The Motivational Generator!

Re - Above Post:

I never knew it would be so easy to sprout like so. It only takes about 3 days with a couple of rinsed throughout the day. I just use old jars, although much larger than the smaller ones I soak in. I have yet not found Raw Apple Cider Vinegar, so am just using Lemon for my acidic water. My main goal with soaking is to drop the lelves of Phytic Acid I have read so much about. That I worry less about mixing the anti-nutirints with susceptible foods. (especially my raw greens!) Using the smaller Jars for soaking, whilst allowing enough room for absorption - keeps the cost down on the use of lemons.

KEEPING COSTS LOW:
Currently, whilst taking on board the pros & cons of this and that type of food, raw Vs Cooked and a million over concepts ... I have to admit that my income limits not only weather I eat organic or not, but also how much of one food type I can have over another. I believe learning the art of soaking allows me to negate the cons that come with eating plant foods we are not normally made to eat. Reading up on the transition into Oats and Legumes has revealed much of the cons to me, however I was not born into this world 10000 years ago. The same limitations I see with the Paleo Fad (Unsustainable land mas/resources) - I find with affordability.

Cutting out animals products (one of the most effective means to cutting green house gas ... more than all the oil and machines put together YYADDA YADDA bla bla ...) has greatly reduced the cost of my food intake. Sadly the most important foods like, Raw Clean Organic Vegetables and Fruits are incredibility expensive!!!

How so - Even those with a J-O-B meeting the standard cost of living complain about the high costs associated with Juice Feasting. Currently in these F-A-D-S with eating so clean, the cost of living becomes quite extreme. It's something that's been frustrating me, however I am working on the best alternatives I can come up with. I think I will have to term it:

Damage Control:
The Art of Living ... OFF Toxic Food:
"Just throw together this and that mix and soak you soft green in that" ... comes the common response on ridding pesticides from our leafy greens. Then comes the doom and gloom with how the soils grown from have fuck all minerals. The story just gets fucking worse. SO - what can one do when currency limits choice? I'm not a fan of acidic washes on green leafy veggies - I need to research more on the damage done with that. I'm also yet to research weather cooking at whatever temps, can actually be more beneficial with regard to the consumption of toxic vegetables Vs Cold Pressing them as I currently do both - press and make soups.

Ultimately -I advocate most importantly ... become our own tests! ... Search the Dirty Dozen List -

I think that's an excellent place to start with the transition into organic whilst yet limited by income.

Thus far for me - The savings on no longer eating meat, diary and eggs have indeed enabled me to consider introducing some organics foods that correlate with the most toxic soft leafy greens. The eating Less makes this more achievable as well. The Soaking helps with toxicity and digestion. Food preparation, various methods of heating or not heating, synergy of food types selected, layered and used are all forms that can further be employed to better utilizing food. More over - Identifying what parts of our broken anatomy need repairing so they can better help us live in such a toxic world.

Learning to drive the cost of consumption down through some of those issues/techniques/considerations, I have already mentioned above can help to meet some of our needs with regard to consuming more to heal and choose less toxic foods. I think learning to make our own super foods is KEY with regard to eating less, but still feeding our bodies needs, otherwise under-eating will only contribute to obesity and more ongoing illness.

Fasting whilst it can be hugely beneficial, takes a long time and education to do optimally. It is not a form to be undertaken for weight loss, although many will try for such a short cut. It works, I know now. I could prep myself over the next two months to do another one to two weeks of water fasting. But having since learned the importance of how we eat when coming of such healing routes, is what makes or breaks us. Add to that, how we hold all this information, expectation and learned experience as we go from day to day. Again - Goal setting tends to lead one more into escape. My goals are only defined by how I live from day to day.

Forgive me as I now lose track and spiel away. Yesterdays I was 89kg dead on - Today I am 87.7KG ... what's it all mean, what did I do differently over the course of three days ... how did I move, eat, sleep, shit, piss and drink? What did I consume and how did I prepare it and yadda yadaa yadda ...

I got a good idea between all the variables I just mentioned ... I've pulled into the equation a little exercise ... Something that is now only a means to an end, as opposed to a favored mechanism. I've already gone on about how exercise is quite a negative impact in my life. More the compulsion and mind set that drives me to vanity, injury and insanity. It's been slow to come back to! I am only doing it on days where I have been choice on nutrient dense foods combines with well timed rest and low stress events!!! Many other variables in the right combination leading me to feel uplifted with feet that seem to be getting lighter with each passing week. Currently I have been gingerly jogging during such high energy states. The effort combined from my last run ... with the last few days of sustained and control intake with energy in Vs out ... is what resulted in the 1.3kg loss.
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Righto - I can now feel the vegetable juice doing its things from early this morning (despite have that drink being commercialized grown) - it's been a few days now and my state is ready for a little zoning on the side of some bush road.

The only other note I can make is learning to sleep on an empty stomach has relay proven itself to me, over the fad of snacking before bed. I truly believe that doing so is more a sign of weakness that leads comfort to just yet another unneeded distraction. Bed on an empty stomach with my last meal around the 5 hour mark sees me waking up more with much better results ... both with the numbers, but more importantly for how well I slept and how well I feel.

That's wraps ... Until Next Post.
 
Struggling with Hemroids Again.

Not doing so well.

Whilst I have come to believe my digestion has improved significantly and hydration level has been above average; I am yet again struggling with hemorrhoid pain. I struggled for years after my gall bladder removal. Most people are said to struggle with diarrhea. I was one of those who instead become constipated and when describing ongoing issues with blood, all the doctor could tell my was not to wipe so hard.

I know now, that I was developing hemorrhoids as I struggled with ongoing constipation. YEARS have gone by and the bulk billing GPs all ignored my pleas in relation to the constant bleeding. I'm rather frustrated as I think I am wasting my time going to see yet another Medicare GP. SIGH - I must be fairly damaged having spend the last 4 months eating pretty clean and still unable to properly pass soft stools. Has to be some kind of knot causing a blockage ... an obstruction of some kind. Problem is, when you talk to these GPs, and it sounds as if you've read up on something ... they are quick to dismiss - telling you not to read, then they load up Google to give their recommendation.

I had a colonoscopy done a few years ago to check my colon out due to cancer in the family. I checked out clean or so I was told, yet ... not a word about my complaints of constant bleeding and constipation.

Not enough people talk freely about these kind of things, yet society sets us up circumstance in which to fall ... hard to keep optimistic. (I really need to get a grip for my appointment tomorrow) Gall bladder removal is now as common as having ones car serviced. Fact is, if I've cut our meat, dairy and only eating a plant based diet ... with enzyme support and layering with the right amounts of water and leaving enough space ... bla bla bla bla and still suffering in pain to pass the smallest amount of well prepared/processed fiber ... then something is defiantly wrong.
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Just working out my spiel as I have appointment tomorrow. It takes a lot of pain for me to see a doctor ... mostly because those Bulk Billing Types are so damn dismissive - 10 minutes ... in and out ... bada bing, bada boom ... thanks for coming. Guess I will just keep making an appointment each time I have to pass a stool.

Not doing so well and a little concerned with this ongoing issue. Like I said, taking the right kinds of assists, softening foods, eating small with timing and types of foods + all other things considered ... no longer help ... anything that needs passing no matter how well processed ... seems to trigger a hemorrhoid bout.

SUCKS big time! :(
 
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Hemorrhoid notes

Not sure why, but I will take what reprieve I can.

FOOD INTAKE for that day:
  • Two small vegetable juices - (3 sticks of Kale - 2 carrots - half a beet)
  • Two small fruit juices ------- (Pineapple - then later ? Orange)
  • A medium Sized Sprout Salad - Chew 5 cashews and 5 Almonds ? (pre-soaked and dried at live food temps)

Hydration - Excellent - Made a point of it all through out the day!



IMPORTANT ? Additional Notes* Last food intake was 4PM. Low active day spent in pain resultant from inflamed hemorrhoids. Only took enzyme (Swanson Premium Digestive Enzymes) support with salad meal. I drank a little water before eating meal, took pill 1/3 of the way in - sipping at another two intervals along the way. I chewed the nuts separate but just after my meal and took a shot of Apple Cider Vinegar (TSP to 100ml of water) after I finished chewing the nuts.

Next Morning = trouble free passing on the toilet!
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OK ... that's those notes done. I'm still going to the docs as has been a continuing problem for far too long. I'm also only going as a means to record the painful bouts as they take place. "Hey doc - guess what, I was crawling on the floor yet again ... Goodbye!" I think I will need to visit like that for the next 5 to 6 bouts if they continue like so without any drawn out discussion of expectations. I really do have hang ups with Society and absolutely no trust in people whatsoever. I'm working on that. Despite creating some pretentious bubble of self positive fluffy wuffy images ... I'm over the mundane, complacency and outright patronizing tone of said bulk billing GPs. I know I am not the only one. You only to quell ones anxiety and take a moment to look around at just how non interactive people are whilst being brainwashed with loud static emanating from the speakers and tv screen whilst they all just sit and stare in the waiting rooms.

Tis a raw tone I myself have adopted - but once you come to understand the reality of the system in which we live, (regardless of pretense and status) you soon learn to do away with all the expectations we are so dogmatically fed. Is as toxic as the food and drink they sell and feed our kids. SIGH. It's a tone that's served me well go give up all the addictions in my past.

Who knows - once I can shit pain free for several days in a row, maybe I will start to see rainbows and unicorns like all the other lost souls.

Until next episode of the Biggest Loser. --- The things people actually watch. Pffft.

See ya soon Doc! I'll be sure to make it quick - budda bing budda boom!

OH yea - almost forgot
- 106kg down to 86.7

"Just be what your being Davy Boy - Make it a quick visit based on facts ... in out and just keep going back with each bout ... knowing it's going to take ten visits like that before you can then expect any kind of help! Do not feed into the complacency!!! "Yea whatever Doc - I've delivered the facts ... see you soon. We shall see!!!" In fact - the less you see those assholes the healthier you will be. Sigh. Oh but it's all about reflections and cosmic orderings. It's all about The Secret. Always about self gain ... More, more, more ... Productivity and more love expressed through $$$ Sigh oh Sigh.
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No rainbows and unicorns here folks.
Once you fix those nerve endings - and your faced with a drive through or packaged food ... ask yourself - "do I really want to have to deal with the health system?" Stay the hell away from all that poisonous food, or you will end up being waited on like a geriatric parasite that nobody wants. You want to dream of little fairies and wondrous worlds with no starving or abused children - or do you want to keep it real and just ease what suffering there really is? Hmmmmmm

Sounds like a plan.
 
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Morning Meal After Exercise:

Upon waking and after glass of water ... my cold press veggie juice:

1 liter of water during exercise:

Then Morning Meal:

Medium handful of Bean Sprouts
Small handful of blueberries
1/5th of red salad onion
Half a medium sized tomato
1 kiwi fruit
Small knob of ginger (pressed for juice)
1 TPS of flaxmeal
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1 orange pressed and consumed first – wait 15 minutes, whilst preparing salad.
1 cup of water – drink a little first
take enzyme pill a 3rd of the way in:
eat – drink a little – eat some more – and finish with a few sips
(no AVC this time – before or after)
 
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MIDDAY INTAKE:

1 whole Pair.
Followed 20 minutes later:
With 1 cup of water

My wife's - "Lavosh Bites"
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_________WTF - I ate something from a box!
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Yes - I even ate them with some hummus dip processed somewhere other than my home.
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I could care less about some pic of our country on the box - even locals for that matter! What in the food and how it's made is way more important than such trivial marketing. The product is still processed and made from wheat flour. Despite the wondrous claims on the box; it's still unhealthy for me. The dip my wife bought is pretty much the same.

None the less - Whilst I believe as I will, I take it with a grain of salt. My opinion and how I hold it, sees that such a slip is only that - something that's far from a habit. My resolve weakened from the depression of my ongoing medical issue. It could of been a lot worse than Lavoash Bites and Hummus dip. Think I will actually go take a hit of some Raw ACV.
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UPGRADING QUALITY OF MY FOOD:
Despite crying over the cost of Organic and questioning the term itself, I've started introducing less toxic food into the grocery bill. Given I am eating a lot less now - Way Less!!! - My wife has agreed to ease up on the toxicity of our food.

I just had The Raw unpasteurized Apple Cider Vinegar today for the first time. Took me a while to realize about the pasteurizing process killing of important enzymes and so on. Always knew it about milk, but my wife and I don't do dairy anymore. Will just use the Pasteurized ACV for cleaning until it's gone. The raw stuff goes down much better. I think I will start using it on my salads as well. Not overly worried about corporations publishing articles trying to scare people from using anything other than their products.

The Doctors actually went well. Surprise Surprise. Was good to have a bitch session in here before I presented as I did. It's amazing the difference in attitude when people see you have lost so much weight. I'm not sure I like that, but was not complaining that I was actually being heard. I guess it's like how the system does not want to operated on smokers or people overweight. I understand to a point, however think that Stigma plays a negative role.

The health records are joke. Having to go through my operations and come up with dates - Pffft - You can take a car into any service store throughout the country, and they have no problem knowing when what was pulled out and when. Such a crucial task is too complex for our great advanced health systems; OR IS IT? - Having the system run at such an inefficient level, acts like a buffer. To stem the overwhelming tide of the less economically viable who are more susceptible and moreover sick! Tiss a finely tuned machine that operates on the obsolescence principle that ensure profits within all aspects of our reverent economy. I smile to see it as it is. Fact is, GPs are not privy to vital information. They are kept in the dark and only have a narrow filed of view. They must seek special permission with regard to not only hospital records, but also other "BUSINESSES." Again ... Pfffft.

Anyways! - Hopefully it's just a case of piles for me that can be healed, and not polyps gone bad. I do have a case of bowel cancer in the family - which makes the whole process more frustrating knowing just how much out of sync one Business is from the Other. Health Care do NOT - look after "people" because the system cares. A far cry from those BS adverts. I was told today any licensed practitioner must play such BS adds on their waiting room's TV. Hahahahah - True As ... The receptionist and I both had a laugh at that. Thank *&^% the thing was turned off! I commended them for allowing me to compose myself without the BS static being drummed into me head.

At any rate - The regardless of stigma, the doc showed respect ... so I in turn ride with that. It's all about reducing the pain. The system is as is ... best I can do is stay the hell away from all the junk food and make the best choices I am able to make.

Bla Bla Bla!
 
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I share a letter I wrote to my daughter

Righto - Thought I would log this in my diary. It's sad to see my daughter doing it so tough. She is a single mum on a pension just doing her best to get by. She is just setting herself up a second time running from the same abusive partner who was just confirmed as a child beater. The cycle of life is just not is bliss for some. Recent events have have tested and tried my tone. By Product - Let's just put it down to that and learn the process and do as best we can.

That's what my hard core diary is all about - Kind of gives RAW LIVING a new perspective. (smiles) - Fact is ... $$$ do indeed limits a persons reach - YET - knowledge has a way of providing more choices where once there seemed to be none.

My oldest daughter still struggles with an Iron deficiency despite taking on the Vegan "Way." It's sure it tough that women require so much more of it than men. I believe most of the problem there is running around to meet the needs to pay the rent and bills. No time to prep and or juice, let alone learn how to eat natural in an unnatural world. It's no longer simple - we have made things more complex for ourselves.

Anyways - my other daughter having a tough time with the abuser ... she suffers a lot of UTI Urinary tract infection. Her mind set has been YEA YEA - I have no money. Bit like I have been with regard to organic food. :)) - I have taken my own advice from this letter, and already started buying less and now eating half organic where I can) My daughter has put on weight and I can also see it in the little one. I can see it in both their eyes.

I'm not sure if my words will sink in - just figured it was worth a shot. We fed out kids the budget diet and imprinted as much as we received. I must admit though, I never had a parent who ever took the time to tell me as it is. Then again, I might never of listened.

Good New is - My daughter was the one to ask for a healthier list. :)

THE LETTER:
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I wrote this, because you need to understand its not easy to change from eating a budget junk food habit, into eating a budget healthy habit.

If you read all this and explain to me more than just YEA YEA ... then I will make the next guide all about the food.

OK - do we have a deal?
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DAD's GUIDE TO EATING HEALTHY:

It's just as much our fault - I know ... :)

The Transition.
Making the decision to eat healthy is much easier than that of the effort required to quit living off junk food. You’ve had it too easy, popping the tops, unwrapping and or unsealing straight from the package onto the plate. All attempts at cooking fail miserable with nutrition as the best you’ve been able to do is a few sausages, continual servings of pasta, lots of sauce and cheap mince. Throw some herbs and spices on it all and you won’t know you have issues until it’s too late. Two minute noodles for a quick fix, a six pack of sensationalized poppers for the kid. If the filling and sweeteners don’t get you, the convenience will. This kind of life style is an addiction. It’s not going to be easy to break. Your parents might of raised you like that, but so too it was for them. The only one that can make the change is you yourself.

Having now provided a healthier list of foods within the same budget previously allocated to those less than ideal foods; we now need to explore other hurdles that commonly come to mind.

Eating less does not mean starving!
It only appears at first that there is less food on this new healthier list. This is partly because you’re not sure how to combine and use these unfamiliar foods.
Let’s Look at the Food Types:
MOSTLY/Staples – Vegetables and Fruits.
Whole Grain OATS –
Whole Grain Bread (less of it)
Medium Grain Brown Rice
Tuna/Salmon
LESS MEAT – more Natural Fats from Plant Based Foods.
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There is more on the list – but that’s the base within your limited budget.

The first thing to note is that its going to take a little more time to prepare your meals. You don’t just open and add milk with a spoon full of sugar. You can however add some honey. You will spend more time in the kitchen whilst eating only about the same or even less than you did before. Fact is – You only need half of what you were eating compared to before. Food that actually has vitamins and minerals in them allow the body to grow and heal. The less food it takes to meet your needs, the more energy you will feel.

That other food like White & all forms of Budget Bread, Pasta, Sugary Sauces, Fatty Mince, Greasy Sausages, Concentrated Grocery store Juices and drinks; they do nothing for your body, except make it sick and tired over a long period of time. Your body is often still hungry after eating these foods as it still lacks nutrition despite having been filled.

Once you understand that eating healthy means eating less, you will then see a light at the end of the tunnel as you can spend about the same amount of money on less to gain those healthier foods.
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What Foods To Eat and When?
Give me time on this … I will explain later. I first wanted you to understand just how sick people get eating what many term as Budget Food. Hopefully now you will understand … that the list we have made is more than enough to meet your needs. Yes … it’s not going to be easy coming off the drugs (Junk Budget Food) … Your body will go into a detox state as most of that processed food is actually quite poisonous/toxic for our bodies. You will crave the starches and the sugars, you will have trouble recognizing the difference between actual hunger and cravings. You need to understand that this is going to happen and it will be very hard in the first two weeks … it will still be hard in the first month, but once you get past that … you will feel 100 times better and your little one will too! You will both have clearer skin and the whites of your eyes will shine once more.

Yadda Yadda … YEA YEA. Ask yourself … do you really want to get better? If you have read this far, then maybe it’s worth my effort to formulate those recipes and further explain … HOW – WHAT & WHEN.

You let me know.
 
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Hit a wall ... struggling with too much pain for too many days in a row. Have gained weight as a result of stress and lack of sleep and also losing my resolve.

See what happens ... Going to ease up and regress a little as nothing I seem to be doing diet wise seem to be making any difference. Perhaps the fact that my body is cleaner, I am now experiencing all the problems or they have revealed themselves more and or triggered.
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That's enough for in here. Will come back when I am no longer experiencing pain for days on end.
 
Pain, maybe you are overdoing it on the exercise? May I suggest just trying to maintain a healthy diet for the time being.
 
Indeed very good advice. TY Butterfly88.

Whilst the pain relates to my diet, it only does so more from an aspect that correlates to the fiber and my inability to pass it. The pain I refer to is not related to my exercise, but a suspected Anal fissure. (a tear or split in the lining of the anus)

I ended up in hospital. Hemorrhoids have bee ruled out. I also had a CT scan done with contrast to investigate the possibility of hereditary bowel cancer to which my grandmother ended up with a colostomy bag.

SO - I believe the doctor I am seeing intends for me to have a colonoscopy to further investigate the probability of an anal fissure. I have since been finding relief having followed the advice of taking MOVICOL. However, I did not get relief until I started taking 1 tea spoon of Epsom Salts in about 125ml of water. (At night) - Perhaps I needed to give the Movical more time ... but right now ... I have a system with two Movicols and one teaspoon of Epsom Salts spread throughout the day.

My research about the Epsom Salts suggest that in small doses (one teaspoon or thereabouts [some people 1/4 to 1/2 tsp) is actually quite healthy. [Hydration and electrolyte imbalance are the only two things that need to be addressed - easy to work out with fresh water and soft fruits] Fact is, our food sources simply do not have enough magnesium and other essential vitamins and minerals. The term "Organic" is as devoid of meaning as food is of nutrients. Quite a sad state of affairs really. ANYWAYS ... I can only know for sure by testing these things out for myself and whilst thus far, only early into treating myself ... I am on the road to recovery.

My But Hole is already thanking me. :)
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SO - what have I learned from all this. Talk about a Transition into eating Raw Foods!!!
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Despite keeping hydrated, I was still having issues with passing fiber. As far as I can tell, eating a plant based diet means eating a lot of fiber. Now, in the same way I am subscribing to this notion that I have a fissure to contend with, I'm also lending an ear to the concept that many of us do not have enough magnesium in our diets. I DON'T KNOW. But if lack of various elements - not discounting NO GALL BLADDER!!! - means an inability to sustain the right levels and break down and pass my food, then it make me wonder how I ever got by living off so many mood stabilizers and junk food. (Pacification no doubt - Sigh oh sigh)

Seriously - the health and food industry is quite &*$#ed up! ... again I laugh out loud to think whilst during my hospital stay, they suggested for me to speak to a clinical dietitian at the hospital. The terms, water fasting, Valerian or anything likewise natural or holistic either went straight over their heads or set off a bias response that resulted in as much as a patronizing attitude to match the tone of those wheeling the beds. One thing is for sure - I need to get a grip on my health and make sure I end this life outside such walls!
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Righto ... I'm feeling a little passion returning. I think much of this stems from that fact that in order to heal, we should come to accept that pain is often associated with the process of healing - itself. It's just part and parcel of helping find ones way out of the KFC and or some other junk food box and into a world that operates in a more natural way. Unfortunately , living in such a toxic world bent on economics - finding a natural balance is a complex challenge. Our current physiology from long term abuse, poor choices/OPTIONS and or main stream foods; now sees many of us with predispositions fighting an uphill battle in the face of adversity spawn from our most esteemed and valued interests.

It's far easier to tell people to go see a doctor and take a pill. ... Is as accepted as convenient food! So much so, that the professionals now regularly recommend and prescribe such a route for people to hand emotion. A "buck" that is not passed, but more so invested to further drive the current system.

What a wonderful world!
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Is good to be back. 86kg and holding well.
I do need to slowly right my wagon ... get some more sun - sort out some serious mental intolerance's and so on. It's a bad time of year and everything that is going wrong is going wrong - BUT - I am winning the But Hole Wars - Oh LOL ... 20kg lighter and well and truly off the junk food living ......... plus all those Synthetic Meds too!

Time to start moving and mixing things up again.

Adios... until next post - see what happens
 
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All's going well. Just holding course at the moment. The Months are passing by like weeks with respect to the no junk food now. It's well and truly been as liberating as it was with giving up smoking. I'd like to get a little more active though.

On that note ... I best get ready for bed and rest up with some quality ZZZZZZZZZZzs
 
Got in another morning walk. Whilst pleased about being back up on my feet, having only momentarily been inactive, I am now gaining a sense of futility in fighting the body in order to gain something that can potentially be already felt.

"I am not my body" does not work for me. Yet one of many false beliefs that only serves as a fleeting escape. Whilst I seek to dissociate from mainstream identifications and yet do so by learning to inhabit the body; I am coming to see there is No Thing and or nothing to be gained by becoming one or the other. Anything worth having, can never be had; but only ever experienced.

Such was my walk - the ability to detach from incessant thinking and simply ... experience the quality of being.

"That is how my "Diet" is going." :)

Edit ... the numbers only go so far ... just as each year of our lives. In the scheme of things, life is way too short to get hung up on such limitations - change the numbers without giving them too much thought but do be real about liberating repressed emotions. (aka Discomfort/Escape ... [Food])
 
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Slowly Burning The Wax.

85kg (21kg lost) - and descending at a steady but slow pace. I'm thankful to report that I seem to have customized my diet to match my physiology. The last 5 to 6 months without eating junk and processed foods have revealed much about just how damaged my body has become. I believe if I had given in during the first few months, I may not of discovered to just what extent.

I'm nearly clear with working out my digestive system. It still needs a little work. The methods employed to keep my pain free are helping me heal overall. I'm just coming out of an apathetic stage with regard to weight loss. I did well to just keep focused on eating right whilst enduring my previous painful bouts. As a result, despite low activity levels, refraining from eating junk, processed and packaged foods has kept the weight off and now with some mild walking again; the weight is slowly going down again. My body composition is also lending to more range of movement and lighter feel to my stance.

The changes now taking place are a lot more gradual, but given the nature of long term change; this is a small price to pay. Thankfully taking control of my body long term seems to be enabling to accept such disparity and find pockets of fresh air despite it's obvious decline.

There is no illusion to the changes taking place in me. Changing for the better is in many ways, more about the mind for me. What we put in our bodies is absolutely important, however so too ... is the way and what we think. Acknowledging how our state of mind effects us and our environment is key to long term enrichment. A measure far from anything for want at all.
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I'm right where I want to be. - No yearning or living in wait ... a state of mind that brings about weight loss naturally. It's taken a lot of mental fortitude to get to where I am, and whilst I'm not big into projecting future events ... I'm now content to reach my ideal weight over the course of the next 12 mounts.

I continue to carry a predisposition, but more so known as the human condition. ;)

Adiós ... until next post.
 
OK back on Topic. But first another pic to record my progress:


I've been enjoying the weight loss plateau at 85kg. Usually an issue for most. My clothes are a LOT more airy now and I'm feeling the breeze right down to my core. Last summer was such hell. Forgive the spasmodic post today ... just recoding where I am at. I am not so wound up with my weight. I am however pleased that we are eating way healthier the we were before. I am back to cooking for the most part, but now do so with a lot more care. My wife is continuing to lose weight and is now as avid in her journey to use food as medicine rather than just another means of pleasure. Both concepts have their place, but not without serious pot holes if one does not watch their weight.

Well over 6 months now, and we both regularly affirm what it's going to take over the next 12 to come. The long term outlook with no more fuss over fad diets or exercise is making this change so much easier than any attempt we have both made before. In short, we have both received so much healing from the move away from all forms of junk and process food.

We are back on meat, but way less than before. 120gram of red meat once a week with some chicken and fish here and there ... a few nights with none at all. I'm still soaking, but not as much - we eat a little of everything and give ourselves no label at all. I am used to going into things at the extreme and then I pan out with a reasonable knowledge of what does and does not work for me.

The Xmas period is no phase for us at all. It's just a time to catch up with family and nothing more. It's been accepted that we are set to the task and no longer into the mainstream way of eating and thinking. We now just watch the others poison themselves instead. It's pointless trying to tell others. You kind of got to reach that point of no longer wanting to feel sick.

So - my plan ... if you could call it one ... it to continue basking in this joy of feeling less sick, let xmas and all the hype pass us by ... move into the new place ... and if I have been a good boy and still feeling light ... I will work on losing a little more.

See what happens I guess.

Have a happy clappy Xmas, or whatever it is that you celebrate. ;)
 
Righto - on with the show :)

First up - I share in here as well yet another picture with my little cheesy quotes. After all, it is about owning the space in which one resides ... although I do have issues with ownership as it's commonly known.



Yadda Yadda ... whatever Davy Boy. SO >>> How is the accountability factor going? HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

Not too bad all things considered. We are nearing the end of end of year family visits. As well as being great to catch up with family and friends ... it can sure weigh my down when my space starts to shrink. STRESS ... pretty much spelt out as Xmas. Sigh oh Sigh.

But to put on my Possy Wossy back slapping face ... lets get all joyed up and prep for some new goals. Hmmmm ... pfft ... narr, that leaves a foul taste. Not my cup of tea or Sunday Best, I think instead I just call a Spade a Spade. Excuse my French. Man ... whatever I say, our language really sucks big time hey?

2 KGs! is about the damage with the fluctuations during this time of year. Not bad at all. More like 1.5 but I will say 2 for worst case results instead of embellishing as is so more typical.

WHAT TO DO?
I regress that is for sure. It's time to be more myself and get in tune with that. No holds bar or however it is they say ... let go and let loose. Bit of that mentality they feed us with those reality TV shows, minus the violin strings. Need to get out of the chair though instead of sitting back. Get my routine happening again.

Routine and Resolve. One feeds the other ... both good or bad. My choice. Given I have not busted although wavered a little ... I think a little re affirming will work well for me. TIME TO START EATING CLEAN!!! The whole no Junk Food is pretty easy for me now. I'm no saint (don't believe in figments) as during my wavering, I enjoyed some naughty episodes ... Oh Yea YEA ... more please. However I instantly felt the urge to binge and when pulling my finger out of my ass when once it got stuck, the headaches immediately began! Such remind me of just how clean I had become. The so called joy often preach with such indulging kind of then and there left. The ingrained perspective of viewing such food as no more than poison only made more sense.

"Fuck that shit, what the fuck are you doing to yourself Davy Boy" - You don't need that shit!", said the little train of thought in my head. Thanks Thomas.

So it is that I have been able to keep relatively on track and set to start my next round of cleaning out my insides.

I'm still on the Movicol though ... and having eased off the Epsom salts, now going back on that in small doses. Don't worry, I wont reavle too much of my but cheeks in such revealings. My hearing and sight are also prematurely fading, so I expect some things I'm just going to have to accept. I still think the doctors are pretty hopeless and thus far I have done a lot more to help myself. In fact, listening to them has made me worse ... but enough of the pitiful distractions ... let's keep on track.
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I'm starting TODAY - not when such and such happens ... TODAY ... going back to super clean foods (as best I can afford) ... the right amounts as per my needs and also ... the timings as well. My wife has since lost 2 dress sizes which is pretty good for someone suffering an illness as she, sitting in a chair pretty much 24/7 !!!

That alone has really emphasised for us, just how on track we really are. Other than stop eating SHIT - POISON ... all that stuff other take for the moment of joy ... "Oh but I don't want to deprive myself" LMFAO ... IS THE TIMING.

That and also having smaller sized ... more naturally sized stomachs. The hole snack thing before bed is more about stress and sleep. Is how we have come to see it. We are not so religious in claiming anything so if it's been like 5 hours (hardly starving for people eating clean) ... either of us might has something on the very digestible side to keep down the stress. Fact is - the psychology that comes with long term success, helps to see things as they really are. Helps to fucking squash that other train that says it's all about fun and taste. That kind of mind set will kill you as quick as your local GP. Point and Case!
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So Yep Sir Reeeee ...

I think we nailed this BS Xmas period and fallacy. We have in fact shattered many false beliefs and now all the more lighter for it in mind, body and spirit.

In that note, I wish all my little possy wossy back sappy Sunday fairy friends well and hope your all able to reach you far reaching goals.

God I love these little therapeutic ramblings that keep me on track like so.


Please do forgive the imperfections in today's post - It's how my batteries run - ... time to actually live a little.

Adios ... Until next post.

Have a Blissful and Fablplastic day. ;)
 
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Be still and know that YOU are GOD. Must be the fresh air coming in off the ocean or something other. I'll settle for whatever it is. There is a stillness that is sitting pretty in me after having made that last post. Feeling rather content with the empty space that currently resides within. Hit's ENTER:

Such is the essence of which I have been yearning for in most books I source on the subject of weight loss. You just can't access such lasting peace from the usual run of the mill books.

Think I will ride with this feeling a little more and leave it at that.

Feeing light this morning and I like very much. No wondrous comments, affirmations, claims or tantras ... just seem reaping whatever it is that feels just right, despite not know what it really is.

Adios ... until next post:

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Going thru one of those times I need to grit my teeth. The scales indicate I am giving in more than is good for my health. Moving house, end of year stress, and various other dynamics ... what to do?

For now I once again, tell myself that less is more. Time to re-establish a routine.

86kg ... bells now going off ... time to regroup!

A new year, a new house, a new beginning. 20KG still under the bridge - time to move on with the rest.

YOU CAN DO THIS DAVY BOY ;)
 
Back on Track - I'm now a rat running the mill. I ended up joining a Gym. Will give comments later on that. For now, it's a means to an end. I'm still enjoying my walks outside though. Food is still very important to me - It's actually my medicine or it's my poison.
I'm back down to 84kg so have lost the 4 I put on over the new year.

Hopefully I can keep this thread going for motivation. 79kg would be an awesome goal for me. I still have to take care on the cardio side of things. I cramped up on the treadmill at the gym twice now. Desire never an issue - just the mechanics, ware and tear, mind set and off switch.

Under a huge amount of stress - but using the knowledge I have thus for fostered to keep on track.

Hydration playing a huge key to success.
 
Vits taken - gym workout done - clean breakfast done - meditation on the cards - and a nice stroll later on.
Anticipating all the triggers and making space to keep my mind stress free.
Lot of water!!!
 
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