The Diary of a chocoholic

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Steph1986

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Hi!
As you can probably tell, I'm a newbie :p . I'll tell you a bit about myself first. I'm from Australia, I'm turning 20 next week, and I have a whopping 50kg to loose :eek: . I am a full time uni student (or college- what ever you want to call it). My goal is to be down to my goal weight for my trip to New York- which I'm hoping to do in Jan 2008. I figure if I loose 1kg a week between now and then, there should be more than enough time for me to do it- with some extra time incase I stumble.

Read this or dont- I just have to get it out there and be accountable for myself.:rolleyes:

So far (exercise wise) I have been walking my dogs. Last week I did it twice- not bad, but I want to do it more. This week I am up to 3 walks.

I have cut down how much chocolate I eat (mostly due to lack of funds:p ), and will hopefully continue this. I think my next step is to eat regular meals. I have been shocking at eating harldy anything until like dinner and then craving nasty greasy food.

Sorry if this has been a bit long winded,

My goal for this week:
To walk at least 4 times & to eat more regular meals.

Steph
 
Welcome to your diary and to the site.. you'll find lots of support and encouragement here...

your short term goal seems realistic and totally achievable, so I'm sure you'll be successfull. and youwill have an amazing time in NY --NYcity that is -if that's your intended destination.. :)

Good luck and muchsuccess
 
Hello and welcome to you diary!


Your time frame is reasonable and managable. I like the goals you started with.

BTW, what are you taking in university???
 
Thanks everyone for your support! I intend for this to be a permanent change to my lifestlyle and I figure it's taken me 20 years to get to where I am not, so it'll take some time for me to fix my habits. :)

Maleficent- Yes I do intend to go to NYC, I was actually planning to go earlier this year but couldn't due to illness. :(

Miss Kallie- I am studying a very boring business course, I am only in my first year, but hope to specialise later down the track.
 
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I've decided I will give up sugar. :( After my birthday on monday- I have to have one last hoorah. I know it will be really tough but I also know I will have support on here from people who are/have gone through the same thing.
 
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Hi Steph

Its great to see you have started a diary. Your goal is quite achievable and realistic. It helps to remember the 3P's ie Planning , Persistence and Patience!:)

You'll find if you start the day with a good breakfast and eat regularly throughout the day you won't overeat at night. My biggest obstacle to weightloss is snacking at night, and portion control or more correctly lack of portion control:)

Goodluck with this weeks goal!
 
I feel a little guilty today- I had some maccas (only becuase we literally had no food in the house- but that's no excuse) and I couldn't go for a walk because it's been pouring all day. I attempted walking in the rain the other day (it was only spitting) and it was cold and windy and my dog came home covered in mud- eugh! Hopefully it'll clear up tomorrow.

Also I was reading the Nature vs Nurture thread (I forget what section it was in) and someone said that we pick up our eating habits from childhood and it dawned on my about my obsession (and binging) with chocolate and sweets. When I was little I was half raised by my grandma because my mum had to work full-time and she always had biscuits and yummy things hidden in the cupboards and we always used to sneak into the kitchen and eat a few- quietly so she wouldn't catch us. And now I realise I'm doing the same thing again/still. I don't eat sweets infront of people, and if I do it's very little amounts, even infront of my own family. I always hide the chocolate in my room and binge on it in private. But I don't do it when we're eating other savoury things- it's only sweets, which makes me convinced it's related to my childhood. It's embarrasing to admit this, but hopefully my new *revelation* about why I do this will help me stop it. :)
 
Well done with your revelation, its intresting when you realise why you do what you do lol! Well done with the Kg lost, your doing great. I love New York it is amazing, have you been before? Hope you are having a good day!
 
It is so true Steph! I was left alone all the time with nothing to do but eat, so I ate for everything. Fun, boredom, sadness, happiness etc.... Now I have to train myself to just eat for nutrition and hunger. It is a daunting task, but we can all do it. Just takes patience and hard work. Figuring it all out psychologically is half the battle. Best of luck to you.
 
Thanks favouritecrayon and pineola! I was just thinking one day and it just clicked! Like you pineola, eating for hunger is probably one of the last reasons I eat, it very much is a psychological battle. I know exactly what I have to do/eat, it's just a matter of doing it and swapping old habits for new positive ones;)

I haven't been to New York, but I can't wait to go. When I'm walking and it gets boring I just think one step is one step closer to me being able to actually buy clothes from some of the great shops there!!!
 
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Right now, I'm sitting at the computer waiting for my clothes to dry so I can go for a walk....
I just had a big plate of chips (fries), and feel horrible, not only in my tummy... but I knew I didn't need them, nor want them. Grrr.
Think Steph, think!!
 
It was my birthday yesterday :) and my mum took me to buy some clothes and I was disgraced at my self- how on earth could I have gotten so big. It's weird though, even though I've been 'big' all my life, I don't feel fat until I look in a mirror or at a photo. I also played netball tonight and for the last quarter I played in a position that involves ALOT more running that the position I normally play in. Even though I was stuffed after the game, I felt good. And uni starts back next week- I am so nervous. I'm not sure if I mentioned this before, but I had to defer from the first semester. Plus I'll miss netball next week cause I have uni, so there's an extra walk for me :)
 
I should also add that while we were shopping instead of having a yummy chicken kebab with garlic sauce (drools on keyboard....), I had a chicken wrap- I feel proud that I made a smarter choice. :)
 
Am going to give up added sugar as of tomorrow- now that my birthday's well and truly over. I really don't know what to expect, how strong my cravings will be will I have any ? We'll see.....
 
Steph1986 said:
I haven't been to New York, but I can't wait to go. When I'm walking and it gets boring I just think one step is one step closer to me being able to actually buy clothes from some of the great shops there!!!
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The store you definitely want to go to when you come to NY is Century 21 - it's a smallish department store, downtown -that has designer clothes at seriously discounted prices... you'll think you died and went to shoppig heaven... :D

Good luck on your plan to give up chocolate... not that I would try to get you to do something different, but sometimes going cold turkey isn't the best way to go, you feel deprived and that's why most diets fail people. Dark Chocolate is good for you, if you can learn portion control, there's no reason why you still can't have some.. .it's the 2 lb bar of chocoalte at one sitting that's bad...
 
Good luck on giving up sugar, i have tried it in the past and can honestly say that it is hard the first few days, but by day 4 your like, actually i dont want it! Good luck and i hope you are having a good day!!
 
Thanks for your input maleficent and favouritecrayon!

I think I'm so addicted to chocolate I just cant control portions. I think for the time being I am just going to go cold turkey, and maybe sometime in the future I can relearn how to only eat a small part of the family block of chocolate not the entire thing....
 
I just want to say that you are doing a great job!!!!! This is the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life and going to uni as well as trying to lose weight is going to be hard, but I will be teaching as well as going to school for my masters (so we will def have to support each other). Reading your journal has let me know how strong and dedicated you are to the weight loss and I know that you can do it!!!!!!!! Also I am from NYC just in STL teaching for another year with a teachers program and I am also losing weight for my move back to NYC in spring of 2007!!!!!!
 
Thanks for that Newme- at least you have confidence in me :p I may have lost more weight or not, I don't know. I'm too scared to hop on the scales, I haven't for well over a week and a half.

I have successfull completed day 2 without sugar (almost- I made a custard (from powder with skim milk) and added a couple of teaspoons of sugar without thinking....oops!)
 
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