Struggles on the road to health

depressing news...

Well, while at lunch today I did my bra measurements. I started as a 38D and LOVED the size....

My measurements today said I'm an A cup. :svengo:

now, nothing wrong with being an A cup, unless you're like me and LOVED having boobs. It's like a part of my entire being is GONE. And it's not helping my overall feeling regarding my appearance.

Also, I now feel like I need to get down another 10+ pounds beyond my goal, so my body looks proportional. Right now I don't think it does...particularly being a freakin' A cup. :banghead:
 
Did you get measured or did you do it yourself? Just asking because I get different numbers than what the "bra people" got. And I would be wearing the wrong sized bra if it weren't for the official measurement.
 
I measured myself, which I learned after posting that last update was a mistake. So the husband helped me yesterday evening, and we came up with a 37C...which would make me a 38C instead of my current 38D.

It's weird how the number AROUND hasn't changed...

But anyway, I'm going to get a professional fitting done. Not that I don't trust the husband's measurements, but it's not a man thing. I'll get a pro to do it before I spend any cash....

Ticker changed, too!!! 163!!!

I'm still thinking about changing the goal to 150...I may hang out a little bit once I get to 160 and see what I think then.
 
Usually you decrease in band size but the cup size stays about the same. I still say go get measured by someone who knows how to do it. Even JC Penney has people that can measure you.

:party: On the new number!
 
I'm just the opposite...band size is the same, but my cup size has spiraled downward rapidly....Victoria's Secret, here I come!!

I'm excited today! A friend I used to work with in another town is coming in to visit today, and we're going to lunch together. I haven't seen her in more than a year, I think. So she hasn't seen me since I've lost any weight. Should be fun. She's been trying to lose, as well, and I've been helping her some.

I'll be sure and make semi-good food choices when we're out at lunch today, since no restaurant in my town serves anything but fried stuff. Wish me luck!!!
 
Definitely get measured... a properly fitted bra will make you look better, and feel better - and entirely too many women wear the wrong size...
 
Another weekend...

...another failed shopping attempt.

We were going to get up and go shopping early Saturday. The husband had to buy a trailer, and therefore we had to get to a town 40 miles away by noon Saturday, when the trailer place closed. Cool, I thought. Until Friday afternoon, when the last home high school baseball game of the season, against our school's biggest rival, was rescheduled to 11 a.m. Saturday, and I had to be there.

Yay.

So the husband went shopping without me, and I got sunburned at a baseball game. We ended up having to go to a smaller town, closer to us, and I found a couple of shirts and bit the bullet and bought a new bra, based on the unprofessional measurements we put together. Yeah. Doesn't fit. The 38 around is fine...the cup size isn't. Right now, my chest is like two totally deflated balloons. Will that ever change...will things "even out," so to speak?

Sunday we had my husband's family reunion to go to, and I got even more sunburned during softball. So today I'm in pain and was late to work because the lady didn't open the workout center 'til 7:05, so I didn't get to get started 'til after 7:10 am, and was late getting done and getting to work even though I cut the workout a little short.

On a positive note, I didn't gain any weight over the weekend. Looks like the addition of sugar back into the tea hasn't caused any adverse effects. Hasn't helped yet, either. But it's too early to tell, I suppose.
 
Wow you are such an inspiration! Just amazing what you did in the past months! And you are so close to your goal!

I also have the bra problem. I was a 36DD when I started this, and now, 15 pounds into it I am a 36C... I am happy with the C part, but the girls just don't look happy!!! They are saggy and the stretch marks, which were always there but when the girls were full, they were sort of "stretched" out and not as noticeable, are now really really noticeable! They look like indents in a deflated shopping bag!
I still have more than half the way to go, and I am afraid the girls will suffer horribly under this! I mean, it won't stop me, but it is just a non pleasant side effect (I always thought starting smaller, I would not have really bad side effects!).

Keep the great work up! Camy
 
Hey Camy! Thanks for visiting! I hate to say I'm glad to see someone else is having the same problems with "The girls" as I am...but you know what I mean!

I was lucky to not have stretch marks on my chest, but there are plenty on my arms and lower stomach. No bikini for me this year. Or maybe ever. But that's ok.

I found that I lost the boobs first, really before anything else. My first noticeable losses were in my chest, and then it kind of evened out from there, over the rest of my body, as time has gone by.
 
It's been a blah week, for sure. TOM-type problems. But that's always a guaranteed weight loss for me, for some reason.

In fact, the scale this morning said 160. I know it'll bounce back up another pound or two, but it was fun seeing that 1-6-0 for the first time.

I'm also really considering resetting my goal to 150. Still some I could stand to get rid of around the middle section, arms and legs. I know it'll come off in its own order, and in its own due time with workouts...so I'll have to keep trying as long as people stop freaking out about how I'm "too skinny."

On one hand, I realize that the people saying this just aren't used to seeing me this way, and it's such a big difference from 220 to 160 that it's taking some getting used to. But at the same time, I wonder if there's something THEY see that I don't, know what I mean? I've told a couple of people I want to go for another 10 pounds, and they've had fits of "NO! You're skinny enough" or "You don't want to get TOO thin!" One of those people is a size 4 friend who thinks she's a whale, too. But that's another post for another day.

So we'll see how it goes.

This weekend will be busy. I've got to go out of town to cover a softball game tonight, then get up early and drive to another town to help my dad and sister clean out a storage building that's full of goodies from when we were growing up. Nice, physical trip down memory lane, there. Sunday I get to clean, do laundry and our monthly grocery shopping...whoo hoo.

We've started shopping for three weeks at a time, and making a menu of what we're going to eat every night for that time frame. It helps a LOT with calorie counting because I don't have to sit and wonder every day what's for dinner...I can plan an entire day's worth of food in advance. With gas prices as they are, though, we may have to go up to 4 weeks of planning just to cut out that trip for one other week.

For the bulk of our shopping we have to go out of town to a big grocery store, or a super wal-mart. Our one local store is INSANELY expensive. One week of groceries there has cost me $80 before, and THREE weeks of the basics, other than meat, milk and veggies (which I buy locally), costs us around $100 at wal-mart. So we make the drive.

That's why it's so hard to eat healthy around here, if you shop exclusively locally. There's no real demand for it, and it's too expensive for them to get, so the store doesn't order it. And the things they do get are so insanely priced it's ridiculous and you can't afford them. :banghead:
 
WTG on reaching 160! :hurray:

I think that's awesome to shop for 3 wks at a time. I should do that as I hate to shop. And it would really help with menus too. I think for the most part we do buy for a good time, but then it's always running to the store for this or that (usually the fresh stuff.)

Have a great weekend!
 
We go to the store once a week for the fresh stuff, SweatPea...but even then the bulk shopping really cuts down on costs.

Oh, and the 160 was temporary. I'm at 162 today...which is still a 1 pound loss from before my TOM!!! :party:
 
One more pound!

Scale's been at 161 for two days!!! Whoo hoo for me!!! I'm one pound from goal and still seriously contemplating dropping another 10, in spite of the fact that everyone here is saying I'm "too skinny" now. I'm maybe thinking it's just that my clothes are too big, and it's making me look thinner than I am?

Who knows? I'll decide somewhere in the next couple of pounds if I want to keep going.

Went this morning to work out. I think I'm 100% sticking with morning workouts from now on. I just feel so blah and unmotivated when I wait until the afternoon, and I get NOTHING done at work. Now at least I know it's that I'm lazy if I get nothing done at work, and not because I feel run down. :ack2:

Kinda worried today, though. I woke up this morning and reached up to rub the back of my neck and felt a lump on the left side, toward the back and kind of down toward my shoulders. It hurts when I push on it...so I guess I go to the doctor sometime today or tomorrow. Hope it's not anything too horribly bad.

Tonight we're having chicken alfredo...made with leftover grilled chicken from last night (it was SO good), Ragu garlic parmesan alfredo sauce and whole wheat rotini. This is our first foray into whole wheat pasta...hope it's good.

Oh, and the husband and I are going out to dinner for the first time in FOREVER on Friday. He wants to go to Olive Garden, and as of right now, I may just eat whatever I want, regardless of calories. That'll change by Friday...but that's the mood I'm in today. :hurray:
 
Date night is tonight...the husband and I are going to dinner together for the first time in SO long!! I'm so excited!! I also get to leave work early since I've got to work all day tomorrow, so I'll have time to get my workout in (since the lady didn't show up to open the place on time this morning), get a shower, dry my hair and get ready to drive 40+ miles to the restaurant in time to beat the big dinner crowd, maybe.

Olive Garden, here I come!! I've done online research and figured out what I can safely eat, and what's not so safe but would be an OK splurge since I literally haven't gone over my calories in months and months. I'm thinking five cheese ziti al forno...with one bread stick. Probably no salad, unless there's fat free dressing, though. We'll see...
 
Second update today...some thoughts...

Gosh...an hour 'til I'm outta here for the weekend, and it can't come soon enough!! I think I'm good to go, food-wise, through dinner tonight. Ziti here I come!! I had my normal banana and rice cake breakfast, then sat at my desk through a lunch of a peanut butter sandwich and a few pretzels. I also learned that packing a peanut butter sandwich in a ziploc baggie WITH said pretzels makes them nearly inedibly hard. Maybe not the absolute best choices I could make...but they could also be worse.

Moving on...

I've been sitting here thinking, once again, of moving my goal down to 150. I'm 1 pound from goal now, but feel like there's more I could lose. I keep telling people that, and they're getting worried that I'm "obsessed" with being thin now.

First...I'm not "thin." I'm 5'8 1/2 inches tall and weight about 160 pounds. That's not "thin" by any stretch of the imagination. In fact, my BMI is just barely in the Healthy range. I don't think I'm too thin, but I don't want people staging an intervention to "help" me stop losing weight or get over whatever disorder they think I have developed.

What do I do, at this point? I know I should make myself happy, and I don't think I'm happy with where I am just yet. Would I be happy with another 10 pounds? That depends on what changes with those pounds. There may be nothing that can be done about the remaining fat in my thighs, arms and belly area.

Let me also say that I now, finally, understand HOW someone can have an eating disorder. Every time, before, that I heard about some girl starving herself, exercising into oblivion while starving or throwing up after a meal, I always wondered WHY someone would do that to themselves. I asked myself HOW they couldn't see that they were already too thin, when everyone else could.

That last thought is what has me worried about losing another 10 pounds. What if I HAVE become one of those people with such a distorted body image that I can't tell that I'm thin enough as I am now? I don't notice a difference when I look in the mirror...I still see a big girl who could stand to lose some pounds. Am I becoming anorexic or bulemic or whatever? No...not unless my full eating plan has become a symptom these days.

Something to think about, I suppose. Hope anyone who reads this has a good weekend. Pray for me and my Olive Garden trip tonight!! I want to enjoy, but not overdo it!!
 
I don't think you're in danger of developing an eating disorder if you're looking forward to your olive garden trip and wanting to enjoy but not overdo...

Your head is in the right place...

Have you posted pics recently? you knowI will always behonest with you :D
 
I posted some a month or so ago, in the Before...during... thing. I've got the before photos and some afters, toward the end in the same thread....gotta find a link to it...

It's just getting harder to try to explain to people around here WHY I keep losing weight when they're all freaking out about how I'm "too skinny" or that I'm "gonna dry up and blow away." Just getting severely on my last nerve...
 
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