SoSel's Diary

SoSel

SoSel

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I'm not in the least bit nervous about starting this journey again. I have lost and gained weight my entire life. I just never had this much to lose! Being pregnant and unhealthy kick-started my severe weight gain and physical problems about 6 years ago. I want my body, confidence, and health back!

I am taking the questions literally as a starting point. Otherwise, I do not know how to undertake the task of a diary online. I am really looking foward to all challenges, though, as I broaden my mind and lessen my hips!

-- How much weight do you want to lose? I would like to lose to a healthy weight. I am thinking of 140 (a loss of 60 more lbs!) as an ultimate goal, because I was there in high school.

-- What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight? I would like to have the weight off by the time I graduate college in two years.

-- How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)? What I would like to see myself do is become more physically active. I have been in an exercise rut because I can not run, jog, or do anything jarring to my knees. I need to find a way to keep up the pace, and have fun. I am also very into learning to eat better for health reasons personally, and to give my children a better chance.

-- Who or what can support you in reaching your goal? I do not have much in the way of family or friend support. No one feels like pushing me in the right direction. It's frustrating how much they let me get away with! I am here now, thinking that maybe this will be the motivation and support that I truly need.

-- How realistic is your goal? Truth is, I think I really might be able to do it!

-- When will you start? Technically, I started on Dec. 29, 2006. Not much time has passed, but I am confident that each day brings me closer to a goal. I've drank so much water over the past few days that I can tell my feet are not as swollen!

For tonight, I think that will be all. I hope that everyone has an amazingly rewarding New Year!
 
Hi Sosel, Welcome aboard! It's great to hear your determined!! Keep that thought process going that is your power! Look after you, and show the world how gorgous you really are!! You will get there in no time!
If there is any advice I can give it would be to steer clear of all foods that are packaged as much as humanly possible - they contain things that totally screw up our bodies, also get plenty of fresh vgetables and a couple a peices of fruit a day with lean meats - try to have a protein with every meal and cut out your starchy carbs and sugar. Oh and keep drinking heaps of water every day - the more your drink the more you shrink! - I do about 2.5 - 3 litres a day and the results over the last 3 months have been nothing short of astonishing! I've lost over 39lbs in just over 3 months!! And I havn't even started exercising yet!! Not until I reach goal weight! You CAN do this and your will look and feel amazing and so proud of yourself!!
Good Luck and I look forward to following your journey! :)
 
Thanks!

I love this place! It's like instant over-night and everyday support! :D

I had a bit of a rough night last night, and I blew my "diet" down at the Huddle House about 2 in the morning. I perk up at the thought of that, though. See, I don't chose to "diet", I chose to change. And everyone knows that the holidays are a time of over-eating in excitement. I won't be resentful and hold myself to that slip-up. Anyone else know what I mean? Backsliding in Day 3 of changing isn't a felony. I'm simply human.

Now, I would like to take a second to explain my little Tinker thing. I did come in here and join yesterday weighing an amazingly stable 200 lbs. However, I did not set my Tinker at that weight. I put it at 215 to remind myself of the lowest point in my life and the highest point in my weight. How I have been able to keep those 15 lbs off astounds me. I cried the first time the scale dipped back under 200 (last summer, that was). I will never forget that. Yet, I get to the point of being over 200, change and get on track, and I'm back on the slide again. I lose weight, feel good, treat myself, and somehow just never stop treating myself until the cycle renews.

I have a few questions if someone would be so kind as to answer them. Or a lot of someones. :D I love asking questions!

1. How often should I weigh myself? I am not addicted to the scale (thank goodness!), but I know I should keep a check.

2. Does anyone have tips on how to keep bananas fresher longer? (other than peeling them and putting them in baggies in the freezer. Nana Pops... yum!)

That's all I can think of for now. Thank you one and all.

Mrs. SoSel
 
The Sun Is Shining Through The Clouds =)

A fresh day, a fresh start!

I finally got a full night's rest last night, and after I post this, I am going for a walk. I really enjoy walking. This neighborhood is great for it because it is not a flat surface. It dips up and down, so I know I am using all these muscle groups that I don't use just being a housewife. Not that I sit on my bum all day. I have a 3 yr old to control and a 5 yr old to keep pacified (she's 5 going on 15). Walking is the only way I get that good rush that lasts and lasts. My 30 minute ab work-out video doesn't make me feel as good!

After the walk, it's off to the store for some fresh fruits and veggies. I eat fruit with breakfast and an afternoon snack. I eat veggies with lunch and dinner. Between my children and I, there are a few apples left in the fridge and some onions and sweet potatoes. Time to fetch more! I don't really like veggies. It's something I have to learn to eat. (I was never made to growing up.) I know that I have to. And I do. But sometimes I want to gag like I did when I was younger. Well, it's true!

Is it mandatory to use your diary to record the kind of food you are eating? I notice that seems the way to do it. I thought it'd be cool to just talk about how I feel and what I'm up to. ::shrugs::

Until next time... Yours, SoSel
 
Hi SoSel

Great start to your diary! :)

I don't know about how to keep banana's fresher. I know that the skins produce a gas that stimulates ripening - both in the bananas and other fruit. I wonder if wrapping each one separately would help?

I don't think there's any obligation to post your food. It's just helpful. It can be helpful because:
- it makes you more aware of what you're eating
- it makes it easier to look back at what you've done and work out what impact various foods may be having on you
- it might make it easier for other people to give you insightful support
- once you have the habit of writing it down, that can help you stick with the plans you've made. I know it has given me a little extra strength at times to think about how I might feel like eating something - but DON'T want to write it in my diary!

Well, that's what I've found. However we all have our own ways of achieving our goals. I'll be checking out your diary regardless. :)
 
Hi :D I love your name...starting a diary and being here is the best thing you can do...this place is a great source of info, motivation and support...welcome aboard:D:D:D
 
Nobody has answered your question yet about how often you should weigh. Really, that's up to you, but most seem to think that if you do it once a week, on the same day at the same time of day, you get the satisfaction of seeing a more dramatic difference than if you do it every day. Also, your weight will fluctuate from day to day, so weekly, at least for me, is a more accurate way to do it.
 
Coffee and A Smile

Ah yes, good morning this morning. :D I'm feeling better than I have in a while. I've been sick for a month, and I feel it starting to break up. My husband gently reminded me that exercise would help me to feel better and he was right! Deep down inside I knew that! ::shakes head:: This is why we, as humans, need to interact. Sometimes we miss the simple things because we are so wrapped up in everything else.

I'm not really doing a strict diet, but sticking more to watching what I eat, and making sure I eat. I make sure I get my fruit and veggies in daily. I make sure I get my breakfast too. That's hard for me to do. Taking care of my kids, I get so busy that I sometimes forget to eat. The plan is to watch what I'm eating and cut back in sugar. Then I'm going to start eating more like my parents do. My Dad is diabetic and he's made up a lot of recipes for yummy dishes that are healthy. I'm not diabetic, by some small miracle, but I know that I could easily become. I also have a friend who is all into organic foods, and she gives me hints.

Unfortunately, my friends and family are not actively supportive. Otherwise, I'd be my goal weight by now! But they are my inspiration. And something led me to this place. I really want to help and be helped. It's in my nature to help. :)

Mrs. SoSel
 
While I was walking, I realized that there are some more things that I would like to add into my diary.

1. I would like to quit smoking, and plan to do so this month. I have, maybe, 3 or 4 packs of smokes left out of this carton I have, and I would love for them to be my last! I'm not worried about gaining weight all the sudden b/c of quitting. I doubt that it suppressed my appetite to begin with. If anyone out there reading this has quit, or would like to with me, please let me know!

2. My goal for this month, or my sacrifice, is fast-food. I plan to introduce a new vice each month to squash. And, although smoking is one I'm working on too, I don't really count it. Smoking is a habit I've been trying to kick for years.

Ok, my head feels more clear now. :D
 
You sound well on your way with having it together and you have a plan, great job...I weigh in daily to keep myself in check in weight in once a week offically...it is really up too you...Have a happy healthy day!!!
 
checking in

Dinner last night was tuna helper and green beans. Not to healthy, eh? Should have made tuna sald with light mayo on wheat bread. The sodium in that tuna helper stuff isn't good! Sometimes it's hard to know what to make to feed three people (me and my children). I'm making it a point to look into recipes today. I think there are some listed on this website. I need to get groceries anyway.

In good news, for breakfast I am having half a bagel, lite yogurt, and a small apple. Then I'll wait a little bit and go for my walk. I'm starting to get sore from all the up-and-down walking through this neighborhood. It started in my calves (better now) and now the soreness is in my upper thighs. Yeah! It means I'm using something. :D The only problem I have with walking is when I have to take my son in the stroller. I can't move as fast as I do when it's just me. Still, I figure that doing something is what really matters. I'll be out of the gym for a month because I can not find anyone to watch my son. I'm dissapointed, but I can deal.

Besides, my favorite silly exercise is one I do with my kids. We dance. We have this station for "all the new hits," and it belts out some pretty cool dance tunes for us. If that doesn't work, I pop in Linkin Park's Renanimation. We spend about 30 minutes getting all good and sweaty and laughing. I'm starting to feel it in my abs when I dance. The kids get a good little work-out that's hidden behind fun and me too. I'm sure their Dad would laugh himself to death if he saw us, so it's our little secret. ;)

Oh, and I wanted to keep this a secret, but I'm a blabbermouth. I stepped on the scale yesterday and it dipped below 200. How much I don't know because I jumped off in a hurry. I was excited, but not wanting to know until it's time to weigh myself again. I just saw the scale sitting there and had to, you know, try it. I'll give myself until next Monday. :p We'll see!
 
That is great!!! You are doing so well - walking, dancing, finding new recipes.

It's so good that you are making your children a part of this instead of them being the insurmountable (seeming) hurdle that stops you from exercising.

*whisperwhisper200lbs!!!whoot!whisperwhisper* :D
 
Yes I have that problem too, ie dinner nad feeding the kids and I stopped eating certain and so have the kids but they still eat somethihgs I dont, I need to actually cook more, more healthier food, more from strach...as for the dancing good for you...My youngest does Yoga, Pilates and Tae Bo with me...it is great...your journey is going well so far...keep it up :):):)
 
I think I might have a trend going. I seem to post in my diary while eating breakfast. I suppose that's good in two ways, I'm writing and eating.

My 3 yr old son and I are having the same breakfast. Small apple, half bagel, and lite yogurt. (He has the kid yogurt, but with reduced sugar.) He so neatly fits into my bagel-splitting days. :) Lunch and dinner are still hard on me. Normally for lunch I eat a Healthy Choice or Smart Ones or whatever frozen diet meal I can find inexpensive and looks decent. Which is what I did yesterday. I am all about having a cooked meal for dinner, though. Yesterday I made shepard's pie. I make it with a layer of mashed potatoes, layer of veggies, layer of meat, 'nother layer of mashed taters, and cheese. To make it healthier, I skip the second layer of mashed potatoes, use turkey meat instead of hamburger, and use fresh frozen veggies instead of canned. My daughter and I loved it.

Sometime last night, right before sleep took me away, I asked myself why I was doing this. Or, really, it seemed like some other voice did. My mind flashed the automatic responses. The beach trip in a few months, this desire to look sexy, this just WANT to be skinny like everyone else. I dream of myself as a skinny person. I'm never who I really am. And I'm not fully satisfied with my reasons. There are a million greater good reasons to lose weight, especially regarding long-term health. But what is really wrong is simple and stunning.

I don't really like myself.

And, it is on that note that I close this entry for the day. I really have a lot of work to do. And if I think that being a size 10 is going to change things, then I can think again.
 
Hi - well if you really dont like yourself - then this journey will work with you on changing...I find personally when I loose weight it changes me, makes me feel better abt myself, brings back more of my confidence and self esteem...everyone does this for different reasons, loosing weight wont be your solution - if you dont liek yourself you will need to work on that as well...

Question for ya - Why dont you like yourself...
 
Well that was one very interesting journal entry. cinderelly is right - less weight and more exercise will make you feel good and make you feel better about yourself also.

Of course I don't really know what your underlying issues are. I was surprised by what you said though - because I like you already. :)
 
I'm looking into that whole comment about not liking myself, and I came up with several very good reasons. (Yeah, I know, it's me writing about me, but sometimes I don't get my motives.)

1. I'm in a marriage that is crumbling, we both know it, and we're both watching it fail. Why? Because I am tired of playing Atlas and fixing everything. And he's totally apathetic.

2. I feel totally unachieved at this point in my life. I did graduate high school, so McD's would hire me, but I have yet to finish college. I can make a little above minimum wage, but what kind of a future is that? I totally love going to college, and I can make the grades... It's just taking awhile.

3. I get so run-down. I'm a mother of two and every mommy knows it can be a thankless job. (It should not have to be.) I work around the house all day, and my hubby comes home demanding to know what I did. I'm thinking "Look around, the house is standing, dinner is made, and your kids are still breathing.... You're welcome."

4. I move all the time, and I don't have many close friends. I have no one to call up and say "Hey, my life sucks. Let's bitch about it." 'Cuz if I had someone like that, I'd get over my problems quicker.

So maybe I'm not the problem. It's just crappy circumstances. I do try to make the best of things. I have to. And I'm not totally friendless, but I do lack a female best friend. Just that someone to talk to. Instead of posting messages in here. Ah, loneliness. :(
 
Tired, frustrated, unappreciated, isolated. I do relate. I found things very hard while my children were small. My kids are that bit older now. My husband and I have got it together a HEAP better. I reckon there should be internet forums for the mums of young kids. There should be free babysitting to allow more venting!!! :D

This weight and fitness journey you've started will help a lot. Look forward to more joy!! (True - it's coming!) :)
 
Let's see, let's see... what did I eat and do yesterday?

BF- 1/2 bagel, lite yogurt, small apple, coffee with creamer and Splenda
L- Healthy Choice Panini, Sunchips and Pretzels, orange
S- small bowl cereal and milk (could have done better, I know)
D- spaghetti, green leafy salad (not lettuce-spinach and stuff), fat-free italian dressing, sunflower seeds, one piece of garlic toast (vs. my usual 2!)
BS- 2 sugar-free, made with Splenda, cookies

I went for my usual just-under-a-mile walk. I chose to go the steep route, and my muscles aren't screaming this morning! :D Can't say that I really exercised more than that. I need to plan an afternoon something, even if I dance, since I always walk in the morning. I'll get to work on that today.

My sinus infection is still hanging on, but it doesn't bother me so badly anymore. I have been getting enough good sleep to make me feel human again. I'm also pleased with myself for getting out there and walking, eating better, and eating fresh. I love applesauce, but I had to push myself to eat a real apple. Same goes with orange juice and oranges. I used to buy fruits and veggies and let them go to waste. Veggies I'm more clever about and I sneak them into meals. But fresh would be better. So much to learn!

The whole quitting smoking thing is a struggle, but I did good yesterday. I tell myself to wait before I have that next one. I'll wait 30 min, then say another 30, and another. I think the longest I went yesterday without a smoke was 2 1/2 hours. It may not sound like much yet, but when it's always on your mind, it's hard not to smoke. I chewed gum, read a book, bribed myself ("If you go out and smoke, then you can't do this..."), and worked to keep my mind somewhere else. Who knows? This might actually work. I have no idea what else to do.
 
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