Time's a Wastin, and I'm Still Fat.

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Still trying to pull myself back on track. Tomorrow will be another hard day cause of what's all going on but hopefully things settle down after that. Hired a new groomer who was suppose to start today but she never showed. Work is causing me such stress lately which is really affecting my mood and such
 
It's odd to be struggling and not having any support on here. I guess cause I haven't had the energy to respond to other threads due to the lack of motivation I'm feeling, no one feels the need to respond to mine.

Gonna try to get back on track tomorrow. I've been forcing myself to at least put on my fitbit everyday even though I am not getting my steps done. I've finished off the last of the bad food in my house I think, so hopefully I can get right back to it.
 
Mystic, I think you may find that when you're struggling often others are too. It's very hard to find something uplifting to say when you are feeling the same way. It sounds crazy I know, but we are usually all up at the same time & down at the same time. You have our love & support, even if you're not hearing it xo Cate
 
Sorry MR, I'm out of town and so very sporadically on the internet. So consider this a massive big bear hug. Like 10 minutes long.

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I'd give Cate one too, but don't want to catch her cold. When she's better I'll give her one.

I feel like divorcing food from our emotions can be the hardest thing. We know that tasty food makes us feel better, and when we're really down we really want to feel better. But if we're trying to lose weight it really doesn't work as we just feel bad about eating so much later. On here I've lamented a few times about the lack of a replacement for comfort food when feeling bad. I really never did find one.

But a little focus on your weight goals may sometimes help clear your mind, and knowing that looking better is likely to make you feel better might be enough to stay away from the bad stuff. At least sometimes anyway. I hope your doing okay.
 
Hope you're feeling a little bit better Mystic. I am sorry that you felt you were not getting the support you need. I had also been feeling very low, & as you probably know, it's hard to even fake feeling positive when you're down yourself. Sending you a great big hug, germ-free & a photo, that's not a hug but is very cute & I hope will put a smile on your face. We're in this together Mystic, xoxo Cate
 
I'm pretty guilty of responding to those that post in my thread. I do keep up with others in that I read them even if I don't respond. Anyway I hope you are doing well and will try to keep up.

Ne ludibrio vultus vincere!
 
I totally agree with Quercus, me as well I read many diaries (already for some 3 years, although I just registered here last month), just do not respond (ok, ok I have excuse - I am still newly registered here :D) And actually there is no specific reason for that.

But anyway always when I am reading your diary, I am thinking: ‘This girl has figured everything out and is so nicely with determination sticking to her goal!’. So just keep going!!
And remember that people are supporting you, just sometimes not doing that in writing!

Good luck to you :)
 
Thanks guys. It has certainly been rough for me this past couple weeks. I'm praying I can get back on track now, though I do have 3/4 of a big pizza sitting in my fridge. Maybe I'll gift it to my mom. I am going out to eat tomorrow with a friend so gonna try to eat carefully during the day and choose my meal as carefully as I can (though it's vietnamese and they never have nutritional info). The hardest part is breaking the cycle of cravings. I now crave bad things all day long and it's very difficult to push through it and get past them. I am back to riding again after taking most of the month off so that will help a bit as it takes up my evenings (as long as I can not stop for slurpees and taquito's on my way to the barn and don't pick up restaurant food on my way home!) It's super late now and I have to work tomorrow but if I hold my motivation I will try to post on other people's diaries in the evening. Thanks again guys.
 
Mystic, just one good day will change all that. One day. Throw your pizza out if necessary, but break out of this cycle sweetie. Don't worry about my diary at all. One good day, that will make such a difference. Sending you much love, xoxo Cate
 
Hey Mystic, I'm sure you're going to get back on track and don't beat yourself up about letting your diet go. We all have those times where we fall off the wagon, it's just part if the process. Something I always tell myself when I mess up is "Progress, not perfection." It means that you don't have to be perfect, just focus on being better than you were before. That's all that matters. After all, this journey never ends, so you're never going to "get there" or "achieve perfection". There's going to be highs and lows. Remember during the low moments that it's only temporary!

I know how hard it is to resist cravings. I recommend keeping bad food (like that pizza!) out of your home so you're not so tempted. My weakness is candy and desserts, so I always have on hand some raw cacao powder, frozen bananas, dates, coconut sugar, and the like to make a sugar-free, gluten-free dessert when I'm desperate. It pays to be prepared. I trust you'll soon be doing well :)
 
Did you give Pizza to your mom? At least I hope that you did not eat it yourself :)

From my experience – the cakes, chocolate (mostly sweets though) which I somehow got (friends came around and bought or somebody gave as a present) I always tend to bring to the workplace. We do have a small kitchen there, so I just put it on the table and everybody from the office who wants can snack. And then I shoot two rabbits with one shot – I do not eat the calories myself and I do not feel bad about throwing the food away (I really really do not like that!) And it is funny that the stuff disappears very quickly there.

As I understand the workplace is not an option for you. But for the future how about your barn? Maybe you can bring the chocolate (I remember reading in your previous diary (I think it was yours) that you were saying that you buy chocolate, eat a bit and then it stands in the shelf and ‘annoys’ you. You do not want to throw it away, but you do not want to eat it either. So maybe barn is good option in this situation?)
Or does it sounds ridiculous? It is hard for me to imagine the environment there, do you have some changing room or rest room there? Somewhere you could put the stuff on the table for others to enjoy?

Get back on track lady! ;) Remember the wonderful feeling with not stuffed stomach and being more energetic! Good luck.
 
Hope all is well Mystic.

There were scant few things I cut out of my diet when I decided to drop the weight; I just ate less of most of what I had been eating, and focused on eating better things more often. But pizza (and french fries) were one of the things I did essentially eliminate. I actually went through the process of figuring out roughly the calories of pizza by weight (I came up with roughly 2.72 calories per gram of pizza), and a few times managed to eat the appropriate amount for dinner and then saved the rest for breakfast and/or lunch the next day depending. But it was just too much of a temptation.
 
I'm sure you can tell by my absence that I am not doing well yet. Gonna try to pull it back in this week starting tomorrow.
 
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I stole this from Jen.

Seriously though, just post. That's step one. Whatever you are eating or doing just post it. You can go from there, but really that isn't much effort. Come back!
 
Hi Mysticrealm :) I was attracted to your diary by the title because that is exactly how I am feeling lol....and I also tend to stay away when I am not doing so well. This time I am going to try to keep posting during the good and bad periods so the bad periods wont last that long. All the best!
 
Thanks guys. So I didn't do well during the day. I did eat the lunch I brought, but then went next door and got the kinder surprise chocolate bars (come in a package of 6 small 120 cal bars, and I ate all of them!), however I did not get a sugary drink like I had been, kept with my water I brought with me.
Though I did not get to 10,000 steps I did get a lot more steps than I have been. I got off work a bit early and went to the barn. Had a good ride on my horse, then, while he was cooling out, took to dancing like a fool around the arena which brought my steps up. Got about 6,800 steps.
I really need to go grocery shopping but it was too hot to leave my dog in the car so I didn't get that done (could have gone home, dropped him off, then went but didn't).
I feel I did decent in the evening though. I'm sure my dinner was pretty high cal (pork chops with a sauce recipe I found on the internet, and potatoes that I made in a pan with some butter), but I almost didn't snack at all afterwards. I had really bad cravings and went looking, but I was craving something sweet which I really didn't have (if I had had good grapes or watermelon I might have had that but would have been ok with that kind of snack) so I ended up grabbing the only thing I really had which was nacho chips. Since that wasn't what I was craving (I wanted sweet not salty!) I ended up eating only a very small handful before putting it away. I did have craving later on and could have made english muffins with peanut butter (which is at least 600 cals!) but was able to walk away, so I'm actually pretty happy with the evening as a first step to hopefully being back on track!

I plan to start tracking again on MFP tomorrow, may wait till friday to weigh in so some of the water weight I surely put on will hopefully have started to come down.
I think I will make a sandwich for lunch tomorrow, I don't unfortunately have any cheese, but it will still taste decent with just meat and hummus warmed up I think.
Tomorrow is supposed to be warm but cloudy so depending on the weather I may get to grocery shop tomorrow, though I have a much fuller workday tomorrow AND riding so I will have to see what time it is when I get done all that.
I don't think I have the energy to go around to diaries today as I had a terrible night's sleep yesterday (if you can call it 'sleep' when you barely get any) so should be heading to bed very soon.
Here's hoping I've got the ball rolling again!
 
Some good and some bad, but you have the ball rolling for sure. I haven't seen the scale move in forever. You and I are both getting that going. We got this.
 
I'm glad you're back Mystic. I'm struggling, with loads of stress at the moment, & am about to go away for 2 weeks, so please excuse my absence. I'll try to check in when I can xoxo Cate
 
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