The road to loving myself!!!

Hello

Today was a challenging day! I had a Job interview in the city...downtown to be precise...I HATE driving dowtown ..to many one way and other cars and people walking crossing where ever and bicycles, you name it ...it is in the way. I was halfway to the kids school this morning, running late because today of all day when my daugher had to be there 20 min early cause of her school trip my son decides that today he will not do a single thing I ask him unless I physically make him do it...to top it off it is poring rain.....then my wipers decide they are not gonna work they stop in the middle of the winshield and stay there....I had to drive 60 km in the pouring rain in traffic with no wipers. I got to my interview and had to find a spot big enough for my van to fit in then the meter didn't work well it was supposed to be 1$ for every 30 min I put in 4$ I should have 4 hours parking nope it gave 20 min...called the city and left a note inside the windshield. Quite a day! the interview wasmore of a meet in greet with the agency and they made me fill up paper work to get started on a security clearance. hopefully that will work out with a full time job in the end! I feel so stressed and I havent even eaten since breakfast this morning at 7 it is now 4 pm didn't drink water just had like egg and toast this morning and then 3 coffees all day.....I am going to have salad with chicken and I donèt know what else l


Hey LaMaria thank you for stoping by....thankfully I didn't crave icecream today drove in front of many Dairy Queen!!!! Then again I probably wouldnt have seen em cause of the no wipers in pouring rain!!! ;)
 
Lifes events sure have a way of getting us off plan dont they? Keep fighting the good fight and those scales will move in the right direction. Maybe slowly but thats ok. Good luck to you!
 
Good Morning!

So today is friday the 13....anyone hidding inside all day? So weight in was this morning the scale said 200.8 so that is a 2lb drop I like it!!! I was hoping to be under 200 but 2 lb is 2 lb so I will gladly take it! Another day of cleaning the house and studying and applying to jobs......man this process is testing my patience, I want something good to happen right now!!! Today I want a job! the rest I can patienly wait to happen but one look at the bank account and I can tell it is not something I can wait long...don't even know what iwill feed the kids this weekend not good!

breakfast
pb toast (all the breakfast food I have left)
coffee

carrott stick and dip

diner.
I don't know chicken and caned corn or peas


I need a job!
 
Good luck on the job hunt! Wishing you well. Keep with the eating right plan. When you feel better you will put out better vibes to potential employers. That may sound weird but I think it's true. I have to hire lots of people in my job and someone who looks healthy and energetic seems like a better hire to me....just sayin...hope you find work soon
 
I agree with Brawny but know that it´s easier said than done. Wishing you all the best and of course! congratulations on the 2 pounds!
 
Thank you

Brawny I know you a right! I sued to good at interviews then I stayed at a job I hated for 7 years, and it did nothing for my self esteem, also had two pregnancy so that did nothing for my weight and now I am the heaviest I have ever been, and that makes me tired and also the fact that I need a job probably does make me look desperate, hopefully finishing my course will help me out!

LaMaria one of the issues is that I live in the middle of nowhere there are jobs that I could get but min wage just won't cut it...If I make 1200 a month that is half the salary I did at the schoolboard, if you count that traveling anywhere will cost me 60$ of gas a week and daycare will be costing min of1000$ a month this summer since the kids are not in school I would spend more going to work then I am getting payed. Very frustrading loop I am in !!

Last night I had wine....way to much wine....usually when I drink I jump on the cheese tray and eat it all keeps me from having hang overs....yesterday I had some cheese 2 ounces and then I ate veggies and two bites of pasta salade but I keep in controle wich is not easy once under the influence....thank fully I almost never drink and when I do I usually limit to 1 4oz portion..not last night.....and we where playing dancing games on the XBOX so that was a workout...my legs are sore this morning!

Coffee
bagel

water

grilled cheese with cucumbers on the side

diner

mushroom chicken with salad!

My daughter is gone to a friends for the whole weekend...wow is the house quiet with only my boy at home!!! :) going for a nap before getting started on supper :)
 
Any positive change is good. Adding the dance game probably went a long way towards canceling out the wine. Any exercise is good and when you find something that is fun, that's really good.
 
You are doing so awesome Veronique :) Keep it up!! Sorry to hear that your hubby has been through so much--that is really a lot to deal with so I definitely understand how you are feeling in regards to being gentle with him :) I am so happy you are doing well and with so much enthusiasm. Keep it up!
 
Brawnie, LaMaria and Xe....thank you for stopping by...I love loggin on and finding that I am not talking to myself!!!

I had a great weekend....Friday I did go off the wagon but not entirely and then Sat was a good day I ate clean and just relaxe spent some one on one time with my son...when his sister is around it never happends. Sunday we went to my sisters for a familly reunion might have been around 50 people there. Ate healthy and swam some I had a couple of cocktails but my sister uses her juicer to juice fruits and then did the cocktail with that so that lowers the calorie some...now I am back to my normal routine...at least this week since the kids will be out of school by next week....wich is when the stress begins...I wasted to be in our house with a yard by this time........hopefully by next summer we have our house with a yard and a garden so we can grow our own veggies!!!
 
I have a house with a big yard..7 acres...and I'm tired of mowing it. I have begun to plan my scale down house. But it does look nice after I mow it. Half of it is woods so I only mow about 3 acres. Good job on your eating better and making better choices
 
Hey Brawny!!

The husband and I actually found the house we want to buy, and most likely it would cost the same as living here in the rental but we feel that we need to have a little money aside so when bad luck comes knocking we can handle it. We had a little saving but with the last 5 year on me being on contracts it's been hard especially the last two years! I am a work in progress....I am getting better at not eating my feelings and not eating something just cause I crave it!!!

So this morning I went to visit my mother in law and borowed money I hate doing this, but my bills are payed and the fridge if full of healthy stuff....mostly healthy I do have a junk food loving husband....thank god his job is very physical and he has great metabolisme cause if not he would be much heavier. If I didn't love him I would be so jealous....maybe I kind of em cause I used to be able to eat anyting!

breakfast
Breakfast sandwich and coffees from Tim Horton's not the greatest but I had no food in the house and I know better then to go grocerie shopping with an empty stomach

lunch
Mixed bean salad

diner

chick peas with sauteed veggies!

I filled my pantry with legumes that way my plan to regress to my vegan ways is comming in effect! Starting Monday I will have the kids with me full time so I will have to start using my threadmill again....I will go and walk with the kids it's just that they can't walk the distance and speed I do so I will use the threadmill as phitness and Monday and Tuesday I can take out the Zumba game and play with the kids or the kickboxing game....also when it's hot my mom and sister have pools so we can once to twice a week drive down there,,,,they like love my sisters place...it's on a farm with cows and tractors and 4 wheelers and the inground pool!!! 4 more days to finish my course and get my certificat to work I must go!!!
 
Good for you getting (part of) your workout together with your kids! Eating healthy, being active, you´re giving them things that last.
 
Thank you LaMaria


I am really trying to teach my kids from my mistakes....My mom has struggled with her weight in front of my eyes my whole life....I watched try some diet and they worked. I did WW myself and lost 22lb in three months, but WW with little kids sure ain't the same as before kids, I have to makes two meals sometimes 3 each night. Gets exausting. Also my body isn't the same I don't know if it is because of hormone changes after pregnancy or just cause of the way it is different just isn't the same. Also I can't do the meetings anymore cause of the hubby schedual. Before I had my daughter I would loose 5 lb and it would show in my close....but since the c section....I was a 210-210 before the holidays and not I am at 200.8 (last friday didn't step on the scale since) and the clothes that didn't fit quite right still don't I don't want to be one of those people who has plastic surgery but what if I loose all the weight I want to loose and clothes still feel and look weird cause the idiot surgeon could be botherd to do stiches he got lazy and used staples? I love my kids and never regret having them...but I hate what I look like now...not that I had the perfect body before but I could still bounce back on my own....this time I am not so sure! Anyone else on here lost weight after a C-Section....how did it heal?

todays meal

breakfast
egg, cheese, and one toast
coffee

lunch
legume salad

diner

chicken Taco Salad
 
I don´t know about c-sections, but I´ve seen lots of clients who got stapled together after major surgery and it doesn´t usually make a difference to "normal" stitches as far as I can see. Best of luck!
 
Thank you LaMaria.....Maybe once I have a job I will have to put some money aside....I want to loose the weight to be healthy and give good habits to my kids, but I would be lying if I said I didn't want to look and feel hot you know! Maybe once I get closer to my goal weight I will be satisfied but incase I am not if I have the money saved up and my familly is in a good place financially I can get this surgical procedure and if not then I will have extra cash for clothes!

today food

breakfast
egg cheese 1 toast
coffee

lunch
salad probably chicken tco sinc eI have left over chicken!

diner
crustless quiche
 
Menu changed a lot today

skiped lunch cause I forgot and guess I wasn't hungry....

I had McDonald mc chicken for diner cause my mother in law brought me one and I didn't want to insult her! She is a great lady and she knows I hate cooking so that is why she was trying to give me a break!

Got a call from an old boss I worked for him under contract from October last year to Jan 03 of this year and the person I was replacing is off sick again and they want me 3 days a week until Sept 1st I loved working in that deparment 3 days a week payes more then full time min wage and will cost less in travel and daycare....I also get to spend two days a week with my kids during the hollidays wich will be great!
Just wanted to share the good news and the menu plan...
 
Congratulations! That´s just great! I´m so happy for you, I guess it´ll help you stay motivated too :)
About your belly: there´s just no telling what it´ll look like when you´re done so even if it´s hard it´s no use worrying about it... As far as I know (not a doctor here!) all you can do is make sure you eat healthily, work out regularly and go swimming to make optimal conditions for the underlying tissue. Everything else is out of your hands. Best of luck!
 
Thank you Lamaria

I am a little nervous for monday but so happy they tought of calling me...it means that even if I was gone from the department he was still keeping me in mind...so when a position not just a contract opens up then I will have a real chance.

about my belly I try hard not to think about it but all my clothes feel like they are the wrong size. A size 14 fit my waist well but is so tight around the belly ....so I have to wear a size 16 but then the waist is big and the butt is not flatering.....it's annoying and in my face all the time...I should just cover the mirors!!!

food today
breakfast
coffee

lunch
salad spinach and feta

diner
mushroom chicken

forgot to weigh in and I had coffee so tommorow morning I will weigh in
 
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