To happiness...and beyond!
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AriannaErin
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Aww! Ty! (I'm bias because I think he could possibly be one of the cutest cats ever to exist!! hehehe) ... Ivy sounds like she has had quite the life. I gasped when I heard she was stuck in rat poison! The poor thing!! But it's so nice that she has found a lovely home in you! When you went to the shelter, did you want to take them all home? I'm surprised I just left with 1 cat!
haha I SO did! I think I might have ended up with a 'crazy cat lady' level of cats at my apartment if there wasn't a one-cat only rule
I was always the little kid rescuing stray cats around the neighborhood- my parents weren't always so impressed 
Tik
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Food for Feb 18, 2011
10:30am - small bowl of homemade chicken, kale, potato, carrot soup, glass of water
11:30am - 15-20 nachos w/ salsa, glass of water
1:00pm - chicken/kale/onion patty w/ 1/4 avocado and 2 slices of tomato, glass of water
4pm - 1/2banana, 1/3c frozen berries, 1/2c of almond milk, 1/4c OJ - smoothie
6pm- grilled chicken, cabbage salad, curry rice, 1/2 ww pita, 1/8c of hummus, 1/8c of yogurt w/ dill, water
9:00pm - 2 glasses of water, handful of pretzels, 4 strawberries, 1/4 cantaloupe, baby carrots & cucumber
PT Session Feb 18, 2011
Set 1 x 4
Standing row, 20lbs, 15r
Single side chest press (30lbs, 15r /side)
Back extensions on bosu ball (15r)
Set 2 x 4
Bending dead lift (25lbs, 15r)
Narrow grip chest press (30lbs, 15r)
Wide grip push up (15r)
Set 3 x 3
Seated row on stability ball, level 7, 15r
Incline bench press with dumbbells (30lbs, 15r)
Medicine ball throw to push up (15r)
Cardio
30 min on crosstrainer - heart rate above 60%
Ooo the glory of fridays! Ooooom!! I love fridays! Today was pretty darn good! I slept in LATE (10am)...and actually had to pull myself out of bed! (And then I could barely walk after yesterday's workout! My poor thighs...so tender and sore!!!) Then I was able to relax and veg until I went to the gym!
My workout was good! It wasn't as intense as yesterday (or I'm getting use to it!) but it was great! I can really feel my strength increasing!!
Since I'm in the muscle building phase, I decided I would go out and buy protein powder. I've always tried to eat protein after my workouts...but I'm not always successful. Plus, I think it's extra important for my recovery if I heavy load myself with protein after my workout! SOOOO, I was able to find an egg based powder with no milk! Vanilla flavoured! I can't wait to workout tomorrow so I can try it! I imagine it will taste some where between chalk and watery milk! hehehehe
Tomorrow I'm working out alone (or without the PT!), so I'm going to sit down tonight and figure out a strength routine to mix with my cardio!!! So exciting! I'm thinking of trying to recruit a friend to do it with me
Off to check out how the community is going
Hope you all have a wonderful Friday night!
10:30am - small bowl of homemade chicken, kale, potato, carrot soup, glass of water
11:30am - 15-20 nachos w/ salsa, glass of water
1:00pm - chicken/kale/onion patty w/ 1/4 avocado and 2 slices of tomato, glass of water
4pm - 1/2banana, 1/3c frozen berries, 1/2c of almond milk, 1/4c OJ - smoothie
6pm- grilled chicken, cabbage salad, curry rice, 1/2 ww pita, 1/8c of hummus, 1/8c of yogurt w/ dill, water
9:00pm - 2 glasses of water, handful of pretzels, 4 strawberries, 1/4 cantaloupe, baby carrots & cucumber
PT Session Feb 18, 2011
Set 1 x 4
Standing row, 20lbs, 15r
Single side chest press (30lbs, 15r /side)
Back extensions on bosu ball (15r)
Set 2 x 4
Bending dead lift (25lbs, 15r)
Narrow grip chest press (30lbs, 15r)
Wide grip push up (15r)
Set 3 x 3
Seated row on stability ball, level 7, 15r
Incline bench press with dumbbells (30lbs, 15r)
Medicine ball throw to push up (15r)
Cardio
30 min on crosstrainer - heart rate above 60%
Ooo the glory of fridays! Ooooom!! I love fridays! Today was pretty darn good! I slept in LATE (10am)...and actually had to pull myself out of bed! (And then I could barely walk after yesterday's workout! My poor thighs...so tender and sore!!!) Then I was able to relax and veg until I went to the gym!
My workout was good! It wasn't as intense as yesterday (or I'm getting use to it!) but it was great! I can really feel my strength increasing!!
Since I'm in the muscle building phase, I decided I would go out and buy protein powder. I've always tried to eat protein after my workouts...but I'm not always successful. Plus, I think it's extra important for my recovery if I heavy load myself with protein after my workout! SOOOO, I was able to find an egg based powder with no milk! Vanilla flavoured! I can't wait to workout tomorrow so I can try it! I imagine it will taste some where between chalk and watery milk! hehehehe
Tomorrow I'm working out alone (or without the PT!), so I'm going to sit down tonight and figure out a strength routine to mix with my cardio!!! So exciting! I'm thinking of trying to recruit a friend to do it with me
Off to check out how the community is going
Hope you all have a wonderful Friday night!
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Tik
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HAHAHAHA! Your posts always make me giggle and smile!! I feel like our next mini challenge could be to see who could eat the most!!! Isn't it just crazy though, some days it's like I'm a giant black hole! I can consume endless amounts of food! ...I'm having one of those days again! And man, it's taking ALL of my willpower not to whip up some chocolate cupcakes!! omg....:drool: ...chocolate!!
Hope you have a wicked weekend! And that you get some bootay!
Oh you shhh! I'm going to have to leave your diary because I get all hot and horny!!!!
hehehehehe! I kid!! Have an awesome weekend Sunflower! I hope it's filled with a lot more things that you can write about...then I can feel like I lived through you!! heheAwww thank you!! You always add such lovely comments to my journal! And to others!! You're always so positive and encouraging!!!
We do have a lot of happy energy here...it's kind of like there's something in the air making up a bit crazy!! Hehehe
Have a great weekend Tig!! *hugs*
Have an great weekend Angel!!!!
Building phase? that sounds rough! i am sure that your body will get used to it, like it did with the foundation phase. haha just don't let it get TOO used to it. i'm glad you are liking your trainer. makes me super jealous. i want one *tear runs slowly down left cheek*
haha once again very inspirational. keep it up!!!
It is! But a lot of fun!! I can't remember, do you have a gym near you? Because you might be able to get a consultation for free! If you were around me, I would let you borrow my PT!! hehehe ...
Thank you PLB!! You always encourage us to do great!!! Thank you! I hope you have a great weekend!!
TY!!!! I'm hoping that I'll see big differences soon on my strength!!! I want to be able to take on Mr. T hehehe
"Crazy cat lady" love it!! LOL I see many pets in my future! I love them! How many cats did you end up having as a kid!? hehehe, I think my mom would have killed me if I brought a cat home! LOL
shimeji_sara
New member
I finally had some time to read your diary...and I must say it's amazing! So inspiring!
I love your workouts with the PT! Since I'm not in a gym right now, I've been working out at home, but I only have 3 and 4kg dumbbells (~6.6 and 8.8lbs) - and they're too light! As incredible as it sounds, I miss the gym D:
And I'm so jealous of your cute cat...but I have 2 dogs
I love your workouts with the PT! Since I'm not in a gym right now, I've been working out at home, but I only have 3 and 4kg dumbbells (~6.6 and 8.8lbs) - and they're too light! As incredible as it sounds, I miss the gym D:
And I'm so jealous of your cute cat...but I have 2 dogs
gohomejes
New member
Hey Jill!
Awww…it made me all happy that you have that friend that's training with for the 5k! She sounds like such an amazing inspirational person. Reminds me of my sister. It's always nice to have that one cheerleader that's there for you no matter what. Not to mention, it's so rare to find someone that TRULY wants the very best for you.
Psshhhh I cannot believe you called that the size of a small child. The burrito from Chipotle that I had…now THAT was a small child. Jill, honestly…your eating is spot on. I see the veggies, fruits, meat, etc. It is so well balanced. I wish my diet was that flawless. You are doing so well!!!!
Your PT sessions always sound absolutely amazing! They make me miss my trainer.
I am completely loving your dedication and determination. Congrats on hitting 195lbs!!! You got this!
Start prepping for our jumprope challenge, girl!!!
I've said this before but Jill, you are SO positive and encouraging. I love it. It honestly brightens my day. You're one of those people that you'll meet online and are like, "Man I wish they were my friend in real life!!!" (Sorry if that sounds creepy! lol)
I hope you have an amazing weekend girl
Awww…it made me all happy that you have that friend that's training with for the 5k! She sounds like such an amazing inspirational person. Reminds me of my sister. It's always nice to have that one cheerleader that's there for you no matter what. Not to mention, it's so rare to find someone that TRULY wants the very best for you.
Psshhhh I cannot believe you called that the size of a small child. The burrito from Chipotle that I had…now THAT was a small child. Jill, honestly…your eating is spot on. I see the veggies, fruits, meat, etc. It is so well balanced. I wish my diet was that flawless. You are doing so well!!!!
Your PT sessions always sound absolutely amazing! They make me miss my trainer.
I am completely loving your dedication and determination. Congrats on hitting 195lbs!!! You got this!
Start prepping for our jumprope challenge, girl!!!
I've said this before but Jill, you are SO positive and encouraging. I love it. It honestly brightens my day. You're one of those people that you'll meet online and are like, "Man I wish they were my friend in real life!!!" (Sorry if that sounds creepy! lol)
I hope you have an amazing weekend girl
healthyjess
New member
I love your cat photos too might have to put some of my two on Cats are the best!
I also love your positivity Tik, keep up the great work!
might have to put some of my two on Cats are the best!I also love your positivity Tik, keep up the great work!
Tik
New member
I've been needing to post this for myself for quite sometime. it's intertwined with my weight gain, and may be some of the reason why I see road blocks for my weight loss. All in all, this post will hopefully be the cathartic process that I need it to be.
For anyone that doesn't want to read a long, drawn out depressing description of my previous 5 year relationship-skip ahead!
So lately I've been letting my ex (who I shall name Skeletor), take space in my precious head- and I need it to stop. So, I am going to use this very public, non-intimate place to go through our history, the events of our break up, the events post-break up, and my current happiness, to wash this bastard out of my head.
5.5 years ago I met Skeletor at school. We were in the same undergrad program, and wanted to continue onto graduate work. We had a lot of the same ambitions, motivations, and interests. I thought he was a great guy, and fell instantly into my first love and first LT relationship.
7 months into our dating, we decided to move out of our parents homes (I was 21, he was 24, and this was our first time living out on our own) we got a cute little place and I thought life was bliss. By this time I had slowly stopped seeing my friends, and only spent time with him. He didn't really like my friends, and kind of made me feel the same way. He didn't have a job, which meant I worked more, and spent more of my money on us...and he got into playing poker as a living.
He finally realized that he needed a job, as I was going back to school for my masters (he didn't get accepted to grad school), and I could only work part time. He took a job, and hated it-HATED IT. He was always angry, depressed, and resentful that I had made him move out of his parents home to a place he couldn't afford. All he wanted to do was play poker, and live the life of no responsibility.
After having long angry (and sometimes) violent talks (he would throw, punch things, scream and push me), he told me that he loved me, wanted this, and wouldn't know what to do with out me. So we moved to a new place, he quit his job, I took a full time job with my Masters, and he played poker while I was at work/school.
I thought we were happy, but I knew I wasn't. He would always blame me if he lost money at poker. I ended up paying for all the groceries, entertainment, and a lot of times rent. He would go through emotional roller coasters of hating his life, where it was going, and feeling like a loser...and I would always be there, trying to encourage him, telling him it would be ok, and trying to help him find a path in life that he would enjoy. Everytime he would just go back to playing poker- it was a horrible cycle.
Moreover, what always would bother me is he would never have time for me. He would never have money to go out, or he would be too busy to play poker. However, if his friends wanted to go out and drink, he had time and money to do that (cue the instance of where he picked up a girl, started talking to her, and tried to sleep with her...I found out...said I was leaving him...he tried to kill himself, and I went right back to him)...he also always had time for his mother- THE MOTHER IN LAW FROM HELL!
About two years ago was when I started to really notice things were going bad, and yet I didn't do anything about it. I was working my ass off, and he would start a job, then quit it a month or two later, and go back to playing poker. I was having a lot of work stress at that time, and would come home very upset. His response was to suck it up, and stop being so emotional. He was NEVER there for me when I needed the support or just someone to talk to.
As a matter of fact, whenever we got into any fight (which was often, and they were becoming yelling matches where horrible things were said)...I was always the one who was wrong, irrational, way to emotional and crazy. On several occasions he told me that I was severely mentally unstable, and that I would never find anyone that would put up with the BS the he does. Of course everytime I let myself believe it, and would end up apologizing.
I continued on with the relationship. Being the one that works 60+ hours a week, did all the shopping, cooking, and cleaning. I provided emotional support and stability, and was always aware that I couldn't do better, or that if I left, Skeletor would kill himself. It was horrible.
I was trapped. I didn't do anything with my friends, because he didn't like any of them, I stopped seeing my family. I didn't do anything I liked (because everything I liked was "stupid"). I put up with him putting me down, telling me I was an idiot, yelling at me, making fun of me infront of his friends-I LET myself be a door mat.
In June he finally decided to go back to school to get a trade. However, he wanted to go away to get it. He ended up getting into a trade school 3 hours away. His parents paid for the tuition, his rent up there, groceries for him up there...everything...however, I was left to pay the rent on our apartment all by myself (and I was just starting my PhD!). We were in the middle of our lease and couldn't break it. so I ended up dishing out the rent by myself, his grocery bill on the weekend, and the other expenses by myself.
Things started to go horribly wrong come sept. At first he hated it. He would call me every day all day, upset that he was there...I would encourage him, tell him it was out, send him gifts, etc. it was draining. then he met his roomate - a young 20-something with 3 kids from 3 different women, not married, a drinker, he has a new girl every night, the list goes on.
Skeletor began going out every night when he was away. to the bars, talking to girls, going to parties of the girls he met at bars. then when he came home on the weekends (at first he would come home every weekend, but soon he would come home every now and again), he wouldn't have time/money to do anything with me - but when his friends from home call, or his mother, he would have lots of time and money to do stuff.
I put up enough of a stink that he took me out for a drive one day (that was our romantic date), and he told me that I "can't complain anymore that he doesn't do anything with [me]" I remember thinking that I deserved so much more.
I ended up saying I wanted a break on our 5 year anniversary. I had planned a dinner, cooked all his fav food, rented all his fav movies, and he kept saying that the night was so horrible because he was stressed out about school. although the next day he spent the entire day with his mother, and then for our anniversary, he planned lunch at his mother's house.
I got so upset- all I wanted was genuine time alone with him to do something we enjoyed.but he couldn't see that. He kept saying that I was trying to control him, and that I never wanted him to see his family.
At that point I told him I was moving in with my mom, subletting the apartment, and taking a break.
The next few weeks he did absolutely nothing to help me. My mom and I moved ALL of our furniture (our's is an understatement, it was all mine, I had bought everything), he didn't clean or pack a single thing, and left if for me. I did EVERYTHING. he even refused to come pick up his stuff- his DAD had to come. it was a big shocker.
During this time he said some hurtful things to me. Like that I was always holding him back, the he couldn't live the life he wanted to live with me around (apparently that life is getting with young girls he picks up from the bars), and that he really could never see himself with me.
Over the holidays we went out together...it was an eye opener. He hated everything, and I couldn't wait to get back. I was doing really good over the holidays...and then at the start of Jan, I ended up getting drunk, and sending drunk text messages.
Long story short - I had him on facebook, and saw that this really skanky 19y/o (he's 30 now), had posted all over his page that he was sexy and that she loved him.. and I got SO upset. I ended up calling him, and he refused to talk to me, he told me he was over me, that it was easy, and that was that.
I was pretty upset...but realized that I deserved a lot better. I deleted all his contact information from my phone, deleted him from facebook (oh the age of technology, right?) and since then, have put him out of my mind-until now.
I know I am so much happier. He sister-in-law talked to me yesterday and she said that I'm doing so much without him, that it's for the better (she also said he has been on quite a few dates)...but it's true! I am happier. I have friends, I go out, I travel, I have MONEY, and I'm just a more positive person.
I don't like that I am filled with such hate towards him! Last night I had such a horrible night sleep because i had dreams about him that were just so hate filled (we went to disney world, i paid of course, we were there to make up, and all he did was complain about how horrible it was, try to get with girls, and all I wanted to do was go home- I mean, I don't need to be Freud to interpret that dream!)
UGH! I just want him to get out of my head!
I think it's very telling that he's dating and hooking up with girls. After 5 years, if he can just move into that, then there's something wrong. I know i'm in no place to be with someone! I have so much work to do to find myself, and get myself into a good space!
Not being in a relationship has proven to me that I have so much ahead of me! I can live anywhere I want, I'm going to have a great job, I can travel, afford pretty clothes, have pets! I could never have a pet, because he was "allergic"
I'm so much better without that d-bag in my life- so why am I still letting him upset me?
I'm heading to the gym to work it out of my head...then going to go out, and enjoy myself tonight.
I need to let this go. Thank you all for letting me post this
For anyone that doesn't want to read a long, drawn out depressing description of my previous 5 year relationship-skip ahead!
So lately I've been letting my ex (who I shall name Skeletor), take space in my precious head- and I need it to stop. So, I am going to use this very public, non-intimate place to go through our history, the events of our break up, the events post-break up, and my current happiness, to wash this bastard out of my head.
5.5 years ago I met Skeletor at school. We were in the same undergrad program, and wanted to continue onto graduate work. We had a lot of the same ambitions, motivations, and interests. I thought he was a great guy, and fell instantly into my first love and first LT relationship.
7 months into our dating, we decided to move out of our parents homes (I was 21, he was 24, and this was our first time living out on our own) we got a cute little place and I thought life was bliss. By this time I had slowly stopped seeing my friends, and only spent time with him. He didn't really like my friends, and kind of made me feel the same way. He didn't have a job, which meant I worked more, and spent more of my money on us...and he got into playing poker as a living.
He finally realized that he needed a job, as I was going back to school for my masters (he didn't get accepted to grad school), and I could only work part time. He took a job, and hated it-HATED IT. He was always angry, depressed, and resentful that I had made him move out of his parents home to a place he couldn't afford. All he wanted to do was play poker, and live the life of no responsibility.
After having long angry (and sometimes) violent talks (he would throw, punch things, scream and push me), he told me that he loved me, wanted this, and wouldn't know what to do with out me. So we moved to a new place, he quit his job, I took a full time job with my Masters, and he played poker while I was at work/school.
I thought we were happy, but I knew I wasn't. He would always blame me if he lost money at poker. I ended up paying for all the groceries, entertainment, and a lot of times rent. He would go through emotional roller coasters of hating his life, where it was going, and feeling like a loser...and I would always be there, trying to encourage him, telling him it would be ok, and trying to help him find a path in life that he would enjoy. Everytime he would just go back to playing poker- it was a horrible cycle.
Moreover, what always would bother me is he would never have time for me. He would never have money to go out, or he would be too busy to play poker. However, if his friends wanted to go out and drink, he had time and money to do that (cue the instance of where he picked up a girl, started talking to her, and tried to sleep with her...I found out...said I was leaving him...he tried to kill himself, and I went right back to him)...he also always had time for his mother- THE MOTHER IN LAW FROM HELL!
About two years ago was when I started to really notice things were going bad, and yet I didn't do anything about it. I was working my ass off, and he would start a job, then quit it a month or two later, and go back to playing poker. I was having a lot of work stress at that time, and would come home very upset. His response was to suck it up, and stop being so emotional. He was NEVER there for me when I needed the support or just someone to talk to.
As a matter of fact, whenever we got into any fight (which was often, and they were becoming yelling matches where horrible things were said)...I was always the one who was wrong, irrational, way to emotional and crazy. On several occasions he told me that I was severely mentally unstable, and that I would never find anyone that would put up with the BS the he does. Of course everytime I let myself believe it, and would end up apologizing.
I continued on with the relationship. Being the one that works 60+ hours a week, did all the shopping, cooking, and cleaning. I provided emotional support and stability, and was always aware that I couldn't do better, or that if I left, Skeletor would kill himself. It was horrible.
I was trapped. I didn't do anything with my friends, because he didn't like any of them, I stopped seeing my family. I didn't do anything I liked (because everything I liked was "stupid"). I put up with him putting me down, telling me I was an idiot, yelling at me, making fun of me infront of his friends-I LET myself be a door mat.
In June he finally decided to go back to school to get a trade. However, he wanted to go away to get it. He ended up getting into a trade school 3 hours away. His parents paid for the tuition, his rent up there, groceries for him up there...everything...however, I was left to pay the rent on our apartment all by myself (and I was just starting my PhD!). We were in the middle of our lease and couldn't break it. so I ended up dishing out the rent by myself, his grocery bill on the weekend, and the other expenses by myself.
Things started to go horribly wrong come sept. At first he hated it. He would call me every day all day, upset that he was there...I would encourage him, tell him it was out, send him gifts, etc. it was draining. then he met his roomate - a young 20-something with 3 kids from 3 different women, not married, a drinker, he has a new girl every night, the list goes on.
Skeletor began going out every night when he was away. to the bars, talking to girls, going to parties of the girls he met at bars. then when he came home on the weekends (at first he would come home every weekend, but soon he would come home every now and again), he wouldn't have time/money to do anything with me - but when his friends from home call, or his mother, he would have lots of time and money to do stuff.
I put up enough of a stink that he took me out for a drive one day (that was our romantic date), and he told me that I "can't complain anymore that he doesn't do anything with [me]" I remember thinking that I deserved so much more.
I ended up saying I wanted a break on our 5 year anniversary. I had planned a dinner, cooked all his fav food, rented all his fav movies, and he kept saying that the night was so horrible because he was stressed out about school. although the next day he spent the entire day with his mother, and then for our anniversary, he planned lunch at his mother's house.
I got so upset- all I wanted was genuine time alone with him to do something we enjoyed.but he couldn't see that. He kept saying that I was trying to control him, and that I never wanted him to see his family.
At that point I told him I was moving in with my mom, subletting the apartment, and taking a break.
The next few weeks he did absolutely nothing to help me. My mom and I moved ALL of our furniture (our's is an understatement, it was all mine, I had bought everything), he didn't clean or pack a single thing, and left if for me. I did EVERYTHING. he even refused to come pick up his stuff- his DAD had to come. it was a big shocker.
During this time he said some hurtful things to me. Like that I was always holding him back, the he couldn't live the life he wanted to live with me around (apparently that life is getting with young girls he picks up from the bars), and that he really could never see himself with me.
Over the holidays we went out together...it was an eye opener. He hated everything, and I couldn't wait to get back. I was doing really good over the holidays...and then at the start of Jan, I ended up getting drunk, and sending drunk text messages.
Long story short - I had him on facebook, and saw that this really skanky 19y/o (he's 30 now), had posted all over his page that he was sexy and that she loved him.. and I got SO upset. I ended up calling him, and he refused to talk to me, he told me he was over me, that it was easy, and that was that.
I was pretty upset...but realized that I deserved a lot better. I deleted all his contact information from my phone, deleted him from facebook (oh the age of technology, right?) and since then, have put him out of my mind-until now.
I know I am so much happier. He sister-in-law talked to me yesterday and she said that I'm doing so much without him, that it's for the better (she also said he has been on quite a few dates)...but it's true! I am happier. I have friends, I go out, I travel, I have MONEY, and I'm just a more positive person.
I don't like that I am filled with such hate towards him! Last night I had such a horrible night sleep because i had dreams about him that were just so hate filled (we went to disney world, i paid of course, we were there to make up, and all he did was complain about how horrible it was, try to get with girls, and all I wanted to do was go home- I mean, I don't need to be Freud to interpret that dream!)
UGH! I just want him to get out of my head!
I think it's very telling that he's dating and hooking up with girls. After 5 years, if he can just move into that, then there's something wrong. I know i'm in no place to be with someone! I have so much work to do to find myself, and get myself into a good space!
Not being in a relationship has proven to me that I have so much ahead of me! I can live anywhere I want, I'm going to have a great job, I can travel, afford pretty clothes, have pets! I could never have a pet, because he was "allergic"
I'm so much better without that d-bag in my life- so why am I still letting him upset me?
I'm heading to the gym to work it out of my head...then going to go out, and enjoy myself tonight.
I need to let this go. Thank you all for letting me post this
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Tik
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I finally had some time to read your diary...and I must say it's amazing! So inspiring!
I love your workouts with the PT! Since I'm not in a gym right now, I've been working out at home, but I only have 3 and 4kg dumbbells (~6.6 and 8.8lbs) - and they're too light! As incredible as it sounds, I miss the gym D:
And I'm so jealous of your cute cat...but I have 2 dogs
Thank you!!
I love the gym! I never thought I would say that- but I do!!!! Hey, you should try doing some strength exercises with your dumbbells!! Anything is good, right? I hear that doing more reps with lower weights is just as good!!
2 dogs!?!! Awww!!!!!! Tell tell!!!! Names, breeds, pictures!?!?!
Tik
New member
Hey Jill!
Awww…it made me all happy that you have that friend that's training with for the 5k! She sounds like such an amazing inspirational person. Reminds me of my sister. It's always nice to have that one cheerleader that's there for you no matter what. Not to mention, it's so rare to find someone that TRULY wants the very best for you.
Psshhhh I cannot believe you called that the size of a small child. The burrito from Chipotle that I had…now THAT was a small child. Jill, honestly…your eating is spot on. I see the veggies, fruits, meat, etc. It is so well balanced. I wish my diet was that flawless. You are doing so well!!!!
Your PT sessions always sound absolutely amazing! They make me miss my trainer.
I am completely loving your dedication and determination. Congrats on hitting 195lbs!!! You got this!
Start prepping for our jumprope challenge, girl!!!
I've said this before but Jill, you are SO positive and encouraging. I love it. It honestly brightens my day. You're one of those people that you'll meet online and are like, "Man I wish they were my friend in real life!!!" (Sorry if that sounds creepy! lol)
I hope you have an amazing weekend girl
Awww! Thank you for the encouragement!!
I think your diet is killer! And your exercise routine is also amazing! I'm going to start the jumprope this afternoon at the gym!! (I'm determined to make it there
I am very lucky to have the great friends that I do! It's amazing how sometimes that is the key to success
And it's totally not creepy that you want to be my real life friend- heck!!! There are TONS of people on here that I would love to know in real life!!
It would be creepy however, if you started to go "Single White Female" ..hehehehe
It's nice that this community supports these kinds of friendships! It's important! I think it's easier to express how I feel on here, as there's so many other people here that know how I feel! Where in my RL, no one really understands
We all rock!!!!!
Tik
New member
I love your cat photos too
I also love your positivity Tik, keep up the great work!
Aww! I would love to see your kitties
Kitties do rock! I love how they're a terror one second, running around, up and down the furniture...and the next they're sound asleep like nothing has happened! too cute!!
Tik
New member
What a loser! You'll do so much better without him. The future is yours!
Aww thank you TikTak!
You're right!!
My future is mine! And it's going to be fantastic!! I don't need that slab of useless weight carrying me down
gohomejes
New member
Aww Jill! I want to give you a huge hug after reading that post.
Dude…you are incredibly strong. I cannot believe you put up with that for FIVE years. Holy crap. I honestly don't know how you did it. Working 60 hours, juggling school full-time, AND all that?! I remember my freshmen and sophomore year of undergrad when I was working full-time and full-time student, I was DYING. And I didn't even have the stress of a relationship. That kind of emotional and physical abuse is extremely taxing.
You can do this. You are SO much better off now. It's completely normal to feel upset/sad//angry when you hear he's doing things like that. You spent FIVE years of your life with him. It's normal. Everyone handles pain differently. Some do it in stupid ways like your ex is: jumping from girl to girl. *eye roll* YOU however will use it in a positive way as you continue your journey towards the new you. You KNOW you deserve better and now you're going to go get it.
Use this as fuel for your new lifestyle. When your at the gym and you feel like there is just not any way you can do another rep, just picture him and a big "SCREW YOU!!!!"
I hope you have an AMAZING workout!!!! Enjoy your weekend girl. You definitely deserve it!!!
Dude…you are incredibly strong. I cannot believe you put up with that for FIVE years. Holy crap. I honestly don't know how you did it. Working 60 hours, juggling school full-time, AND all that?! I remember my freshmen and sophomore year of undergrad when I was working full-time and full-time student, I was DYING. And I didn't even have the stress of a relationship. That kind of emotional and physical abuse is extremely taxing.
You can do this. You are SO much better off now. It's completely normal to feel upset/sad//angry when you hear he's doing things like that. You spent FIVE years of your life with him. It's normal. Everyone handles pain differently. Some do it in stupid ways like your ex is: jumping from girl to girl. *eye roll* YOU however will use it in a positive way as you continue your journey towards the new you. You KNOW you deserve better and now you're going to go get it.
Use this as fuel for your new lifestyle. When your at the gym and you feel like there is just not any way you can do another rep, just picture him and a big "SCREW YOU!!!!"
I hope you have an AMAZING workout!!!! Enjoy your weekend girl. You definitely deserve it!!!
BugDude
New member
Dirtbag is a user, abuser, and loser. You're not responsible for anyone else's happiness, and shouldn't be made to feel you are. That's a trick of a user and abuser. A great relationship makes you feel good about yourself. We need to be happy with ourselves and hopefully find someone else who is happy with themselves to share it with. Then, the combined happiness is greater than the sum of the two. When it's right, you can laugh, cry, encourage, support, celebrate, and grow together. This dude will never be part of a relationship like that. Good for you for escaping what would only become worse with time. I hope you can find a way to rid your life of him completely and let go of the hate. Hate takes energy from you, and I hope you can free yourself from it. A person only has influence in our lives when we allow them to affect us. When they no longer have an affect on us, they are powerless. I've always found reading the Bible and prayer to help me with letting go of negative feelings towards someone.
Don't let yourself get run over by a dump truck. We go through life and others are like dump trucks full of their issues and negativity. If they run over us, and dump their crap on us, we then carry it around for them.
God bless you!!! You're strong, sweet, warm, and determined. You're great, and you deserve more greatness in your life!!!
Don't let yourself get run over by a dump truck. We go through life and others are like dump trucks full of their issues and negativity. If they run over us, and dump their crap on us, we then carry it around for them.
God bless you!!! You're strong, sweet, warm, and determined. You're great, and you deserve more greatness in your life!!!
Tik
New member
Thank you gohomejes and BugDude! You two made me smile Your comments mean a lot, and really hit home with me!
I wasn't going to go to the gym this afternoon (I wanted to nap), but I read this...
...and as soon as I did, I had my shoes on and was out the door
BudDude- I totally agree...it's WAY to much work to hate...hating him is just as bad as loving him...I want to be ambivalent to him. In my mind I can rationalize everything! I know I am in a better place- but my heart is failing me It will be so much easier when i can think of him, and be like 'He taught me a lot, and I hope he has a good life' ...and then move on! I think I'm slowly getting there...it takes time, but....I think I'm finally putting closure to that relationship...
Thank you two again for the wonderful comments! I'm an emotional person, and sometimes I just need to vent and let it all out
So I finally made it to the gym! If felt so good once I got there and started going!! The hardest part of the gym is pushing yourself to get there!!!
I worked out all by myself today! I don't think I pushed myself as hard as I could, but my legs/thighs are quite sore today, and my ankle started to bother me half way through my cardio- so I thought I would take it a bit slow...still got a mean sweat on!!!
Workout for Feb 19, 2011
30 minutes on the cross trainer (burning 218calories)
30 situps with stability ball
30 wide grip pushups
20 dumbbell curls (12lbs)
30 woodcutters on each side (level 6)
30 narrow grip bench presses
30 lat pulldowns at 50lbs
30 chest press @ 50lbs
30 leg press @ 160lbs
30 sitting row @ 50lbs
5 minute skipping (30 sec on/off)
stretching
Food for Feb 19,2011
Late breakfast/early lunch - 11am
Homemade taco salad - extra lean grain feed beef (grilled, fat drained), mixed with cumin, chili powder, garlic...combined with 1/4 head of iceberg lettuce, tomato, onion, 2 tbs of old cheddar cheese
3:30pm: protein powder shake with 1 banana, 1/3 cup of frozen fruit
The protein shake wasn't as bad as I thought...although, I made an ungodly amount of that stuff and had to chug it all down!!! Good thing the powder doesn't have many calories!!
I'm just about to head out for the night!! I'm excited!! I'm going to treat myself to a nice dinner, and maybe a glass of wine! All in moderation
i'm feeling much better after i got to vent, went to the gym, and had time to reflect on all the wonderful things I have in my life. Life is way to short to dwell on the past..i have a bright and lively future ahead of me, and the longer I stew on the past, the more of my future I miss!
I hope you all have a wonderful weekend
Your comments mean a lot, and really hit home with me!I wasn't going to go to the gym this afternoon (I wanted to nap), but I read this...
...and as soon as I did, I had my shoes on and was out the door
BudDude- I totally agree...it's WAY to much work to hate...hating him is just as bad as loving him...I want to be ambivalent to him. In my mind I can rationalize everything! I know I am in a better place- but my heart is failing me
It will be so much easier when i can think of him, and be like 'He taught me a lot, and I hope he has a good life' ...and then move on! I think I'm slowly getting there...it takes time, but....I think I'm finally putting closure to that relationship...Thank you two again for the wonderful comments! I'm an emotional person, and sometimes I just need to vent and let it all out
So I finally made it to the gym!
If felt so good once I got there and started going!! The hardest part of the gym is pushing yourself to get there!!! I worked out all by myself today! I don't think I pushed myself as hard as I could, but my legs/thighs are quite sore today, and my ankle started to bother me half way through my cardio- so I thought I would take it a bit slow...still got a mean sweat on!!!
Workout for Feb 19, 2011
30 minutes on the cross trainer (burning 218calories)
30 situps with stability ball
30 wide grip pushups
20 dumbbell curls (12lbs)
30 woodcutters on each side (level 6)
30 narrow grip bench presses
30 lat pulldowns at 50lbs
30 chest press @ 50lbs
30 leg press @ 160lbs
30 sitting row @ 50lbs
5 minute skipping (30 sec on/off)
stretching
Food for Feb 19,2011
Late breakfast/early lunch - 11am
Homemade taco salad - extra lean grain feed beef (grilled, fat drained), mixed with cumin, chili powder, garlic...combined with 1/4 head of iceberg lettuce, tomato, onion, 2 tbs of old cheddar cheese
3:30pm: protein powder shake with 1 banana, 1/3 cup of frozen fruit
The protein shake wasn't as bad as I thought...although, I made an ungodly amount of that stuff and had to chug it all down!!! Good thing the powder doesn't have many calories!!
I'm just about to head out for the night!! I'm excited!! I'm going to treat myself to a nice dinner, and maybe a glass of wine! All in moderation
i'm feeling much better after i got to vent, went to the gym, and had time to reflect on all the wonderful things I have in my life. Life is way to short to dwell on the past..i have a bright and lively future ahead of me, and the longer I stew on the past, the more of my future I miss!
I hope you all have a wonderful weekend
AriannaErin
New member
I'm heading to the gym to work it out of my head...then going to go out, and enjoy myself tonight.
I need to let this go. Thank you all for letting me post this
That's one of my favorite things about working out right now - clearing my head and getting all my frustrations out through exercise. It helps me push through and makes me feel a lot better.
While not the same situation, I definitely understand being in an unhealthy relationship. My problem with more with my ex after we broke up (after 3 years) and I spend the next two years letting him lead me on and use me and basically just break me (I really should have known better) and I feel that awful hate for him now as well - like how could he do that after all we went through. So not the same situation, but i do get it - you deserve SO much better than him! From what I can tell you have a good head on ya and a way better future and don't need losers like that holding you back
healthyjess
New member
OMG Tik I just want to give you a huge 
What a douchebag!
Thanks god you're free now. NEVER go back to that.
I can't wait to hear about the time in the future when you bump into him and you're hot as, healthy and have a decent, kind loving partner to introduce (flaunt) him to!
So sorry you had to go through all of that
You deserve all the happiness in the world dude... Just block him out of your head. As for going to bars and picking up young girls? That's how people end up with genital warts...
I had a really bad relationship back in the day, and literally had to 'escape'. He was extremely emotionally abusive and was very intimidating. I look back now and he just seems pathetic to me.
At least all the craps over and you only have good things to look forward to now xx
What a douchebag!
Thanks god you're free now. NEVER go back to that.
I can't wait to hear about the time in the future when you bump into him and you're hot as, healthy and have a decent, kind loving partner to introduce (flaunt) him to!
So sorry you had to go through all of that
You deserve all the happiness in the world dude... Just block him out of your head. As for going to bars and picking up young girls? That's how people end up with genital warts...
I had a really bad relationship back in the day, and literally had to 'escape'. He was extremely emotionally abusive and was very intimidating. I look back now and he just seems pathetic to me.
At least all the craps over and you only have good things to look forward to now xx
Tik
New member
That's one of my favorite things about working out right now - clearing my head and getting all my frustrations out through exercise. It helps me push through and makes me feel a lot better.
While not the same situation, I definitely understand being in an unhealthy relationship. My problem with more with my ex after we broke up (after 3 years) and I spend the next two years letting him lead me on and use me and basically just break me (I really should have known better) and I feel that awful hate for him now as well - like how could he do that after all we went through. So not the same situation, but i do get it - you deserve SO much better than him! From what I can tell you have a good head on ya and a way better future and don't need losers like that holding you back
It's amazing how exercise can clear your mind!! I can relax, but I normally have a lot of stuff buzzing around in my mind. That sounds weird, but I'm always thinking about work, school, and what I have to do...and literally, working out is the FIRST time ever that my mind is clear!! I can go a whole hour thinking about nothing, or focusing on a problem!! It's wonderful!
I'm sorry to hear about your ex...I think it's very much the same! I feel the exact same way- how could he treat me like that after 5 years! How can you go from loving someone to being so hateful and mean....but after I think about it, i mean, he didn't love me for awhile, and he was always mean to me...
But you're right! As much as he always said I was holding him back, the truth is, he held me back! I was settling for a life with him, for a home and a mediocre job! But now I can do ANYTHING, and I know I can- and that's what's important!!
How long has it been since you ended it with him? I still feel that hate, isn't it awful? It's so draining, and just upsetting. I look forward to the day where I have no feelings/emotions towards him...that I'm just indifferent.
If you ever need to chat-vent, just let me know!! These situations are painful, but I think they'll get better
*hugs*