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Hey Im glad to hear things have been on the up and up lately, lol.Happy to read all teh positivity, sorry abt the high anxiety day but im happy to hear you handled it well and that you went home relaxed and slept rather than eating or anything else:hug2::hug2::hug2:
 
Sleep = "Better than food" Felici.
I hope you can continue to have "problems" like that.

Keep it together, you're just working your way through that 89.5 degree learning curve; I believe you'll get through to where it's much easier.

:D It's nice to feel success, even vicariously
 
Thanks for the encouragements guys. I do really value it.

Qjay - I guess you're saying you hope all my problems are like that because it was no biggie? And if you did mean that you would be right. :) Today all was fine and the mum was cool and said she thought we all just got confused, and she is good now. So I was stressing for nothing. :D On the other hand, I hope I don't over-react and get massive anxiety every time I think I've done something dumb or weird, or got a name wrong, because actually I am prone to all those things. Also, yeah, I don't usually stress so much and it was certainly partly because of the the newness, the overload and tiredness.

Truly the week has been massive. I am still happy with my kids. I still don't know who they all are - because there are more coming next week I hope - plus where I am, it will always be changing. I always knew the week would be a work overload. One thing I didn't realize is that even after the kids arrived I would have so many meetings and so many people popping in to tell me things and arrange liaison. Basically I have a lot of support, from some wonderful people and that's great, but it's also a lot of extra work at the start of the year.

I have 3 other teachers I meet with who help work in the room during the week, one almost full-time assistant (who is just all instant help - we still haven't had her confirmed for my room though), another assistant who comes in less and whose role is still partly a mystery to me, 4 other specialists to liaise with (eg the psych), 4 teachers who take over from me when I'm released to do other things (eg talk to other teachers), plus the other pre-primary teacher, the other year 1 teacher, 5 admin staff, the librarian and the teacher who helps us with info tech. I actually need to know things from all those people and there are just not enough hours in the day. It is mostly ok, but I feel for the numeracy teacher who had to do a planning session with me after lunch today, because all I was really doing was noticing where it was that I could go back to on the weekend to make sure I actually did what she wants. I have full brain syndrome.

Also, I have a new cold. Also, the plumber came today and finally finished his work and that included replacing a toilet so there is a heavy duty coat of dust over half the house, which I've only partly removed.

Therefore I could easily see Saturday being a time where I collapsed and tried to balance the week with downtime (vege out time), and unhealthy rewards. I could have imagined Friday night being like that actually, but I just went to sleep again instead (for 3 hours this time). Hopefully, I can make sure that my Saturday treats are the healthy sorts of time outs. I still have a lot to fit in to the weekend, and I guess my time out from work has to be high quality rather than high volume, or I will end up stressing about what's not done.

Fingers crossed.
 
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Good to hear things working out - bad about the dust! that stuff gets everywhere!
I regret sanding my table in the garage, now i have a redish dust thought everything! :)
 
Good to hear things working out - bad about the dust! that stuff gets everywhere!
I regret sanding my table in the garage, now i have a redish dust thought everything! :)
 
It's good to have help; even if you don't understand what they are doing :D

Keep it up, Felici; you're doing well, even if you are not fully online yet. ;)
You're getting it, and soon, you'll GET it. Just keep at it and work through the "WTF!?" moments.
 
Thanks for the comments. :)

Today has been ok. It was busy as Saturday always is and frustrating as it often is. I think I expect to get too much done. As I expected, it was definitely a day with moments of eyeing off undesirable food choices, but actually my food was fine in the end. I got a bit done with the house and shopping, both for home and school, and organized a couple of things that will make life easier next week. I managed a birthday wish for my sister and visited my mum for a little while. I'm disappointed I didn't get to my health club today, which was my aim. Also, now I'm thinking I used my evening badly. I was using my mobile phone as a sources of exercise music but my headset broke. There was no new one instantly available and the phone guy suggested a cheap mp3 as a better option. So I bought one, thinking that as I'd previously loaded everything onto the phone, it wouldn't take long. Hours later, despite it always seeming that the result was close, and I still haven't finished ... So I'm going to have to cut my losses there - just not do it this week I reckon. Therefore I won't go to the health club tomorrow either. I'll go for a walk in the bush. I'll listen to the most relaxing bit of my music on CD. I'll get back to working on my school stuff in the morning and I'll slope off to bed now.

worked out - Yeah it's a long term project in more ways than one. There are older diaries on here though. :)
 
I like walking in the outdoors, SO much better than on a treadmill.

I hear you about the MP3 hassles, too. At least you're getting it all handles nad do have your "backup plan" of a CD player :D

What kind of music do you listen to when you are out and walking?
 
Yeah. Outdoors is cool. I can do it without music. It is pretty spacey to put a great spot together with my exercise music as well though - very nice. I don't have a CD walkman. I just meant that I can still listen to some of the most relaxing music at home while I work, so I get the emotional benefit of that even though it's not at the same time as the exercise.

My exercise music has to start with Telegraph Road by Dire Straits. It's 14 minutes and takes me from instant meditation to fully pumping! Then for the bike, or crosstrainer, it's Another One Bites the Dust by Queen, with the speed slowed and the effort up. More Dire Straits - Industrial Disease, Twisting by the Pool, Thing Called Love, (Queen), and Walk of Life (Dire Straits). Back to Queen for We will Rock You. A bit of an anthem, Beds are Burning by Midnight Oil, more dance music, Shake Your Tail Feather - Ray Charles and the Blues Brothers, Let's Dance - The Savage Young Beatles and Let's Dance by Chris Rea and the The Power and the Passion with Midnight Oil again, and by then I'm fairly jumping out of my skin!! :D

I have to put a bit of effort in there to actually do a cool down at however many minutes I've built up to in the gym, because only tiredness makes we want to slow up, not the music. Anyway, that's what I had on my phone and it was enough for how fit I was and how much I had ever used it. I need more of course, but when it comes to portable music, at the moment I don't even that! Drat it! :D

On the upside, the weather is nice. We will be back in 40 degrees (100+ F) before the week is out but sunny walking is ok to do today,
 
Mmm. Me too. Kinda shows I guess. :D

And now I can listen to it on my computer without headphones because I've just hooked up the speakers my son discarded after Christmas. I have a little bit of guilt cos enabling the start of school work today plus including what I planned to do for myself, has meant I haven't got much actual school work going yet. I don't know yet if that's appropriate guilt or inappropriate guilt, bu-u-ut I have genuine pleasure in the speakers - especially as my son isn't here and I can totally chose my own music. :D :D It probably still sounds better with headphones, but for the school tasks I have, it's better if I can move around.
 
Nice :nopity: list :D

If it keeps you going, that's the important part! I STILL hate hiking if I am alone, just can't bring myself to go very far. *sigh* me = jealous of your good walks.

I have a :auto: which I prefer, I guess. Need someone to go walking with :p

Enjoy your music while you do your school stuff, and whatever you do, do NOT allow him to have the speakers back until you've work them out!
 
Is that a good music list I have there or a good moan list! :D

LOL! I wouldn't have the speakers at all if feliboy had any interest in them (his computer has none built in). He bought himself better ones with some of his Christmas money - so I'm safe. I had forgotten we had these ones actually but I'm glad I remembered them because there is enough space here put an exercise DVD on this computer, so now if I want to use one early in the morning when my husband is watching the news on TV, I will be able to use this space. (Won't be for a while yet though).

I usually take my dog with me if I go for a walk. She is not so handy if I'm focused on the exercise aspect, but she is companionable. Also, I find my camera a good companion, though that can lead to a lot of time spent mucking around with the pictures afterwards.
 
Funny thing, the internet really brings home the reality of places not so close. I'm thousands of miles from the fires in Australia but my friends aren't. For all the distance though, there is a sameness about much of my country - photos from anywhere here are instantly recognizable, and the fires could have been here. (We've been blessed for a long time though). Kinda helps put other concerns into a different perspective too.

I can't handle dwelling on the worst aspects, but I like this:
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More personal news. My exercise is not happening. I'm kinda horrified when I look at the stat, but in reality I'm not going to guilt myself on it. I have thought for years that if I just got up earlier I would have a space that the rest of my life would not crowd into - and now finally I've made it to waking up earlier. That's a good thing. It will have to do though, because now I have something in my life that is crowding every little space, even that one. Last night I actually worked on school stuff till I dropped into bed at 12:30, then I woke at quarter to 6 and made myself stay in bed till 6:15, with my brain ticking over pretty fast already. I magicked a couple of nice new (school) activities before breakfast, ironed, then speed-ate. At school I squeezed in half a carrot for morning tea time and a peanut butter sandwich for lunch (starting to think I need to change that because it's too slow to eat! - nah - that's a good thing), dragged myself away from guillotining materials after school to pick up my son (later than he was grateful for), to take him to see a physio (again), dropped him off and collected my daughter. Bought school stuff, and signed her up for dancing and then to buy dance pants and got back here after 6:00. Then I had mail and my kids' school notes and business phone calls to make, and when I got up and went into another room my girl pinched my computer. ( I hope it doesn't take to long to get a laptop from school). Anyway, I wasn't too sad about losing my work spot, I went into the air conditioning and did a relaxation exercise that felt very nice and of course fell asleep for a little while - woke in time for dinner. Now, it's a quick hello on-line and then I need to work again.

It won't be like this forever. I don't think it's an unreasonable obsession or anything - just a special circumstance/opportunity which I need to cope with and make the most of. Hopefully after another 1-2 weekends things will be more settled. (I just hope I get to keep the class I have and don't end up caught in a reshuffle - though that's quite possible.) Even tonight, though I'll be busy, I'm starting to feel like I'm closer to normal. (I have more kids stuff on for after school tomorrow though).

I will get there - things will slow down - at least I feel mentally/emotionally okay, and I'm eating okay.

I had an silly scales moment this morning. I hopped on and I was down to a new kilo number - that would have been quick - a kilo in 5 days - but it wasn't even the top of the number it was the bottom. It would have been 2 kilos (4.4 lb) in 5 days. Too good to be true? You betcha. I don't usually bother to weigh again, but that was a bit much - so I hopped back on and it went back to something like yesterday's weight. It wouldn't budge off that no matter how many times I retried it either. :D Stoopid scales. :D
 
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I'm afraid that last post of mine probably looks like a complaint. It shouldn't though. I'm just busy. I'm actually very content with what is happening for me. I've waited a long time for the opportunity to do what I'm doing now.
 
:hug2:You started a new job and you will find your balance sometime somewhere.Just when I seem to find mine I loose it, LOL...Ive bene searching for it for a long time and decided as a hard workin single mom there is no balance, LOL.

I think you are doing great, dont be so hard on yourself the exercise will come:)
 
Thanks, Cerella. I do think the balance will come and I've decided to make it a priority to get my school year started as well as I can, for now. I need this to be the only patch of time like this though. I kinda wish I had just not started keeping that stat just when I did!! :D

I hear you on the difficulty of fitting everything in. I know you do manage a lot of exercise - probably just not enough moments to yourself though. :)
 
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