The mind is the enemy

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Panic attacks and anxiety are cruel, cruel things. Especially when you live a ridiculously stress-free life and yet you still suffer from both. How is anyone supposed to feel bad for you when the ultimate trigger for your attack was realizing that your new neighbors didn't pull in the shared trash barrels after trash day? I know how that sounds. I don't get it either.
 
Anxiety isn´t "gettable", it just turns up and refuses to leave. I´m terrified of vampires (even cartoon ones), although there´s not a hair on my head which believes in their existence. Hope you´re better now. *hugs*
 
Run Streak Day 20 [12/16]:
1.74 miles in 21:43. I had planned two miles but wasn't feeling it, so I just turned around early.

Run Streak Day 21 [12/17]:
3 miles in 35:08. Ran outside in Boston for the first time in months, which was nice. Didn't do one second of stretching and I could tell quickly that was a bad idea.

Run Streak Day 22 [12/18]:
1.2 miles in 14:12. It was a little rainy and windy but only bad for a few minutes. Then I turned a corner and it was fine.

Well, this week hasn't been healthy. I let my anxiety get the best of me on Tuesday. After sneaky cheese and crackers, I grabbed a spork and a mostly-full pint of Ben & Jerry's and headed to bed to watch tv. Oops. And yesterday was a friend's holiday party. My wine consumption was minimal. Red wine out of solo cups. I poured myself a tiny first serving and poured half of my last serving out. And there was only one serving in between those. Food, on the other hand.... No bueno. I will be getting a salad for lunch today!
 
Nice runs! Sorry about your food and anxiety woes. Why a spork? Also, what flavor? I love/hate B&J's so much!
 
Q, it was Chocolate Therapy, which is my absolute fave. I took a little teacup full last weekend, but the rest was demolished in bed. I always eat ice cream with my titanium spork. I think it was a joke the first time, and then it became my tradition. It cuts through hard ice cream pretty darn well, if you ask me.
 
The fudge swirls give you a soft in with the chocolate therapy. I had a tiny wooden spoon that I used. SOOO much chocolate. My favorite too. I haven't had any in a very long time (More than a year). It's something I might let back in my life once I'm in maintenance mode.
 
There´s a brand which doesn´t bother me one bit. It isn´t as smooth as I need my icecream to be and the flavors are quite blunt. Also very expensive over here. But then I am very very spoiled in all things sweet :D
 
Q, I'm gonna be honest here and say you are the ONLY reason I'm still doing the run streak. The first couple of weeks were surprisingly easy, and then suddenly it wasn't. But no matter how much I whine before I go out there, I'm always happy that I did. And keeping up with the streak is what's going to make it easier to get back into better eating and drinking habits after the holidays. So no matter how much I may be secretly cursing you on a daily basis, I'm extremely happy that I'm still streaking.
 
Today is 25 of 36 so I feel like we are both too deep in to stop now. I'm sorry it has gotten tough for you. Maybe it's just a slump and it will get easier. Like some runs when you feel like you aren't going to make it and it's really sucks and then you get to a point when you realize that the end is almost there and suddenly it's much easier.

It's been great to have you do this with me. Leaving your comfort zone expands your comfort zone. A couple days off a week will seem like a luxury now and running 4 or 5 days in a row will be a cinch.

Just keep in mind that the minimum mile is there for you. Nothing wrong with stringing some minimum runs together to make it through.
 
That last post came across a little more depressing than was intended.... I am not cursing you at all today, Q, because I went out for "at least one mile, ideally three, hopefully more" and five miles later I am in a very happy place. It's been interesting to see which days are mentally the toughest for me. The more time I have in the day, the more time I have to put it off and whine. But I haven't had any trouble getting the runs in on busy days where I plan ahead and have little time to spare. So even though I curse you some days, it's always followed up by a "I'm so glad we're doing this!" thought later. And you are right, we're too far into this thing to give up now! So let's finish strong together!
 
Run Streak Day 23 [12/19]:
1.25 miles in 14:01. Nothing exciting to report. Oh, except that it finally clicked that if I wear a headband when I'm wearing my glasses, they stay on my face better and don't fog up. SCORE!

Run Streak Day 24 [12/20]:
1.32 miles in 13:34. I was whining up a storm before this run, but after my mile was up I was wishing I'd left myself more time so I could keep running. This is pretty standard for my short runs lately.

Run Streak Day 25 [12/21]:
5.17 miles in 58:35. Light snow flurries the whole time. My food habits have been poor, so I decided I'd stay close to home and see how my stomach felt. I was shooting for at least 3 miles but ideally more, considering I did 6 last weekend. But I was going to settle for one if my stomach wasn't feeling so hot. But it felt just fine, thank you very much! And now I feel good.
 
You are going great guns Oaks! Well done on pushing yourself through & persisting with the runs. Awesome! :D
 
I think running in snow flurries would be fun as long as the ground wasn't slick. I ran in sleet and freezing rain early this year. That sucked in a massive way. It started to stick to the roadway towards the end and I'm lucky I didn't break my butt.

I'm happy your stomach was cooperative. Fantastic runs! Only 10 days left!
 
Run Streak Day 26 [12/22]:
1.26 miles in 13:54. Quick morning trip, nothing special.

Run Streak Day 27 [12/23]:
1.28 miles in 14:48. I would have gone longer had I been wearing contacts. It was misty and dark and the headlamp only helped so much with wet glasses.

It's Christmas Eve. I have no family in the area, so Christmas to me means four and a half days off of work. We will see G's family tomorrow, but we just saw them on Thanksgiving.... I haven't had time to miss them yet. I'm happy that all my social obligations are done for the year. I have so few compared to most people I know, but they still exhaust me. Don't get me wrong, though, I had a lot of fun this month!
 
Oh, and Q, I've lucked out as far as slippery conditions go! We've had a wet and mild December, with only one day that I avoided the streets because of ice. The only measurable snow was on Thanksgiving day. All things considered, things were pretty easy!
 
An early Merry Christmas running buddy! Enjoy your time off from work! I'm off until January 5th and thrilled about that.
 
Run Streak Day 28 [12/24]:
1.10 in 11:10. Was planning a longer treadmill run but had to spend some time on a cross trainer waiting for one to open up. So the mile was after 30 mins of hill intervals on the other machine.

Run Streak Day 29 [12/25]:
1.07 in 11:41. Christmas day run, and it was 56 degrees. Fifty six!!!

I hope everyone who celebrates Christmas had a wonderful holiday! I spent the morning figuring out my new toy, a Garmin Vivosmart. It's one of those fitness bands and I love it. I then spent the rest of the day eating and drinking to my heart's content. And today will be cleaning and running and enjoying another warm and sunny December day.
 
Sounds like you had fun. It's nice that you are having a warm spell. It's warm and damp here. 61 here, but that's way less unusual for us.
 
What a streak! Glad to hear you're doing so well Oaks, had to google the band thing though. Fun or useful?
 
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