ups and downs and shifting around

You have the right mindset now!

Be selfish for you and your kids... do what is best foryou and give him some of his own medicine:mad:

Have a great time today... you deserve an awesome day to relax drink and have fun... take advantage of it!

Lots of Love and Hugs:hug2: :hug2:










P.S. Did Mr.Veggie and Mrs.Fruit visit today?:rotflmao:
 
I fell off the wagon and I'm still rollin' down a narrow lane...

Oh, honestly, I didn't do the fruit and veggie thing. I didn't get in until 5 in the morning. I didn't get drunk or get lucky or show out. I bought myself a new outfit. And I shamelessly ditched my kids on my parents earlier than planned. :]
Today we're going to be all business. I took a break and remembered my younger days. Haha! My before-kid days is more like it. I got lectured last night on how uptight I can be. "Let go, Ce-Ce" was all I heard. [Yeah, my peeps call me Ce-Ce and about 5 variations of Ce.] So I have to digest that. I know it. I know I worry about everything. I don't know how to let go really. Lessons please?

I should be back later. I'm on my bro's comp and it is different, to be nice about it.

::hugs!:: to my girls
 
I cant let go either girl - i think when you have so much responsiblity an have it young it is really hard to let go and live ya know - Ive been a mom and a single mom since 16...now tha thas been rough girl...I cant relax have never been able too - I am high strung and always busy and on the go and always stressin - my x hated that abt me - I just couldnt relax - of course since he has been outta my life I cna relax more - funny how things work out hey...

You can only do what is best for you and what you want and if you dont know what those things are hten you gotta do some soul searching and figure them out before you can persue them - school will be good for you!!!
 
Thanks sweetie! I'm really glad that someone else knows where I'm coming from. I've made my kids my life, since I found out I was pregnant right before I turned 18. I'm so responsible with them that I think my hubby doesn't care about things b/c I'm in control. I'd love to let him take the reigns on some things, even if he made mistakes sometimes. He used to spend a lot of time with our daughter. But the second kid seemed to scare him off. Not saying that he doesn't love our son. He just doesn't show it as well. So I feel that if I let my guard down, bad stuff will happen. And I'll probably never know. I was raised to take care of myself and my actions.
 
Food so far today

bf- 2 whole grain waffles, sugar free syrup, coffee, splenda, little bit of milk
l- 6 in italian from Subway with lots of veggies

I haven't exercised today. Not sure what I can do. Sorta have an emberassing problem. Not to mention, I slept 3 hours this morning and I power-shopped Target for good deals. My mom told me to go w/o the kids!!! :jump: I was able to pick up a few much needed items at good prices and I bought myself a pair of wedge flip flops super-cheap. My mom was happy with me for remembering me. lol!

My hubby managed to "clean" the kitchen last night, so I don't have too much to do right now. However, I can always find something. Off to work! [wish I could sleep!]
 
hey Chicky:)

Just stopping by to say hello. I'm glad you had an awesome time last night. You deserve time to go out and have a blast and to go shopping on your own!
Your food looks great so far today :)... as for yesterday... I'll let the no fruits and veggies go:rotflmao:

Your doing awesome... keep it up.

::hugs:: and lots of love
~Jenna
 
I'm in pain that Midol can't touch and I just want to cry. The pain is in my lower back and everywhere else. I feel emotionally insane today. I can't control the thoughts in my own head. My poor kids. I don't think I should even take them to the store today. It's unfair to them. I'd be worse than a angry dragon.

I missed my fruit yesterday. I had left-over lasagna for dinner and I wasn't hungry later. I'm always hungry. That's how much pain I'm in. I don't even want to eat. This morning I made myself eat b/c my mom lectures me on depleting myself when I get like this. I made scrambled eggs [with nature's seasoning], turkey bacon, and shredded cheddar into a breakfast burrito with none of the guilt. The kids were excited. How come I never thought to rip-off a fast food idea before? Duh, mom!

It's been busy for me. I haven't been reading/responding to everyone like I want to. I apologize. It's over 80 degrees in my comp room and I'm not feeling well. Let me slide a bit longer. I'll be back.
 
:hug2: :hug2: :hug2:

I'm sorry about all your pain... why can't men experience this ... at least just once!!!!

O0oooo and as for that inner bitch... just don't let it go away!

:hug2: :hug2: :hug2: I hope you start to feel better real soon!
 
SoSel said:
I'm in pain that Midol can't touch and I just want to cry. The pain is in my lower back and everywhere else. I feel emotionally insane today. I can't control the thoughts in my own head.
It's been busy for me. I haven't been reading/responding to everyone like I want to. I apologize. It's over 80 degrees in my comp room and I'm not feeling well. Let me slide a bit longer. I'll be back.
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Sorry to hear about your "problem." I know how it is. A few months ago I had 'em so bad I was doubled over in a fetal position I was in such misery. Luckily, I don't get that often, and the emotional stuff doesn't seem to hit me much. But I'm full of sympathy for ya--sometimes it really sucks to be a woman. Just do what you can, and don't feel bad if you can't be supermom today. You are awesome!:hug2: :hug2: :hug2:
 
Food Today

bf- breakfast burrito [1 egg, cheese, 2 slices turkey bacon & tortilla]
l- 1 burrito [300 cals], little bit shredded cheese [sometimes you're just poor]
d- tilapia [150 cals] cooked in a skillet with a little butter and seasonings, mixed veggies
s- apple, sugar-free jello pudding cup [60 or 90 cals]

Not great, but not bad. No REAL exercise, except the college campus marathon. We were scheduled to meet at the building on the hill [lots of steps!] on the second floor [lots more steps!], but we got turned around [go down steps] b/c someone SUCKS at planning these events. hehe. I didn't care 'cept I was all hot and very sweaty b/c it was 104 degrees today. Don't move to the South! I was thinking about working my abs later. Feel the burn. Ugh... And I do this to myself why?

So I finally went to the grocery store for fruit. I got apples, oranges & grapes. I don't really like grapes. I'd rather eat raisins. But the point of my experiment is to try new things. Wish I could afford stuff like kiwi. Maybe after college...

I weigh-in tomorrow and it's not gonna be pretty at all. I weighed 200 this morning! Stupid tom. I feel strangely at ease with it all. Looks like hormone shifts aren't always a bad thing. ;]
 
Thinking about something... thought I'd write it out in my journal...

I want to come up with a November 1st goal. I know that starting Aug 20th, I'm so going to have time to exercise. So maybe I should make a personal Sept 1- Nov 1 challenge. Honestly, I want to look hot for my birthday. We're thinking about reserving a booth in this popular club. We got our own rent-a-cop, which the novelty of amuses me. Back to point... What is a realistic loss? Or should I buy the outfit I'd like to rock? The most I should push myself to lose in 3 months is 30 lbs max. Imagine... Whoa. Hmm. Maybe I should set for 30, buy the outfit, and go along with the flow.

It just hit me that this is conceivable. I always thought the weight would never leave. Imagine me in the 160's. Hotness. Hehe. I can be conceited. ;]
 
WTG Sel!!!

This is the first day with veggies and fresh fruit!:hug2:

30 pounds from now until november 1st does not seem like an unattainable goal... you just gotta work it girl!!!
I'll help you in anyway I can:hug2:
 
SoSel said:

I weigh-in tomorrow and it's not gonna be pretty at all. I weighed 200 this morning! Stupid tom. I feel strangely at ease with it all. Looks like hormone shifts aren't always a bad thing. ;]
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I didn't have to worry! I weighed 195.6 this morning! :jump:

So I've lost 1.2 lbs in the 10 lb challenge. I've got 21 days left. I don't expect to hit the mark, but close would be nice. I need to spend less time [and money] eating out and more time exercising at home, since I can't seem to get out much until Aug 20th. My hubby has surgery on the 22nd. *shakes head* It's not going to be pretty around here, but hopefully I can drug him up and go do what I need to. *doctor's orders* LOL!
 
Boam46 said:
WTG Sel!!!

This is the first day with veggies and fresh fruit!:hug2:

30 pounds from now until november 1st does not seem like an unattainable goal... you just gotta work it girl!!!
I'll help you in anyway I can:hug2:
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Thanks honey. And you know I'm here for you too, right?
I got excited thinking about finals [Dec 4 and on] in a slimmer body. How much you wanna bet that confidence will boost my grades? I told my best friend I'd be so hot by the end of this semester, he's gonna have to escort me around campus. Hehe.
 
SoSel said:
I didn't have to worry! I weighed 195.6 this morning! :jump:

So I've lost 1.2 lbs in the 10 lb challenge. I've got 21 days left. I don't expect to hit the mark, but close would be nice. I need to spend less time [and money] eating out and more time exercising at home, since I can't seem to get out much until Aug 20th. My hubby has surgery on the 22nd. *shakes head* It's not going to be pretty around here, but hopefully I can drug him up and go do what I need to. *doctor's orders* LOL!
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:rotflmao: :rotflmao: Drug him and leav him passed out... he'll never know HAhahahah!

WTG on your 1.2 pounds!! Those fruits and veggies are really working ya:) Keep up the great work girly!
 
bikinibound said:
But I'm full of sympathy for ya--sometimes it really sucks to be a woman. Just do what you can, and don't feel bad if you can't be supermom today. You are awesome!:hug2: :hug2: :hug2:
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Thanks sweetie! I am so much better today. I'm back in the game. :]

Supermom, huh? I likes it. I'm normally just "moo-ooo-ooom!" Hehe.
 
SoSel said:

Thanks sweetie! I am so much better today. I'm back in the game. :]

Supermom, huh? I likes it. I'm normally just "moo-ooo-ooom!" Hehe.
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:rotflmao: at least you get moo-ooo-ooom... my mother gets MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :rotflmao:

Actually when my brothers and I speak about our parents to each other we still refer to them as mommy and daddy!

We call my father Papa duhkes sometimes...we're strange.
 
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