Time's a Wastin, and I'm Still Fat.
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when you're feeling better.
MysticRealm
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Thanks guys.
155 this morning. Starting to feel better.
Doing HORRIBLE on food and horrible on exercise.
However my house is now officially sold! Finally!
Tomorrow I will be better, tomorrow I will be better!
155 this morning. Starting to feel better.
Doing HORRIBLE on food and horrible on exercise.
However my house is now officially sold! Finally!
Tomorrow I will be better, tomorrow I will be better!
ABY1
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Now that stress is limited and you are feeling better, it's easier to concentrate on diet plan. I am just staying and this week on my plan without seeing a lot of difference in scales and feeling a little exhausted but i am determined not to give up this time. I think that after some time the positive changes would be a routine and i wouldn't care a lot or feel lack of unhealthy food as i 'm feeling now.
MysticRealm
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Ah, thanks guys. I'm still stressing over my stupid toilet not working properly. Grr. I've found the problem (or at least one of the problems!) but I can't fix it. It doesn't go high enough to do what it's supposed to do!
Didn't weigh today because my scale has all my plunger and such that normally is behind my toilet on it since I've been dealing with the toilet issues.
Not doing well eating wise again. I rode but no exercise.
Grr. gonna try again tomorrow. Feeling so bloated. Yuck!
Didn't weigh today because my scale has all my plunger and such that normally is behind my toilet on it since I've been dealing with the toilet issues.
Not doing well eating wise again. I rode but no exercise.
Grr. gonna try again tomorrow. Feeling so bloated. Yuck!
MysticRealm
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Another craptacular day today. I actually though at 8:30 'hey I'm not doing as bad this evening as I have been lately' and then I ruined it. Which is really depressing because I bought pants like a month ago to wear on my New York trip (which is on Monday) and though thy for they still caused a bit of muffin top. I though I would have lost a good 5 pounds more from when I bought them till my trip. Instead I have probably gained 8 pounds 
so now I will likely have to rely on my fat jeans for the trip not my cute new jeans I bought specifically for the trip.
I kinda wanna try to do a bit of a 'fasting' day to drop some of the water weight and bloat, but if I can't even manage to stay within maintenance how the hell would I manage a fast!
And I'm still sick. Hurray I suck so much.
so now I will likely have to rely on my fat jeans for the trip not my cute new jeans I bought specifically for the trip. I kinda wanna try to do a bit of a 'fasting' day to drop some of the water weight and bloat, but if I can't even manage to stay within maintenance how the hell would I manage a fast!
And I'm still sick. Hurray I suck so much.
Cate
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Stop it Mystic. You do not suck. You are just going through a difficult time. I do not know any perfect people. The harder you are on yourself, the worse you will be. Stop now sweetie. Have a ball in NY, come back & re-focus & stop giving yourself such a hard time!!
xoxo Cate
xoxo Cate
with Cate. Enjoy New York and all the walking you'll get a chance to do, relax and have fun knowing that you're place is sold, and then come back ready to tear October a new one!
MrVee
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I'm actually something of an expert at fixing toilets. (It's usually either the chain or the float, though sometimes the flap stops working for no good reason). Congrats on the new place and selling of the old place.
Anyhow, you don't even remotely suck. You've actually done a great job, you just got sick at an inopportune time and it messed with your goals a bit. It happens. If you want you can go low carb for a few days and that should drop your water weight down.
We're kinda similar in that we get irrationally down on ourselves when we fall a touch short of the high standards we like to set for ourselves. A little bit of that is a good thing I think (motivation), but only a little and I think we both go overboard on it too often. Because ultimately you're a good person, and deserve to be treated nicely. Not just by other people but by yourself too.
Hugs!
Anyhow, you don't even remotely suck. You've actually done a great job, you just got sick at an inopportune time and it messed with your goals a bit. It happens. If you want you can go low carb for a few days and that should drop your water weight down.
We're kinda similar in that we get irrationally down on ourselves when we fall a touch short of the high standards we like to set for ourselves. A little bit of that is a good thing I think (motivation), but only a little and I think we both go overboard on it too often. Because ultimately you're a good person, and deserve to be treated nicely. Not just by other people but by yourself too.
Hugs!
MysticRealm
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Thanks guys.
I've managed to convince the plumbers to come back out for free to try to fix it (they said the water not filling to the water line wasn't a big deal and that I likely just need a new flapper, though I don't know why I'm suddenly having this issue now right after they worked on my toilet... but anyways)
Today I may have done slightly better food wise. I was actually planning to make myself have my lasagna for lunch today. It had been in the fridge at work for a couple days because I had been going out to eat, however apparently at some point in the last couple days, I had eaten it! I seriously do NOT remember eating it but apparently I did! So then I had to go get food and then I didn't do as well choosing food as I should have.
I also got a medium DQ blizzard after work (currently addicted to them) which is probably 700-1000 cals.
The other thing I am SERIOUSLY addicted to right now is crackers with that cheese ball cheese, with sweet thai chilli sauce. OMG it's so good!! THat has been my supper, and snacks for virtually the entire week! I certainly ate too much of it this evening, but I went longer between eatings and I haven't eaten in a couple hours where as lately I have been eating pretty constantly in the evening. Hoping this will help me back off the eating for the next couple days.
I hoping New York will be so expensive that I will really just get by on Breakfast, lunch, and dinner, with no real snacks. If I can stick to water for the large majority of my meals instead of pops and try to either not have dessert or split it with my mom I might actually do better on my trip eating wise than I have been the last month!
Tomorrow I'm making a big change... I will post about it tomorrow. It has nothing to do with weight loss or anything but I'm excited. I haven't told a single soul what I'm doing so it's gonna be a shock!!
I'm also picking up a new decor item tomorrow for my house! Its a beautiful mirror with a shabby chic metal design going through it. The frame is currently black but I will change that to a shabby chic grey to match my grey decor.
I'm also hanging out with my best friend. Going to the mall to see if I can get a little bit of cute stuff to wear to New York since my jeans kinda fell through. It's supposed to be pretty nice out so gonna maybe see about skirts and leggings. Also maybe some cute hair accessories and such. We will be going for supper to so I'll try to be a bit conscience of my choices.
Feeling a little more positive today.
The scale said 155 which is a slightly positive in the fact that it hasn't gone above this number, but likely my water weight is going down a bit and my actual weight is coming up. I really hope I can get back on track after New York.
I've managed to convince the plumbers to come back out for free to try to fix it (they said the water not filling to the water line wasn't a big deal and that I likely just need a new flapper, though I don't know why I'm suddenly having this issue now right after they worked on my toilet... but anyways)
Today I may have done slightly better food wise. I was actually planning to make myself have my lasagna for lunch today. It had been in the fridge at work for a couple days because I had been going out to eat, however apparently at some point in the last couple days, I had eaten it! I seriously do NOT remember eating it but apparently I did! So then I had to go get food and then I didn't do as well choosing food as I should have.
I also got a medium DQ blizzard after work (currently addicted to them) which is probably 700-1000 cals.
The other thing I am SERIOUSLY addicted to right now is crackers with that cheese ball cheese, with sweet thai chilli sauce. OMG it's so good!! THat has been my supper, and snacks for virtually the entire week! I certainly ate too much of it this evening, but I went longer between eatings and I haven't eaten in a couple hours where as lately I have been eating pretty constantly in the evening. Hoping this will help me back off the eating for the next couple days.
I hoping New York will be so expensive that I will really just get by on Breakfast, lunch, and dinner, with no real snacks. If I can stick to water for the large majority of my meals instead of pops and try to either not have dessert or split it with my mom I might actually do better on my trip eating wise than I have been the last month!
Tomorrow I'm making a big change... I will post about it tomorrow. It has nothing to do with weight loss or anything but I'm excited. I haven't told a single soul what I'm doing so it's gonna be a shock!!
I'm also picking up a new decor item tomorrow for my house! Its a beautiful mirror with a shabby chic metal design going through it. The frame is currently black but I will change that to a shabby chic grey to match my grey decor.
I'm also hanging out with my best friend. Going to the mall to see if I can get a little bit of cute stuff to wear to New York since my jeans kinda fell through. It's supposed to be pretty nice out so gonna maybe see about skirts and leggings. Also maybe some cute hair accessories and such. We will be going for supper to so I'll try to be a bit conscience of my choices.
Feeling a little more positive today.
The scale said 155 which is a slightly positive in the fact that it hasn't gone above this number, but likely my water weight is going down a bit and my actual weight is coming up. I really hope I can get back on track after New York.
MysticRealm
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Ok guys, here is the big change I made. It's not something totally dramatic for me as I have done this several times in my life, but it's still a decent change (sorry, pic is gonna be huge)
My 'excuse' for cutting it off (because every time I cut it off I love it, but then hate waiting for it to grow back out so I can do a different new style since I like changing it up so I tell myself to never let my cut it off again) was that it was long enough to donate to a wigs for kids type thing. I cut off 16 inches just in the pony tail I'm holding, not to mention all the bits and pieces that were cut off during styling. The way it's styled in the picture is more of a cute style and I'll probably do it a little more edgy and play around with the type of cut over the next few times possibly, and also I will have to learn the tricks and product I need to style it how I want.
Still not eating great, no exercise. Off to New York tomorrow. Gonna have a fun time, then hopefully come back home and get down to business.
I went clothes shopping with a friend yesterday and felt a little fat and didn't love a lot of things I tried on. I did come away with a few things but not much. I ended up at the mall again today to pick up a couple rings I was having resized ('gifts' from my mom), and decided to look a bit again as I was worried I wouldn't have clothes I felt good in to wear in New York. Had a more successful go this time and came away with a few shirts and a couple pairs of pants. I don't LOVE the pants but I needed to buy some pants that were a bit big on me in the waist so I wouldn't be self conscience about love handles. My new shirts also aren't real clingy to the body which will help.
But it's 9pm here and I still need to pack, change out my dishes in the dishwasher (so my dirty dishes don't sit and stank up the place), and take out my garbage (so it too doesn't stank up the place!) so I supposed I should start working on that (I have been saying that for an hour and a half!)
My 'excuse' for cutting it off (because every time I cut it off I love it, but then hate waiting for it to grow back out so I can do a different new style since I like changing it up so I tell myself to never let my cut it off again) was that it was long enough to donate to a wigs for kids type thing. I cut off 16 inches just in the pony tail I'm holding, not to mention all the bits and pieces that were cut off during styling. The way it's styled in the picture is more of a cute style and I'll probably do it a little more edgy and play around with the type of cut over the next few times possibly, and also I will have to learn the tricks and product I need to style it how I want.
Still not eating great, no exercise. Off to New York tomorrow. Gonna have a fun time, then hopefully come back home and get down to business.
I went clothes shopping with a friend yesterday and felt a little fat and didn't love a lot of things I tried on. I did come away with a few things but not much. I ended up at the mall again today to pick up a couple rings I was having resized ('gifts' from my mom), and decided to look a bit again as I was worried I wouldn't have clothes I felt good in to wear in New York. Had a more successful go this time and came away with a few shirts and a couple pairs of pants. I don't LOVE the pants but I needed to buy some pants that were a bit big on me in the waist so I wouldn't be self conscience about love handles. My new shirts also aren't real clingy to the body which will help.
But it's 9pm here and I still need to pack, change out my dishes in the dishwasher (so my dirty dishes don't sit and stank up the place), and take out my garbage (so it too doesn't stank up the place!) so I supposed I should start working on that (I have been saying that for an hour and a half!)
I LOVE your hair!!!! Really suits your face, look at your cheekbones!!!!!!!!!
Have an amazing time in NY, I'm really glad you got some comfy clothes to wear so you don't need to be stressing about how you look the whole time (I know EXACTLY how that feels). We're all here for you when you get back!
Have an amazing time in NY, I'm really glad you got some comfy clothes to wear so you don't need to be stressing about how you look the whole time (I know EXACTLY how that feels). We're all here for you when you get back!
MysticRealm
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Hey! Thanks guys!
Got back from New York late Friday night and it. Was. AMAZING! I loved it so much! In fact, despite the threat of mass shootings you must deal with when living in the states, I would like to live there some day! I don't know if I'd live there for a long time or not, but I'd like to at least give it a try for a year or two! I'm almost 30 and feel like life is passing me by and I need an adventure. This is also reigniting my desire to think about a change in career. To go from dog grooming to an office job with more stability, more money, and getting to dress professionally!
Food on the trip wasn't great but I think it could have been worse. I only had pop at supper, and we really only had one dessert a day. A few days I felt really super bloated (the worst day being the flight down). Did 15k-30k steps a day so got in at least some extra movement.
Yesterday I did nothing and ate bad. Today I actually got back to the gym and did 35 mins cardio, and weights. I started off being in control of my eating but ended up eating too much. Hoping going back to work tomorrow and being on a schedule will help. I'm gonna try to go around to diaries tomorrow. I know I have really been neglecting that! Thanks for the continued support despite my lack of support!
Btw the scale said 159.2 this morning. Nearly 20 pounds more than my lightest I have been this time. Really gotta get back on track. Hoping for close to 10 pounds being water weight but I won't know till I start doing better with me eating.
Got back from New York late Friday night and it. Was. AMAZING! I loved it so much! In fact, despite the threat of mass shootings you must deal with when living in the states, I would like to live there some day! I don't know if I'd live there for a long time or not, but I'd like to at least give it a try for a year or two! I'm almost 30 and feel like life is passing me by and I need an adventure. This is also reigniting my desire to think about a change in career. To go from dog grooming to an office job with more stability, more money, and getting to dress professionally!
Food on the trip wasn't great but I think it could have been worse. I only had pop at supper, and we really only had one dessert a day. A few days I felt really super bloated (the worst day being the flight down). Did 15k-30k steps a day so got in at least some extra movement.
Yesterday I did nothing and ate bad. Today I actually got back to the gym and did 35 mins cardio, and weights. I started off being in control of my eating but ended up eating too much. Hoping going back to work tomorrow and being on a schedule will help. I'm gonna try to go around to diaries tomorrow. I know I have really been neglecting that! Thanks for the continued support despite my lack of support!
Btw the scale said 159.2 this morning. Nearly 20 pounds more than my lightest I have been this time. Really gotta get back on track. Hoping for close to 10 pounds being water weight but I won't know till I start doing better with me eating.
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