storm_knight's journal (because diarys are for girl =p)

Well I don't think I got the job. I interview really bad. I'll know more next week.

Worked out 40 minutes today. I haven't been hungry all day so I've taken in less then 1000 calories.

Tomorrow I get to weigh myself... lets hope for the best.
 
I lost 6lbs last week! I think I put it all back on yesterday too :cuss:

It was my off day so I had a couple pieces of veggie pizza, a piece of all meat pizza and a lot of beer and rum and cokes. I took in around 2100 calories. :leaving:
 
I'm having a really hard time sleeping the last couple of nights. There is a lot on my mind and I don't really have anyone to talk to about it...

And we all know what not sleeping and being stressed means... at least I know what it means for me.

It made me eat. I'm up to 1403 calories for today... well... kinda yesterday... but still today since I haven't gone to sleep. Whatever, you all understand.
 
Hey Storm!

Your diary doesn't need to be weight-loss related per se... everything that affects your life is part of your weightloss.. 2D sucks we want the 3 dimensional view.

A lot of the time your eating depends on how you handle everyday stress. So in my opinion it is beneficial to also focus more on getting your mind right, not just the physical habits. You sound like you've been doing great.

A tip: You say you haven't got a scale, h0ow about investing in a tape measure? Much more reliable to see your changes anyway!
 
:rant:

I finally got to sleep and laid in bed until almost 1...

I'm so stressed and... depressed... and lonely...

I've been out of work for a year and am having one hell of a time finding a new job. I'm getting sued for more money then I'll make in my lifetime by a guy I was in a car accident with THREE YEARS AGO. Some fucking ambulance chaser of a lawyer got to him so how he's claiming pain and suffering, loss of enjoyment of life, lost wages, future lost wages... all that stupid made up bullshit. Then there's the fact that if I see any couple right now, even on tv or in stupid internet pop ups I get depressed and lonely.

All of that shit really isn't helping me get motivated to work out.
 
See it from a different angle. Solitude can mean freedom, the freedom to change your life into what you want it to be now.

Sorry about the couples thing, I know how you feel. It does get easier, and you will always find someone else at some stage. Just focus on yourself right now.

That suing thing sucks, I've known a few people in situations like that, luckily you come out stronger on the other side, no matter the outcome.

Stay strong... all you have now is yourself, all the more reason to take care of yourself to the best of your ability.
 
I've been trying to take care of myself but it's pretty hard for me. I'm kinda tired of being by myself though you know? All my friends are out there having fun but I'm stuck at home due to my financial situation. Ohh well...

I got the MP3 player I won in the mail today so I was stoked. I spent the whole day adding meta data and embedding album art into the tracks. I did end up working out for 20 minutes once I realized that it was 11pm and I had been sitting at my computer fucking around with music stuff for almost 12 hours, lol.
 
Hey, cool for winning the player!

So what kind of job are you looking for? What line of work are you in?
 
I'm looking for customer service/call center jobs. Which are really hard to find right now because of the economy and all those jobs are being outsourced to freakin India. That's why I lost my last job.
 
I'm pissed... I didn't get that job for a bullshit reason. I bet the person who did get it is like the room mate of the HR manager or something...

Well with that pissing me off and two new video games that I won from the same website I got my Zune from coming in the mail today I'm totally not motivated to work out. I did a half hour earlier today before the mail and phone call came...
 
I know it's no use letting it get to me but all my life the way I deal with stress and problems is to shut down. It's one of the many things I'm working on fixing.
 
1124cals in.

40 minutes of aerobics. I might do another 20 before I got to bed. I've started ramping up my intensity since I'm not getting as tired or sore from working out.
 
That's awesome, I'm experiencin g the same thing... it's amazing! I love knowing I can go longer and harder coz I've been consistently working at it, woooohooo! Well done!
 
I ended up working out for an hour, not just 40 minutes. I'm still having trouble sleeping... as the time stamp on this post probably tells...

I found a digital scale on sale so I picked it up.
 
Hey, don't assume we're all where you're at... you made peefectly healthy midday post here in South Africa :)

Try get yourself some Melatonin pills from a pharmacy. Melatonin is the chemical that your body should release as it nears bed time. It is caused by a darkening in your surroundings... Therefore not much is released in the daylight hours.

It should be an over the counter supplement type thing. Anyway, much safer than sleeping pills, and more effective than counting sheep :p

Well done on the exercise!
 
I think all this work is really starting to pay off. I tried on a pair of pants I accidentally got a size too small a while ago and they are still a little tight but I can actually get into them and look good in them without looking like I'm trying to be a sausage. I also put on a shirt I haven't worn for a while and it's looser.
 
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