Susie's Diary

Susie2

Susie2

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Hello, I'm a bit nervous =P I want to make sure I don't skip anything. Being honest to yourself and others is the first step imo. I'm a 25 year old Mommy of 1 (but have given birth twice) I've struggled with weight issues since I was about 18. The past year my body is just so tired, carrying around extra weight, and being severly depressed about it has taken away from my daily life. I was one of those women that said to herself before going to bed...I'm going to do this tomarrow...When I thought about it before bed, I always got pumped, but as soon as I woke up it was like I never said it :( But I've been researching the past week, and I'm ready to start living my life as intended!

I don't have a ton of money to get any fancy diets or gym memberships, So i've narrowed it down to eating more healthy, and walking my butt off, and exercizing at home. (If anyone has any websites showing some good at home exercize's please let me know!)

So my issues are I don't have a scale yet, and like I said I can't afford a pricey scale....is a regular bathroom scale just as good? I haven't been weighed since after I had my daughter who is almost 3 now :eek: The day I gave birth to her I weighed in at exactly 200lbs, and when I did my last checkup after having her I was 185. I'm still around that weight...and it makes me sick :eek:

Now the kicker to my life...I am a smoker. I have also spent about a week looking up ways to naturally quit...and I think with walking and excerisizing it'll help with my urges to have one or eat, or any other bad habits i could get. the day I can walk 4 miles (even one mile) without feeling like my chest is gunna burst will be one of the happiest moments in my life!

I know I'm missing a lot, but like I said I'm nervous and I will keep adding :)
 
Hey Susie! Welcome! I guess I'm the first to say so.
Good luck. It's not a diet you should follow but a life style change and I think you're heading in that path, for sure. I quit smoking and changed my eating habits at the same time. It worked for 2 weeks, then I started smoking again. However I have been forever changed when it comes to food and exercise. So with all this being said, I'm Jess. From April 12-May 3rd I've lost 21.5 pounds.
19 With a Dream, my diary is fairly new as well, but newbies and oldies we're all really friendly here. So welcome to your diary and your next step in life.
 
Hi Susie!

Welcome to WLF. No need to be nervous we are all friendly!

Your plan sounds good, don't worry, you really don't need expensive stuff for this! My scale was £3 and its fine. I am lucky in that I have a REALLY cheap student gym near mine, but you don't need to pay for going for a walk or a jog or something!

Why don't you get some cheap exercize dvds from amazon or something? There are LOADS to choose from and although some may scoff there are loads of advantages to doing them. They're cheap, you do them again and again and you really start to notice yourself improve, and, if you suffer from execise embarassement (which I used to) no one can see you doing them!

I'm lookin forward to checking into your journal again :)
 
Thanks for the welcomes, I'm going to go out tomarrow and get a scale. I've already done my grocery shopping. Which was a chore in itself, buying skim milk over 2% (Got in the habit of 2% because of my daughter) Looking at labels, and buying non fat things. I think I spent an hour longer in the store then I normally would hehe

Yes I am embarassed by excersizing. When I have went to gyms in the past, I feel like i'm the only overweight person there :eek: I wish I could get my b/f to excersize with me as he has gained weight also since our daughter was born, but he's content where he is. I feel better when I have someone to do it with, and since I moved from Ohio to Philly I don't have my sisters to do it with anymore. :( I will definetly look up some cheap exercize dvds. I can afford to spend alittle money...just nothing fancy like machines and stuff of that sort.

I don't want to lose a Large amount of weight too fast, but at a good pace, as for walking whats a good way to start out? Like how many days a week, and for how long...and how exactly do I tell how far I have walked (or does it matter?) I'm a newb when it comes to this stuff:p

After I get my scale I will get a little ticker so everyone can see my progress! Yay! I'm so excited!
 
Instead of Low Fat, you should try and look for; More Protein, Less Calories and Less Carbs. Fat's aren't the real problem however, you should also try and steer clear of Saturated and Trans Fats... but I'm sure you already know cause it's in every commercial imaginable now and being shoved down our throats!
You should start setting goals and enter challenges, they're very motivating and it always give us something to look forward to. What are you doing for exercise?
 
Hi again Susie!


Susie said:
I don't want to lose a Large amount of weight too fast, but at a good pace, as for walking whats a good way to start out? Like how many days a week, and for how long...and how exactly do I tell how far I have walked (or does it matter?) I'm a newb when it comes to this stuff:p
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Walking is great! :rolleyes: I don't know how much/often you should start out, it depends on SO many things! And there are lots of people around here who are far more qualified to give advice like that than me!

But one thing-the easiest way to see exactly how far you've walked:



You can find where you live and draw on where you walked and it tells you! Easier and cheaper than a pedometer I think!

Good luck :D
 
Hi Susie,

I'm pretty new here too...I just wanted to say hi! I know how you feel being nervous but I think you've made the first step which is the only way to get to the end of the journey!! Personally I'm hoping to make a lifestyle change so I'm trying not to be too extreem in what I do coz I won't be able to keep it up long-term. I've got some exercise DVDs and they're good fun...I've used them in the past and found that they're good if you feel a bit embarassed exercising in front of others!

Anyway, good luck! :)
 
I've been neglecting my diary :( But I've written down everything i've eaten and any type of workout I did...So i'll share that at the end. I still haven't gotten a scale yet, but I do have a tape measure...so until I get one I'll work with that. I want one really bad, but I'm low on money atm....and just hate spending the money...well my b/f does :rolleyes:
I went walking today...1.5 hours, took my daughter with me, and had a nice walk at 7am. (Since it's getting warm I want to beat the heat :p ) Wow, I'm used to driving everywhere and you don't realize how hilly the area where you live is until you're walking. It took me a good 20 minutes before I felt good...I'm guessing because i'm out of shape and i'm a smoker it'll take some time before I can walk and not feel like keeling over =P hehe I also realized I need to buy new shoes...but for temporary I got some new cushioned soles for my current shoes. When I got home I felt so good about myself, my little girl was happy to get out, and I enjoyed doing that with her. I think i'm gunna switch up the days I take her with though...I can walk a longer distance and more quickly if i'm not pushing a stroller.

So does anyone else feel like when you're walking, everyone that passes is staring at you? I live in university city, in west philly...so it's mainly college kids, mostly thin attractive people i like to say :rolleyes: I kept telling myself "They're not staring at you, and if they are who cares." I can only imagine my face being red and sweaty from being so out of shape....but i'm trying ya know....so who are they to stare at me :mad:

Okay one more thing and i'll stop =P I've been struggling with drinking all my water. I've read some others are having a rough time also...but i've never been a big drinker of anything. I would sip here and there, i'm not sure what my problem is. I tell my self chug chug and i've been running to the bathroom like I was 8 months pregnant again. :eek: im going to try so hard to get all my water in today I'm at 4 bottles, and it's 1pm 4-5 more...come on I can do it!
 
May 7th

30 minutes of excersizing (situps, pushups, etc)

Water - 4/8 bottles (Ugh)

Breakfast:

Yogurt *6oz - 60 calories
Banana *Whole - 90 calories (im unsure about fruit calories)

Lunch:

Tuna Sandwich - 300 calories

Small Salad (Less then a cup, with thousand island) 55 calories

Snack: Celery and a bit of peanut butter 190 calories

Dinner: Steak, Steamed brocolli, and cottage cheese (Had 505 to work with)

May 8th

Water - 3/8 Bottles

Breakfast:

Grapenuts (1/2 cup and 1/2 cup of skim milk) 240 calories

Lunch:

Salad (cup of lettuce, 1/2 can of tuna, 2 tbls of fat free dressing.) 150 calories

Half a Banana - 70 calories

Snack: Celery, 2tbls peanut butter - 190 calories

Dinner: (550 to work with) Had Spagetti with 1/2 cup sauce

May 9th

Walked for 1.5 hours w/ daughter in stroller (omg you don't realize how hilly it is till you're actually walking)

Water 4/8

Breakfast:

Grapenuts (1/2 cup and 1/2 cup of skim milk) 240 calories

Lunch:

Can of Tuna (Half a sandwich, other half on 3 triscut crackers) 300 calories

I haven't had dinner yet, btw I'm a tuna fish fanatic....I'm sticking to what I like, but know I need to start switching it up. Oh and grapenuts after putting a half cup in my bowl i was like wow, is this supposed to fill me up? It actually did and it was weird....but I like it =)

Before anything is said I know I need to drink more water :eek: guess I should make time limits for each bottle of water.
 
Blah! I have Bronchitis, and to top it off I got my period today so I'm bloated and crampy, and not wanting to do anything :mad: I'm not craving a big candybar like I normally do, but i've been staring at the exercise site I use and my mind is saying nonono =( I keep telling myself exercise helps cramps, I need a boost of energy it seems =(

Well I had to vent...i'm off to convince myself some more to get off my butt and exercise.
 
Hi hon, hope you managed your exercise! I feel you on the period thing :mad:

I doubt people are staring at you, but like you said, even if they are it's they're problem! But you are probably just projecting your self consious feelings onto others :) I bet when you get more used to getting out there red faced and sweaty you won't think that any more!

I wouldn't stress TOO much about the water issue. I may get lynched for saying this around here, but it really is debatable whether drinking EXCESS water does any good or not.

Check out
http://weight-loss.fitness.com/nutrition/10489-completely-confused-nutrition.html#post216548

Of course I'm sure you could also find studies that say the opposite...

Anyhoo, take care and keep up the good work!! :hug2:
 
Thanks for the advice kezzy :) I've been eating a lot of fruits, that have a lot of water in them...I don't feel dehydrated, and i'm constantly going to the bathroom hehe. I think i'm doing a lot better though, I mean before I joined here I would barely drink anything...I gave up soda a year ago, which was surprisingly easy, and I mean I was drinking LOTS of it it seemed, or well wasting it, I would open a can, take a few drinks...let it sit and get warm and pitch it. Ever since I gave up soda I was big into gatorade drinks, and the flavored vitamin water (tastes like koolaid but without all the sugar.) But I have limited those drinks, and made them into a "snack" or "treat" for me. I had a fruit punch flavored poweraide yesterday, and it tasted so good, I wish it was like that with water all the time hehe.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!! To all the Mommies out there! I think I'm gunna take a scenery walk with my daughter later this evening before it gets dark (a bit warm out right now) I was feeling alittle down cause my mother lives in Ohio and me in PA...So I called my mom and sisters, and they were all hanging out today...but I had asked my younger sister if she could send me a pair of shoes that she didn't wear much, because she is a complete shoe freak...but like most shoe freaks she only wears them a few times before retiring them to the closet. She said she would, but then my mom chimed in saying she would buy me a brand new pair of athletic shoes for walking and running. I wanted to cry, but I'm so excited that she's doing that for me...I think she realizes that I am taking this serious this time and by buying me shoes, it shows that she is rooting me on! So yay! Soon I'll have better shoes to walk in so my feet won't kill me :)

So last night for dinner I made rice a roni with our steaks...my b/f and daughter love it...and I normally do too, so I decided it was okay to have some, I had only a spoonfull...but I was content with it, I had steamed veggies also...but I have had an easier time with portions lately...keeping them small, and surprisingly being content after meals. I think thats a big accomplishment seeings I had a huge problem with over eating because the portions were bigger, and well to be honest it tasted good so I would finish it. I think I am doing awesome so far when it comes to food...I'm slacking on the exercise but I've been toying with home routines, and hoping soon to find one right for me and sticking to it.

I found out my ipod still works after my daughter slightly mangled it =P haha, so I'm alittle excited about that, yay for music during my walks now!

Today has been good, and I'm looking forward to my mommy/daughter walk later...again Happy mothers day!
 
I'm a bit sore today :mad: I just started my exercise routine at home yesterday. I felt good afterwards, definetly felt the burn...but I woke up and my body ached. But I pushed on and did it again today. My body is so sore now all I wanna do is soak in the tub. My upper body hurts from push ups, my stomach hurts from sit ups and crunches, and my back hurts from laying on the floor...my legs don't hurt...but my legs are prolly the strongest part of my body.

I'm still waiting on my shoes in the mail....but excited, I can't wait to go walking again. It's my favorite kind of exercise :jump:

What exactly does jumping jacks do for you? Thinking about taking that up lol

Well I decided to not post everything I've eaten....for the most part I know i'm sticking within 1000-1300 calories a day...I eat a lot of grapenuts for breakfast, and tuna fish for lunch, and meat with steamed veggies for dinner. I'm not a big spices person, I like bland foods with little to no salt. Most of my sodium intake is from foods with salt in them, I never add more.

I'm still struggling with water intake, but my family is good about reminding me, so it helps....and if i'm not drinking water I always go for gatorade or vitamin water which imo is better then sugary juice, milk, or soda.
 
Okay I know that you can do exercises wrong, and end up hurting more. I have been doing push-ups (mind you not many I started doing 20 and uped it by 5 today) I'm two days in. But my arms are so sore, around my shoulder area...the inner part to be exact. If I lift my arms it's like Oww :mad: Am I doing something wrong, or is it just that I am in fact really out of shape, and my body is getting used to working out? I'm hoping that is the case and it'll stop in time.

I'm always worrying about something :rolleyes:
 
Susie said:
I'm still struggling with water intake, but my family is good about reminding me, so it helps....and if i'm not drinking water I always go for gatorade or vitamin water which imo is better then sugary juice, milk, or soda.
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Gatorade has a ton of sugar in it - one of it's key ingredients is High Fructose Corn Syrup - something that really should be avoided... I'm not so sure it's better than soda...

What exactly does jumping jacks do for you?
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cardio.. gets your heart rate up..
 
maleficent said:
Gatorade has a ton of sugar in it - one of it's key ingredients is High Fructose Corn Syrup - something that really should be avoided... I'm not so sure it's better than soda...
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That sucks :mad: Guess it's back to water, I'm still new to all of this, so I don't know it all...thanks for letting me know :)
 
Susie said:
Okay I know that you can do exercises wrong, and end up hurting more. I have been doing push-ups (mind you not many I started doing 20 and uped it by 5 today) I'm two days in. But my arms are so sore, around my shoulder area...the inner part to be exact. If I lift my arms it's like Oww :mad: Am I doing something wrong, or is it just that I am in fact really out of shape, and my body is getting used to working out? I'm hoping that is the case and it'll stop in time.

I'm always worrying about something :rolleyes:
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Sounds like you're just feeling the burn of getting into shape. The first couple weeks of starting new exercises always leave me sore. Push ups especially have always made me sore when first starting out. Just don't give up and know that there is nothing wrong with taking a day off if your body needs rest. Keep up the good work!
 
IMO, as long as it's just a sore achey feeling, not actual PAIN, it's probably just your muscles moaning a bit- occupational hazard of healthy living- muscles like being lazy! So, if I were you i'd keep up with the exercising of cousre, but go gentler as your muscles get used to it- no point burning yourself out!
 
I'm stuck in a rut, since I lowered my calories...and I think i've been doing really well...i've actually hit a spot where i'm less hungry, which I know sounds Awesome! It's not though, cause the last two days I have been literally making myself eat. I eat a half cup of grapenuts for breakfast and sometimes i add fresh fruit on the side...which is really filling...but then the rest of the day I literally do not feel hungry....I have to force myself to eat a can of tuna, or cut up veggies, or even a Turkey sandwich...and by the time dinner rolls around I'll actually get hungry...but struggle to figure out what to eat. I have to make seperate meals most nights, cause my b/f and daughter are not dieting like myself. So by the time i'm done making their food...i'm like ugh! The only thing I have any patience to make is yet again a turkey sandwich with maybe some avacado and some already cut veggies.

Point of this was i'm annoyed with eating, and i'm afraid i'm not eating enough...I need to figure something out fast, cause my current situation I feel is just gunna go downhill leading me to lose track of my goals. So i'm eating healthier, just not enough...and I don't want to get to a point where im simply not losing any weight.

I needed to rant...i'm glad I made this diary, I feel slightly better now that i've written it down. :cool:
 
Tusk said:
Sounds like you're just feeling the burn of getting into shape. The first couple weeks of starting new exercises always leave me sore. Push ups especially have always made me sore when first starting out. Just don't give up and know that there is nothing wrong with taking a day off if your body needs rest. Keep up the good work!
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Nice, now i'm not so worried. I lowered my push ups back down to 20 for now, and I'm taking a break on Sunday :) Still a little sore, but pushing on hehe
 
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