Trevor's Journey

Omega- Thanks for reading and helping me out. Hopefully a therapist will be good for me. Rach is 100% awesome to me, she understands where im coming from, which makes me feel like i have known her for years. Thanks for stopping by, its always nice getting advice from others.

Jill- Thanks so much for the support! I will definitely be there if you ever need to talk about anything. Have a great day!

Rach- Like always, thanks so much! Our aim convo last night cheered me up a whole lot, and i appreciate all the suggestions. Your right, this weekend will be good for me, especially since i can spend time with my parents.


I will update sometime tonight...everyone have a great day!
Trevor
 
A big accomplishment for me today, as well as some semi-bad news. I will start with the bad news and get that out of the way. My boss tried to screw me over this weekend by added shifts to this weekend without asking me or notifying me. Once i saw the change i told him there is no way im working those, and he told me they would be considered no call no shows. So, i QUIT...ya, thats right, in the heat of the moment i quit on the spot. He has been messing with me for far too long and now he can feel what its like to have no one in the department this weekend. Its not a big deal, because jobs are replaceable very easily at my age, not to mention there is 68943 other places to work here, so i will job search after the summer is up. That leaves me with a one month break from work, so now i can focus on studies and finals coming up.

Now for my accomplishment, that i feel darn proud of today. I went to the gym and did 45 minutes of cardio for a toal of 4.5 miles!!!! I know it may not seem like much to rach, but 450 calories burned in one session is enough to make me feel great about myself. I may have found something that actually makes me feel better about myself. Right now, i feel so great, and it also helped with my stress level. Im chill right now, which is good because i have a test tomorrow, nothing too hard though. I am also ready for austin this weekend, i leave tomorrow around noon and should arrive there around 2 or 3. Yay!!!

This is by far the happiest i have been in the past week.....

well im off to study, goodnight everyone, see yall tomorrow

Trevor
 
Hi Trevor darling! :hug2:

I'm sorry you've been feeling depressed lately, but I'm glad that you're getting some professional help, and have Rachael to talk to. I think most of us have suffered at least some mild form of depression at some time or other. You certainly shouldn't feel guilty about it.

Hurray for you for quitting your job. I had a similar job situation when I was in college. I worked in retail, and around Thanksgiving my manager kept giving me way more hrs than I could handle. My protests fixed nothing. After a big blowout, I quit. I cannot tell you how stressed out I was at the time--but I'm sure you can imagine. I had finals coming up, and tons of papers to write and exams to take--and barely any time to deal with them. So I definitely understand what you're going through. I'll bet quitting feels like a huge weight's been lifted off your shoulders. :)

It's a shame that girl turned out to be like that--although it didn't surprise me too much. I suffered from low self-esteem during college and usually felt I was unworthy of a decent guy. This caused me a lot of heartache. I hope you come to realize how wonderful you are--and how deserving of good things sooner than I did. Your life will be so much better once you do. :) Trevor, I've seen pics of you, and got to know you a bit here at WLF, and I can assure you that you are a class act--and good looking to boot. Any woman would be lucky as hell to have you for a bf. Unfortunately, most of them aren't good enough for you. So be picky--b/c you deserve only the best--like Rachael for instance. :D
 
Trevor, hon, I'm so proud of you!!

Hey, I don't judge babes, 450 is a GREAT amount to burn! I don't expect everyone to expend 730 a workout. I think that amount is only alloted for us runners who shove our faces full of complex carbs two hours beforehand so we can withstand the expenditure. LOL.

You know what, Trev, there's a consipiracy going on in here, and I pride myself on not being paranoid. I'm rather certain over half of these lovelie ladies are on a mission to set us up.

It's flattering really. And given I never say never, ya'll gotta chip in to buy us the Town and Country with the swivel seating so our curly haired, green eyed children will be entertained on long car rides. ;):smilielol5:

And Kimmy's right bud. You do deserve the best, and though I appreciate the compliment, I'm certainly not the greatest catch in the world. Though knowing myself and my proclivity for falling hard and caring more deeply, I don't think I'm the worst catch either.

Trev and I are awesome friends and I've a feeling we will be for a long while. :) (Especially since he gives me good excuses to eat a DQ Blizzard) LOL...
 
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You know what, Trev, there's a consipiracy going on in here, and I pride myself on not being paranoid. I'm rather certain over half of these lovelie ladies are on a mission to set us up.

It's flattering really. And given I never say never, ya'll gotta chip in to buy us the Town and Country with the swivel seating so our curly haired, green eyed children will be entertained on long car rides. ;):smilielol5:

And Kimmy's right bud. You do deserve the best, and though I appreciate the compliment, I'm certainly not the greatest catch in the world. Though knowing myself and my proclivity for falling hard and caring more deeply, I don't think I'm the worst catch either.

Trev and I are awesome friends and I've a feeling we will be for a long while. :) (Especially since he gives me good excuses to eat a DQ Blizzard) LOL...
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Ok, buying you a minivan is jumping the gun a bit..hahaha. How about we start by setting you up on a date? :D Any man who gives you reasons to eat DQBlizzards is a good man. :smilielol5:
 
Right on, Tyly--what is it about Southern men that makes them so appealing? :drool5: Like I've said before, if I was 15yrs younger and single, I'd be chasing after ya. :D
 
I don't know Kimmy...maybe Trev goes for cougars. You still might have a chance. Watch out Rae!

Come to think of it I don't think I have ever met a Texan. I have friends from Colorado and from Tennessee, but thats as close as it gets to Texas.
 
Hey Trevor,

Reading back a little in your journal, I'm sorry to hear about the depression you are experiencing. As you can see, you are not alone. I feel like I've been suffering from depression for some time too. I know I don't talk to you much on here but I just wanted to say something... I hope your appointment with the psychologist goes well and helps :)

Congrats on the run too! :) I can't wait until I am running 4.5 miles at one time, and I'm definitely jealous about the 85 degree weather. It's still only 40's and 50's here in UT, and I'm too big of a wuss to go run outside in those cold temps. LOL

Hope you have a great weekend,
Sam
 
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not much to update today. I'm sick so im spending the day at home resting...food wise, nothing..no urge to eat, and my horrible headaches continue, im just glad my mom is here to take care of me

i hope everyone is having a good weekend
Trevor
 
Im glad your mom is there to take care of you, too ((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))

feel better, sweetie xoxo
 
I'm sorry to hear you're sick, hon. I'm glad your mom's there too. Nothing like a little pampering when you're sick to instantly make you feel better. I wanted to chat with you tonight after my run, but if you're not feeling well, I promise I won't look out for ya'!

Get better, bud. It's no fun to be sick. ((((Big Get Well Hugs))))
 
Okay, so i know i said big update earlier..but im going to push that until sometime tomorrow.

Exercise today was 55 minutes cardio, 5.16 miles, and 610 calories burnt. Food wise it was horrible, but this week will make up for that. My weight has rocketed up close to 160-165, and im tired of failing every weekend. Being sick through me off this weekend and these past few months have been horrible. The only thing i can do is try again, i cant let myself down anymore.

Thats why im updating major tomorrow....new plan, new workout regime, new everything...im starting fresh

Im getting up at 8 30 for 1 hour of cardio....i will update after

Night,
Trevor
 
Hey honey,

I'm wishing you well on this fresh start, bud. I know you can use all the encouragement possible, so consider this a buttload of virtual 'you can do it!'s'

Maybe I'll talk to you later. I miss chatting with you. I think you need to talk to me, truth be told. Just cause I know it'll make you feel better!! ;) (Can't say I don't benefit as well...lol...)
 
Okay, so today went very well...

Calories Consumed: 1700
Exercise: 40 minutes, 3.67 miles, 426 calories burned

Food wise, i have felt good today and just finished eating for the night.
Tomorrow morning i do measurements and will post them here.

Now as promised i will update, since i have been lazy this whole weekend. First off, i apologize to all my friends around here, my lack of activity on the boards has made it look like i don't appreciate everyones comments. I do, but since i have been inactive i have yet to write on others diaries. I promise i will get around to it.

My weekend was going awesome until Saturday morning. I woke up with the worst headache i have ever had in my life. The pain was so unbearable i was literally rolling around on my bed in pain. I tried to act like it didn't bother me, but after breakfast i felt sick. I spent the whole day resting while my mom took care of me. YAYAYA call me a Mommas boy! :)

In the evening i was 100% better and feeling great. I helped assemble the bowflex with my dad, and let me tell ya, the directions are weird on that thing. They had us assembling parts and then later taking them off to add on other parts....no wonder you see results the first week, the whole workout is building it.

I did enjoy my weekend overall and im happy i only have 3 more weeks until the end of the semester...than home for the summer!!

Rach, i most likely wont be on AIM tonight because i have an early class in the morning, but def fore sure tomorrow night. I have to tell you about my running!!!!

Tomorrow will consists of 1800 calories with a 55 minute cardio run...Im shooting for 5.5 miles, but as long as i get 5 i will be satisfied. I never thought i was in shape enough to do this, but the past two days i have felt great after the exercise. I will continue this for 5 days out of the week. Eveyr week i will incorporate something different to continue to progress toward my goal. You may ask what my goal is, and the only answer i have is to be in shape for my 5k in june, as well as be happy with what i see in the mirror. The scale will be used every two weeks, but measurements will be every week.

I cant tell you how excited i am to be back on track. With my new found hobby of running (thanks rach) i hope i can reach my goals no problem. Its time to leave the past behind!

Trevor

ps- thanks everyone for stopping by and for all the wishes, i appreciate it.
 
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