Time to stick with it!!

Thanks for stopping by Ash - my dedication is down in the dumps today - as I knew it would be. Our Halloween party was a bit of a disappointment - whenever I get really excited for something it never turns out how I pictured it and it ruins it for me - I just need to stop getting so excited and go with the flow. I didn't take a single picture! I don't even know if anyone did - so all that hard work on my costume and not one picture to show for it. I drank too much and don't even really remember much from the night - my fiance found me at 12:30 sitting by myself and we called a cab - apparently I was feeling sorry for myself and I don't even know why.
Friday night I went and said good bye to my parents as they are snow birds and head South for the winter then I went home and did some serious house cleaning. I was in bed pretty early but not before I could eat my face off - I had like 5 pieces of WW toast with peanut butter and I wasn't even hungry. I woke up Saturday morning for my KettleBell class and felt so gross from all the snacking before bed. I did an hour Thai Chi class and then an hour KettleBell - the Kettle Bell was intense!! So many squats and push ups! Right after the gym I went and bought Halloween candy to hand out. I put it in a bowl and didn't have any for the first couple hours. As soon as my soon to be niece came over and started on the candy I was into it too. Hardly any kids came and I was told we would get lots so I bought lots! I felt so gross putting on my costume and my stomach was so mad at me - I didn't even feel like drinking but didn't think I would have any fun if I didn't. So I went hard on the booze and fast as soon as we got to the party. Everything continued down hill from there - I didn't have any pizza though! When we got home I ate a ton of candy and woke up so sick and sore! I could hardly walk yesterday - sitting on the toilet and walking down stairs were the worst! My legs were killing and my shoulders too. I have never been so sore from a work out before. I am still dragging my butt today and everyone at work keeps asking me what's wrong because I can't walk properly. Stairs are the worst! yesterday I continued to eat crap - fries, half a burger, hot dog, spagetti and lots of candy - I ate the spagetti for breakfast at 10am and continued with the rest all day and night. This morning I got a bagel and cream cheese and then ate my sandwich that I brought for lunch and now I'm thinking about what else I can eat - when really I shouldn't have anything. :willy_nilly: I knew it was going to be like this and I didn't have any power to stop it. I brought my gym bag to go to the gym after work but honestly I want to go home and lie on the couch and not get up until tomorrow.
 
Okay - we BOTH knew this would be a bad weekend! But guess what.... IT'S MONDAY! THE WEEKEND IS OVER! DON'T YOU DARE GO HOME AND LAY AROUND AND FEEL SORRY FOR YOURSELF! GET IT TOGETHER AND YOU GO TO THAT GYM!!! You already have your bag packed, with you, ready to go... so why not go?! Even though you are sore, it might help to go to the gym and just ride the bike for a half hour... or something! Just get your body movin'. You will feel MUCH better that you did!!!

Yesterday after a night of binge McDonald's eating and binge drinking, I tried to be healthy but then the snacking started and I even had my boyfriend get me an Oreo McFlurry from McDonald's which was ummmm *cough*500CALORIES*cough*... and you know what? I enjoyed every 12 ounces of it! And I didn't exactly want to go to the gym, but I did because I knew I would feel like absolute CRAP if I didn't.

So we all have bad weekends, bad days, bad snacks. We all feel upset or disappointed in ourselves at some point. But we just need to pick ourselves up and move on! Don't feel discouraged - you have all week to turn this around, and you can!

Go read your entries from last week, read the feedback we left you. Reflect on how PROUD you felt... remember, we are pushing each other this week!

I'll come back later to hear about your work out today ;) :p

:hurray: T H I N K P O S I T I V E :hurray:
~ Sarah
 
Just real quick...I did horrible HORRIBLE too :puke:...i'll post it later...but I binged and drank and ate like there was no tomorrow. We have to real ourselves out of this. Today. I hope. And at latest tomorrow!...we can do this!
 
Thank you, thank you, thank you Sarah - you are right, again!:iagree: I read what I wrote last Monday and good thing too because I was really wanting WEndy's again and thought to myself I have some time to make up for what I have done but if I keep messing up it is going to take even longer and I don't want that. I want to be in the 140's! So I am going to go to the gym and kick some butt well maybe just use the treadmill since my legs are still killing! I had some more Halloween treats some one brought into the office but besides the bagel and sandwich that is all I have had so it could be a lot worse. No more halloween treats! I am going to throw out whatever I have left at home - I know that sounds like a waste and I could probably give it to someone but really no one needs to eat that crap! I shouldn't have bought it in the first place and next year I'm handing out tooth brushes, lol and then my house will get egg'd. I'll think of something - maybe fake tattoos or something the kids will like that doesn't rot their teeth and turn them into bingers!
A friend emailed me a pic from the party so I am going to try and upload it. I'm the one in the blond wig.
 
Girl...you look SUPER tiny waist next to them!!..You look HOT...I wish you had a better shot!! Ask around...maybe you can find another one!! :D!!
 
Alta818 said:
Girl...you look SUPER tiny waist next to them!!..You look HOT...I wish you had a better shot!! Ask around...maybe you can find another one!! :D!!
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Thanks Alta! I have been asking around so hopefully I will get one sent to me of a full body shot. I was happy after looking at the pics though because I used to be way bigger than those girls (when I was 224) so that was an ego boost. I was a little surprised that none of my friends mentioned anything to me about the weight loss though. To be honest I was expecting it from some because I haven't seem some of those friends in three months when I was 20 pounds heavier (and I've never been 152) so I was expecting a couple comments, that might have been why I was feeling sorry for myself at the end of the night.
Ok I have been sucking big time :rant: I've been lazy, moody, unmotivated and just blaa. I've been craving junk and grease and haven't been drinking any water or tea or anything good. I had my yogurt & all bran for breakfast and have been dreaming about warm bagels and cheese burgers ever since. i didn't go to the gym last night although I had my gym bag ready and went home and was lazy all night! I think I only had like 5000 steps or something close. I went to bed crabby and when I woke up I had a sore throat and used that as an excuse not to go to the gym. My stomach hates me :puke: and I wish I could just say "ok let's go and get yourself into gear" but it's not working. I've been afraid of the scale at home and don't think I want to weigh-in at WW this week. Maybe I just need a couple days off and then jump back in strong. Last night I did go home and make a salad for dinner and then I was going to go to the gym but instead I got into chips and said it was too late and that I would go in the morning and then I didn't do that either. I'm hoping my spinning class tonight will motivate me. Maybe I should go try on the wedding dress I like again. :nopity: sorry for being so negative - if you are looking for motivation today go read Skkroll's journal!
 
chubbygirl said:
if you are looking for motivation today go read Skkroll's journal!
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.... :blush5: thanks :D

I responded to your comment in my journal... so check it out there! I'm happy to see you are going to your spinning class tonight!

Have a good day!!!!!
~ Sarah
 
u know i thought the same thing at the halloween party i went to! I was thinking ok i have lost weight and its noticeable... i bet ill hear all kinds of comments. I prepped myself on how to respond... and then NOTHING!!!!!! LOL


like seriously?!?!?! havent seen these people since April and NOTHING!!!!

lol... oh my we become a bit vain dont we? But hey when you make this living healthy stuff your life... it is a bummer when you dont hear or see people notice!!!


i agree with Alta... your waist looks tiny next to the other girls!!! You look great girl!!! Let me be the first to tell you that today!!!! Now get to that gym and work your ass off because christmas is coming up and you wanna wear that tight little sweater or whatever to show off ur new and improving hot bod!!!! LOL
 
Awwww...girl..don't feel bad! Yesterday was a day from hell on the sweets for me too. I ate 7 cookies (2=120 calories) and I ate 2 chocolates (110) and Juice (120), and who knows what else, oh yeah..a brownie..(200)..in like 15 minutes :eek:...FAkkkk..and I didn't work out either!!! let's get out of this slumpo today!!!! :rant:!!!
 
M_Marie said:
u know i thought the same thing at the halloween party i went to! I was thinking ok i have lost weight and its noticeable... i bet ill hear all kinds of comments. I prepped myself on how to respond... and then NOTHING!!!!!! LOL


like seriously?!?!?! havent seen these people since April and NOTHING!!!!

lol... oh my we become a bit vain dont we? But hey when you make this living healthy stuff your life... it is a bummer when you dont hear or see people notice!!!

i agree with Alta... your waist looks tiny next to the other girls!!! You look great girl!!! Let me be the first to tell you that today!!!! Now get to that gym and work your ass off because christmas is coming up and you wanna wear that tight little sweater or whatever to show off ur new and improving hot bod!!!! LOL
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Thanks Melissa! Glad I wasn't the only one looking for comments - I guess everyone was on Halloween and maybe I wasn't giving them out either. Oh well maybe at Christmas we will get some good comments! It's true though that your whole life changes and you want others to take notice. It's hard work and getting noticed is nice - just like when you put in time and effort at work and get no praise.
I'm going to push myself really hard at spinning tonight and can't wait for the high afterwards - I think that will be the motivation I need!
 
skkroll said:
.... :blush5: thanks :D

I responded to your comment in my journal... so check it out there! I'm happy to see you are going to your spinning class tonight!

Have a good day!!!!!
~ Sarah
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thanks as always Sarah! I did have a good day and am feeling better - got to read lots of journals and that always helps! I'll let you know tomorrow how spinning went! I'm going for sure! haven't missed a class yet so I'm not going to start today.
 
Alta818 said:
Awwww...girl..don't feel bad! Yesterday was a day from hell on the sweets for me too. I ate 7 cookies (2=120 calories) and I ate 2 chocolates (110) and Juice (120), and who knows what else, oh yeah..a brownie..(200)..in like 15 minutes :eek:...FAkkkk..and I didn't work out either!!! let's get out of this slumpo today!!!! :rant:!!!
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Yes I am getting out today!! The McDonalds I had for lunch was my breaking point! I'm going to burn it off at spinning tonight and will be packing a salad for tomorrow! No more feeling sorry for myself! I can do this!
Thanks girls!! Love you all! You can call me Lisa :) Finally comfortable to use my real name!
 
I need to set a new goal to kick start my fire again! I am going weigh 149.0 by November 22 - my fiance's birthday! I think that is reasonable and something for me to work towards! That's everyone for sharing today - you might not even know it but you've helped! :waving:
 
I think that's a Fantastic Goal !!! :D!!!...Hopefully by then ...we can even be a little lower than that too!!..I think if we work hard...we can do 5 lbs loss!! :D!!...We just need to up the water and do the damn thing!! :D!!...Burn it baby!!! :party:!
 
Hi Lisa! I'm glad I don't have to call you chubbygirl because you look far from chubby to me! Don't be too down on yourself hun, we all have our up days and down days and all we can do it learn from it and start again, so its great that you have a new goal, are packing a healthy lunch and I'm sure your going to kick your own butt at spinning tonight. What sometimes picks me up when I'm down is remember that you have come SUCH a long way so far and I'm sure you would of never though when you were in the 200+ pound range that you could ever look the way you do today! So don't worry you will get back in the swing of things. I think you are doing amazing so far.
 
chubbygirl said:
I need to set a new goal to kick start my fire again! I am going weigh 149.0 by November 22 - my fiance's birthday! I think that is reasonable and something for me to work towards! That's everyone for sharing today - you might not even know it but you've helped! :waving:
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THIS IS MORE LIKE IT!!!!! :D I am SO happy and practically RELIEVED to have read this! I am so excited for you, LISA! :D I always wanted to ask you your name but I figured you didn't put it out there for a reason! 149.0 is a GREAT, VERY reasonable and TOTALLY achievable goal for November 22nd. And I am excited about this because (as I just responded in my journal to your last post) I wanted to set a date with you to meet another goal and I chose December 4th to be between 135-137 and 145-147 for you. I think this is pretty reasonable considering that you will probably pass up 149 no doubt by the 22nd! Maybe we could aim for 137 and 147 by December 11th if December 4th seems too close to your November goal? Either way, I'd like to set a goal with you because we are pretty close on track with our goals right now and I think we could really keep each other goin' :)

Have a great workout tonight!!!!
~ Sarah
 
Hey Lisa (cg)

I think I've been feeling the same as you for the last few days, and I've been so busy I haven't had time to get online. Anyways its good that you're getting back into it, and I am too!

I think sometimes you need to take a little break (and give yourself a little room to breathe) and just remind yourself why you are on this journey.

You looked great in your halloween get up. I think sometimes people get shy on commenting on other people's weight or weight loss. ( and its probably to do with how they are feeling about themselves), its nice when you get a compliment though.

I'd better get over to my diary (its probably about 5 pages back or something).

Catch you later

Ana
 
wow lisa you look AMAZING!!!!! truly very slim! :)

weighing 149 by nov 22 is a good goal. Im actually aiming for the same thing! during the challenge i had gone up 3 pounds but i managed to lose them again so now im hoping to keep moving down the scale.

we can do this together!! im going to try and stop by more frequently...and we can cheer each other on!
 
Thank you everyone!
Alta - you are right I do need to up the water - the good thing about that is I have to walk up the stairs more to get it so I'm getting hydrated and getting away from my desk!
Janvier - You are so right! I did think about weighing 224 last night and that really hit home - I even got out the albums to remind myself I don't want to go back there! I'll be sure to come and check on your journal soon and leave some love! :waving:
Sarah - it's all thanks to you! So THANK YOU! I will set another goal for Dec. 11, once I reach my goal of 149! I'm thinking 145 but that might be pushing it so I will see how I do getting to 149 first!
Anna - glad you are getting back into it to! It doesn't feel nearly as good being on the other side - I have had no energy the last couple days from all the junk I put in my body! that is exactly what I needed - to take a break and remind myself why I'm on this journey! I'll stop by soon to see how your doing - keep the updates coming!
Nightrunner - yes you need to stop by more often! I would love your support and will be back to check on you soon! I'm up a couple pounds too so we are just going to have to work harder to get those gone again - we can do it! I feel it.

Thanks again for all your support! I have been super busy at work today - guess not doing much yesterday has caught up to me. I went to spinning last night and our instructor has the flu so there was a stand in - she wasn't as good and didn't kick out butt as much but I think it was a good way to slowly get back into it. I did some abs in front of the tv when I got home while watching Biggest Loser. I didn't log my food yesterday but this morning I am writing it all down again and so far I've stuck to my yogurt & all bran and a big veggie salad for lunch. I plan to go straight to the gym after work and go on the treadmill for a bit before joining into a aerobics class. I wanted to go to the gym this morning but just couldn't do it. I think once all the bad food is gone from my system I will have some more energy back. I have had a stomach ache for the past 3 days and think tomorrow it should be gone with all the water I'm drinking today - hopefully anyway. I was up on my scale 5 pounds today and that was pretty scary but I know some of that must be water weight so I am hoping tomorrow is better. I think I am going to hold off going to WW until next Wednesday and continue sticking to that routine. I still have no plans for the weekend and really want it to stay that way because I would love to concentrate on myself this weekend and do what's best for me. Even if we get invited out I think I'm going to tell my fiance to go without me - I just need some time to rejuvenate and think about my goals and this journey. Clear my head so to speak without alcohol in the mix! Thanks again everyone - I won't have a chance to check on everyone today because I have lots to do before the end of the day but I just wanted to say thanks and thanks and thanks! :waving:
 
Glad to hear you are back at it again :) Don't worry too much about the gain - it should go back down quickly if you keep up with the water and the healthy food :D oh and of course the workouts ;)

~ Sarah
 
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