Starting over (and over and over)

Blancita said:
Hey Michele :). Did you and Dan manage to go shopping? That's funny that he was "olive oil happy" hehe.
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Hey there Blancita, so far we have talked ahead about meals the night before, and we make sure we take whatever it is we need out of the freezer and make sure we have what we need to make it. If we dont have all of the ingredients then we delegate who is getting what..I am working on a menu at the moment and we will give it a try. I am trying hard to release some control in the kitchen and get dan to help me. He wants to help... but I tend to try to do it all.
 
I feel lucky to have someone who is so willing to be part of the process, im not just thick around the middle, I tend to be thick between the ears too...lol. So..... No official shopping together, but we are setting a foundation.

Its a good thing, cuz I am really struggling with myself. I need to get moving with my exercise... that is one of the biggest reasons that i am not losing weight... *eating habits sway back and forth* but I KNOW for myself that my weight decreases so much quicker when im regularly active.. *im active for a bit and then take a leave of absence.... Bad Bad Bad!
 
He WANTS to help in the kitchen? Whatdya say about renting him out?

Yeah, I have both the same issues: saying bad things about my body constantly. Once in a while I say good things though. But we would never talk about someone the way we do about ourselves huh? And then I also will be really good about exercising then just stop bad bad bad. I end up doing about 6 months a year.. Before I would stop after doing several weeks and no weight loss, now maybe maybe maybe I will lose if I do exercise, so now I just need to hit that exercise more than twice a week! What type of exercise do you usually do?
 
Exercising regularly was the one thing that made me consistantly lose a healthy amount of weight. Unfortunately I have had health issues that got in the way of that every once in a while, and then it was hard to get back into it. I was doing boot camp 3 - 4 days a week, but I have old injury to my right ankle that was agrivated by it. I was having difficulty putting any weight on it **One of those catch 22's - If i exercise, I can't walk, but in order to heal the leg, i need to exercise.

At the moment, I am doing aqua fit...its what my doctor has said would be the safest form of exercise until I lose about 50 lbs. Hopefully then I can add other forms of cardio to the mix.

Im also going to try to do some yoga, to help stretch out my body. Im getting a lot of muscle discomfort and my friend who is a yoga instructer thought maybe she could help me figure out some positions that would work for my size and help open my range of motion. We just have to work out our schedule together.
 
Blancita, it is so true, I would never ever talk about a friend, or complete stranger for that matter, the way I talk about myself. It sucks that we feel the need to punish ourselves even though we are trying to change things.
 
That aqua fit sounds awesome! You remind me of Cerella with your exercise, boot camp and yoga and all that hehe. Sounds like good advice your doctor gave you. I'm afraid I'll have to eat a lot more to get the energy to do exercise, but I know its best and will get more into it soon. I have a nice elliptical machine so I try to at least get a bit of that in, plus I walk at least a mile a day just getting around my city. But weights used to really keep me in good shape. Take care :).
 
Ankebuzz said:
Hello there!

Yep, isn't it strange the way we self-sabotage (just when we start succeeding, in my experience)

I'm still trying to figure out my exact reasons for the sabotaging, and mostly I've come up with:

- I have never been slender, what makes me think I can really do it?

- I have failed so many times, it's just a matter of time before I give up again anyway.

- I don't like the creepy stares I get and sometimes feel unsafe when I'm at a more "attractive" weight.

- Things are going really well, I'm finding it easier to live healthily and follow my goals... something MUST GO WRONG... aaaah, can't handle the suspense, I'll just stuff it up myself!
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F*** ME!!!! If that's not my mental processes all over!!!!! :smash:

So good to know somebody else understands... :)
 
Btw, sorry Michelle, and hi! :seeya: I've just been walking through your diary and I think you're a strong woman! It sounds like you'll reach your goal to be healthy and enjoy doing it. :) I wish you the best of success and I also want to say that I LOVE all your delicious recipe ideas!! :drool5: (I never thought of stuffing vegies with fetta cheese... what a great idea, thank you!).

Take care hon. :D
 
Shinsplint said:
Btw, sorry Michelle, and hi! :seeya: I've just been walking through your diary and I think you're a strong woman! It sounds like you'll reach your goal to be healthy and enjoy doing it. :) I wish you the best of success and I also want to say that I LOVE all your delicious recipe ideas!! :drool5: (I never thought of stuffing vegies with fetta cheese... what a great idea, thank you!).

Take care hon. :D
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lol...hi Shinsplint, thanks so much, I appreciated you saying hi and of course for your support. :)
 
So, I've been look around my house and it is a mess. Nothingis where it should be, my art is organized, my kitchen is better, because dan cleaned it last night. Auuuuuurrrrrrgggggg *except for Dan, that was a yay! lol*

I am learning more and more that I do not function well in mess. I don't feel inspired to cook for myself with good choices. I don't end up doing my hobbies and I don't feel like exercising because I have too much to do at home. **All a big fat excuse, I know**

So, last night I spent a bunch of time organizing my beading materials and stuff, and other hobbies and today im catching up on laundry. I am trying to make my surroundings relaxing comfortable and all about functionality.

I don't want to be a mess and part of that is where I live. Having two jobs, and weird hours makes it harder, but I have just been a bit lazy about it.

 
brazenlysasse said:
So, I've been look around my house and it is a mess. Nothingis where it should be, my art is organized, my kitchen is better, because dan cleaned it last night. Auuuuuurrrrrrgggggg *except for Dan, that was a yay! lol*

I am learning more and more that I do not function well in mess. I don't feel inspired to cook for myself with good choices. I don't end up doing my hobbies and I don't feel like exercising because I have too much to do at home. **All a big fat excuse, I know**

So, last night I spent a bunch of time organizing my beading materials and stuff, and other hobbies and today im catching up on laundry. I am trying to make my surroundings relaxing comfortable and all about functionality.

I don't want to be a mess and part of that is where I live. Having two jobs, and weird hours makes it harder, but I have just been a bit lazy about it.
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Hello Michelle, I hear ya ;)

When my place isn't tidy or organized I can't think straight.

I needed to come by and get some fabulous cooking styles and techniques, I haven't done the buffalo stuffed peppers yet. But I think I am very close now! I can feel it, I am just without the peppers. :p

My new thing, is Ketchup and Ground Turkey on the fryin pan. Gawd I sound like a Hill Billy. I do happen to have a gap in my teeth too. :D

What kind of beading are you into?
 
RunningGirl said:
Hello Michelle, I hear ya ;)

When my place isn't tidy or organized I can't think straight.

I needed to come by and get some fabulous cooking styles and techniques, I haven't done the buffalo stuffed peppers yet. But I think I am very close now! I can feel it, I am just without the peppers. :p

My new thing, is Ketchup and Ground Turkey on the fryin pan. Gawd I sound like a Hill Billy. I do happen to have a gap in my teeth too. :D

What kind of beading are you into?
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I used to put ketchup on everything...was thought it was kinda tasty...lots of sugar in it though, kinda slowed down due to my diabetes.

I love making bracelets and necklaces from beads that i buy all over the place. I love glass, natural stone and crystals. Every time Dan and I travel I hit all the local craft stores to see what treasures i can find. I have just started making my own clay ones and am looking into taking a glass bead making class. I am by NO means a professional but I do enjoy it. Now I just need to get it all organized so that I can actually work on it... lol I need a clone or two.
 
HA HA HA Cute Pic:)

That one is a keeper!!!

Maybe it should be my flower for my other arm piece...that is my kinda flower:D:D:D!!!

Im actually kinda serious...Now it is in my head and im totally thinking abt it...
It would be a cool tatty!!!

The skull is suttle, oh damn girl your gonna get me into so much trouble...I think I want it as a taty on my other arm...

It made me chuckle, thanx!
 
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