Unbeatable!

sammyboy24 said:
Your doin great!

Your name reminds me of that song "Paper Planes" by MIA

-Sam
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Yanno..a lotta people tell me that. N it makes me sad, cause I guess paper planes has something to do with drugs?? And I didnt knw that, so people my age are always askin me (since its also my AIM name, kinda, different format) "oh..is this after the song?" or "oh you do drugs?" and I had no idea why they were asking, then I heard about a song being titled "paper planes" n such.
 
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So I was up around 4am and absolutely hungry. I couldn't sleep, felt icky, and water wasn't helping. So...I ended up eating an egg sammich. I'll use that as part of today, since it is. I woke up at 2:30pm, and ate breakfast. So I'll wait until dinner time, obviously, to eat dinner. Maybe have a snack later on before bed so I don't stay awake listening to my stomach try to eat itself!!

Wheat bread: 200calories
Hardboiled eggs: 156calories
Mayo: 90calories
Mustard: 0calories
Turkey bacon: 50calories
Cornpops: 220calories
Soymilk: 150calories
6" Club Roll: 200calories
Mayo: 67.5calories
Lettuce: 0calories
Mustard: 0calories
93% ground beef: 170calories
Tomato: 0calories
Mozzarallla cheese: 72calories
Dessert: 500calories (I'm guessing. gahh =( didn't really wanna do that..but gave in.)


Total: 1,875.5calories
 
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I actually forgot the song is about drugs... i've only heard it a couple times and know it was in that movie "Pineapple Express" I guess (I haven't seen it)... I didn't correlate drugs and you at all so don't be too sad :)

Your menu is lookin pretty good, your doing awesome at tracking those cals!

-Sam
 
sammyboy24 said:
I actually forgot the song is about drugs... i've only heard it a couple times and know it was in that movie "Pineapple Express" I guess (I haven't seen it)... I didn't correlate drugs and you at all so don't be too sad :)

Your menu is lookin pretty good, your doing awesome at tracking those cals!

-Sam
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Tracking calories is SO much easier this time around instead of tracking calories, fat, protein, and cards. Mostly cause i dont understand the rest (besides lowering fat). And it really stressed me out and made me not wanna do it. But just simply tracking calories, I feel more...comfortable and not so flustered and stressed about it!!

I've never seen pineapple express...it looked too stupid. :banghead:
 
Just Rambling

Ah, according to my computer it's 3:345pm...I wish! Or 11:45pm in the real world. Should probably fix that.

I'm doing my rounds, bummin MySpace, stalking Facebook, etc blahblahblah.

I've got school work I needa finish, sleep I needa catch up on, and TV that feeds my procrastination. :ack2: An alas, here I sit...listenin to one friend repeat Jeff Dunham, one tell me about her dates, and I'm just...not doing anything I'm supposed to.

Anyone notice that fall went by too fast? One moment it was fall, now it's winter weather! I was looking forward to fall walks...but not now, not with this colder than hell, I'll freeze my nipples off, weather!!

I need to learn to befriend the treadmill, but it's SO boring. I would like another gym membership, but then I scare myself out of going.

I get SO self concious and assume the whole worlds looking at me, even when I knw they arnt and I'm just another person doing my own thing. But I almost feel bad for going to the gym, when I used to go. I wasted SO much money in not going =(
I just wanna go for the weights and elliptical. I miss them!

Somedays I feel like I'll never lose weight. I KNOW its possible, but at the same time, I feel like I'm destined to be fat. Which I knw isn't true. I knw if I put in the work, I'll get there..someday.

I think I screwed myself over. My friend introduced me to his friend, good lookin guy, good job, well established in life, 27, blahblahbalh. He'd txt me, he'd wanna hang out. Even tho I met him on TWO seperate occasions and he'd seen me..I still felt self concious and awkward and turned him down time and time again. It wouldnt of worked between the guy and I, but it woulda been nice to hang out with someone who wasnt obsessed with my looks. And hell, HE even told his friend (whose my friend) "What's wrong with you?! I'd do her!" lol. And I still got self concious n screwed myself out of a friend/something more. blahh!!

I'm not an outgoing person. at ALL. I'm the kinda girl who says ALL the wrong things, makes jokes no one understands, takes things too seriously cause I miss the point. I talk about things no one my age cares about (the world, whats beyond everything...general intelligent conversation). I rarely drink, I don't do drugs, I don't like large groups of people, and people irritate me fast. I can be overly moralistic and not so moralistic, I have old time views, I like chivelry and people with a sense of humor. I'm a book worm, can be a computer nerd, I solve everyones relationship/general problems, and am a walking quote book. I like philisophey and write text msgs in complete sentences! And dammit, its hard trying to find people like me! lol.

Maybe I'm too picky? haha. Who knws.

I'm done rambling =)
 
Hang in there, you need to grab some sleep, and go easy on that horribly addictive facebook :eek:

Don't worry to much about what others think, It is good to be different and it matters less as you get older.

We are not mad or strange just eccentric :)
 
Trusylver said:
Hang in there, you need to grab some sleep, and go easy on that horribly addictive facebook :eek:

Don't worry to much about what others think, It is good to be different and it matters less as you get older.

We are not mad or strange just eccentric :)
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My body sleeps when it feels like it, if I try to force it, I end up stressed and depressed (one of the reasons I'm seeing a therapist n such, trying to get my world straightened out!) lol. I miss sunlight in the morning and being awake before 10am!

Facebook got lame :( all their stupid applications! And the new layout. I like Myspace better, lets me be more creative. I can spend HOURS working on layouts. oy!

Eccentric, I like the sounds of that! Woohoo for us!!! :party:
 
Eccentric is good. It is a strength, not a character flaw. Being "normal" is entirely a question of comparison to benchmark that doesn't truly exist...


know what you feel like in the gym. Try this one on, I use the one at my college. I'm 43, 6' 8" and overweight, surrounded by football players, cheerleaders, field hockey players all between the ages of 18 and 22. Tell me I don't stand out...

But, If I don't go there, I won't motivate myself to do it at home. I have equipment, it sits there collecting dust. I push myself to go, then once I'm there, it would be a waste if I didn't follow through...

That works for me, your results may vary...

Thanks for stopping by my journal BTW.
 
reluctantcabbie said:
Eccentric is good. It is a strength, not a character flaw. Being "normal" is entirely a question of comparison to benchmark that doesn't truly exist...


know what you feel like in the gym. Try this one on, I use the one at my college. I'm 43, 6' 8" and overweight, surrounded by football players, cheerleaders, field hockey players all between the ages of 18 and 22. Tell me I don't stand out...

But, If I don't go there, I won't motivate myself to do it at home. I have equipment, it sits there collecting dust. I push myself to go, then once I'm there, it would be a waste if I didn't follow through...

That works for me, your results may vary...

Thanks for stopping by my journal BTW.
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I think if I were one of those football players/cheerleaders/etc I'd be scared you'd beat me up if I made any snide remarks about you being in the gym! I'd just go about my work and keep my mouth shut. lol.

And thank you for stopping by my journal also!
 
*dances*

Weigh in: 272.6lbs It's only .4 of a pound down, but I'll take it! Specially in all the challanges I'm in, and last time I weighed in I was 274, so this makes me feel good! Soon I'll reach back down to 265lbs on this scale!! And then can continue going further!! Yay!! :party: My ticker is from 275lbs, since that's the highest I reached when I made it.

I'm off to make a bagel with cream cheese and turkey bacon. Turkey bacon has got to be the best thing EVER invented. All bacony goodness without the fat, and 25calories per slice?! Who can beat that?! It makes me laugh tho, that they put scalloped edges on it tho.

Maybe next week I'll start putting in some exercise time. I'm going to start off low and slow. So I don't stress myself out. I'm talking 10mins one week, 15mins the next week, 20 the next.

Bagel: 270calories
Cream cheese: 180calories
Bacon: 50calories
Lasgana: 340calories
Cheese: 15calories
Brownie: 165calories
Cake: 350calories
Roll: 120calories
Burger: 170calories
Mayo: 22.5calories
Mustard: 0calories
Ketchup: 15calories
Tomato: 0calories

Total: 1,697.5calories

Btw: I totally wanna get my hands on SAW III so I can watch SAW V!
 
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Hey there :)

All I can say is give everything a chance. Give that guy another chance, perhaps? I feel we are kind of alike you and I... They guy I recently met and started seeing is different than me. He seems a lot more outgoing and into different things. It made me kinda nervous at first but then I decided that maybe if I tried some of his hobbies with him I might develop some new ones myself. I felt like I might not fit in with his friends either, because they all have such a close bond and do all these awesome things together. I've bonded with them some and I'm slowly getting to know them better and I'm very optimisitic about the whole thing now.

I'm 25 (almost 26) and I spent a lot of years very unhappy. I didn't think I was worth the time for someone to get to know, so I never put myself out there or gave anyone a chance. It finally got to the point where i realized, what do I have to lose? Someone your going to meet is going to absolutely love you for the person you are. Rarely drinking and not doing drugs are not things to be ashamed of at all. Those things usually just create problems anyways. Be proud of who you are and all the great things you have to offer. You sound very intelligent and I bet your a great person to have a conversation with.

The way we see ourselves is not the way other people see us. All the negative, horrible things we think about ourselves, other people don't see it. Remember that because it's completely true :)

Take care, relax, and have an excellent weekend,

-Sam
 
PaperAirPlanes said:
Ah, according to my computer it's 3:345pm...I wish! Or 11:45pm in the real world. Should probably fix that.

I'm doing my rounds, bummin MySpace, stalking Facebook, etc blahblahblah.

I've got school work I needa finish, sleep I needa catch up on, and TV that feeds my procrastination. :ack2: An alas, here I sit...listenin to one friend repeat Jeff Dunham, one tell me about her dates, and I'm just...not doing anything I'm supposed to.

Anyone notice that fall went by too fast? One moment it was fall, now it's winter weather! I was looking forward to fall walks...but not now, not with this colder than hell, I'll freeze my nipples off, weather!!

I need to learn to befriend the treadmill, but it's SO boring. I would like another gym membership, but then I scare myself out of going.

I get SO self concious and assume the whole worlds looking at me, even when I knw they arnt and I'm just another person doing my own thing. But I almost feel bad for going to the gym, when I used to go. I wasted SO much money in not going =(
I just wanna go for the weights and elliptical. I miss them!

Somedays I feel like I'll never lose weight. I KNOW its possible, but at the same time, I feel like I'm destined to be fat. Which I knw isn't true. I knw if I put in the work, I'll get there..someday.

I think I screwed myself over. My friend introduced me to his friend, good lookin guy, good job, well established in life, 27, blahblahbalh. He'd txt me, he'd wanna hang out. Even tho I met him on TWO seperate occasions and he'd seen me..I still felt self concious and awkward and turned him down time and time again. It wouldnt of worked between the guy and I, but it woulda been nice to hang out with someone who wasnt obsessed with my looks. And hell, HE even told his friend (whose my friend) "What's wrong with you?! I'd do her!" lol. And I still got self concious n screwed myself out of a friend/something more. blahh!!

I'm not an outgoing person. at ALL. I'm the kinda girl who says ALL the wrong things, makes jokes no one understands, takes things too seriously cause I miss the point. I talk about things no one my age cares about (the world, whats beyond everything...general intelligent conversation). I rarely drink, I don't do drugs, I don't like large groups of people, and people irritate me fast. I can be overly moralistic and not so moralistic, I have old time views, I like chivelry and people with a sense of humor. I'm a book worm, can be a computer nerd, I solve everyones relationship/general problems, and am a walking quote book. I like philisophey and write text msgs in complete sentences! And dammit, its hard trying to find people like me! lol.

Maybe I'm too picky? haha. Who knws.

I'm done rambling =)
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YOU SOUND INTERESTING TO ME!!!!.......you can drop quotes in my ears ANYTIME!!! I love them!!!! Hope you're having a good weekend!
 
Weight today: 272.2

Splitpea soup: 450calories
Croutons (whole wheat): 120calories
Mayo: 45calories
Wheat bread: 200calories
Turkey Bacon: 100calories
Tomato: 0calories
Banana nut bar: 150calories
Coke: 140calories

Total: 1,195calories



I finally finished all my essays! 12 pages worth in the last 2 days!! :party: I have a 5 page paper to write, but I dont have a way to the library :( The fuel injector in my car went kurrsplat :banghead: I blame my older brother, ever since he's being using the car, the windshielf fluid button broke, the back window wont stay up, the 4WD is screwed up, and the entire inside of the car is greasy. :cuss: He needs to buy himself another truck, ASAP! Gahhh!!! Ahem.
 
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4:30am talks!

My friend came by last nite at 12am, checked my car out, it needs a new fuel pump. He's gonna fix it for me this Friday, my Dad jus has to buy a pump (180$) and my friend will tow my car to his house and fix it. (50$) Then Dad wants him to put in a new washer fluid button (5$). Dad was gunna take it to a car place, but they wanted 300$ for the pump and 300$ for the button, I saved my Dad 365$ :) So, he's gunna tow my car this Friday and I'mma hang out with him while he fixes it. I REALLY wanna meet his girlfriend, she sounds really nice. He's one of those guys who, rarely talks or rarely makes sense online but in person he makes sense but acts goofy, and he can drive me up a wall at times, but I never figured we were that great of friends by his standards, but he told me that he told his girlfriend about me. It made me feel good, that he actually sees me as a good friend, to tell his girlfriend about. It makes my <3 smile. :)


Oh, I put pics in an album. :)

My friend and I are talking about food. And all the sinfully delicious things we like eating!

We're talking about taco pizza.
I make my own, I use a premade crust, put on plain tomato sauce or spaghetti sauce, top with browned 93% ground beef, add taco seasoning mix. Spread ontop of sauce, put mozzarella cheese ontop (I use part skim milk kind), put in a 425* oven for 15mins. Get out, cut, chop up lettuce, throw ontop and drizzle with sourcream. Realistically, it's not all that bad, provided I stop at like 2 pieces, that seems to be my biggest problem!!! :smash:

And Mexican Layered Dip! (Taco dip)
I looove this stuff, but have only had it when others make it. I can never seem to make mine turn out right. :( IF I use lowfat creamcheese, I concievably eat it and not feel as bad about its fat and calorie content.

Veggie pizza!
Made from Pillsbury dough, spread out, baked per directions. Sour cream mixed with seasoning of your choice, spread on top, dice veggies and throw ontop with some cheese. Stick in the fridge for awhile. (fattening, I'd assume)

And my favorite and severly fattening.
Creamcheese and ham puffs.
Pillsburgy dough stretched out and put in muffin tins to create a pocket. Mix up sour cream, something else (forget what), cheese, and diced ham (or chipped lunchmeat ham), spoon into pockets and bake per directions on dough. They taste WONDERFUL warm AND cold. Ahhhh. I havent made them in years. Prolly a good thing. lmao.

Glad I dont have any of the ingredients to make any of this stuff..besides the taco pizza :)

Mmmm...all the fatfood I wont eat, well I could, but I shouldn't and am too lazy TO make it.

We talked about Taco Bell, I tried Taco Bell for the first time back in June. I have 2 taco bells around here, one in the next county over, (about 25mins) and one in inner city of the town I'm in (about 30mins away). I always found myself to be too lazy to drive to either of those....I ended up eating Taco Bell in New Jersey! lmao. Had to drive a friend down to NJ to buy a new :auto: and we stopped for lunch there. Got best of both worlds, got to try Taco Bell AND try it in another state.

Ok enough about food!
 
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Weight: 271.6

Only 2.6 more pounds before I'm back in the 260's :)


Wheat bread: 200calories
Mayo: 45calories
Mustard: 0calories
Deli Ham: 68calories
Apple Pie: 390calories
Pizza: 700calories (guessing)

Total: 1,403calories
 
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Activities.

I've been searching around for different activities around here. Like in my town and such, and the only one that seems to be of any interest is tennis lessons. I've taken tennis lessons through this same company when I was like 8, but this would be an adult class (if I take it after I turn 19 in December). But, the thing is, I'm not a social person, at all. And the idea of taking the class scares me :( I hate being like that, sometimes I have confidence, sometimes I don't. I'm still thinkin on it.

I was also thinking of joining the gym again. I'd have to wait till after my birthday/christmas in order to get the money together for it. But I could in like January. I'm not sure.

I just want to do something. I'll keep thinking on it. I'd feel, better, I guess if I lost like 20lbs then got in on some kinda activitity. I'll see what I can accomplish by like January, I guess.

How do you guys get up the courage to go to group things?!
 
Have'nt Been Around

I'mma guess I'm at 1,700calories today
Maybe 1,500 yesterday

I also weighed in at 272lbs today
 
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Gotta tell ya, I don't know if it is easy to jump in on any group activity... particularly if you are self conscious. I don't know, that's probably why I ride my bike as often as I do. I enjoy it, and I can do it alone, nobody to prove anything with but me.

I feel tons better about me now that I've lost weight, but it still isn't easy all the time. I'm just better at saying the hell with everyone else now. You get there eventually...
 
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