Skkroll, Angelwings, katie, BugDude, Xenon & Tob - thank you so much for all the positive comments, and the virtual kick in the rear to snap out of it! I woke up today with the sun shining on me, my little kitty pawing at me to get up, and a positive attitude!!
Today is me getting BACK on track! I think my trip really threw me off! I was doing so great, and I was so proud of myself before I left, that when I wasn't keeping up to my standards, I fizzled! The week before I left, I hit the gym everyday, I was eating less than 1600cals a day, and was so pumped to see my results! And then WHAM, I went away, fell off the wagon, and then let THAT impact my desire to lose weight...Bad Jill!!

I'm the only one that can stop me from reaching this goal - and I'm not going to let that happen!
To celebrate my happiness, I've attached some photos. Some are of my cute little kitty named Geppetto! I saved him at the beginning of Dec- he was found in a parking lot malnourished and with a broken leg!

But now he's mine! And he's so bad - but cute

And the other one is the ski run I went down the very first day! (The red is the run, and the yellow arrow is where I said - "Nope, I'm walkin' down!!!" ...hehehehe

)
So, I got my ankle/knee pain looked at. They think I have a swollen ligament in my ankle, and that's putting pressure (and swelling) on my tibial nerve. That's why I'm having the pain in my ankle, up my calf, and to my knee. Nothing too serious! Yippee!! I'll take it easy at the gym today, pop some Ibp, and make sure I put ice on it when I get home. They even recommended easy stretching and walking to help relieve some of the pain- so I think I'm going to do good
Food for Feb 16, 2011
9am: Large tea w/ 1 tsp sugar
11am: small bowl of homemade veggie stew (onions, green beans, potatoes, turnip)
12:00pm: Large tea w/ 1tsp sugar
4pm: 1/2 sandwich (baked chicken, 1 slice tom, 1/4 avocado, 1tsp goats cheese on 7 grain bread), 1 large tea w/ sugar
5pm: apple with peanut butter - glass of water
6pm: 1/2 sandwich - glass of water
9pm: chicken patty ((ground chicken w/ kale, onion, garlic, mushrooms and green pepper, lightly sauteed with a 1tsp of EVOO), steamed broccoli, small slice of milkless chocolate cake
My food yesterday wasn't very good. I had way too much tea...I normally just take it black, but I was lacking on energy and craving something sweet. I also wasn't happy that I ate my dinner so late and didn't eat breakfast. Yesterday is the last day of that foolish eating! I'm keeping myself in check!
Food for Feb 17, 2011
8:15am - 1/2 cup of Kashi cereal, 1/3 cup of almond milk
11:30am - 1 med apple w/ 1 tbsp peanut butter & water
1:30pm - med chicken patty (ground chicken w/ kale, onion, garlic, mushrooms and green pepper, lightly sauteed with a 1tsp of EVOO) w/ 1/4 avocado, 1 slice of 7 grain bread w/ 1 tsp of goats cheese & water
I'm excited to go see my PT today! I have an hour appointment this afternoon, and then I'm going to stick around to do some cardio. I had wanted to restart the couch to 5k program today, but I won't push my ankle...if it's hurting, I'm just going to take it easy, and walk on the treadmill and do a bit on the rowing machine.
I was talking to one of my close friends last night. I love her. it's the type of friendship where we can go a week or two without talking, and it'll be like nothing has happened. I think she is by far the most supportive person I know! She's very athletic (plays rec soccer 4-5 times a week, runs, etc. super healthy and super happy!!)...anyways, she's ALWAYS been there for me, encouraging me and supporting me! We took a kickboxing class last semester together, and she was always yelling at me "GO JILL! WOOO", even when I was struggling - she's the type of person who wants you to succeed and will help you. She knows I've been going to the gym, but I haven't really confided in her about my wanting to lose a lot of weight. She's so busy with work and MCAT prep, that I didn't want to load her up with my journey! Regardless, she always asks me how I'm doing, and tells me I'm doing a good job...
Ok ok...enjoy about how much of a star she is. I'm SOOO excited- she joined my gym this week, and wants to train with me to do the 5k! She was like, "OH MY GOD JILL!!! That's a fabulous thing to do!! I'm so proud of you!" ...I think it's so rare to find a friend that really REALLY wants you to succeed, and you know, it's not often (when you reach my age), that people tell you that they're proud of you (other than parents- cause my mom is all up on the proud ship!) ... so it felt good! It gave me a sense of relief that I can have supportive friends in my life!
I'm going out with her, her roommate and her bf this sat! It should be fun! I'll be able to eat a healthy meal (have a drink if
I want to- or not!), and just enjoy myself! Her roommate & bf - other good friends - are all into being healthy...so I'm sure it will be a supportive night! This may seem odd, but they're not the "healthy judgmental" type ... they are the people that really like to see people be happy and reach their goals! Which is great to be around
Yippee! I'm already feeling the positive vibes return to me!!
I stepped on the scale today and literally said - I'm reading this wrong!
I have reach 195lbs!! *happy dance* ...I can't believe I'm still losing after my trip- but I'll take it! The last few days have been TOM, and it's hit me rather hard, so I'm so pleased that I'm still maintaining a slow decrease!! (And TOM may explain my insatiable hunger, slight sappy/sadness, and my tiredness) ...
I can't believe it!!
My new mini goal will be to lose 6lbs by March 16th, 2011
I can't wait to be in the 180's!!!!! About a year ago, I looked at a picture of myself (it was a picture taken in 2008, when I had gained weight and was unhappy with how I looked, I was around 185lbs) ...when I looked at the picture I remember thinking, 'I would LOVE to be back to that weight, I was so much happier, and I looked so much better!' ... I think it'll be good for me to see myself at a weight I had a few years ago- but it's going to be even better when I break the 180 mark!!!!!

Little steps Tik, little steps
Off to tackle my work- slow and steady! I must remain calm, peaceful, and relaxed! If I take each project as a step at a time, I'll be fine!
Sunshine, rainbows, kittens, and sparkles have arrived!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!