SoSel's Diary

Day 4 of no smoking. It's weird. Sometimes I have this voice in the back of my head doubting my reasons to quit. And sometimes it's the most natural thing in the world. Like I haven't smoked in my life. I try not to think about it.

Yesterday's Food (No Exercise Sunday)

BF- (ok, I admit, I ate a lot b/c I have to if I want to make it through a church service without checking my watch!) 2 muffins, 4 slices turkey bacon, egg with cheese
L- Healthy Choice meal
S- banana, 100 cal snack pack
D- 2 burgers (home made) w/onions, worsch sauce, and bbq sauce, 1 slice of cheese, tater tots (no veggie, for this I am ashamed)
BS- Slim-a-Bear klondike bar

I did manage to eat less yesterday. WHEW! I thought not smoking was gonna have me piggin' out with no end in sight. The urge to eat eat eat! has chilled out some. I'm trying to put a psychological ban on it. I have come so far in life and done so many things that I feel that is nothing in comparison. If you only knew my story...
 
So yesterday was a rough day. I felt miserable and grumpy. I had an all-day headache. My kids just wouldn't listen to me. It was bad... I didn't do a good job at controlling what I ate or being carefull about portions. I didn't exercise because my head was throbbing and my nerves were shot. I dunno if it was not smoking or what, b/c for once it was NOT pms. ::shakes head:: Wasn't much of a holiday. I can tell you that!

Food Log for 1-15

BF- organic whole wheat waffles (2), sugar-free syrup, banana
L- Healthy Choice meal
S- Slim-a-Bear ice cream sandwich, ruffles light chips, light yogurt
D- shake-n-bake chicken (skinless), green bean casserole (no salt added green beans, 98% fat free cream mushroom soup, skim milk, fried onions)
BS- banana pudding (pre-made graham crust, 2 bananas, sugar and fat free vanilla pudding, skim milk)

EX- I didn't. I felt crappy. I am so ashamed!

I have high hopes for a better day. I am going to do what I can in my power to get the day started right, and keep it on a good path. I'll be going on my morning walk soon. That usually gets my day headed in the right direction. If you have any suggestions, let me know!
 
Relax. It was probaly the kids being home all that time and not listening to you. My kids do it to me sometimes. Just take a deep breath and go on your walk and have a great day!:)
 
Well your children are like no not smoking...you just need to find a way to deal wiht it nad try to not let it effect you, LOL...or find an effective way to deal with it or them...I was having that kinda day on Sunday, my kids were outta control and not listening, I should start threatin with the super nanny...LOL...Anyway im not sure how much it means but you are doing well in my books, splurging a bit isnt gonna do to much damage and you are still trying to do what it takes to get past smoking...take a minute nad pat yourself on the back...
 
I don't have much in the way of suggestions other than to move on from it. I had a bad day yesterday myself, but am moving on today. What other choice do we have? We will never get where we want to go if we worry too much about where we have already been, right?

Also wanted to pat you on the back for quiting the smoking! My husband has been a smoker for 15 or so years and on top of that he has also dipped snuff that same amount of time. He just quit the snuff, it's been 2 weeks now. He is getting ready to quit the smoking. Quiting the snuff was hard because there is so much nicotin in that mess. What made it a little easier for him was that he was still smoking, now that he is getting ready to quit that he is getting nervous.
My point to all that rambling was to just say Way to Go! I have an idea of how hard it is because I see my husband going through it.

You're doing an awesome thing! Keep it up!
 
This is your fifth day not smoking right? *Applause!*

It must seem like this is taking such a long time, but it's quite possible that the symptoms will start to ease off any day now. You have been very strong about this. You are doing so much to get your health back. You have had some bad moments with your eating, but you are still here. It is prolonging the lapses that is most deadly. You are clearly keeping your goals in mind.

Feeling ill and having awkward moments with your children can be a vicious circle can't it? Hang in there. Continuing is bringing you a massive payoff for this effort.
 
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Food Log 1-16

BF- mini bagel, 1/2 banana, cream cheese
L- orange, carrot chips, dressing, burger (from other night), chips
S- skipped to splurge on dinner
D- thin crust pizza (store bought, cooked at home), spinach salad with extra carrots, lite italian dressing
BS- nana pudding (from other night)

EX- 45 minute walk & 25 sit-ups


I did slightly better attitude-wise yesterday. I'm under enough pressure from my hubby being gone for a month (although part of me is glad) and my car making a funny sound, that not smoking isn't helping. Yet... it is. I can feel accomplished and know I did something great. I had a little fun trying on some clothes yesterday that didn't fit, but do now! That's the best part of what I'm doing. It's not seeing the numbers change on the scale (that rocks! but it's also unpredictable), it's seeing the difference in my body. What I want more than anything is to be a size 14 for summer. I wear some 16's now. 18 is kinda big, but not always. My chubby belly from having kids is the problem. I've been focusing on ab tightening exercises. I really want to ditch the 1x bathing suits and buy something from Old Navy or Target that's cute! I have a few months. I really wanted to be a size 14 by April. Notice how that's not a goal weight. Goal weights are great, I want to weigh under 190 by the end of Feb, but it's not the fairest way to measure accomplishments.

I've babbled on long enough. You poor, dear readers. ;)
 
Happy to read about your achievements SoSel! I'm glad you can actually see the difference you've made already. You are doing a wonderful job in working towards being a healthier person and happier woman. Forward ho!! :D

(As for babbling on...you should see my diary posts! :eek: LOL)
 
Cool on seeing those body changes. You are doing a great job! To try to lose weight and quit smoking at the same time is a big goal and you are doing it!!!:)
 
Just took some measurements so I can re-measure and see improvements. Or so I hope! I just found out that my hubby and I have the same waist size. It looks better on him being taller, though. LOL! :D Curves helped me come up with my goal measurements and I'm going to track what I want to lose. And tell y'all how it's coming along.

Current Size/ Goal/ Target Loss in Inches!
42.5 bust/ 40 / 2.5
38 waist/ 32 / 6
46 hips/ 43/ 3

I forgot where to measure my abs. Anyway, I got a good bit to do. All in all, in a year I managed to lose 1/2" from my waist and 2 3/4" from my hips and kept it off.

In other news, I bought this dance solutions for abs video today. I was horrible! I apparently have NO natural rhythym. Most people could master those simple steps no prob. Not me. I'm going to do it once a week atleast. I'd love to one day do it with grace. I really felt like I was Frankenstein's monster. Was that lunge or lurch? Doesn't matter, I can't lunge and swings my arms at the same time anyway. Lurch two three four, Left lurch two three four.

I love buying the work-out DVDs. I have dance and pilates so far. I can't do kick-boxing or yoga b/c my knees are messed up. If anyone knows something else I can do, lemme know. It's actually getting cold here in SC and I can't take my baby boy on walks in the cold. Us Southeners are not used to weather under 60 degrees and get sick if we stay outside in it too long.
 
Food Log for 1/17

Bf- 2 slices whole wheat bread toasted
2 tbsp sugar-free preserves
1 cup lite yogurt
1/2 banana
L- chick-fil-a chicken sandwhich (original, the kind w/a bun and 3 pickles)
coleslaw
waffle fries
S- skipped b/c of the splurge
D- Mexican meatloaf (turkey meat, tortilla chips, taco seasoning, green peppers, onions, tomato sauce)

EX-20 mins of a dance dvd
30 mins of free dance with my kids, involving a lot of stretching
 
Sounds like your doing well and for hte record Ihave no natural movement either...I love Richard Simmons videos, it is silly and crazzzy and you cant really do any of his moves wrong, LOL...keep up the good work...sorry to hear abt the car and stresses...important thing is you arent giving in...
 
Way to go SoSel. It's good that you got yourself a video. At least that way you get to practice the same routine until you have a good idea of it. (Long ago) I joined in a few aerobics classes, and also tried joining in with TV aerobics show - but they are different every day!! I reckon a DVD would give us more of a chance.

You sound like you have moved on a bit again - food looks good - active day. You sure are making progress every day. :D
 
I have not smoked since a week ago today. I had my last cigarette last Thursday at 3:00. A week. ::shrugs:: It sucked, but it's over now! For the record, I dropped the habit in 11 days.

So on to other changes in life. Has anyone noticed after working out for a while that you feel muscles in the strangest places? When I go to stand up and my hands brush the front of my thighs, I feel the strongest muscles there. Or when I go to heft my son out of the car or his booster seat, I feel my arms flex, but not with strain. I find it so encouraging! I've always had a motto.

"I may never be a skinny girl, but d-mn if I won't be strong woman!"

It's important to me. It kept me going when my body became pathetic and weak and my husband was thinking of suing for malpractice in the case of epidurals gone bad. But I overcame it. I knew I could. If I had not gone to Curves, I probably would not be where I am now. If I had sued the hospital instead of taking life into my own hands, I would not be here. I do not regret my decision.

Food Log for Today

BF- 2 pieces whole wheat toast, sugar-free preserves, lite yogurt with fruit
L- Healthy Choice chicken, rice, brocolli, and peach dessert
AS- peanut butter (regular), SF preserves, 2 pieces whole wheat bread & Slim-a-Bear ice cream sandwhich
D- 2 muffins, 3 slices turkey bacon, 1.5 eggs with cheese

Might have a snack before bed. I am a little hungry. Ugh. Some say it's bad, some say it's good to have a bedtime snack. I have one if I feel I need for it and don't follow the debate lines. :D I'm too busy for that! To each his own..
 
I know what you mean about noticing muscles where you hadn't before. I put my arm on a table and leaned on it to reach something the other day, and reached up to scrach my arm and there was soem definition under the flab! LOL
 
My flab is too solid for me to poke through to the muscles, but I can feel them getting tighter underneath. It's a good feeling!! :)

SoSel, did you have an epidural that left you physically incapacitated and needing rehab? Medical mistakes are a hard thing to deal with. I have a little experience of that myself.

What you have done for your health so far, is soooo good. :) The difficulties you've already faced will be great to look back on.
 
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