The painful path to a better me (Yoji's Journal)

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Yoji

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-- How much weight do you want to lose?

I’m aiming to lose around 40 more lbs. (about 19 kg’s)

-- What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight?

Well I have smaller goals along the way, but maybe within 6 months at least.

-- How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)?

I’m going to count my calories and do some light exorcise, walking, stair machine, some wrist weights. But that’s about it.

-- Who or what can support you in reaching your goal?

Well my big sister is a great support, but she lives really far away at the moment, so she can’t really help me out or go training with me. Other then that, it’s just my own willpower and the small encouragement I get online. ^_^

-- How realistic is your goal?

I think it’s pretty realistic. It’s an average of 1.6 lbs a week. So it shouldn’t be a problem.

-- When will you start?

I have already started, but I did have a down period… but that’s over now. I’m back on track and have my motivation back. ^__^
 
Thursday, April 05, 2007

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Current weight: 77 kg's
(169.9 lbs)

Shakes: 1.2.3.4.5. (I'm on a liquid diet for a few weeks at the moment. But I'm NOT starving myself :) )
Water: 1.2.3.4.5.6.7.8.9.10.11.12.
Snack: Carrot, Some left over easter candy.


~~*12:45 pm*~~

Kay. New day. I feel somewhat better then last night, but not by much. Still a bit bummed out reallt. Tried out the aerobic dvd this morning, the one my sister gave me yesterday... Got a bit lost. -_-; Couldn't really concentrate on it so I stopped it halfway through and got on the stair machine for 10 minutes. Was already a bit tried for jumping around to the dvd... gonna gradually increse the stari machine time though. I usually go on it for 20 minutes... but after that I'm half dead. >___>; It's sad I know... but I can't help it. I can't go at it for longer then that at the moment. But in time I hope I'll be able to do 60 min at the time. It's a bit away though... -_-;;

Other then that it's been a slow morning. Coffee, my cat, is sleeping in my lap once again. ^_^ She's cute... but she gets a bit freaked out when I get on the step machine or do a exorcise dvd. XD But she'll have to deal with it. :p

~~*9:20 pm*~~

It's been such a SLOW day.... Seriously, I've been bored out of my mind... I think that might be the reason for the candy... But luckely enough I dun have taht much candy. ^_^;; But I'm sure I got over 100 cals worth of candy in me today... *sighs* Not planned...

So what else? Nada... nothing has happened. I've been going out of my mind because of boredome... There's nothing to do. I was considdering going to the store to buy some stuff that I need... but it was so frigging windy. >___<; No way I was going to walk to the store in that weather.

So I've just been watching tv all day doing nothing... *sighs*

And now I'm gonna go and do something else... have nothing else to say here. Done with the food for the day. Just gonna make sure to drink my water then I'm all good. ^_^

G'luck everyone. And If I can do it, so can you! ^__^

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keep at it - it sounds like youre doing a good job. keep motivated and the weight will definitely keep on coming off :) well done! x
 
A very Blah! day...

Today sucks.... I haven't been keeping to my plan at all... and it's really frustrating. But I think it's just one of those off days everyone have once in a while.
Been eating wasa bread all day... and some poppcorn... XD It could be worse tho! I could be goarging down chips or something. I'm eating the lesser bad thing... Still frustrating though...

I think it's the weather that's bumming me out a little.. it's really grey and cold and windy... I had to go to the store today to get some stuff and when I walked there then home I thought my nose would fall of! The wind was biting into my face. >___<; Not that nice...

I tried the new CocaCola Zero today... it's alright. Nothing I would drink everyday, but it's something I could drink if I really get the craving for carbondated (sp?) soda. I was so addicted to soda before I moved away from home... we ALWAYS had soda at home. And I could drink like 3 or 4 cans a day... -_-;; That's alot of cals, sugar and caffeein that I really don't need.

Anyway, getting back on track tomorrow. I'm going to throw away all the left over candy I have. I can't have it in the apartment. -_-; I eat it even though I really shouldn't. *sighs*

This day just went out the window. Started with poppcorn and then the whole day was ruined... lost all motivation... -_-; That's why I have to stick to the dieat... if I step out of the frame I loose it. -_-;

Oh well... I'll deal with th consequenses. Have to get on the stair machine tomorrow... I'm to sore to do it today >___>;

Getting back on track tomorrow though! I have no easter dinners I have to go to anymore so it shouldn't be a problem. Now I just have to get into the right frame of mind... get into my good frame and stay there... XD

How corny doesn't that sound....

Oh well. :rolleyes: I'll do what I can and then a bit more.

*takes a bow* I bid this lousy day good night and look towards tomorrow instead.
 
Sophie335 said:
keep at it - it sounds like youre doing a good job. keep motivated and the weight will definitely keep on coming off :) well done! x
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Thank you for the comment. ^__^ I'll definatly try to stay motivated... even though I had a bad day today...

*Huggles*
 
I Hate Easter!!!

I officially hate this so called holliday.... candy candy and more candy... It sucks... -_-;

And I really don't see any point in celebrating it, not on a personal level. If ppl do it for religious reasons, then fine... But I'm not one of those ppl. So I'm just annoyed at this holliday now and all the food that came with it.

Ive gained alot, and it's all because of my lack of self control... -_-;; It sucks so much! >___<; And I can't get myself back on track! I hate it! Why is it so damned hard to get back on track!? It went so well before...

I'm so annoyed with myself... and the fact that I don't have any close friends in this city that can help me out and stuff, to take those boring walks with me and stuff.... it's really sad... -_-;;

I know I CAN do it. I've done it before... but now.... I dunno, the motivation left me again... and I really don't want it to be gone. I want to be able to get on track again, and to loose this weight I so desperatly want to loose.

I'm prolly gonna go to a wedding this summer.... and I sooooo want to be able to wear some nice looking clothes for once... and not just black. I have almsot only black clothes. I don't feel comfortable in much else at the moment. But I want to be able to wear a nice dress or something to that wedding... and I can't wear black... not to a wedding. -_-;; Not a summer wedding for crying out loud! >____<;

*sighs*

I'm going to try my best and get back on track now. No more dinners at my mom's hosue... they are a trap.... And I usually get stuck in it for a loooong while afterwards... -_-;;

So whish me luck... I'll do my best. And hopefully it'll go well now, with no big bumps or traps along the way.
 
Better day... but not good.

Well I had a somewhat better day today.... but that's because now I seriously don't have anything unhealthy to eat at home. All of it has been consumed. -_-;

And my stamina when it comes to the stair machine really sucks... after 15 minutes I was breathing so hard it hurt... I really didn't have the energy to continue. >__<; Which is embarrasing.... to get that winded after 15 minutes... I really need to use that thing everyday since I really don't move around much during the day. -_-;

And I'm comming down with something... cold probably... itchy throat and what not. But I got on the stair machine anyway. I really need to stop making excuses for not getting on it. I need the exercise... I seriously need ther exercise.

19 more days until my monthly wheighin... >___<; I need to get a grip. I'm so dissapointed in myself right now.

I really want to get under 155 lbs before my brothers graduation... I have this dress I want to wear and stuff... -_-; it's around 9 weeks until then... *sighs* I need to be realistic tho... I have to take one day at the time and keep myself in line, force myrself to get on that cursed stair machine everyday... 15 minutes is just... sad.... >__<;

Blah!
 
Hey! It was great chatting with ya... well, we're still chatting at this very moment, lol.

Good luck in reaching your goals. I hope you're able to wear that dress, but don't worry if you aren't able to wear it in time for the grad.. just know that one day you will be able to and that's what counts :)
 
Flue.... it sucks.

Current weight: 77.4 kg's
(170.6 lbs)

Shakes: 1.2.3.4.5.
Water: 1.2.3.4.5.6.7.8.9.10.11.12.
Snack: nope none

~~*2:30 pm*~~​

I stuffed myself yestarday... lots of bad foods, chips, malteasers, popcorn... -_-; prolly ate like 2000 + calories... Oh well... what's done is done. -_- Today is a new day... and I'm STILL sick... *Grumbles* But back to the shakes. Now I HAVE to stay on track. I can't continue with cheating like I have been. Now I really have to stay on track. I'm so annyoed with myself... blah...

Oh well... just gonna take it easy today, make sure I drink all the shakes and the water... other then that I'm not gonna do anything special.

~~*8:40 pm*~~​

This day has been so slow... and I realized that it's just about 2 weeks until my 'monthly' weighin... -_-;; and there is no way that I'm gonna be able to get down to 73 until then... *sighs* I've had to many off days this month. Which sucks... but I'll just have to deal with it. If I'm lycky I'll get down to 75 at least... I wish this cold would go away... that way I could use the stair machine... even tho I hate training I would actually rather train then go around with this annoying cold.

Maybe I'm well enough on monday... hopefully. -_-; Then it's gonna be a boring couple of weeks after that, filled with training, water and shakes :p But I really wanna loose this weight. It's just causing me pain. In more ways then one. ^_^;

~~*11:40 pm*~~​

I wasn't able to drink all of the shakes.... I have no apetite what so ever... and it taste horrible with this damned cold. >___>;; But at least I managed to get the water down... with some force... -_-;

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Risty said:
Hey! It was great chatting with ya... well, we're still chatting at this very moment, lol.

Good luck in reaching your goals. I hope you're able to wear that dress, but don't worry if you aren't able to wear it in time for the grad.. just know that one day you will be able to and that's what counts :)
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^__^
Domo~
I can always hope tho. I kow it ain't the end of the world if I won't be able to wear it. But it would be awsome if I could. XD
 
I have a question, what are these shakes your drinking? Just curious. Is it like a protein shake, or a fruit smoothie type of shake, or a slim fast type of shake? Also, why is it you want to have 5 of them?

Yeah I know what you mean about how it would be awesome to wear it. I wish I could wear a bikini this summer, but that's not happening. It could have had I done more earlier, but since I'm starting now to do a lot, I know by next summer I'll be able to! I can't wait to wear shorter skirts and shorts. I don't own any shorts and haven't for I don't know how many years.

Good luck with your eating and exercising!
 
Risty said:
I have a question, what are these shakes your drinking? Just curious. Is it like a protein shake, or a fruit smoothie type of shake, or a slim fast type of shake? Also, why is it you want to have 5 of them?

Yeah I know what you mean about how it would be awesome to wear it. I wish I could wear a bikini this summer, but that's not happening. It could have had I done more earlier, but since I'm starting now to do a lot, I know by next summer I'll be able to! I can't wait to wear shorter skirts and shorts. I don't own any shorts and haven't for I don't know how many years.

Good luck with your eating and exercising!
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It's like a meal replacement protein kind of shake, it's not so bad actually... if it wasn't for the banana aftertaste. XD Not to fond of bananas. And I need to drink 5 a day to get all the protein, fiber and vitamines I need in a day. Sometimes I take away a shake and replace it with something else tho, maybe a small sandwich with some low fat cheese on it.

If I drink 4 I get enough protein and fiber, but the witamines are still a bit low... that's why I should drink 5. ^_^

And the shorts thing, XD, I'm the same. I had a pair of b/w cammo pants last year on which I could like zip of to make them into shorts.... never had then as shorts tho. XD Nu uh....

We should look forward to next summer and all the new and less warm clothing we'll be able to wear! XD *huggles* Thanks for the comment. And good luck to you too~ ^___^
 

Current weight: 76.5 kg's
(168.6 lbs)

Shakes: [X][X][X][X][]
Water: [X][X][X][X][X][X][X][X][X][X][X][X] +2 extra
(1 glass = 2dl= 6.7 ounces. So I aim to drink 77.7 ounces a day)
Snack:1 peice of sports bread with butter/cheese

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....the weight is going the wrong way.... -_-;;;

~~*11:55 am*~~​

I've had my first shake of the day at 11 am along with a peice of sports bread. I hope I won't get crazy hungry before 2 pm though... I'm trying to eat, or in this case drink, every 3 hours.

An in onther news: I'm annoyed at my weight toay... it didn't have to go up! So frustrating. -_-; Talk about Jojo weight. -_- I'm hoping it'll go down by tomorrow. Otherwise the 2 lbs a week chalange won't go so well... . -_-;; Blah!

~~*1:50 pm*~~​

Loosing 3 kg's in 10 days ain't possible... had to change my goal a little for this month. :p So yeah... XD And I still have a cold. The itchy throat is the worst part really... -_-; Takes forever to fall asleep in the evening. *sighs* But it's slowly getting better. Hopefully it'll be gone by monday, if it is, I'm starting up with the stair machine again. ^__^ Gonna have my second shake in a while. Starting to feel somewhat hungry again. -_-; Hunger sucks... :p

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I really hope your cold will be gone for good soon!

Yeah I totally can't wait for next summer for sure! I was hoping by this summer I'd be ready for shorts, skirts, a bikini... but I didn't put the exercise effort in until recently, so it didn't happen. However, now that I am I KNOW I'll be ready by next summer and boy oh boy will I enjoy it! We can totally enjoy it together! Well, kinda... we can enjoy it together in spirit... seeing as you're so far away!

I have a couple more questions about your shakes. Now I understand the whole having them to get protein in, I have a hard time in getting my protein too so I have shakes as well. Other than the shakes do you eat anything? Have you thought about getting your protein and vitamin from actual food sources? I have nothing against protein shakes at all, I just think whole foods, fruits, veggies, lean meats, things like that are important in a diet and protein shakes should kind of just support that kinda diet but not be the main source. (I'm drinking a protein shake as we speak by the way! It's very tasty! Mangos, strawberries and vanilla protein powder, yum!)
 
Risty said:
I really hope your cold will be gone for good soon!

Yeah I totally can't wait for next summer for sure! I was hoping by this summer I'd be ready for shorts, skirts, a bikini... but I didn't put the exercise effort in until recently, so it didn't happen. However, now that I am I KNOW I'll be ready by next summer and boy oh boy will I enjoy it! We can totally enjoy it together! Well, kinda... we can enjoy it together in spirit... seeing as you're so far away!

I have a couple more questions about your shakes. Now I understand the whole having them to get protein in, I have a hard time in getting my protein too so I have shakes as well. Other than the shakes do you eat anything? Have you thought about getting your protein and vitamin from actual food sources? I have nothing against protein shakes at all, I just think whole foods, fruits, veggies, lean meats, things like that are important in a diet and protein shakes should kind of just support that kinda diet but not be the main source. (I'm drinking a protein shake as we speak by the way! It's very tasty! Mangos, strawberries and vanilla protein powder, yum!)
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XD We'll defenenatly enjoy it together in spirit! XD

And regarding the shakes and stuff. Basecally I have a big tendency to over eat and snack alot. So I use the shakes as a mean to break out of my old habits and stuff. And I usually eat carrots and fruit sometime during the day, if I have any at home that is. XD

I'm going to start adding more food into my diet soon, but I feel like I have to get my cardio training going before that, and to loose a little more weight. But like I said, I really need to break out of my old food habits. >___<; And it's hard... really really hard... -_-;

I'm not overly fond of most meats, so when I lived at home and we had some sort of meat that I didn't really like I didnt eat that much of it, and instead ate more of the potatos or whatever so I never got enough proteins. And then late in the evening I could snack like crazy. -_-; And when I snack on smomething I like, I can't stop eating. >___<;; Even if I though, I'll only have one peice, I end up eating it all.... ^_^;;

So now all my self control is on just getting out of those habits... So... yeah. ^_^; Hope that makes sense... because I think I'm starting to confuse myself. XD

*Huggles* Thanks for the comment. And Yaaay for the yummy protein shakes. XD :p
 
Weigh-in

Current weight: 75.5 kg's
(166.4 lbs)
Yaaay~ Lost 2.9 lbs this week. ^___^

Shakes: [X][X][X][X][]
Water: [X][X][X][X][X][X][X][X][X][X][X][X]
Snack: 2 peices of sports bred with butter/cheese
1 peice of sports bred with butter
Carrot

~~*10:30 am*~~​

Yaaaaaaaaaay! It went down again. XD I really hopes it stays under 76 now. >___<;; Otherwise I'll be annoyed. So what's on the agenda today? Nothing at all. -_-;; Like usual. :p But I'm alright with that since I STILL have a cold... it's slowly getting better... but still. >___<; Blah!

Oh well. I'll be in a good mood today anyway. ^___^

~~*5:00 pm*~~​

I've had alot of bread today. XD But I was sooooooo hungry, and craving it so I had some. :p So I'll just have one more shake today, I'll be over 700 then. :p I'll deal with it. I really need to find something to do during the days. I get so bored, and then I get the munchies because I have nothing to do. -_-; *Sighs*

Oh well... I'll deal with it. It's firday.... and I have nothing planed, yet again. What an interesting life I live... XD

~~*7:50 pm*~~​

I ate more then I planned today... but I've been walking around having the munchies all friggin day. >___<; How the heck does one deal with munchies? It's annoying... I know I should't eat some of the stuff I eat... but still I want them... I've been having really nasty chocolate cravings today. Good for me that I dun have any at home.... but I start to think about it even more... like chocolate icecream with crakcers.... >___<; I've found this really really good tofu chocolate icecream... and I really want it now.... -_-;; *sighs* Good thing I dun have any. :p Otherwise I would moste likely have a bowl of it.

Besides... a weeknd of unhealthy food is coming up soon. My parents b-days are just around the corner. A little over a week left. -_-; So yeah... lots of fatty foods and cake and cookies and stuff... I'll try my ablsolute best not to eat alot of it, but I'll have some. :p But then I have to take a loooong walk after the dinner and stuff. XD

Oh well. That's it. Have nothing else to say today. XD

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Yeah, I totally understand about the whole meat thing. I'm not a big meat person myself so I need to supplement my protein as well. It's especially hard when you're trying to eat 5-6 meals a day and having protein at each! So my shakes are importand for a couple of those. It's good you'll be adding more food into your diet at some point. Personally, I have bad food habits, and I really feel I'll always have a struggle with it. I love the taste of food too much and even though I've changed my habits, that part of me is still there. So, I'm just hoping I can control that most of the time!

Anyways, good luck with your food habits and changing them, and also good luck on your cardio! I'm sure you'll do awesome.
 
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