The Rusting Girl

Oh! I don't think I mentioned that I dyed my hair. It's called "brown sugar," hahaha.


MY NECK IS SAGGY. AHHHH!




I like the color! Dying my hair reminds me that I am in control of myself, that I have the capability to change myself. I want to get a tattoo, but will wait until I am small and toned, so that it looks good on me. A new hair color will just have to do.. for now. ;)
 
I hate voicemails. Guhh, I should just delete mine, it annoys the hell out of me more than it makes life easier.

I do, however, love fruit! I just ate an orange, it was delicious! :D At Wendys we have these tray covers that say "meatatarian" on them, and lists why you would consider yourself one. So fricking gross. If I think about it too much it makes me want to gag. Even worse, all the baconators people order every day. People are just so.. disgusting. Sometimes I can't believe I haven't quite working there... But I need the job, and our salads are delicious. :)

I have to shower and go to work. Yuck.
 
You work at Wendy's? That's one fast food place where I do go. For me, though, it's the chili. Two small chilies have something like 350 cal and 30g of protein, or something like that. I have to recheck. My kids like it, too, and I can get them orange slices instead of fries. :cheers2:
 
Trops said:
You work at Wendy's? That's one fast food place where I do go. For me, though, it's the chili. Two small chilies have something like 350 cal and 30g of protein, or something like that. I have to recheck. My kids like it, too, and I can get them orange slices instead of fries. :cheers2:
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Some of our food is very good, and can actually be healthy! Sadly though, the majority of the people that get food aren't concerned about what they're putting into themselves and their kids. I can't stand it when people get their children a kidsmeal, with extra fries or nuggets, a fountain drink, and a frosty! Or worse, an actual combo order.

But, those that are concerned, there are a lot of great choices. I'm getting hungry thinking about it! haha
 
hello there you :) how are things? i was away for a while but now i'm bak on here and back to losing and with a new diary myself :)
all best to ya
lena
 
I'm doing so much better than before! Joining the gym was the BEST decision I've made in a while :D I feel so good.

I'm glad you're back!
 
Went to the gym for two and a half hours last night, which I think equals about two hours of actually working out. I burned atleast 400 calories between the treadmill and the bike machine. (what are they called?!) I don't think I really believe what the machines say for calories burned, but it makes me feel so in control when I see the numbers climb. :)

Yesterdays food:
breakfast - bowl and a half of cereal, orange, on the side, coffee, water
lunch - grilled chicken salad, peppercorn dressing on the side (had like 1/5 of it), coffee, water, 2 rolls (went out to luch with friends)
dinner - grape flavored water, orange juice, handfull of potato chips, au grotten potatos
snack - yogurt, 2 water bottles


Today for breakfast I had an onion bagel and a bowl of cereal. I love breakfast food.
 
I made my brother Mitchell go to the gym with me last night. They're all very active because of their jobs, and because they are naturally fit. We were there for a good hour. Mitchell ran for two miles straight, then over-exhausted himself and just walked around looking awkward and occasionly lifting some weights. hahahaha

I'm glad he went though, I love spending time with my brothers. I rarely do! I just want them to love me man, and have a connection with me. It's too bad that my olderst youngest brother is 9 years older than me. The second samll difference is 10 years. Buh. I just don't want to miss out on having family. Especially since I'm 18 now, not getting any younger (lol), with no parents, staying with my best friend because being in my house makes me feel so alone. Boooo.
 
Keep those family connections. You will find that the 10 or 9 years difference will not seem so much as the years go on. There is a 13 year difference between me and my youngest sister and we get along great these days. It doesn't matter that she was in preschool when I left home.
 
Haven't gone to the gym the past few days, I've been really busy with hanging out with friends. Ahhh, it was a nice trade for the week but I'm starting to get sick of people again. :p Plus my friend Brianna is super pissed at me now. I was planning on meeting her at a show after going to Lights on the Lake, but since Lights on the Lake took us FIVE hours instead of a good two, by the time I got back into town it was 9:50, and the only two bands that I wanted to see had already played! I called and told her I wasn't going to go afterall. It was like 15 degrees out, the park it was at is barely heated, if at all, and her boyfriend that she went with is Mr. Fun. She only went to make the effort of being a good friend! D: I feel awful. I got a lot of "whatever Rai" when I was on the phone, and heard about how cold it was out, and how she only went because I was going, and how Devon is no fun. Boooo.

The only way I can think of making it up to her is by baking a german apple cake. She loves them! I was going to make her one for Christmas though.. I need to do something better.

......Anyway, I'd love to go to the gym today! I've actually been wanting to go the past few days, but have been too darn busy to do so. Today my family is celebrating Christmas together. Ugh, and I have to do almost all of my christmas shopping still! We're doing gifts at noon, and I haven't even showered yet, or bought anything for it. It's 10:25 currently. I'm suppose to pick my brother and his kids up to bring them too. Looks like we're all going to be late...... And I can't even leave the house until Sarah's dad snow blows.

So no gym again today. D: TOMORROW. I can't wait to go tomorrow!
I just hope I can resist eating my own body weight in food today... >_>
 
Busy bee.

I've been so busy! Christmas season was ridiculous, and then I went to Canada to cuddle with a sexy man. :] Life has been so nice, especially the entire going to Canada part. I felt so pretty while I was there, and overalll great about myself. Plus I really like him, and I think he likes me too. I didn't think about how much I weigh or what I was eating, though I did eat pretty well, and got a good amount of exercise. :]


He would have visited me, except he normally lives in California, and took a plane there to visit family for a few months. Next time he's going to come to me instead. I also have been considering moving to California during summer, so I can be there for 6 months atleast, and go to college there, with it being cheaper for living in the state.

Plus his Mama liked me, which is so important to me. Haha, I'm just so optimistic about life.

A few of my friends have gotten gym memberships because of me. WOOO. I went tonight after work for about 40 minutes before they closed at 5. It felt so great to go running.

I feel so recharged and well on my way to getting really happy.
 
Nice job getting to the gym. I'd love to go, but I seem to be just too busy all the time. Just another thing to make room for, right?
 
nolabone said:
I've been so busy! Christmas season was ridiculous, and then I went to Canada to cuddle with a sexy man. :] Life has been so nice, especially the entire going to Canada part. I felt so pretty while I was there, and overalll great about myself. Plus I really like him, and I think he likes me too. I didn't think about how much I weigh or what I was eating, though I did eat pretty well, and got a good amount of exercise. :]

I feel so recharged and well on my way to getting really happy.
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ooo nice nice :) glad you had fun over the holidays. I think its a great idea to go to california over the summer. hell i would...if i wasn't on whole other continent lol.

and you definitely sound happy :)

so my dear i wish you a Happy New Year and lots of fun and lovin' :D
 
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