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im a morning person. and ok i didnt have a good night so didnt go riding. Been having a lot of trouble sleeping lately for some reason ... also enjoying the sleep in.
Ill go cycling later on for a couple hours if we have time.

We are having people over for a BBQ tonight and party so i expect the calories to possibly soar a little - eeek!
 
oh god do i suck. seriously. I tried to curb it but i ate and ate and ate ...
6 easter eggs, tons of lamb (without fat), tons of beef steak, a couple chicken sausages (low cal thank god) plus popcorn and other crap + 1 cup of booze.
Total calories for the day was like 2500 of what i remembered but i estimate 500 more on the usual forgotten stuff. Plus i didnt go cycling yesterday.
I was up until 2am so turned the alarm off and wasnt gonna go cycling this morning after only 4 hours sleep.

Unfortunatly i woke up at 6.30am and couldnt get back to sleep so feeling the guilt of all that food the night before i thought id get a quick 40-50km in and be back by 9am to make breakfast for everyone else who would be getting up about then.

So geared up, started up the road and about 2km down the road ran into a bunch so i followed them for about 5km and started chatting with them. Cyclists are all incestuous bunch and i knew a couple from another group i was in and recognized a few from bike shops. Anyway they invited me along for their ride which turned out to be one nasty ass 75km of hills.
Talk about a workout and a half, i got back in time to meet up with my usual bunch id been to late for at the cafe but they had only done 55km so finished early and most had left the cafe, so i headed home.

Since i had only planned on doing a short ride i hadnt eaten anything but a banana for breakfast, then done 75km ride. Luckiy i pack a couple muesli bars and ate those on the ride. Im sticking with veg and fruit only today after yesterday.
 
oh on another note. an old friend from years back turned up, he arrived and couldnt get out of his car just sitting gaping at me. took him about 2 mins of gaping at me to get over the shock of the weight loss and then get out.
All evening he was acting weird and saying stuff like 'i just have to remember "cant have her! shes with my friend!"' and other stuff (about me). I thought it was kinda flattering but he said stuff like that all night and then would turn away covering his eyes and groaning kinda thing like i was to hot and he couldnt stand it style thing. A bit over the top i though .....

Anyway, as it turns out i said to my hubby this morning "was he ok? was he drunk when he arrived? he was sure acting a little over the top .." to which he replied "umm the problem is that he has it bad for you .. he always has .. the fat that you've lost weight and look totally hot just sent him over the top"
I thought he was shitting me and said as much but as it turns out this guy had it bad for me even when i was overweight and i had no clue. Apparently whenever i was in the room he acted all weird and stuff ... of course i never noticed because he always acted that way around me (hey i just assumed he was a flirt and sleaze!)

Anyway so im gobsmacked that some dude had a thing for me for years and years and i had no idea. And no, im so not interested in him, not really my type (though hes a nice enough guy, and cute).
He spent the night in a spare bed so he wasnt drinking and driving and was gone by the time i arrived back from my cycling.
 
Hahaha. That is so friggin' hilarious about your friend! You hubby must be beaming with pride in you. He got THE girl.

So anyways about the weight. Push onwards, gal. Now this next comment may not be a good one so feel free to bite my head off... With your major accomplishments and all. Do the last couple pounds really matter? Maybe your goal should be adjusted to where you are now. You are really kicking some a** on the biking. Maybe that is where your goals should lie. Screw the last few pounds and let the cycling goals take over. Maybe you need the calories and such to do the amazing cycling you do. Don't forget, you probably really are smaller and more compact than you think, because some of the weight is skin and not fat.

I'm sorry if I'm completely off the mark and being a complete dumba**... you won't ban me from your diary will you? I love peeking in on you and having you do the likewise in mine. Hope you're having an amazing weekend!
 
lol nah im pretty hard to piss off, or offend :)

ive thought the same thing on many occasions. I look good, do i really want/need to loose those last few lb .... my goal was set .... and it was higher than the average persons goal (yeah i know im heavy anyway ... lotsa muscle), but i feel somehow lame that i can loose all that weight and not get those last pesky pounds.
I could probably go to 65kg (145lb?) but would look a tad skinny on me i think. And i do prefer the normal look.
My main concern is i have belly, ass, and thigh fat i still want gone. So its not the weight so much as i want that little pesky bit of fat gone :)
There is no fat up top (no boobs either!) and no fat on the legs from just above the knee downwards, its just the middle bit :/
 
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lol nah im pretty hard to piss off, or offend :)

ive thought the same thing on many occasions. I look good, do i really want/need to loose those last few lb .... my goal was set .... and it was higher than the average persons goal (yeah i know im heavy anyway ... lotsa muscle), but i feel somehow lame that i can loose all that weight and not get those last pesky pounds.
I could probably go to 65kg (145lb?) but would look a tad skinny on me i think. And i do prefer the normal look.
My main concern is i have belly, ass, and thigh fat i still want gone. So its not the weight so much as i want that little pesky bit of fat gone :)
There is no fat up top (no boobs either!) and no fat on the legs from just above the knee downwards, its just the middle bit :/
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HMMMM girly sounds like the same probs I have!!
 
That makes complete sense.

I can completely understand. I am a totally stubborn person so if I set a particular goal...damn it I'm gonna make it just out of principle!!!

I hear you on the belly/ass fat. I know that when I reach my goal, I'll still have fat that could go. Secretly, (as I declare it to the www) I feel that my goal is a bit on the safe side and hope that I can go beyond it. I'm just scared that if I set too low of a goal, I'll be disappointed if I can't make it.

You've gotten so far and I can see that you are really clear on where you want to go!
 
thats a good call. Ive set myself an easy target goal (supposedly) so if i dip below it then its fine.

I think partially its motivation thing because you get the attention from all the loss you've done already, and you look great and fit clothes so you get a bit 'meh' about it all.
But im past that bit. i want to hit my goal. I only really had 2 goals, the 85kg and the 70kg and im so close to it :O
 
I just checked out your vellofile website. Gotta say that you look pretty darn hot in the Lake Taupo picture! As amazing as fancy dresses look...I have to say that a fitted t-shirt and a pair of jeans is the true test. When you can pull that off you know you're the shit. Oh how envious I am of you!!!

By the way, I absolutely killed myself laughing looking at the segway polo pictures on your flickr. I guess polo just made the twenty-first century!
 
Gotta love people who haven't seen you for a while huh?? Even though that particular one sounded ahem... a bit creepy!
I am sure you will get over this plateau, but your body might need a bit of time. It was used to this huge person, and then suddenly it was "starved" and exercised and maybe now it is saying: gimme a break! You look hot, so let me rest at this weight for a bit!

I showed your pics to my man and he was quite gobsmacked! He went through a quite impressive weight loss when he hit full blown puberty. He was probably around 85 kg on a body of 1.65 or 1.7m and from the pictures it looks like he was quite... wobbly! Then he grew up to 1.8 and lost weight down to 70kg and now he is one big ass hottie (with a very very tiny ass actually!). But he still takes a lot of care of his body, won't eat too many sweets, he never indugles like other 23 year olds do, and he does exercise.
Well this terribly boring story was just to say, he knows what it feels like, to lose weight (although I am pretty sure he would have lost some of the weight even without much work, because that is how his family seems to work, chubby until puberty and then superskinny) and he was very impressed.

It must be hard for your kids by the way. My mom is a MILF and it depresses me again and again... but I am glad because maybe maybe I will be one too... we will see!
Camy
 
lusciouslemon said:
I just checked out your vellofile website. Gotta say that you look pretty darn hot in the Lake Taupo picture! As amazing as fancy dresses look...I have to say that a fitted t-shirt and a pair of jeans is the true test. When you can pull that off you know you're the shit. Oh how envious I am of you!!!

By the way, I absolutely killed myself laughing looking at the segway polo pictures on your flickr. I guess polo just made the twenty-first century!
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Indeed i look good in a shirt and jeans, but id like to look good in a short skirt too! :D
The segway polo thing happened a few years back, it was way more intense than i thought it would be! definatly an expensive sport!


Camy said:
I showed your pics to my man and he was quite gobsmacked! He went through a quite impressive weight loss when he hit full blown puberty. He was probably around 85 kg on a body of 1.65 or 1.7m and from the pictures it looks like he was quite... wobbly! Then he grew up to 1.8 and lost weight down to 70kg and now he is one big ass hottie (with a very very tiny ass actually!). But he still takes a lot of care of his body, won't eat too many sweets, he never indugles like other 23 year olds do, and he does exercise.

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It must be hard for your kids by the way. My mom is a MILF and it depresses me again and again... but I am glad because maybe maybe I will be one too... we will see!
Camy
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Pics of the other half kthx! nothing hotter than slim tall guys! :D

My mum is SOOOO not a MILF, shes overweight and hates that im slimmer than her now.
But seriously, go the hot older chicks man! why should a woman let herself go when she gets older eh?
 
I try not to even think about getting older (that's probably why I forget how old I am sometimes.) :p I think that you have to keep yourself looking good no matter what size. It really helps with your self-esteem.
 
There is no fat up top (no boobs either!) and no fat on the legs from just above the knee downwards, its just the middle bit :/
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You sound like you have the same body type I do. It's so frustrating because it seems like that midsection fat is the most stubborn. I do get fuller in the face and upper arms when I'm at my biggest, but it's the first weight to go. It's all the middle stuff that just seems to want to stick around.

I completely understand and respect that you want those last few kg gone. I mean sure, you've developed a phenomenal body, no doubt, but I understand about the goal. I hate not acheiving goals. Just give it the time, energy, and consideration you think it deserves, and it willhappen for you!
 
well the scales are still saying good things - in fact better things than yesterday! so i can only hope!
its so hard sticking to the 1200 calories thing again - seriously!

Im also being particularly religious about 'creep' ... you know when you dont count some things because they only 20-50 calories ... they do all add up though so im counting them all!

I got a new helmet light for my bike so i can ride through winter - its getting darker at night time now and this is gonna help me ride through winter (so long as it doesnt rain of course!).
 
whatsamatta you a big ole girlie girl? can't ride in the rain?

Sissy :)

the helmet light must be really stylin' though :)

The creep is what does me in of late.., and really need to go back to -- if i put it in my mouth it gets written down...
 
maleficent said:
whatsamatta you a big ole girlie girl? can't ride in the rain?

Sissy :)

the helmet light must be really stylin' though :)

The creep is what does me in of late.., and really need to go back to -- if i put it in my mouth it gets written down...
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Me? Rain? NOT HAPPENING!

I freaked out this morning though - it was colder than usual, the light was fantastic, i stopped at traffic light anc could smell a burning smell, and then noticed smoke all around me. I paniced thinking the battery or light was on fire ... but turns out i was just hot and the steam was off me. The smoke smell must have been a car or fireplace nearby :O

Yeah lunch was a bit of creep, we had the weds BBQ and i had 2 hamburgers, and then i discovered 2 marshmellow easter eggs id hidden in the freezer last week which i also devoured. im at 1400 for the day and its only 1.30pm!
Ill have mashed pumpkin for dinner which ought to fill me and keep me within my limits.
Also im going cycling tonight which ought to help burn a fair bit off.
 
ahhahahah....so you were "smoking" hot were you! Oh god, marshmallow easter eggs...mmmm!!!!

I hate the creep. It can mess up things big time. I know its something I've got to keep my eye on 24/7.
 
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