The Motorcycle Diary

oh i like jung b/c he was 'a crazy cool psychedelic quack'...!! hahaha

on the other hand i think freud was a bit of an old perv!!


as for spiritual/metaphysical...

even enistein said if you don't believe in magic you may as well be dead!

he also said god doesn't play dice with the uinverse...

i really liked this quote & thought wonderful/we're all saved!! LOL as it leaves a little room for the possiblity of a plan of some kind/a maybe?? b/c surely we amount to more than just a random chain of events?? anyway...that was until bloody woody allen ruined it for me by retorting in one of his movies (annie hall perhaps??) no he doesn't play dice...he just hides!!! dammit!! big fan of sarcastic wit but...this was one of the very few times didn't care to hear it!!!


no i think we're talking about the same kind of thing...its as if your mind has woken up quicker than the rest of your body...but its only happened to me in bed/nighttime...think it would be even freakier during the daytime/out in the world...i always assume the dark figure i imagine standing over me is me coming out of the dream state...anyway whatever it is...it is bloody scary!!!


how did we get onto any of this??? my fault i'm sure...:D


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one more thing...i've always liked the jung/synchronicity theory...to me it means when things just 'click'/make sense/come together...you know you might suddenly meet a friend just when you need to talk or someone comes in to your life at the right moment...or even you 'meet' ppl on a forum out there in the ether...who you just click with...enough to ramble about stuff with...even the quackery nonsense!! yes apparently it can happen...LOL
 
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i figured i'd chime in here as its tradition. i would throw in a keep it up!, but you don't need that. your motivation is there just as much as mine, i just have a ton of self dicipline to get up and do things as much as i do it. haha. people at work feel like 200 will be too small for me, as one of the owners told me today that if i got down to 200, i could fit in his shoe! crazy, everyone at work is dishing out compliments as they all noticed the change from a month ago when i last worked. i see that happening in your near future as well.
 
Enjoy your party busy man:)We need to figure out this chat thing sometime...Last time I wasnt too into it, it had already been a long and stressful week, at least on my end things have settled down and bit and Im feelign a lil more like Cerella:)

:hug2:Thanx for getting caught up on my dairy, I know that was a job and a half...:hug2:I appreciate it Christian:)I also appreciate your words:hug2:

Have a great weekend!
 
My workout tonight was a bit like a great crazy night in college. I got a lot of action, I punched some things, and when it was all said and done I almost puked but didn't. :biggrinjester:

I usually do stead state workouts on my bike I did a half hour of HITT and my legs feel like jello. I followed that up with 10 minutes on the heavy bag. Good times!

LOL I'm kind of late to reply to this post but it made me laugh out loud.. lol Oh it reminds me of oh so many nights.. lol LOVE IT!! But sounds like an awesome work out!! I'm thinking of getting a punching bag.. I think I am.. I think it would be a good stress reliever and a good work out at the same time!!
 
Wow... your diary is really different compared to others.
I like your goal list... You keep highlighting where you are now.. and so on... work up to goal number... Keep up that good workie!
 
Hey gang,

I've been MIA the last few days. I had the best Saturday night party ever but it kind of derailed me. My friends and I were up until 3am drinking whisky sours, gin and tonics, vodka tonics, rum and cokes, wine, beer… the list goes on. I shudder to think of how many calories I consumed between the alcohol, the mixers, and the chips and dip that everyone brought over. No clue where I ended up on calories, but it had to have been at least double, if not quadruple the cal range I’ve been shooting for.

I woke up feeling like crap the next morning (obviously) and didn’t feel much like doing anything all day with the exception of sleeping and eating. And damn, wouldn’t you know it…someone left frozen yogurt root beer float fixin’s in the fridge. The root beer floats did not long in my presence!

By Monday I felt almost like my old self… the guy who finds himself powerless over food. I found myself eating a normal meal, and then moments later I would find myself searching for more food, all the while cursing myself for doing so but seemingly being unable to stop. I’m not sure if it’s because I screwed up my blood sugar with all the refined sugars and overeating or what, but it sure was scary.

That’s the bad news. The good news is that I managed to find my way back to my plan and I’m feeling positive and in control again. Today I’m back on track and had one of those days where I feel skinny all day long despite still being over 300lb :D. I think it’s because the new pants I bought a couple of weeks ago are already feeling a bit loose. I just finished doing some television aerobics that I found in the On-Demand television options. It really kicked my butt, and my dog thought I was crazy. :willy_nilly:

So let’s just call this a learning experience because I’m taking a few lessons away from the last couple of days. Eating off plan is okay, but going overboard is not. Since most of us are trying to learn better eating habits rather than trying to “diet” our way to weight loss, there’s really no sense in denying ourselves all of those things that we can enjoy in moderation. My mistake I believe, was talking myself into thinking, “Aww to hell with it for the night” and thinking I could set my judgment aside for the sake of having a fun night. A couple of chips with dip became several, which in turn became lots! That’s just not something a guy like me can safely do.

Oh, I also learned for the ten-thousandth time that lots of alcohol makes me stupid! :drooling:
 
HaHaHa - aaawww...
:hug2::hug2::hug2:

well everything is a learning experience if at first you dont succeed and ya know you learn through your mistakes and yadda yadda yadda...

So you took a night and off or so off next time moderation...or indulge here but not there, you get my drift:)

Glad to see you back and that you didnt derail for long, that is what is important
 
Thanks Cinderelly :D

Today was a great day. Our transportation service was down today due to the recent snow so it was a client-less day. As a result I got a lot of my paperwork out of the way. Yay!

For my workout I did 30 minutes of interval training on my exercise bike leaving my legs feeling like jello again. Good stuff.
 
i know about jello legs.... see my latest post... it great to read that you are back on the grind! lets knock these pounds out!
 

< I sure hope your being a good boy >

Where's the fun in that?! :biggrinjester:

Strange actually, I could have sworn I posted in here yesterday. I hope I didn't accidentally post my journal entry in someone else's journal. lol!

Yesterday was another good day. I did 60 minutes on my exercise bike. Doing 60 minutes wouldn’t have been so hard for me if the damn bike seat fit me properly. It was clearly made for someone with a significantly smaller ass. 30 minutes has been okay, 45 min is very uncomfortable, 60 min just fricken hurts. My treadmill is still having problems as well. We have a big fitness equipment store in the area and I’m thinking about going treadmill shopping tomorrow. We shall see.

I’ll leave you all with some journal humor in case you’ve never been forwarded this particular email…


Entries in a dog's journal:

8:00 am - OH BOY! DOG FOOD! MY FAVORITE!
9:30 am - OH BOY! A CAR RIDE! MY FAVORITE!
9:40 am - OH BOY! A WALK! MY FAVORITE!
10:30 am - OH BOY! A CAR RIDE! MY FAVORITE!
11:30 am - OH BOY! DOG FOOD! MY FAVORITE!
12:00 noon - OH BOY! THE KIDS! MY FAVORITE!
1:00 PM - OH BOY! THE YARD! MY FAVORITE!
1:30 PM - ooooooo. bath. bummer.
4:00 PM - OH BOY! THE KIDS! MY FAVORITE!
5:00 PM - OH BOY! DOG FOOD! MY FAVORITE!
5:30 PM - OH BOY! DAD! MY FAVORITE!


Entries in a cat's journal:

DAY 752 - My captors continue to taunt me with bizarre little dangling objects. They dine lavishly on fresh meat, while I am forced to eat dry cereal. The only thing that keeps me going is the hope of escape, and the mild satisfaction I get from ruining the occasional piece of furniture. Tomorrow I may eat another house plant.

DAY 761 - Today my attempt to kill my captors by weaving around their feet while they were walking almost succeeded, must try this at the top of the stairs. In an attempt to disgust and repulse these vile oppressors, I once again induced myself to vomit on their favorite chair...must try this on their bed.

DAY 765 - Decapitated a mouse and brought them the headless body, in attempt to make them aware of what I am capable of, and to try to strike fear into their hearts. They only cooed and condescended about what a good little cat I was...Hmmm. Not working according to plan.

DAY 768 - I am finally aware of how sadistic they are. For no good reason I was chosen for the water torture. This time, however, it included a burning foamy chemical called "shampoo." What sick minds could invent such a liquid? My only consolation is the piece of thumb still stuck between my teeth.

DAY 771 - There was some sort of gathering of their accomplices. I was placed in solitary throughout the event. However, I could hear the noise. More importantly I overheard that my confinement was due to MY power of "allergies." Must learn what this is and how to use it to my advantage.

DAY 774 - I am convinced the other captives are flunkies and maybe snitches. The dog is routinely released and seems more than happy to return. He is obviously a half-wit. The bird, on the other hand, has got to be an informant, and speaks with them regularly. I am certain he reports my every move. Due to his current placement in the metal room his safety is assured. But I can wait; it is only a matter of time......
 
Where's the fun in that?! :biggrinjester:

Strange actually, I could have sworn I posted in here yesterday. I hope I didn't accidentally post my journal entry in someone else's journal. lol!

Yesterday was another good day. I did 60 minutes on my exercise bike. Doing 60 minutes wouldn’t have been so hard for me if the damn bike seat fit me properly. It was clearly made for someone with a significantly smaller ass. 30 minutes has been okay, 45 min is very uncomfortable, 60 min just fricken hurts. My treadmill is still having problems as well. We have a big fitness equipment store in the area and I’m thinking about going treadmill shopping tomorrow. We shall see.

Your right there is no fun in being good:reddevil::iagree::reddevil:

Hahaha to swearign you posted, i do tha twith other ppls diaries, swear I posted when I didnt I dunno...Forum phantom?LOL

That sucks abt the bike seat hurting your ass, I had that issue with the stationary bike, I had, it was just an old piece of crap that really hurt my ass...

 
Nice effort on the bike :)

a gel seat cover might make the bike seat a little more comfortable for you ?
 
Nice effort on the bike :)

a gel seat cover might make the bike seat a little more comfortable for you ?

Sadly no. Because it's a recumbent bike the seat has a back rest, and the back rest is so close to the seat that I can't sit my ass squarely on it if that makes sense.

Oh well, let's just call this extra incentive to lose the weight :D
 
Where's the fun in that?! :biggrinjester:

Strange actually, I could have sworn I posted in here yesterday. I hope I didn't accidentally post my journal entry in someone else's journal. lol!

Yesterday was another good day. I did 60 minutes on my exercise bike. Doing 60 minutes wouldn’t have been so hard for me if the damn bike seat fit me properly. It was clearly made for someone with a significantly smaller ass. 30 minutes has been okay, 45 min is very uncomfortable, 60 min just fricken hurts. My treadmill is still having problems as well. We have a big fitness equipment store in the area and I’m thinking about going treadmill shopping tomorrow. We shall see.

I’ll leave you all with some journal humor in case you’ve never been forwarded this particular email…


Entries in a dog's journal:

8:00 am - OH BOY! DOG FOOD! MY FAVORITE!
9:30 am - OH BOY! A CAR RIDE! MY FAVORITE!
9:40 am - OH BOY! A WALK! MY FAVORITE!
10:30 am - OH BOY! A CAR RIDE! MY FAVORITE!
11:30 am - OH BOY! DOG FOOD! MY FAVORITE!
12:00 noon - OH BOY! THE KIDS! MY FAVORITE!
1:00 PM - OH BOY! THE YARD! MY FAVORITE!
1:30 PM - ooooooo. bath. bummer.
4:00 PM - OH BOY! THE KIDS! MY FAVORITE!
5:00 PM - OH BOY! DOG FOOD! MY FAVORITE!
5:30 PM - OH BOY! DAD! MY FAVORITE!


Entries in a cat's journal:

DAY 752 - My captors continue to taunt me with bizarre little dangling objects. They dine lavishly on fresh meat, while I am forced to eat dry cereal. The only thing that keeps me going is the hope of escape, and the mild satisfaction I get from ruining the occasional piece of furniture. Tomorrow I may eat another house plant.

DAY 761 - Today my attempt to kill my captors by weaving around their feet while they were walking almost succeeded, must try this at the top of the stairs. In an attempt to disgust and repulse these vile oppressors, I once again induced myself to vomit on their favorite chair...must try this on their bed.

DAY 765 - Decapitated a mouse and brought them the headless body, in attempt to make them aware of what I am capable of, and to try to strike fear into their hearts. They only cooed and condescended about what a good little cat I was...Hmmm. Not working according to plan.

DAY 768 - I am finally aware of how sadistic they are. For no good reason I was chosen for the water torture. This time, however, it included a burning foamy chemical called "shampoo." What sick minds could invent such a liquid? My only consolation is the piece of thumb still stuck between my teeth.

DAY 771 - There was some sort of gathering of their accomplices. I was placed in solitary throughout the event. However, I could hear the noise. More importantly I overheard that my confinement was due to MY power of "allergies." Must learn what this is and how to use it to my advantage.

DAY 774 - I am convinced the other captives are flunkies and maybe snitches. The dog is routinely released and seems more than happy to return. He is obviously a half-wit. The bird, on the other hand, has got to be an informant, and speaks with them regularly. I am certain he reports my every move. Due to his current placement in the metal room his safety is assured. But I can wait; it is only a matter of time......


OMG!! how funny is that??!! diehard dog person myself...but the cat thing is sooooo spot on they are soooo evil & bloody superior!! LOL i lived with someone who had a cat yrs ago (minds old & foggy now...possibly an ex husband) anyway...it used to taunt the dog (my dog) by slinking about on the wall outside just out of the poor dogs reach...& whats with the 'gifts'??!! grosse!! i was given a dead bird & a half dead mouse...oh boy did i scream!!!

cats are quite wary of me actually...they either sense i see right through them & their games...or else its my own catty green eyes that they don't much care for!! give me a big, daft, easily pleased dog any day (incidentally i like my men how i like my dogs :D)
 
(incidentally i like my men how i like my dogs :D)

Woof woof! ;)

Well it was another awesome day for me. I took my dog on another hike and we had a blast. I just love this park that we we've been going to the last couple of days. When I drop 40-50 more pounds I want to try some kayaking out there. Looks like a blast.

When we got home from the hike I still had a bit of energy so I hit the weights and spent 5-10 min on the heavy bag. Whew, I'm feeling great!

I'm feeling social but none of my friends are available at the moment. Maybe I can convince some friends to let me cook for them this evening :)
 
I'm feeling social but none of my friends are available at the moment. Maybe I can convince some friends to let me cook for them this evening :)

HEH, I need you as a friend or i guess a friend that lives close to me, LOL...That I could actually see and do things with...Or come over and eat and party with...

Pretty good that it is only 2pm and you have already had an awesome day:D:D:D
 
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Pretty good that it is only 2pm and you have already had an awesome day:D:D:D

No doubt! :D

I really need to find something else to do today. I've got all this energy that needs an outlet. You know, I haven't been to a mall or a non big & tall clothing store in what seems like ages. Maybe I should hit the mall and check out all the clothing options available for a thinner "me" to serve as extra motivation. I'll burn some cals just walking around the mall too. And no worries. I'm riding too high today to be tempted by the food court. Woo hoo!:coolgleamA:

I plan on posting some new pics when I reach 299 pounds, which will amount to 30 pounds lost. I tried on my motorcycle jacket the other day and I’m still a good 4 or 5 inches away from being able to get that sucker zipped up. On the plus side, I was able to fit into an old favorite shirt of mine that’s 2X. Granted, it didn’t fit well enough for be to be caught dead wearing it in public, but it was still nice to be able to use it at a reference.
 
well, i hope you had a great day today, and that you found something to do since you were so on top of the world. i need to hit the sack but we'll chat more tomorrow.
 
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