Sweetpea: The Road to Me

SunnySweetpea

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How much weight do you want to lose?

40-45 ponds

What is the time frame for reaching your target weight?

I would like to drop 2 dress sizes (size 16 to size 12) by July for a friend's wedding and would like to drop all the weight by the end of this year. Thanksgiving would be best.

How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)

Exercise, less stress eating (the hard part), eating healthy, plan to start the "You on a diet" thing when I finish the book, but I'm incorporating parts of it now. I'm not joining a gym, though I'd like to. :(

Who or what can support you in reaching your goal?

Uh. . .right now, me and uh. . me. That about covers it.

How realistic is your goal?

Personally, I think very. A year (ok, 9 months) to lose 40 pounds equates to roughly 4.5 pounds a month or a pound a week. I plan to lose 8 to 10 pounds a month, which, factoring in expected plateau stages (those evil, plateaus!) should all even out in the end

When will you start?

This past few weeks I've been eating better, but I'm reading a book called You On a Diet and plan to start that diet in a week or so after I finish the book.

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All right, now that the Q & A time is over, here's my motivation, what I'm doing, and why even writing this diary pushes my personal frustration button.

I was a reasonably trim teenager who's parents thought she was too fat (I was within normal limits for age/height. My dad's overweight and my mother was a thin former high school cheerleader who, unfortunately has gained weight in recent years due to medications, so she's really not happy with herself right now. Back in the day, my folks sent me to nutrisystem and I dropped 15 lbs (I wasn't allowed to drop more because it wouldn't have been healthy (I was 125, I could have gone down a few more pounds, but it wasn't really necessary, and my parents were just glad I lost some of that weight.) They've still been on me about my weight ever since. My way of rebelling (and keeping my sanity) was to ignore them. There was nothing wrong with my weight though I gained some in college. I kinda sort of cared several years ago when I hit 150, but I was in school and had better things to worry about, so I did Slimfast on and off with some success. Anyway, I saw photos of myself last summer when I was a bridesmaid and was shocked. I want to know who that is and what is she doing with my face. I had reached 168 lbs. I tried to exercising, but with part time work and a dissertation that I was freaking out over, I had little time. Recent photos of me are worse. I weigh about 178-180 now and I really don't recognise myself anymore, it competes with my internal image of myself.

So I'm exercising or walking everyday for 20-30 minutes (it's all the time I can afford and I can't afford a gym membership at the moment), drinking 8-10 glasses of water, and still eating healthy (I've always eaten healthy--except for college--I have no idea where the weight is coming from. Seriously. It's frustrating) I hate "diets" and think all the fad stuff is bunk, and told my parents so. Anyhow, my motivation is to match the physical me up with the me in my head, hence the title of this diary. Unfortunately, doing so means fighting with the me who defies her parents annoying prodding hence the reason why this diary pushes my frustration button.

Now that I've ranted, I'm going to go have a yogurt.

Today's meals:

Breakfast: (I was naughty) 1 serving of corned beef hash with one egg, cup of Earl Grey tea with skim milk and 2 tespoons of sugar (it's the only tea I put anything in, but green and herbal teas I drink straight)

Snack: 1/4 c. slivered almonds

Lunch: Blueberry yogurt with soy nuts (I like things that crunch)

Snack: apple

Dinner: homade taco/burrito thing, maybe some lemonade instead of water.
 
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Yeah for starting a diary & starting this whole process!

I think your goal sounds really reasonable. & you have more than you for support, there are a ton of us on this site. Sounds like we are very similar, the skinny in high school... I was in ballet 13 years & anorexic... then gained the weight to the point of where you look at yourself & don't even know who that person is that is wearing your clothes & sitting in your seat in those pictures. We can do it. We have similar weights at the moment & I would love to hit 135, but am going to be happy as a clam if NO WHEN I get to 145.

GOOD LUCK.

Can't wait to hear more from you.

Oh & I have that book too! The You on a Diet. Started it, then ended up picking up something else before finishing it. I have a bad habit of doing that. I think at the moment I'm in the middle of about 6 books... ridiculous huh?
 
Hey MoonGoddess, Thanks! Yeah, I know, I never thought I'd ever be like the women in the weight loss commercials who couldn't stand looking at picutes of themselves, but here I am. I got to go horseback riding last weekend, someone took a picture of me on my very cool mount, and I was so disappointed when he e-mailed the photo to me. :( You're already on your way! My butterfly hasn't moved her little butt yet. (Might help if I actually bought a scale).



Breakfast: finished off the corned beef with 2 eggs (busy day, need my energy

Lunch: Chicken Fajita Lean Pocket, 5 baby carrots

Snack: 12 baby carrots

Dinner: the same ol' burrito/taco thing., pudding (to get my chocolate fix)

Note: last night I had a Cadbury caramel egg after dinner.
 
Breakfast: cold cereal w/ skim milk, Earl Grray tea w/ 2 tsps sugar, a little milk

Lunch: Lean Pocket (280 cals), water

Snack: handful of slivered almonds

Dinner: undecided


I'm stuck in front of the computer and I want microwave popcorn! :(
 
Hi Sweatpea,
Welcome to the WLF and to your diary :)

Your goals sound very realistic and I wish you all the best (and I'm sure that little butterfly will flap her wings in NO time!)
 
Forcing myself to check in:

I've felt like crud the past few days, so dieting went wiggywampus. I have been walking daily for 30-50 minutes, though.

Breakfast: Kashi Go Lean cereal, skim milk, Earl Gray tea w/ 2 tsps sugar and some milk

Snack: almonds (1 serving)

Lunch: not entirely sure (lunch served at a mtg) chicken salad? wrap, salad w/ 1 tbs. dressing, apple, cookie, my water bottle

Snagged another cookie walking out after meeting

Snack: one serving almonds

Dinner: probably pasta of some kind

No walking today because mtg. took up my lunch time.

What's really disheartening is that I caught a glimse of myself in a store winow walking to work this morning. I don't think I'm losing any weight. It's really annoying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh! And I got another FAT photo of me in the mail the other day (in a very nice Thank You card). Me and the skinny people. yippee. Why do I SUDDENLY care about this?
 
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Try not to beat yourself up over the photos.... as hard as that is. Just remind yourself that it is the past & you are actively working on getting yourself to where you want to be. Maybe use that as fuel to help you stick to your plan.

Trust you are not alone in those feelings. I cringe at pics I'm in with all my perfect lil skinny friends. But I want to get to a point where I don't hate that person posing as me. So I exercise & try to watch what I put in my mouth & remember who I am eating for... the thinner healthy me inside rather than the big me I see.

It takes time. Just stick with it & your body will get the idea.

Just think about how long it took to reach where you are... I know for me the gaining has been YEARS, so the weight loss will take some time, hopefully not as long! :)
 
Thanks, guys, I hope I'm losing weight. I feel like I've actually gained some. Blech!

I doubt it, but IF you have, then hear this:
Last autumn I joined a gym. Wanted to get rid of some weight. Ended up gaining five poundish (greetings from the kilogram part of the world!). Joined this community in January: have lost 13.4 pounds by now. Pounds seem to come and go, but there's no denying that this thing really works.
We're here for you, come rain or shine, so I think you can do it!
Juliette
PS. Don't like my photos either.. But like it or not, it's only me who's in denial about how I look. All the rest of the world already knows, and likes me anyway.. ;)
 
Totally blew my diet last night. I went out after church an had Rubio's w/ my buds. I figure one burrito has to be at least a thousand calories (no, I'm not going onto their website to check out the actual calories, I had fun, let's let the good times roll, baby) and the soda topped it off (don't know why I didn't bring my water bottle to church, it slipped my mind) Throw in the lean pocket for lunch and the bag of microwave popcorn I had in the afternoon, and I had to have close to 2 thousand calories all together. And actually, I don't really care. Ah appathy, the cure to stress. *snort-ha*

Today:

Breakfast: Go lean cereal w/ skim milk, Earl Gray tea w/ sugar/milk

Lunch: Thai Food someone gave me yesterday--mostly veggies, lemonade

Snack: Almonds

Dinner: Chicken Lasangna (I don't want to look up spelling right now), salad

I don't see a pattern to my eating yet. I wonder if that's a problem?
 
Hi SunnySweetPea; welcome. I always called my sons Sweet Pea.

I have two little booklets by my bedside, one's for OverEater's Anonymous (which I didn't go to but I bought their book) and the other one's called Food for Thought by Hazelden. I'm an emotional overeater so these little booklets remind me there is no rhyme or reason or pattern to my eating habits. I ... just ... like ... to ... eat. It's an addiction for me. Addicts will tell you the first drink of booze or the first hit of a drug will be the slippery slope to using, or drinking, full tilt. That's the way it is for me and eating. I can't say to myself, oh a little bit of fudge today. Nah ahh, that just spikes my blood sugar and it's ALL SYSTEMS GO for a binge of chocolate. Sugar begets sugar kind-of-thing. I envy people who are able to have a little something and then not go down the hill.

Don't worry about last night, habits take time to change and looks like you had a great day!
 
So I joined a gym two weeks ago, mostly because exercising on my own made no freaking difference:flame: I even got a trainer. If I don't start losing weight, my head may explode.
 
Nice to see you back here!
We've often seen people who have claimed their heads would explode. That almost never happens. :rotflmao: So I think you're safe...
Good going with the gym! Any chance of a sneak peek into what the trainer has you doing there?
Juliette
 
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