"That which does not kill us makes us stronger" - Elle's diary

ellebelle said:
Thanks so much bellaryna! :[ about your back. Does it feel better now that you're not in that same position at work anymore?

It does and it doesn't. I know that doesn't really make much sense. But I think that after lifting boxes for 2 1/2 years that the damage is done.
For the most part it feels fine. Usully once or twice a week I will get these awful muscle twinges that just take my breathe away. They don't usually stick around for too long but they aren't a picnic either.
On a whole the new job is so much better. Just that now instead of moving all the time I hardly move at all. Which in its own way hurts.
Oh well guess I am screwed either way.
Bellaryna

Oh and I will be looking for your pics!
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Okay so I'm not posting these in the actual thread for pictures cause that's just too much. lol.

First picture is me about 3 years ago at about 135-140-ish probably. I'm obviously the one on the left.

Second picture was me on 7/31/07 (206lbs.) No, I don't have a big black mole below my bottom lip. lol. I have a vertical labret and snake bites.



Warning: if you feel a burning sensation in your eyes, look away, rinse them with water and seek medical help immediately.:rotflmao:
 
Maybe it's just late and i am just to freakin tired but I can't find that post with the pics. Am I losing my mind or is something going on?:confused:
Bellaryna
 
I don't know I looked thru it a few times. It just isn't there right now. So weird because I can see my posts and all the others just not the one with your pics.
Guess I'll just head off to bed and see if it pops up tomorrow.
That really wamps to because I wanted to see your pics.
Bellaryna
 
AmbaLove said:
I definately like you better with the brown hair.
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lol me too Amber. That was a weird stage in my hair life. :p I look like a ghost.


Bellaryna said:
I don't know I looked thru it a few times. It just isn't there right now. So weird because I can see my posts and all the others just not the one with your pics.
Guess I'll just head off to bed and see if it pops up tomorrow.
That really wamps to because I wanted to see your pics.
Bellaryna
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:[ I'm sure they'll be up there tomorrow. If you can't find them then, just let me know and I'll email them to you. :] sleep well!!
 
Okay so I got a TON of sleep yesterday. Bad idea because now I'm up still. But I'm really sleepy so that's alright. I'm gonna go get to sleep. Not sure what time I'll make it on here tomorrow as I have a really busy day (ugh). Buuuuut I will try to make it on at least once!

much love to everyone!!
xoxo
 
Hey I finally found your post with the pics. Thanks for offering to email them. I guess maybe there was something with my computer turning into a pumpkin last night at midnight. :rofl:
I agree with Ambalove that you look better with the brown hair.
I love the outfit that your wearing in your photo. Is that look on your face because you hate getting your photo taken or you just lookin' tuff. Cuz' I wouldn't be messing with you. :doh:
Well I hope that you have a good day. Keep on losing you loser. Man I am jealous. I can't wait until I have lost 10 pounds and people start to notice.
Have a great day!!
Bellaryna
 
You're hotshit, so stop playing it off...lol

Hey mami,

look at you being all cute. You're adorable with your vert labret and snake bites. Awww...... you so belong at Vertex. LMAO! Anyways, I'll agree with Jenna in saying you're beautiful. Also, I agree with Ms. Amber, I love you as a brunette... :D By the way.... 3 more pounds, little lady. WOOOOT! :hug2:

-Sheryl
 
Bellaryna said:
Hey I finally found your post with the pics. Thanks for offering to email them. I guess maybe there was something with my computer turning into a pumpkin last night at midnight. :rofl:
I agree with Ambalove that you look better with the brown hair.
I love the outfit that your wearing in your photo. Is that look on your face because you hate getting your photo taken or you just lookin' tuff. Cuz' I wouldn't be messing with you. :doh:
Well I hope that you have a good day. Keep on losing you loser. Man I am jealous. I can't wait until I have lost 10 pounds and people start to notice.
Have a great day!!
Bellaryna
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:] I agree on the brown hair better than the blonde. My poor hair has been through so many colours, it's insane. :eek: The face is because I absolutely haaaaaaate getting my picture taken, and I hate smiling. lol, I'm weird, I know. :p I also wasn't wearing any makeup so I look a teence scary. lol.


MsGhettoBooty said:
Hey mami,

look at you being all cute. You're adorable with your vert labret and snake bites. Awww...... you so belong at Vertex. LMAO! Anyways, I'll agree with Jenna in saying you're beautiful. Also, I agree with Ms. Amber, I love you as a brunette... :D By the way.... 3 more pounds, little lady. WOOOOT! :hug2:

-Sheryl
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ooooh Sheryl, you always make me smile! :hug2: Thanks for the compliments. :] one of these days I'll actually post a picture where I'm smiling and don't look like complete ass. haha. 3 more pounds and I'll be a happy gushy mess!
 
Okay so I got really crappy sleep last night. Kept waking up almost every 2 hours. :mad: So I think I'm gonna try and get another hour or so in before I go running around.

My knee is killing me. I've had 2 surgeries on this beast and it never seems to get any better. Ever since I can remember my knee has always hurt and has "given out" a lot while running/exercising.


When I was 12 we decided to go to the orthopedic surgeon to see what was up with it. Got x-rays and all that jazz and turns out I had bone fragments floating around in there ripping apart the cartilage and tissues in my knee. I got surgery where they drilled into my knee to promote bleeding in hopes that the bone fragments would re attach themselves. They healed and everything seemed like it was hunky dory for a few months. After my knee was done healing (according to the doctor) it still hurt.

Fast forward to when I'm 18. Working at a restaurant as a hostess/sales support person. Busy day and I'm running around all day as usual. Suddenly it feels like an earthquake. I ask anyone else if they felt that and they said no. Then I go to walk and I realize that my knee has locked up. Hobbled over to a table with the help of a friend and sit down. I can't bend my knee at all.

So the next day I go back to my doc and they take a ton of x-rays. I find out that all of the pieces broke free and in addition to that I had more pieces because those original ones broke into smaller pieces and apparently more of my bone had broken off. I find out that my meniscus had torn. And the cartilage in my knee was pretty much shot. Have surgery again but this time they remove the bone pieces. The doctor said he couldn't fix the tear in my meniscus because of the spot that it was in was hard to get to and it was too close to a nerve sack. Healing, blah blah blah, had to leave my job because my knee couldn't handle it anymore, blah blah blah, months of physical therapy.

Now I'm 20, have had 2 knee surgeries and my knee is still fuct. The doctor admitted that he must have nicked my nerve sack and that's why I can't feel the top of my knee anymore. ass.

Stupid knee. lol. There's my sob story guys. The knee is a lot of the reason why I've gained weight over the years. Even walking around a store for 30 minutes is pure agony. I'm not saying that that's the whole reason why I've gained weight, I've made some bad ass food choices in the time too, so I'm not blaming the knee for it all. lol.

Okay, I'm going to get another half hour or so of sleep. Talk to you all later!! Have a fab day ladies.

xoxo
 
So today was pretty boring. I did a lot of junk that I really didn't want to do.

I think I have an eye infection. :mad: It's itchy and keeps going blurry. It's not oozing but it keeps getting rid of this goop. I guess I'll see how it is tomorrow morning and if it's still bad I'll go to the doctors.

I lost another pound which puts me down to 201!!! 2 more pounds and then I'm in onderland. That's gonna feel awesome.

Maybe I'll be able to look cute on my one year with David on Oct. 2. That would be awesome.

My life seems to be coming together. Losing weight will open my job opportunities so much. I can't wait until Bamboozle in May 2008. My band that I work for will be seeing me for the first time in two years. They don't know about my weight loss. They'll be amazed at my transformation. I can't wait!!!

Okay, I'm going to go exercise and eat dinner. Hope everyone had a fab day.

xoxo
 
Hey Elle,

Congrats on your pound lost... you're sooo close to onderland... i'm soo excited for you.. like it was myself:)

Looks like everything is comeing together for you... that is soo wonderful!

You're going to look amazing on your anniversary... you already do so you can only improve from amazing!!

Lots of Love
~Jenna
 
ellebelle said:
My knee is killing me. I've had 2 surgeries on this beast and it never seems to get any better. Ever since I can remember my knee has always hurt and has "given out" a lot while running/exercising.
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Elle I am so sorry to hear about your knee. Gil is going thru some similiar probs with his so I can truly understand. I am going to send some hugs :hug2: your way hoping you feel better soon.
Bellaryna
 
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