Gosh, Q, I read your post earlier and have been thinking about it all day! I do at times feel weird that I'm here writing a weight loss diary when for all intents and purposes I'm not actively trying to "lose weight." But I am trying to develop better habits, coping methods, and routines. I think about food and exercise constantly. And while it doesn't feel like I've made great strides I am going to choose to believe you when you say I've shown big improvements!
I'd love to get to a point where I'm not always analyzing decisions, because the "right" ones come naturally. But is that a realistic goal? Who knows. Maybe I'll always have an internal struggle before buying a carton of ice cream, wondering if I'm going to go overboard as soon as it gets home. But maybe someday I won't.
In 2010, I did join this forum with the goal of losing weight. I lost somewhere close to 25 pounds, but have managed to find each and every one of those in the four years since then. But I am a stronger person than I was back then, both mentally and physically. What I know right now is that I'm incredibly happy that I made the decision to jump back on the forum, because somewhere there is a solid balance of having fun and having a healthy lifestyle and I'm enjoying this journey to get as close to that solid balance as possible.