a tent in the wilderness or at the beach? He even talked to me about going to the mountains earlier this week. I called my mom very excited b/c I thought he was hinting and planning. I start school on the 20th, he works next weekend, and it's done now. I'm not going. I even had money saved up to go. Looks like I'll be applying that to daycare.

On the other hand, I'm here alone. The kids went with their dad. I plan to do some cleaning and reading and movie watching and catch up with my buddies on here. Can I ever not clean!? lol! The results would be disastrous.

 

[cinderelly]

...

I want to come up with a November 1st goal. I know that starting Aug 20th, I'm so going to have time to exercise. So maybe I should make a personal Sept 1- Nov 1 challenge. Honestly, I want to look hot for my birthday. We're thinking about reserving a booth in this popular club. We got our own rent-a-cop, which the novelty of amuses me. Back to point... What is a realistic loss? Or should I buy the outfit I'd like to rock? The most I should push myself to lose in 3 months is 30 lbs max. Imagine... Whoa. Hmm. Maybe I should set for 30, buy the outfit, and go along with the flow.

It just hit me that this is conceivable. I always thought the weight would never leave. Imagine me in the 160's. Hotness. Hehe. I can be conceited. ;]

Good do both!!!You deserve a new outfit or two plus it gives you more incentive and you can totally lose 30 lbs or damn close if you put your mind to it!!!

I didn't have to worry! I weighed 195.6 this morning!

My hubby has surgery on the 22nd. *shakes head* It's not going to be pretty around here, but hopefully I can drug him up and go do what I need to. *doctor's orders* LOL!

Yes you see you knew it was TOM!!! The bastard he is!!! Yes drug the hubby - ha ha ha - can you accidently give him too much ???

I feel so overwhelmed it's almost unbearable. I don't know what to do. It all started like this...

I went school supply shopping with my daughter and good friend. I spent more than I had intended to b/c I bought 2 outfits to bike ride in [shorts and tanks- it's so d*mn hot!] and a set sheet [600 thread count at 45 bucks]. I can't pass a clearance rack to save my life. Well, I got home and checked the account and was shocked by how low it was. On top of that, my hubby had to pay a speeding ticket. There goes the sheets. Return time. Ok, fine. Then I got a letter saying I missed a car payment last month. I NEVER do that. Oh yeah, but I did. I forgot. More money out the window. Add to that the 89 bucks a week for day care, starting next Monday... and we're poor. I don't see how to get out of this slump.

My hubby tried to cheer me up. He doesn't hold the mistake against me and practically begged me not to cry. He kissed me a lot to make me smile. [weird, huh?] I volunteered to go get a job on every other weekend [he's off b/c he works shifts] and he told me that he'd take care of the money thing. I would be happy, but it's him that put us in debt in the first place with all his big-ticket and constant purchases. SO WHY DO I FEEL BAD!?!?!?

I'm so under pressure that if I explode, there goes America. Ha! It's not tom and it's not my hubby, it's just my own personal standards. I want things to be alright all the time. I have trouble letting things go. Like I can really control the economy or something. 2 and a half years. I can graduate in the winter of '09, get a job, and take care of these money issues. I feel like it's hard to breathe like this. I'm so worried.

On the upside, I should get an internship after two semesters. My advisor will see to it. So, if I make any money after paying for daycare.... *groans*

What to do?

Dont feel bad for spending money...we all do it and let him fix it it is him that puts you into debt...plus he is the med doc...geeesh...just count the days Selena till you get to start school and till he goes away

After the bike ride, I came home and thought to myself "Better start letting people take your pictures- you're gonna be skinny soon!" And those bike shorts were well worth the investment. They look cute on my butt and they stay in place. ;]

Well now as long as they make your butt look good and they are cute who the hell cares - tee hee hee...Yes let ppl click away...Ive been more photo genic lately it is nice to see my smile and not be afraid to show it and to see my self happier and more confident and to not crtize everyhtign I see...

Food today:

bf- slimfast snack bar [120 cals], coffee, milk, splenda
l- Zaxby's grilled chicken sandwich and fries, accidentally drank REAL COKE with sugar! Opps!
d- breakfast burrito [hubby cooked] consisting of egg, 2 slices turkey bacon, shredded cheese, tortilla [150 cals] and salsa
s- baby carrots w/blue cheese dressing [just a touch] and an orange

I'm feeling incredibly down tonight. And it seems that everyone is having a crappy day. Anything good out there?

Good food - yes yesturday was a bad bad bad day it seemed - LOL...Lets make today better!!!

 

[SoSel]

Good do both!!!You deserve a new outfit or two plus it gives you more incentive and you can totally lose 30 lbs or damn close if you put your mind to it!!!

Woo hoo! New clothes! Actually, I bought some brand new 14's last year when I tried losing weight. Got from 215 to 200, so I did something at least. I need to pull those out, set them up, and get to losing!

Yes you see you knew it was TOM!!! The bastard he is!!! Yes drug the hubby - ha ha ha - can you accidently give him too much ???

Ah, he's a man. I could give him aspirin and he'd lay around all day like a defenseless newborn. Funny thing about tom. I weighed more before I started, like the day before, than when I was actually experiencing it. I thought it was the other way around!

Dont feel bad for spending money...we all do it and let him fix it it is him that puts you into debt...plus he is the med doc...geeesh...just count the days Selena till you get to start school and till he goes away

Yesterday he tried convincing me to go again. I tried to smile and play nice, but you'd have to be BLIND not to see how fake I was. He really thinks he has a chance with me going across the world, willing and ready for his verbal attacks and neglect. Forget it!

Well now as long as they make your butt look good and they are cute who the hell cares - tee hee hee...Yes let ppl click away...Ive been more photo genic lately it is nice to see my smile and not be afraid to show it and to see my self happier and more confident and to not crtize everyhtign I see...

I asked my hubby to take some before pics last night in my new bike clothes. I feel so huge looking at the pics! But I feel so much smaller. Proof! I used to be soooo big.

Good food - yes yesturday was a bad bad bad day it seemed - LOL...Lets make today better!!!

I'm all about some happiness. I need it. *hugs*

 

[SoSel]

Finally some good news!!!

I bought this really cute halter-top sundress from Old Navy [size 16] 3 years ago. When I lived in LA, I kept it hung up in the bathroom for motivation. I never could wear it. The next year I lived in GA and kept it hung up in the bathroom there. Not only could I not fit into it, I damaged some of the zipper trying. Today I tried it on while I was looking around for a b-day goal outfit. Um... I'm wearing it! It's a tad tight on my lower belly pooch. *baby fat* But my girls look good in that halter top. Another 5 lbs off or a devotion to pilates for abs will have me looking like a total summer goddess in this thing. When that day comes, so will pics! I'll take some before pics too. I love this dress!

 

[Boam46]

WTG!!!! .... Now you have to find something even smaller for a goal for your b-day!!!

Congrats!!! :oing a happy dance::

 

[SoSel]

Thanks Jenna! It's just such a happy boost to fit into something smaller, as you discovered yourself. One day, you and I will be the hottest legal team around.

 

[bikinibound]

Thanks Jenna! It's just such a happy boost to fit into something smaller, as you discovered yourself. One day, you and I will be the hottest legal team around.

Woohoo! Here's to you fitting into the sundress. Aren't halter tops great for making "the twins" look good? lmbo. Glad to hear you're in a good mood.

You and Jenna will be such a hot legal team, they'll make a tv show about it...

 

[Boam46]

Woohoo! Here's to you fitting into the sundress. Aren't halter tops great for making "the twins" look good? lmbo. Glad to hear you're in a good mood.

You and Jenna will be such a hot legal team, they'll make a tv show about it...

That's right we'll be so fancy and hot the courts wouldn't be able to handle us! Last night you were saying you wouldn't be able to get one of those high paying jobs... you'll be my paralegal in NY or Boston

 

[SoSel]

That's right we'll be so fancy and hot the courts wouldn't be able to handle us! Last night you were saying you wouldn't be able to get one of those high paying jobs... you'll be my paralegal in NY or Boston

That was tom talking! hehehe I feel better today, much more optimistic.

But girl, me and you could make the world jealous.

 

[SoSel]

Just got in from a 9.8 mile bike ride! I probably should have just stuck with 6.6, but I pushed myself. Unfortunately pushing myself caused my knee to "crack." It was really gross. I heard and felt it, and it hurt like a --. Fill in the blanks. I have messed-up cartlidge in my knees [did I mention this before?], just like my dad and grandpa. My dad has cortizone shots in both knees and a surgery in one. My knees got so bad they mentioned doing that, so I quit going to the doctor about the pain. I went to physical therapy for a while [about 3 years ago] and the pt mentioned that my knee caps were off-center or whatever. So I got stuck doing the most amazingly painful exercises that made things worse. I quit pt too. I joined Curves 2 years ago and the machines really stregthened that area. On a good day, I can do squats. I have to cancel my membership now due to finances, but they got me on track. I don't hurt right now, but tomorrow is the real test. I used to get so bad I could barely walk. *crosses fingers*