Xenon1
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lololz
WOooooooooooooooooooooooooo 
I'm soo thrilled Bridget! You are really doing so good You'll be in and out of the 200 Club in no time The Time to Hesitate is Through!!
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WOooooooooooooooooooooooooo I'm soo thrilled Bridget! You are really doing so good You'll be in and out of the 200 Club in no time 
Lady Foodaholic
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Home from work, and feeling fine!
Thanks for all the cheers!! Seriously I was so excited when I got to play!!
In other news... I just got home from work, and I work at an in-patient drug rehabilitation center, so there is a kitchen that serves meals there, and I get to eat free of charge. The lady who works there when I go for my dinner is a big lady, and I guess we have fat-lady solidarity because she'll always wink and give me a bigger portion of whatever the yummy food for the day is. Tonight I planned to turn down the bigger helpings and to decline whatever the dessert item was, but I was only half successful...iggy:
I turned down the extra tater tots and extra piece of chocolate cake, but I still took a piece of cake. A small piece, but still... I told myself to say no to desserts today so I could have a little something sweet tomorrow for Easter, but it was right there... Calling my name... Begging for me to digest it...
Ugh! I never know how to count calories when I eat things away from home either, so I am about to scour fitday.com to get some estimates to discover just how badly I went over today!
P.S. I think the lunch lady was angry with me for turning down the extra food!! She's usually really cheery with me, and she started out that way tonight until I asked her to cut back the portion sizes... My attempts at weight loss have claimed their first victim...
Thanks for all the cheers!! Seriously I was so excited when I got to play!!
In other news... I just got home from work, and I work at an in-patient drug rehabilitation center, so there is a kitchen that serves meals there, and I get to eat free of charge. The lady who works there when I go for my dinner is a big lady, and I guess we have fat-lady solidarity because she'll always wink and give me a bigger portion of whatever the yummy food for the day is. Tonight I planned to turn down the bigger helpings and to decline whatever the dessert item was, but I was only half successful...
iggy:I turned down the extra tater tots and extra piece of chocolate cake, but I still took a piece of cake. A small piece, but still... I told myself to say no to desserts today so I could have a little something sweet tomorrow for Easter, but it was right there... Calling my name... Begging for me to digest it...
Ugh! I never know how to count calories when I eat things away from home either, so I am about to scour fitday.com to get some estimates to discover just how badly I went over today!
P.S. I think the lunch lady was angry with me for turning down the extra food!! She's usually really cheery with me, and she started out that way tonight until I asked her to cut back the portion sizes... My attempts at weight loss have claimed their first victim...
heatherisadork
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haha maybe she is just envious!
I'm so happy you got on wii fit today, thats so awesome! Theres a new game out my friend suggested called walk it out, it seems pretty fun actually.
I'm so happy you got on wii fit today, thats so awesome! Theres a new game out my friend suggested called walk it out, it seems pretty fun actually.
shorexline
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Hey bridget!
I took a quick look at your journal. The part about you breaking up with your boyfriend and having a bit of a spiral really touched me. I'm not going to try and say that I can really relate but there was a point in my life where I was really depressed and all I wanted to do was eat, and I gained about 30 lbs in a month. It was horrible, but thankfully I was able to slowly ease myself out of it. I lost the weight, and although im gaining a bit of it back (its my first year of college and it has kinda hit me), it was a huge accomplishment for me and i felt amazing.
With that said, im so happy to hear that you're getting closer to your goal, and that you're losing weight! For me I realized the problem was all in my head, and you really, really just gotta stick to it girl. Keep going, because you are doing incredible, and one day very soon youre going to reflect on all of this and feel amazing about your accomplishment. Every time you are weak, just keep the end in mind.
I took a quick look at your journal. The part about you breaking up with your boyfriend and having a bit of a spiral really touched me. I'm not going to try and say that I can really relate but there was a point in my life where I was really depressed and all I wanted to do was eat, and I gained about 30 lbs in a month. It was horrible, but thankfully I was able to slowly ease myself out of it. I lost the weight, and although im gaining a bit of it back (its my first year of college and it has kinda hit me), it was a huge accomplishment for me and i felt amazing.
With that said, im so happy to hear that you're getting closer to your goal, and that you're losing weight! For me I realized the problem was all in my head, and you really, really just gotta stick to it girl. Keep going, because you are doing incredible, and one day very soon youre going to reflect on all of this and feel amazing about your accomplishment. Every time you are weak, just keep the end in mind.
cherrygarcia
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heatherisadork
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So true! Just keep telling yourself that you are doing it. I keep thinking about what my life will be like in a year when I've lost the weight, and the thought of being healthy makes me so happy that I just keep going.
disneymomof4
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omg! It has finally happened and I missed it. The Wii Fit is your Bitch! You go girl. I was so busy the last few days I have barely had time to check in, but I am so happy for you. Time to watch the pounds melt off lol.
As for counting calories, I use Livestrong.com's My Plate program and it works really well for me. It keeps track using graphs and such and tells you how much you have left for the day. They have most every food I have ever looked for already preloaded into their system, so it may help you as well and it is of course free.
So happy to see you doing so well and I hope you continue to see mucho success!
As for counting calories, I use Livestrong.com's My Plate program and it works really well for me. It keeps track using graphs and such and tells you how much you have left for the day. They have most every food I have ever looked for already preloaded into their system, so it may help you as well and it is of course free.
So happy to see you doing so well and I hope you continue to see mucho success!
skkroll
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Hey,
Just wanted to stop by and say thanks for commenting in my journal! I'm not as active on here as I used to be so right now I'm in the process on catching up on everyone else's journies! I'm glad you have decided to take control. Admitting you have a problem is the first and most important step, you should be proud of that in itself. You have a nice plan and I like that you have mini goals for yourself. It's a great way to stay on track. Good luck with your journey and I will stop in every now and then to check up on you!
~ Sarah
Just wanted to stop by and say thanks for commenting in my journal! I'm not as active on here as I used to be so right now I'm in the process on catching up on everyone else's journies! I'm glad you have decided to take control. Admitting you have a problem is the first and most important step, you should be proud of that in itself. You have a nice plan and I like that you have mini goals for yourself. It's a great way to stay on track. Good luck with your journey and I will stop in every now and then to check up on you!
~ Sarah
First off on the 12 pound lost and 
Sunflower2
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You OWN that wii-fit, sexyylady! You rock
And you're right. You're less likely to get pregnant if you're obese. I'm far away from having babies but I know that I want them to look at me and see a fit and healthy role-model. You're kids are more likely to be over-weight if you are over-weight. I'm so glad you're still fighting You can do it!!
And you're right. You're less likely to get pregnant if you're obese. I'm far away from having babies but I know that I want them to look at me and see a fit and healthy role-model. You're kids are more likely to be over-weight if you are over-weight. I'm so glad you're still fighting
You can do it!!
dreamingblue
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Ahhh, so this is the journal to come to for a quick giggle. I've been reading through your journal and you are one funny lady. Congrats on your weight loss success so far, you're off to a great start!
Lady Foodaholic
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Well, I did have 8 good days...
WARNING: THIS JOURNAL ENTRY IS REALLY LONG, DEPRESSING, AND DULL! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED! THANK YOU!
So I have been just terrible with my eating for the last two days. The sad thing is that I went in with such good intentions! I just finished writing in my food log (old fashioned pen and paper version, because I'm hip) and let's just say I found myself using a LOT of expletives... A LOT!
Yesterday (Easter Sunday) started off really well! I played tennis in the morning, and then ate a cup of strawberries for breakfast... Then my husband went to work and my parents picked me up so I could go to the family dinner at my aunt and uncle's home. My Aunt Donna is so frickin' pushy! She kept offering me mixed drinks, beer, wine, and a ZILLION fatty appetizers. I'd politely decline and I stuck to water, a few shrimp cocktail, some grapes, and only ONE pepperoni roll and only FIVE small crackers with a fattening seafood dip. I was proud of myself!!
Then we got to dinner, and Aunt Donna chased me around trying to make me drink pina coladas. I LOVE pina coladas, but didn't need all those calories! I told her I was really watching my calories, but she just kept saying, "Oh it's Easter! We never see you!! Have some more!! Let me set aside extras for you to bring home!!" I thought about shoving her head in the oven and slamming the door repeatedly, but thought my uncle might be a little upset...
Anyways, we're at dinner. I took a reasonable plate with some sliced ham, cabbage, and (what I initially thought was squash, but turned out to be) scalloped baked pineapple to go with the ham. My dad gave me a third of his baked potato so I could have a small portion of it, and he also kept trying to run interference between me and Aunt Donna. My hunger had been increasing, and my ability to fight off my aunt's caloric attacks was waning... So when she brought over fresh rolls from the oven, more ham, more cabbage, and more pineapple stuff... I cracked. I took one roll, and then buttered it. Then I took a second helping of ham, cabbage, and pineapple...
::sigh::
Then she pulled out a massive homemade, chocolate, marbled cheesecake. She cut a piece that was seriously the size of a CD case, plopped it on a plate, and dangled it in front of me. I was feeling a little full, so that made it easier to say, "NO! Leave me alone you heinous beast," or something like that.
... but I did have a bite of my mom's.
My husband finally arrived while people were finishing their dessert, and my aunt began force feeding him all the food she had set aside for him, appetizers, dinner, and dessert all at once. He tried to turn down the cheesecake, but she wrapped it up and put it in a box with some of all of the dinner items that she decided we needed to bring home with us. As we were leaving she brought over a candy bowl filled with cadbury eggs and godiva truffles. We each politely declined. My dad said, "For christ's sake Donna! He's a diabetic and they're both on diets!" She again repeated that Easter comes once a year, and dumped the candy bowl into the box that she had packed full of food that we had to take with us.
When we got to the car I started crying because I had over-eaten, and then I was eating chocolate. I don't know where one action stopped and the next began... I was just cramming chocolate down my throat. Soon we were home, and eating everything that had been sent home with us because... I HAVE NO IDEA WHY!!!
It gets worse... In my email this morning (after waking from my food coma) I had received a coupon for all-you-can-eat stir-fry at Mongolian Grill that was only good through today. Since I already failed yesterday, I decided to go big or go home... And failed again today. Badly. Really badly.
I thought about just running away, but I still do really WANT to lose weight. I know my actions the last 2 days don't seem to show that I want to become more healthy and active... But I do! I really do!!
So I'm getting back on the wagon. I have avoided the scale AND Wii Fit for the last few days because they're both equally scary judges... I know I can't avoid seeing the damage I've done forever, but I'm just not going to look today.
Why am I so self-destructive!!!
WARNING: THIS JOURNAL ENTRY IS REALLY LONG, DEPRESSING, AND DULL! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED! THANK YOU!
So I have been just terrible with my eating for the last two days. The sad thing is that I went in with such good intentions! I just finished writing in my food log (old fashioned pen and paper version, because I'm hip) and let's just say I found myself using a LOT of expletives... A LOT!
Yesterday (Easter Sunday) started off really well! I played tennis in the morning, and then ate a cup of strawberries for breakfast... Then my husband went to work and my parents picked me up so I could go to the family dinner at my aunt and uncle's home. My Aunt Donna is so frickin' pushy! She kept offering me mixed drinks, beer, wine, and a ZILLION fatty appetizers. I'd politely decline and I stuck to water, a few shrimp cocktail, some grapes, and only ONE pepperoni roll and only FIVE small crackers with a fattening seafood dip. I was proud of myself!!
Then we got to dinner, and Aunt Donna chased me around trying to make me drink pina coladas. I LOVE pina coladas, but didn't need all those calories! I told her I was really watching my calories, but she just kept saying, "Oh it's Easter! We never see you!! Have some more!! Let me set aside extras for you to bring home!!" I thought about shoving her head in the oven and slamming the door repeatedly, but thought my uncle might be a little upset...
Anyways, we're at dinner. I took a reasonable plate with some sliced ham, cabbage, and (what I initially thought was squash, but turned out to be) scalloped baked pineapple to go with the ham. My dad gave me a third of his baked potato so I could have a small portion of it, and he also kept trying to run interference between me and Aunt Donna. My hunger had been increasing, and my ability to fight off my aunt's caloric attacks was waning... So when she brought over fresh rolls from the oven, more ham, more cabbage, and more pineapple stuff... I cracked. I took one roll, and then buttered it. Then I took a second helping of ham, cabbage, and pineapple...
::sigh::
Then she pulled out a massive homemade, chocolate, marbled cheesecake. She cut a piece that was seriously the size of a CD case, plopped it on a plate, and dangled it in front of me. I was feeling a little full, so that made it easier to say, "NO! Leave me alone you heinous beast," or something like that.
... but I did have a bite of my mom's.
My husband finally arrived while people were finishing their dessert, and my aunt began force feeding him all the food she had set aside for him, appetizers, dinner, and dessert all at once. He tried to turn down the cheesecake, but she wrapped it up and put it in a box with some of all of the dinner items that she decided we needed to bring home with us. As we were leaving she brought over a candy bowl filled with cadbury eggs and godiva truffles. We each politely declined. My dad said, "For christ's sake Donna! He's a diabetic and they're both on diets!" She again repeated that Easter comes once a year, and dumped the candy bowl into the box that she had packed full of food that we had to take with us.
When we got to the car I started crying because I had over-eaten, and then I was eating chocolate. I don't know where one action stopped and the next began... I was just cramming chocolate down my throat. Soon we were home, and eating everything that had been sent home with us because... I HAVE NO IDEA WHY!!!
It gets worse... In my email this morning (after waking from my food coma) I had received a coupon for all-you-can-eat stir-fry at Mongolian Grill that was only good through today. Since I already failed yesterday, I decided to go big or go home... And failed again today. Badly. Really badly.
I thought about just running away, but I still do really WANT to lose weight. I know my actions the last 2 days don't seem to show that I want to become more healthy and active... But I do! I really do!!
So I'm getting back on the wagon. I have avoided the scale AND Wii Fit for the last few days because they're both equally scary judges... I know I can't avoid seeing the damage I've done forever, but I'm just not going to look today.
Why am I so self-destructive!!!
heatherisadork
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Holidays can be tough. Really tough. I was more fortunate then you. My mom only had 4 people over this year. My aunt cathy, her husband, their son, and one of her friends from work. My aunt cathy teased me some about missing out on the food but they were all very supportive.
Thats not to say I haven't gone through the same thing though. Once you start eating you figure "why not? I already screwed up this much, I might as well enjoy it for the time being" but eventually you just get ridden with guilt, each and every bite. But you know what, you're still doing very well. Everyone has bad days, we're only human after all
Don't get too upset with it, this will only set your weight loss back a day or two. Just be very careful for the next few days, get in some extra activity. And DONT STRESS!!!! Stress makes losing weight even harder! Just stay calm and get back on track! You can do it!
Thats not to say I haven't gone through the same thing though. Once you start eating you figure "why not? I already screwed up this much, I might as well enjoy it for the time being" but eventually you just get ridden with guilt, each and every bite. But you know what, you're still doing very well. Everyone has bad days, we're only human after all
Don't get too upset with it, this will only set your weight loss back a day or two. Just be very careful for the next few days, get in some extra activity. And DONT STRESS!!!! Stress makes losing weight even harder! Just stay calm and get back on track! You can do it!
jjjay
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Bridget, it was two days...ok, two days of falling off the plan. None of us got hugely fat in just two days, you aren't going to make life changes and get super-thin in two days. This is the long haul, so draw a line under it, say "not again" and get back into the right frame of mind
It's terrible how destructive family members can be - its one thing the fat lady in the canteen wanting to give you bigger portions, but your own aunt? Next time, drive up to the nearest garbage bin and dump it all the moment you leave her house. Losing weight isn't just about eating less exercising more, its about changing your relationship with food and (often) the people that feed it to you!
It's terrible how destructive family members can be - its one thing the fat lady in the canteen wanting to give you bigger portions, but your own aunt? Next time, drive up to the nearest garbage bin and dump it all the moment you leave her house. Losing weight isn't just about eating less exercising more, its about changing your relationship with food and (often) the people that feed it to you!
disneymomof4
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Alright Little Miss it is time to get back on track lol. No, seriously it is not the end of the world. If you think about it rationally, ham is really not all that horribly fattening and cabbage is basically calorie free. Slip ups are bound to happen to every one of us and the fact that someone in your family was being less than supportive did not help.
I know you can get back on track starting today and believe me I totally understand the emotional eating aspect. I used to eat in order to hide every emotion I had. Now I just walk around like a crazy crying lady all the time. Hope you get to feeling great today and jump on the Wii fit and make it tell you what you want to hear. You can do this girl!
I know you can get back on track starting today and believe me I totally understand the emotional eating aspect. I used to eat in order to hide every emotion I had. Now I just walk around like a crazy crying lady all the time. Hope you get to feeling great today and jump on the Wii fit and make it tell you what you want to hear. You can do this girl!
imaninjadangit
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Oh, sweetheart...it's okay. You're breaking habits that you've had for YEARS. They aren't just going to disappear in a few days. I don't care what anyone says. EVERYONE has their moments where they've cheated. You're still exercising, which is great. Plus, you are holding yourself accountable. That's the key. Just accept that you are human, and that everyone makes mistakes, and then get back on that Wiihorse!
Just breathe! You have already started your journey...why stop here?
Just breathe! You have already started your journey...why stop here?
skkroll
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Don't worry - everyone has a little bump in the road. You can't be 100% perfect everyday! But I understand how you feel and I'm GONNA let you beat yourself up about it because it HELPS. Look at it like this: denying it happened, pretending it never happened, or hiding the fact that you binged would be terrible for you. But you came on here and laid it all out on the table. You're holding yourself accountable for your actions and acknowledging that you messed up, and that it's time to move on! GOOD FOR YOU!
Here are some comments that helped me along the way in my old diary from other forum user's on here:
KEEP ON KEEPIN' ON!!! YOU GOT THIS
~ Sarah
Here are some comments that helped me along the way in my old diary from other forum user's on here:
KEEP ON KEEPIN' ON!!! YOU GOT THIS
~ Sarah
disneymomof4
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Disneymom, surely that should be "I used to eat in order to hide every emotion I had. Now I just walk around like a crazy [but THINNER] crying lady all the time"?!?!
Bridget! Hop back on your Wii-Bitch and go for it!
LOL! True true.
dreamingblue
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Hey there...
Yeah, I agree with everyone else's advice of not beating yourself up too much. It's not the end. I really messed up Easter too. I had two pieces of cake. And two plates of food. And they made me take food home, cuz it was too much. And I ate even more cake. Argh. But you just have to move on and set yourself back right.
What you really have to understand too is to gain a pound fat you have to eat 3500 calories over your maintenance amount. So I'll just use my maintenance as an example... to maintain my current weight I'd have to eat about 2800 calories a day. So to gain a pound I would have to eat 6300. We're around the same weight level, so...... it's pretty impossible to eat that much in a day, even on Easter.
And also considering that you're on a 800 calorie diet... it pretty much evens everything out since your calories are low anyway.
Hopefully this helps, and you can understand that you don't need to beat yourself up too much when you make a mistake. Just look at the math behind it, and then keep your head up.
Yeah, I agree with everyone else's advice of not beating yourself up too much. It's not the end. I really messed up Easter too. I had two pieces of cake. And two plates of food. And they made me take food home, cuz it was too much. And I ate even more cake. Argh. But you just have to move on and set yourself back right.
What you really have to understand too is to gain a pound fat you have to eat 3500 calories over your maintenance amount. So I'll just use my maintenance as an example... to maintain my current weight I'd have to eat about 2800 calories a day. So to gain a pound I would have to eat 6300. We're around the same weight level, so...... it's pretty impossible to eat that much in a day, even on Easter.
And also considering that you're on a 800 calorie diet... it pretty much evens everything out since your calories are low anyway.
Hopefully this helps, and you can understand that you don't need to beat yourself up too much when you make a mistake. Just look at the math behind it, and then keep your head up.